BOOKS BY ANANTA Welcome to Satsang with Ananta

Very beautiful report, very beautiful report. And I know the Satguru’s grace is shining through you. It’s very beautiful. Don’t be worried, don’t be concerned about any of this. Just accept every moment as it is coming and you will find this beautiful movie is playing out for your enjoyment. Enjoy the movie and never get attached to it; never get attached to whatever is unfolding. All is good, all is good.

Q: “I love you so much.”

I love you too.

Q: “Thank You so.”

The smiling axeman. [Laughs] [She had called him, referring to chopping the ego.]

Q: “The smiling axeman.” [Laughs]

This smile is like an invitation. ‘Come, come, come…’ and chop!’ It’s not planned.

Q: “It’s so true. It’s beautiful. It’s all Grace. Bring it on.”

Bring it on. She said something earlier which was very beautiful also. She said that ‘I am very grateful because you have taken everything away’. Very grateful because you have taken everything away.

Usually in life, when we go from place to place, we want things. We want more and more. And yet you come to satsang and everything seems to be taken away, everything seems to be just washed out of you. And this, you realise then that this is what you have been looking for; not to gather more and more but for it to be washed away from inside you. So whatever might be happening outside, you find that inside everything is getting cleaned out. All these sneaky attachments, all this sense of ‘I know something’, all the sense of specialness, all the sense of false humility, all these things get cleaned up, cleaned up on its own.

On its own, Grace is flowing like this. The body of the Guru is as much an instrument as what is happening with you. Everything is working beautifully in this play. Nobody here knows anything. Because it is not about knowing intellectually, but it is knowing in your Heart that this one, this Satguru who dwells here, nothing can go wrong in its Presence. All is auspicious and all is Grace.

And many of you have been having these. Some of you have been having a slow clean-up, and suddenly one quick wash. So these things are coming for many of you. Because you been in satsang, also it can come sometimes. And it can come suddenly. And what the ego feels is the opportunity to trap you actually becomes the biggest release. It feels like ‘Okay, now I am isolated so I can work on this one and try to get her back’. And actually that becomes itself the biggest release, because now you have seen yourself for what you really are so you can never really accept ‘the person’.

So once you had got the glimpse of yourself, once you have seen yourself even instantaneously, then you can never completely accept that you could just be ‘a person’. So all the tricks of the mind, all these energies moving in concert sometimes are now all getting released. And somehow it seems like, for many of us, our Being has given a refuge to all sorts of energies, it has given refuge or it has found something. These energies have found place. And then, like I told to Palak earlier, ‘Not one blade of grass will stay. All of this will also get released. It’s just the washing machine of satsang’. So let it all get rinsed out. It is wash cycle, rinse cycle and spin dry; all this happens. So let it all happen. It’s all good. All is auspiciousness in the Presence of Satguru, and Satguru is always in your Heart.

Whatever ‘personhood’ might still remain for any of you, let that ‘person’ be in the refuge of your Heart. Let that ‘person’ be in refuge of the Satguru in your Heart. As I was telling Satsanga also yesterday that: ‘If there is a sense of ‘personhood’, let that ‘person’ be bowed down at the feet of the Satguru. Let them use the Satguru as an armor’. And if there is no ‘person’ there is no question of any separation anyway, there is no question of fear anyway.

Q: Today has been a weepy day. I put everything that there is in this fire of satsang to be burnt away. Thank you, Father and Sangha.

You know, actually when I hear things like this, it’s like God is saying that ‘I am having a weepy day’. So although I hear it, I cannot find myself to ever believe in it. So if these things are happening and something still gets your belief, use that, use that for your inquiry. Don’t miss this opportunity. What needs to be seen in all of these situations, see it now. Don’t avoid any of it, don’t run from any of it. It’s like life is showing you something and it will keep showing you this till you stop resisting it. So whatever it might be, you say ‘Bring it on!’ Not with a sense of arrogance, just with a simplicity, with a sense of wonder. ‘Let’s see what else you have to throw at me’. And for some of you it is trying everything.

I was reading a very funny exchange. Sorry, not funny for you maybe, but it was funny for me when I was reading. So yesterday it was hailing here in Bangalore. So Anandi left her window open and some water came in through the window and it sort of just drenched her computer and it stopped working. Isn’t it? Then someone suggested, someone in our sangha suggested that ‘Why don’t you use a hairdryer to dry it off?’ And seemed like a great idea, but then her hairdryer has a different specifications because it’s an American hairdryer. So she plugged it in and blew the socket also. So I don’t know if the hairdryer also survived to save the computer.

So when we make the prayer ‘Bring it on!’ then we must be prepared for that prayer to be answered. We must be prepared that it can really bring it on. You cannot use the prayer ‘Bring it on!’ as a sort of a reverse psychology, like we do with our kids sometimes; that if I say ‘Bring it on!’ then life will stop troubling us. If you are doing it like that then it will keep testing. If you don’t have that intent, you might still get tested in this way. And the mind comes and says ‘Oh see, you said…, you made this prayer and maybe you weren’t ready’. All this rubbish. But it’s just another opportunity for us to see that ‘I am completely untouched by any of these events, any of these appearances’. Isn’t it?

Q: [Inaudible]

I remember once; my dear friend use to work with me. And one day what happened is that she left her computer in the car, in the backseat and her driver was there in the front. So what she did was she left and the driver was on the phone, and what happened is somebody opened the door behind and the driver didn’t even notice, it seems. And these thieves just picked up the computed and ran away. And she used to be working with me at that time, so the computer belonged to the office, it belonged to me at that time. So she came in and she is sharing and sharing and I am saying ‘It’s okay, it’s okay, it’s all good’. So she says ‘I don’t want to hear that. I want you to hear you angry with me. I want you to get upset and get angry and say why? …, how could you be so careless?’ But I just couldn’t. It’s just another nothing. It’s just another nothing. It doesn’t mean that I will always play like that, it could be another way also. But this reaction was very funny to me when I heard it that time; ‘I don’t want to hear it’s okay. Tell me it’s not, and I should have been more careful and how you are angry with me for losing your computer’. But it’s just nothing.

So you can come to the conclusion that it’s nothing very quickly. And sometimes you come to the conclusion after sometime, but eventually you will come to this conclusion. Even if you don’t come this conclusion by death, then death will show you this conclusion. Which phenomena, which attachment will survive your death? Everything must turn to dust eventually; even dust returns to dust.

So find out; when something seems strong, find out ‘Who is the ‘me’ at the root of it? Who is the ‘me’? Who is victim at the root of it? Who is all of this happening to?’

In this way, then you use these opportunities. You stop looking at them as a test also. Although sometimes I also say that it is a test, actually you will start looking at them as opportunities. These are the opportunities in which your life has to live up to. What is your mouth saying? Otherwise the mouth can say very beautiful things. But these are the opportunities in which you can check if it is authentic, what the mouth is saying.

It’s very beautiful. So we all enjoyed watching Guruji’s video, Moojiji’s video, where it’s all nothing, nothing, nothing. So he says ‘It’s all nothing, nothing, nothing!’ And everything around us turns to nothing, nothing, nothing. So we still say that.

So this is like what I say: This is when spirituality hits the road, when the rubber really hits the road. That’s when it is important.

Q: Namaste, Father. I would like to get ‘chopped’ completely. That’s why I’m here at your holy feet.

Show me the ‘I’ which is here. Let me chop it. The ‘I’ that wants to be chopped also is mine. Then let nothing remain. May it also feel like there is no ‘I’. Any concept of ‘I’ you let go of. You see, because the true ‘I’ is not a concept.

Any sense of ‘I’ can be thrown out. Then you discover what cannot be thrown out, ever-present. Concept-less, indescribable, un-label-able. Have your own darshan like this; your own darshan. You Are This Awareness.

There is nothing that You want. You are this Awareness that cannot want anything. Even Love it does not want; Joy it does not want; Peace it does not want. Nothing. And there is also nothing that you resist. It is not scared of any emotion, any appearance; anything could happen, but this body’s head is actually chopped off. It couldn’t be bothered, it is not concerned. It is the eternal Witnessing of everything. This One You Are.

So, any time now, this little monkey comes and says ‘me, me, me; what about me, me, me?’ you know that you cannot take it seriously. In this way, nothing can ever hurt you. You cannot be hurt, You cannot be burned, You cannot be seen through any senses. No picture can be made out of You. You are not young or old; You are not big or small. Both time and space give birth inside You. This pure one, beyond all concepts of purity and impurity, This One You Are.

You created this Universe to play this game. But nothing in the Universe can actually come close to you. But for as long as this Universe exists, don’t forget to laugh at it. Not ‘laugh at it’ with any arrogance. Just laugh at the play; just laugh at the movie.

This You Are. Nothing can make You This, and nothing can take This away from You, because You Are This. No effort, no time, nothing at all. For as long as there seems like there is a choice, then you make the choice to follow the voice of the Satguru; to not go along with this theme of egoic thought. If there feels like ‘I still have some choice’ then you make this choice, until you reach this place of pure neutrality where you see that ‘Never was there any choice, because I never existed separately anyway’. And this must be seen. It must not be taken as just another concept. This must be your living experience, Now.

So don’t just replace dual concepts with non-dual concepts. That alone will not help you. You must see for Yourself: ‘What is it that is here, Now? Is it dual or non-dual?’ Then everything will be clear.

Q: Father, Gratitude. There is one question left for you, from the Heart…. The question I lay at your feet is: Will you please awaken the dreamer fully?

You ARE fully awake! Fully awake NOW! Completely, always awake!

The only thing that is dropped is the pretense of being asleep.

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Another Q: What does it mean to be awake?

To be awake means to be not pretending. So, his question is: ‘What does it mean to be awake?’ To be awake only means that we not pretending to be a person. An ‘awakening’ is different. An ‘awakening’ is an experience; which means that in the Presence of the Master, in the Presence of some strong Being, there can be this wiping-out of this person idea on its own.

You know, it just seems like you come into the Presence of Satsang, you look into the eyes of the Master and it seems like the ‘I’ which I always believed myself to be just vanished, and you can find no difference between yourself and anything. That’s an awakening experience. But an awakening experience is not a pre-requisite to freedom. It’s just another experience.

Q: When is it not a state?

The fact that you are awake is always true. You’re only pretending to be a person. An awakening experience can come and go. An experience, whatever it might be, can never be permanent.

Q: So, how is it for the Master?

For the Master, it just happened that the mind, which seemed to have so much power earlier now seems to have no power; or has only .0001 percent of the power it used to have, so it cannot push you into this pretense anymore. That’s the only difference. He’s not living in some other ‘state’. The Sage is not in some other state. The Sage is always saying that ‘I am the same as you. It’s only that I am not giving any power to these thoughts which are coming and going’.

Q: Incredible love in His Presence.

In your Own Presence, this love is there. Okay, you say ‘Incredible love in His Presence’. Where do you feel the love from, inside or outside?

Q: Inside.

Inside. You see? So, this Presence externally is only a reminder of your True Presence inside. That’s why the Satguru, the True Satguru, is always inside.

But in this play, when you find you are in this (satsang) Presence all the time, and not giving any power to the mind, it seems to have this energetic play of pulling out the same. You find this is true even for negative emotions, isn’t it? If you’re around somebody who is angry, then you find youself also…, something is pulling those energies up. The same way, it works here.

So in the Presence of those who are not deluded by the mind, you will automatically find the sense of peace, a sense of love or a sense of joy. It’s still coming from inside you.

Q: It’s not permanent.

What is permanent is that I can’t imagine giving so much importance to the person idea. It’s just like you’ve seen that the sun appears from the East; then you cannot give belief to the idea that the sun comes from the West. Because your own experience is that you were never this person. Then can you ever truly believe that person again? You cannot. Once you’ve clearly seen that you are not this person, you can never truly believe in the person again. Belief can go momentarily; that’s all that happens.

So, that is liberation. That is freedom. You see? So an awakening experience is not freedom. It’s an experience; where you realize, all of a sudden, that ‘Here there is no person. The ‘I’ which I always believed myself to be just doesn’t exist. You see? In that moment, you can see. But the trouble with awakening experiences is that if, after it is over, you say ‘Oh, I am special because this happened to me’. Then you’ve picked up the ‘person’ again.

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Another Q: There’s an experience I would like to ask you (about). I was in a satsang, and I was slipping into blissful love, you see, and others would say ‘You beautiful man, you’ and things like that. They recognized that. I just felt, you know, exalted. Then at home one day, I was lying on the bed, and suddenly something ‘whoosh’ came in and then nothing; just beautiful peace and love. What kind of experience is that?

Yes [pause]. You want me to give you the ‘nice guy’ answer or you want me to give it to you…

Q: No, not ‘nice’.

See, even this, forget about it. It’s nothing. I don’t want to give more fuel to ‘enlist in that’.

Q: All these come and go. Like that.

Yes. All that is coming and going is not you. You are still the witness of whatever the content might be. The most blissful experience, the near-death, the out-of-the-body, the awakening, the kundalini, the chakras, the … everything ! It’s just the play of appearances.

Q: So, any phenomenon is not true.

It is not You.

Q: So, this mind looking for enlightenment, for its joy, and …?

That one you leave. Yes. The one that is looking for enlightenment, forget about it. Drop it.    [silence] Are you okay with that?

Q: Yeah. I don’t want anything that is not true. Because I’m seeking the Truth.

Yes. The truth must be here Now. That’s why I’m always saying that I’m not interested in the truth that is coming and going. Of what value would that truth be? The truth must be ever-present; must be here now. And what is here now?

Q: Being.

Being is here. And are you aware of it or not?

Q: Yes; not all the time; now-a-days, more.

Yes, but there’s awareness of something or the other, isn’t it?

Q: Yes.

So awareness is ever-present.

Q: We come with the expectation that we will wake up.

He’s saying ‘We come with the expectation that we will wake up’. But when I say ‘You ARE awake’ that answer doesn’t sound satisfactory. So, what will convince you of your freedom?

Q: [inaudible]

He said that ‘I will be convinced of my freedom when I feel I am One with the Universe; I am One with All Beings, I feel Love for everyone’.

So then, it must be asked, since you said ‘I’ three times: Who is this ‘I’?

Q: The ‘I’ is the ‘I Am’. But right now, this ‘I’ is a ‘person’.

Yes. See? As long as it’s personal, the ‘imaginary one’ cannot be one with anything. How can something which is imagined be one with anything?

But this one, leave aside; then which ‘I’ is there?

Q: I Am.

I-Am-ness is there.

Q:  Ananta ji, Namastey. My salutations to you. I have been following Mooji from last two years. And now I realize that I know the truth at an intellectual level and NOT experientially. I get lost from the reality and flow with the emotions unless I am constantly reminding myself of who I truly am. And when the reminder is done, everything is calm for a while and then the circus is back again. I am afraid that I am stuck in the exercise of the mind. Help me get over it with your grace. My gratitude.

Dearest, welcome. I’m happy that you shared your question. Could you share the core of the truth that has been understood intellectually? I feel that will be a great starting point to our conversation. So much Love.

Q: The essence that I intellectually grasp and understand is (that) I am not the body and I am neither the mind. This samsara is just the projection of the mind. Emotions and everything is a chemical reaction. I am the witness of it; saakshi. I know it sounds beautiful but it means nothing because I don’t live it experientially. The feeling of oneness is not there. I am just foxing around with the knowledge.

And what is your experience in this moment? How is it different from what you described?

[Silence]

Q: This moment, once you point to it, I feel that beauty of calmness. It’s not permanent though.

The Truth must be Here always, it cannot be coming and going, and it cannot depend on states. All states are allowed to come and go. Nothing that comes can stay. Are you also coming and going?

[Silence]

Q: No, I am always here.

As what?

[Silence]

Q: I don’t know who or what that is. I can’t seem to find its source.

Can you stop Being now? Turn off Being.

[Long Silence]

Q: No, it feels endless and immortal.

Are you Aware of this Being, this Presence?

Q: Yes, I am aware.

Is this Awareness touched by any appearance, including emotions?

Look and answer; not from any knowledge.

[Long Silence]

Q: It remains untouched, Father.

Very good. And where are you in relation to this Awareness? Again, I’m interested in your looking.

Q: I am here in this moment, being aware of the one who is looking for an effect/ experience.

This one is just imagined, isn’t it? Is Awareness also imagined?

Q: Imagined, conditioned demand of the mind, yes. Awareness is not imagined. It is just there.

Don’t focus on the content then. That’s just another appearance. The question is: Where are you in relation to this Awareness?

[Long Silence]

Q: I don’t know where in relation to Awareness. It doesn’t seem to be any different from awareness itself.

Yes. If you see this now, can any appearance touch You as Awareness?

Q:  No, appearance cannot touch.

Then how can you suffer now?

[Silence]

Q:  No, there is no suffering now.

Very good. Now don’t believe your next thought. And allow all to reveal itself. Marinate in this now.

[Long Silence]

Q: The programming of suffering is clearly naked now. The mind is in fact craving for it. Thank you, Father.

Like I said, don’t believe your next thought; not even that which says ‘I understood something’. Very welcome dearest One. So much Love.

[Silence]

Love you all so very much!

Before we get started with a question today, I wanted to point you to something very simple.  Just so simple. It’s too simple for the mind to understand. But those who have openness, those with which there is this resonance in the heart, for them this will unfold in its complete simplicity.

And it’s not something you have not heard before, but I want you to taste this. Taste this Now. Let everything be exactly as it is. Just let everything be exactly as it is. And this is not something I’m asking you to do in the future. I’m saying right now, just leave everything exactly as it is. Everything means, both externally and seemingly internally. Everything means everything.

Just let it be. Whatever it is, just let it be.

If it feels like I’m going to die right now, just let it be. If it feels like I’m feeling wonderful, so much joy; just let it be.

All sense of control is pure illusion. And it is making you tired. So even the tiredness today, just let it be. Let your life be something for God to do. There is nothing you need to do. Let it all be for God to do. Let it be exactly as it is. Notice that the desire to want to change something in this moment what is appearing. The tendency to question and want to change it is what is called the resistance.

No person ever had any control over anything at all, because no person has ever existed. Even this much if you hear in Satsang today is enough. No person has ever had any control over anything at all because no person has ever existed.

And this is not something which I’m just saying because in Satsang you must say these nice things. It’s not like this. You see, the mind will create this separation between Satsang and ‘outside Satsang’. Satsang and the seemingly real world outside. It says like this, isn’t it?  No person has ever existed inside or outside Satsang. Either when you are in the…, when your attention is with the Satguru in your heart, or when your attention is with your thoughts, this imagined person is always only imagined. Never real.

You must see this now. It must be seen like this. You must not let your mind trick you with any concept. Anything personal is only imagined because the person is imagined. Everything personal is just imagination. Because the root concept is the person idea, which is a daydream. It is non-existent.

And the other day in Pune in Satsang, I was sharing that imagine a person, any person. Let’s imagine this 20-year-old teenager. Let’s imagine a 20-year-old teenager. And then ask this imagined entity to increase the volume or to turn off your computer. This is exactly what we are doing. I know that to the mind this sounds crazy, but this is what we are doing. We are imagining that we are this person… pure figment of the imagination. And then we are presuming that this person is moving the body.

This person is not moving the body; it does not exist. Do we have any evidence of its existence? Any tangible evidence of its existence? You only have this voice, which claims to be the voice of the person… the voice of the mind. This is called the ego. Without this voice, would you ever delude yourself in this way? This is exactly what is going on. We have just imagined that there is a person who is in control of this body and there are other persons who are in control of other bodies. Nobody has ever seen this person. It has never been met. Yet this voice comes and says, ‘I am this person. I am separate. This is my independent free will.’ Whose? We will never see, because it does not exist.

So we must not take this person concept seriously anymore. We can use conversationally. We can use the person concept conversationally, but never take it seriously anymore.  So I don’t want you to come up here saying, ‘Oh Father, Consciousness has this question for Consciousness.’ We can speak normally in conversations, it’s completely fine. We can speak very normally; we can say ‘I have this question.’ But don’t take this concept of ‘I’ seriously.

You must by now have seen that this person is just fiction. It’s just fictionary. And Consciousness is moving everything, so we don’t need to provide that label before everything now. We can just be very natural in our approach.

And this is what we mean when we say; you must have a strong nose for it now. This is what vigilance means. Vigilance is not something very complicated; it’s not a restrictive space. Vigilance only means just once in a while, just checking. What are you speaking as? What are you believing?

Just have a strong smell for it and see if you have picked up the imagined voice again. The voice claiming to be your voice, which is the voice of this imagined person.

And it’s very beautiful when you’re smelling from your own Heart. Your nose about personhood is actually very strong, very highly developed. Is what I am believing coming from this sense of being a person? Does it rely on the person concept?  That is what you have to smell for. And then you will find that no thought is worthy of your belief.

Remember that the highest, highest, highest you can be, you already are. All that you can pretend of yourself to be cannot touch that high that you already are.

So these are not just words, when I say that God takes birth inside you. You are aware of the Presence. What must you be when ‘God takes birth inside you’?

Can there be anything higher than that?

Anything that the mind can conjure up; and in our lives the mind has conjured up many things, no? ‘You’ll become so good, so good, if you have this, if you do this; you will become so amazing if you have this’. But nothing can match up to the reality of what you already are.

Even what is written in spiritual books about what can be expressed at the highest; that also means nothing for you. You are that much beyond any of this.

And the mind will come and say ‘But this is just so convenient’. You see? ‘So

Convenient. That means any behavior can happen’. This is so convenient because you can say ’God is doing it’. And many will use Advaita in this convenient way.

For those in the Sangha I can tell you that this is what is meant by sensitivity. The minute you pick up this ‘person’ something will start to churn up inside you, like you want to vomit. This is also the Masters Grace, where you cannot use any Advaita conveniently. Only the mind can keep coming and saying this kind of thing.

So if there is a sense the person is trying to say ‘Oh yes, God is the one. God is the one that is doing’, still trying to hide the personal belief somewhere, then there will be very…, you really want to just throw it out, you see.

So don’t let it be about this one. I know when you say it is coming from the heart. It is coming from the seeing of what you are.

The mind will try to make you guilty that you are using these Advaitic concepts conveniently. Nobody in the Sangha can do that. Nobody in life actually can do that.

Very Good. With this integrity, with this honesty, no idea, no belief about personhood will be sustained. No good person, no bad person, no spiritual person; all ideas. And because we can have some conditioning around these things, you see, that ‘Now I am spiritual I must behave in a certain way’…, that is why also sages have shown us that it is not always this way.

Q: “But you know last week I was in despair because when you say that, I am like ‘Why are we doing all of this thing? Why are we…, isn’t this useless then that we are not going to change or improve? [Laughter], Because, you know, if you just stay this horrible old person, then what is it all for?”

But you can never become a person, you see? That realization will not leave you. So the expression can be in any way but you cannot pick up the ‘person idea’ anymore. These are the last remnants of the ‘person idea’, which is being burped out, which is being vomited out.

You will come to this place, which is not conforming to anybody’s idea of what a good person is. Would that be Freedom, if you just had to conform to the world’s ideas of what a Free one is? That does not sound very free to me. Then you will have to live up to so many concepts. ‘I cannot go for superhero movies now.  If I am a teacher now then why should I watch cinema, why should I watch TV? I should always have this, I should always just be sharing satsang’. There are so many concepts. ‘Why should I be wearing these clothes, I should only be dressed in white and orange’.

So this is just coming from some conditioning about what a spiritual person is. But there is no definition to what a spiritual person is.

It is not necessary that an enlightened one sees everyone who needs some help and stops the car to help everyone. That can be some of the worlds idea of what an enlightened one is. So no idea about what it should be. Because it doesn’t stop, you see? It could be this; and then the mind will say ‘But now you stopped shouting, but inside you were still feeling some anger’. So ‘Even this should not be there and then you will be free’. Then it will say something else and then it will say something else.  Always ‘almost there’. You see?

Don’t get on that treadmill, my dear, because it does not stop; does not stop. And it all sounds very good, very auspicious, very humble. It will say ‘No, no. You must become a kind person at least’. Where does it say, in which scripture does it say like this?

When the person is completely dissolved then you will find that automatically kindness is flowing.  And even if it doesn’t, there is not this question ‘Why am I being this way?’ You see? Because it is this guilt, this fear of how am I behaving which will stop the natural flow of the expression; how it is meant to be. We never know what is good or not. You see?

Because you shout at the contractor, do you know that it is better to shout or not to shout? You don’t know. Maybe he needs to get the job finished so he can get to the next job on time, so he can make some more money. So he needed that shouting maybe; maybe he didn’t. It is just the way it is flowing. You see?

We can never know what something is for. We can only watch the way it is playing out. Just watch the way it is playing. And no matter what you hear in satsang. And sometimes it sounds like it is personal advice, but it is not.

So right now, all of us, lets burn all concepts we have about Freedom; about the enlightened person or spiritual person. Just let’s forget about all of those concepts.

Because the mind will use these, to create guilt, to create remorse, to create fear and keep us distracted from the Truth of what we really are. And all these things, kindness, goodness, all of this is phenomenal you see. I know I rarely speak like this but even this has to be said, that suppose we were on a different planet, and on a different planet the realm. The rules of the realm were that you have to be nasty to everyone. Then people would go around feeling guilty about being kind.

Who has decided this moral compass? It is your own Presence, isn’t it? So it comes after you.

You see, I rarely say these kind of things but I can say it to you now. Most of you who have been in Satsang for a long time, that even all of this compassion, kindness, brotherhood, sisterhood; all of this comes much later, much after you. These are the rules we have defined for this realm to play, as Consciousness. If there is life on another alien planet, it might operate in a different way.

And if this realm is for us to enjoy, how would it be that everybody was kind? Nobody would ever have a challenge; nobody would ever have anything to work on.

As [Nisargadatta] Maharaj said: ‘I just remain as I Am and I let the conditioning of this Body-Mind play the way it wants’.

Q: Father, may I speak?

A: Yes, my dear.

Q: I’m not sure I can speak…, I haven’t got a question. I have only ‘Thank you’. This life is just ‘Thank you’. There’s such a clear recognition here that this isn’t my life. This is God’s life. It’s not for me to do, it’s not for me to live. I’m not doing it, and I’m not living it. This is already how it is.

Very beautiful. Such a beautiful report. She says ‘There is no question. And there is so much gratitude here, and it is completely seen that my life has always been surrendered, and I cannot even find the surrender-er now. The one that must surrender is also not found. All that is, is God’. It’s very beautiful.

To hear you say this is why I am here. And you don’t have to say it in these words. Some of you may feel that these words don’t come like this. But as long as you can sense that these words smell of Truth and this is how it is for you, then I know that it has all been very worthwhile.

Q: [Namaste and silence, head bowed]

 A: [Namaste and silence]

A: When you can speak such glorious words, and yet have no smell of egotism; when you can speak words of such beauty and yet not sound like a person [silence] this is pure joy for me. Pure joy.

So I am saying that if you want freedom, then you must give freedom. So what all are we going to give freedom to?

Let me start by helping you. You can give freedom to your relationship; to be exactly as they are, exactly as they are going, exactly as they are meant to be.

So one, I am saying relationships. Now you have to say. If you truly want freedom then you must then give freedom.

Q: [Inaudible]

So what are the components of life? So one, we said relationships. What needs your freedom?

Q: “Thoughts.”

Thoughts. We can give freedom to thoughts.

Body. Freedom to the body; to live or die or whatever it has to do.

Q: “How the day unfolds.”

Yes, the sense of control over the unfolding of the day or life.

Priya says: “Freedom is this being now; is just letting all arise in this.”

Yes, exactly. So freedom to the present moment, to unfold exactly as it is unfolding.

Then, what else are we concluding? Emotions.

So let’s start outward in:

Relationship

Money

Body

And okay, so we will keep the seeker identity to the end.

Relationships, special relationships, money, body. These three can be dropped from the seeming-outer perspective.

Then emotions, let them be free. Let them be free. Let them come and go as they please. Then thoughts can be free.

Then attention also, attention also; you give your freedom to attention to go wherever it pleases. You give your freedom for attention to go wherever it pleases.

And you leave your belief free. What does it mean to leave your belief free? It is not the same as what you say for attention. Because to control attention is work; to try and direct attention particularly is work. In the same way, to give belief to something is work.

So you leave it completely free. Don’t give it any work to do; when you are not giving your belief to anything. And if you give your freedom to all of this; to just to the last two, (or just to the last one also actually, but to just make the point), it is enough.

You must set the world free; all the appearances free, including the appearance of body, mind, emotions. All of these energies, also free.

Then show me how you can ever be bound.  If you say that ‘I am bound’ it must mean that you are not giving your freedom; not giving freedom to one of these forces or energies.

Yes, it is not freedom ‘from’, not freedom ‘from’. You give your fear also freedom.

Somebody said, Nickey said ‘Freedom from fear’. But freedom from fear can come when you have given freedom to your fear also; when you no longer fearing your fear. When we are no longer fearing our fear then we set it free. Then sometimes it can come and dance about, do something and then it goes. Don’t hold on to anything at all. Leave it all completely free.

So to get freedom, we must give freedom; simplest way.

Q: [Inaudible]

So now you set it free. So it is not that. Mind is saying that ‘You want freedom from the world’. Actually it’s the world that needs freedom from your ego. Are you willing to give this freedom to the world or not?

You show me something that you are holding onto, and I will show you suffering;

Just what Andrew said earlier: ‘The bird of paradise lands only in the hand that is not grasped.’ Don’t grasp anything at all. Set everything free.

And that which you feel you cannot set free is still the April fool’s day trick for you, which is working for you. It’s just a trick, nothing really. There is no reality to it.

So what can’t you set free? What are you unwilling to set free, that Life is whacking out of you? It’s just this. Whatever you are unwilling to set free, life is forcing your hand. You are holding it; life is slapping you. That’s all that is happening.

If you are not holding anything, nothing will be felt as suffering.

No resistance means no suffering.

I was just reminded a few minutes ago that when we were in Delhi a few days ago, Guruji was there. Mooji ji was there and we were going to a shop. It was 1^st of April; 1^st of April is celebrated as All Fools Day or April’s Fool Day, whatever you call it.

So we were going into the shop and we saw that there was this bunch of people that were laughing about something and they were laughing at one man who just passed. And what happened was when we stopped, we saw that there was a 20 rupee note lying on the ground. You know this trick? [Laughter] They had tied it with a string and one of them was taking (with their phone) a video of this. So what would happen is when somebody would bend down, they would just then pull it. They would pull it and then the person would go further wanting to get that 20 rupee note and they would just chase it. And they were having a great time just filming this; people trying to pick up this note, which was waiting to be pulled by this string.

And I just realized that this is exactly how the mind works. It seems so helpful, ‘for 20 rupees I can buy a tea or something’ and you know, you just bend down to pick it up, and then it says ‘A little more, just little more, little more, little more’ and this little more never stops.

So our life is like this April’s Fool Day. We are following this small amount of money, this small temptation, which the mind knows that we will follow. And it is having a great time fooling us in this way. See, isn’t it exactly like this? It will start very simple. Just this, just ‘20 rupees, it’s going to be helpful, just pick it up, all you have to do is bend a little bit’. Then you bend once, twice, thrice; then you are running after it and chasing it.

Once you’re hooked, you see, once you are hooked then you are chasing it and trying to make it work. And then you feel very offended when you realize it was all a trick. That’s why Satsang can be very strong reactions; frustrations, anger can come. Because you are coming to this conclusion that it’s all been one big Aprils Fools Day. And who has been fooled? It is God. I often say that ‘If you want to see God pretending to be a person, just believe your next thought’.

If you want to see God pretending to be a person, just believe your next thought.

So the question only is: ‘How long will we fall for this trick?’ And if we continue to fall, nothing really is happening to you. But then don’t complain that ‘My back is hurting and I am tired of bending down, trying to pick up this note’. Because that’s all we are doing ultimately; we are just chasing this desire, this happiness, through something which you are not going to be able to catch. So the 20 rupee note is the ‘person idea’ the ‘ego’.

So a lot of this, these real life metaphors, you will get to show you how/what is really happening. A thought could be coming even right now. Just know it has strings attached, strings attached. It is trying to say ‘No, no. No strings attached. Just create a relationship with me and no strings’. The minute you pick it up, you get into a relationship with your thought and you realize that there is a full family of thoughts. [Laughter] so it has big strings attached. It is very simple not to bend down once you know all I am telling you: It is a trick. Don’t fall for it anymore. Then you just walk on by, just walk on by, then you will have no suffering because of this. This is exactly what we talk about in satsang.

Can it be as simple as this? We have not used any esoteric language, no big words. We have not even come to Consciousness or Awareness; none of this. Just refuse to bend down to pick up the next rigged trick; trick of the mind. That’s all it is. Yet God is always God. God is only pretending to be a person when you believe your next thought.

Then what trouble can we have?

What suffering can touch you without a belief in some trick?

And the trick is old now. The trick is really old now. Nobody is even laughing anymore. It is about time we drop it. Just the same trick over and over. Just the 20 rupees becomes something else; it becomes relationship, it becomes good health, it becomes bank account, it becomes work. Just the temptations keeps changing, you see? The ego has nothing more in its bag of tricks. This one trying to get your attention for you to believe that it is possible to get happiness or peace through following this mind. It is the only trick that it has.

If you refuse to fall for it now, then nothing can bother you. Even the concept of ‘bothering’ or ‘not bothering’, even the concept of suffering will seem strange. You know! And what will happen momentarily is something might seem attractive and you might fall for it for a moment. So you are bending; and then you realize ‘Oh, this is another trick’. Then very quickly you drop it, with no sense of shame, with no guilt also, ‘oh, I fell for it again’. Nothing!

So, freedom is not that the trickster will stop the trick! Freedom is not that the trickster will stop the trick!

Freedom is that you stop falling for the trick. Now if you are not falling for the trick, what question can you ask me? What can you ask me?

But it’s no harm, if you still feel that something has your belief, there is no better place to come and expose it than in Satsang. You can come and say ‘I still keep falling for this trick’. Then I say ‘Inquire into this. Why do you keep falling for this same trick?’

It is because something deeply identified as you. Something which is not you is still deeply identified as you. Is it the seeker identity, it is a child identity, is it a parent identity? There will still be 1 or2 of these tricks which will seem to work. But already the power is with you now.

Already the power is with you.

Because you can see it as a trick now!

Does it matter to Awareness? Nothing can touch You-as-Awareness. All that is appearing is just appearing and disappearing in Your own space.

The person inherently is unstable. It’s just a set of ideas. And ideas keep changing. There’s no stability there.

So the ego is expecting, the person is expecting, stability to come from the person, which is the ego itself. You see? But it is inherently unstable. It is constantly changing.

I give you a new idea about yourself that you say ‘yes’ to. And the person that was here 10 minutes ago is now this new person because it has a new idea about itself. Then you are expecting a sense of stability from this, which is constantly changing? You go to a movie, you see another version, and you think ‘This is how I should spend my life’. No? Then there is a new idea about ‘the person’.

So how can you find stability in this which is constantly changing?

The one that is stable MUST be the witnessing all of this change.

So are you That-Which-Is-Unchanging?

Or are you the content, which is constantly changing?

I see a couple of you are new here today, so let me share some core aspects of what we speak about here. When I come into satsang, there are usually three different questions that come.

The first question, the most common question that comes is: ‘I want to be free from my suffering. How do I put an end to my suffering?’ That is the first, most basic question that most Beings who come to satang can have. And to be free from suffering is the simplest thing. But if you’re here for the first time, we can look at it in some detail.

You cannot suffer without believing a thought. So when a thought arises, you’ll see that a thought just arises. You can wait for your next thought to confirm this; and you’ll see that thought is just arising. And when a thought arises, you will see that there are two forces that interact with this thought.

The first is the force of your attention; is the power of attention. This attention, when it goes to the thought, then the thought seems like it is real. If it [attention] doesn’t go to the thought, then the thought just comes and goes.

Therefore most sadhanas in the world are focused on controlling this attention. So, when [Nisargadatta] Maharaj said ‘Stay. Give your attention only to the sense I Am’ he was referring to keeping the attention, giving an anchor to the attention, in the Presence. ‘Keep the attention in the Presence’. All sadhanas, whether you look at mindfulness, meditation, all these practices, most of them are focused on keeping your attention at a particular place, trying to give you some mastery over your attention.

But if you were to look, you would find that just because of giving attention, also you cannot suffer. It also needs another force, another power, called the power of belief. Even if attention goes to the thought, unless it gets your belief, it causes no suffering.

So, what I suggest is: Just withdraw your belief from your next thought.

Belief seems like it is much more simple to handle than attention is, because the more you try to control attention, the more it wants to jump around.

So, if I say ‘Don’t bring your attention to a monkey’ then very quickly [the thought of] a monkey will appear. So attention is not that easy to control. But if I say ‘Don’t believe that you are a monkey’ that is much easier.

So, let attention also go to thoughts if you want, let attention go completely free; just don’t give belief to your next thought.

And in this not giving belief to your next thought, you cannot show me suffering. Unless you believe some other thought like ‘Belief is going automatically’ or some other thought like this, you cannot show me suffering.

In this, you will find so much space and the ability to contemplate into your True nature.

When we are just constantly attracted to our thoughts and our attention and belief, and just consumed by thought, then there is no room for further contemplation. So, first, some amount of freedom is gotten from these thoughts. These thoughts don’t seem so powerful now after you’ve withdrawn your belief from them. They get their power from your own attention and belief.

So, this was the first question: ‘How can I end my suffering?’ The end of your suffering is just not believing your next thought.

Then, you say: ‘Yes. I have lost my ability to suffer. All thoughts are just coming and going. I’m not resisting anything at all. So, I have lost my ability to suffer, but can you show me God?’

‘Can you show me God?’ And my response to that question is: ‘Yes’.

Can you stop being now?

And in looking at this question: ‘Can I stop being now?’ you will find that the Presence of Being is here. It cannot be stopped.

That’s why this short cut is here. If I were to say ‘Go and find your Being’ then you will say that ‘Oh, it gets confused. It feels like this and feels like that’.

But when I say ‘Can you stop being now? Can you turn it off?’ then you say ‘No. This Presence is here. You cannot turn it off. This Presence that I am, that I exist, is here’.

So, this Presence is Consciousness, is God, is Beingness, in the light of which this entire Universe comes into play. Your own holy Presence, your own Atma, is Consciousness.

Then, lastly, someone might come and say: ‘Can you tell me about the Absolute, the Self?’

And don’t worry so much about the definitions. If your definition of God is the Absolute Self, that is absolutely fine. Don’t worry; it’s not about the definitions.

Someone could come and say: ‘Can you show me the Absolute Self, the Absolute Truth?’

And for this, we have this question: ‘Are you aware now?’

And you see that you are aware, and yet no phenomenal experience was required; not even the Presence of Being. And to be able to confirm that awareness is here, it was the Awareness itself that checks.

So, this is Awareness being aware of Itself.

Awareness being aware of Awareness.

These are the main three questions that any spiritual seeker could have. And then, another simple pointing for you is that there are two A’s.

There’s the big ‘A’…………Awareness.

And there’s the small ‘a’……… appearance.

All that is appearing phenomenally we call the appearance; the thoughts, emotions, the body, another person, the external world, the stars in the sky, the sun and the moon: everything is appearing to This Awareness.

And in the absence, if this Awareness was not there, then you would not be able to have any appearance.

So, this Awareness is ever-present. It is the Eternal One, the Unmoving, Unchanging One; which is aware of something and of nothing; of appearance and of no appearance. Something and nothing; thought and no-thought; of mind and no-mind; of waking and of sleep.

This Awareness You Are.

But anytime you give your belief to something which says ‘You are just an appearance’ then you are picking up this ‘pretend’ suffering.

So, that is the core of the teaching, the core of what is being pointed to.

[Silence]

Q: Namaste, Father.

Namaste, my dear.

Q: So, the question I want to ask is, when I see someone that I love very dearly and they’re in a lot of pain; and I know that if they were to come to Satsang, I know that all of this would just dissolve for them in such a short space of time. I know it from my heart. But also I know that everything is happening just as it should do for them and for their Awakening. So I just want to lay it all at your feet Father because I want to know when to speak and when not to speak and I don’t know, I cannot do it with enough Grace.  I just want to let it all at your feet and say it’s for you to do now. That’s all.

Actually all that happens is Grace, isn’t it? When you say that ‘I don’t seem able to guide my loved ones into Satsang so they can be free of their suffering and misery’ this is also Satsang for you.

Q: [Laughter] Yes. Very much. Very Much.

So all that is appearing for you is Satsang for you. It is really never about another. Really never about another.

Q: So then I would say that I feel such peace and contentment and joy, and so maybe what I’m asking is to drop the thought that I need to change anything for anyone else; that it’s all unfolding just as it should and if the words need to come out of my mouth, they’ll come and it’s ok for me to feel that peace and contentment in the process.  It’s not [that] others are suffering therefore I must suffer with them. That’s not the truth. So maybe that’s what I need to put before you.

This is very good. This is very good. So you say that, you will find that sometimes it seems like my loved ones are suffering so much and I should be able to do something about it. But we also know now that this suffering ultimately is also good for them. This is the suffering which is making them open to the truth.

And it can seem like sometimes they will play this game of hide and seek. Sometimes it will feel like ‘Yes, yes, they are getting better because they come to Satsang, and they’ve opened their heart to the Satguru; and then they go into hiding for some time’.

So little bit of this pendulum. It’s happened with all of us. So you can’t really blame anyone; it’s happened with all of us, that we’ve had this back and forth, this coming and going. So it is ok. This play, it will continue like this, but you be certain that it is not possible for anyone to escape the Truth. So you already know this. You know that everyone will come to this truth. Then what is it? Then it’s only a question of time. Then it’s only a question of time, and time ultimately does not mean anything.

So let this time go however it wants. Let Consciousness play with time and space however it wants. You just enjoy the movie, whatever it might be bringing. And ultimately I must say that you yourself are the scriptwriter for your movie. You-as- Consciousness have written this entire script. Even the swinging pendulum of the appearances in your life are part of your own script.

Yes, sometimes the movie gets painful to watch. But that is part of the joy of the book, of the movie.

Q: Thank you, Father. Thank you always.

Welcome. Know that in reality no one can ever escape the truth, because it is what they are. It is what they are. They cannot escape. In which form it happens, where it happens, what it takes to make it happen is all part of the play of time; and time means nothing ultimately.

The Holy Spirit will spare no one from the truth. It can meet them in whichever form it is supposed to.

Q: Namaste, Father and Sangha. Can you say something about criticism? How should one interact in the apparent world when criticism happens? Love you so much. I know I am not the person being criticized but sometimes the ‘person’ slips in. Love you so much.

You know what happens? Some of you on Youtube who are new here might get little scared of me when I say this, but the fact is that its seem like the minute you enter the door into Satsang, the minute your heart opens to Satsang, then all of this in the world seems to get amplified. Many of you would have seen this; that all the tricks of the mind, all the buttons that can be pushed seem to get pushed in a much faster way than they were earlier.

Why does it happen like this? It is because the mind, the ego, this course of Maya, seems to then play all its cards very fast, so that you stay involved in this world of appearances. So it can happen that all the buttons, all the criticisms, all that can be said about any identity that you might still seem to hold get pushed more rapidly than ever before

Then you find the most peaceful friends, they start becoming extremely critical. Loved ones that you felt were always at the same wave length now seem to be on a different realm all together. They seem to be so strongly attacking you.

You wonder ‘How is this happening, why is this happening?’ I will tell you why. This is very beautiful Grace, very beautiful Grace; because your Heart’s truest desire is Freedom. Now you heart’s truest desire is Freedom.

When you Heart’s truest desire is Freedom then you cannot even carry even a small bit, a grain of sand, worth of identity inside you. So any identity which remains, it will get squeezed out of you. And how do you know that some identity remains? You know because something pushes a button. If nothing in life, nothing in the appearances were to push a button, then how would we know there is some identity? If life does not slap us around once in awhile then  we feel completely complacent and we feel we are free, untouched. That is why life will make sure that if there is something repressed, something not seen, something which is a blind spot, an appearance will come and press that switch, and you go ‘ouch ouch’. But somewhere even with this ‘ouch’ you can then use this ‘ouch’ and say that ‘Oh, this still is tender, this still hurts, so what is it? Which identity is here that still hurts?’ Because you know that without an identity being there it cannot hurt.

I remember once that you and I did this exercise. If I were to say ‘You are a terrible parent’ then that would hurt. But if I were to say ‘You are terrible at some Olympic skateboarding or something’ it would not hurt.

Why is it like this? Because it can be still this parent identity, or some other wife identity, or some other identity which has the potential to cause suffering. And it is Life’s job to expose this. Because very quickly we will want to say ‘Oh, my exam is over, all done, and I have scored A+ in everything’. And then life says ‘No, what about this one, you have not seen this one, what do you feel about this?’ And it comes. And then, when these situations come, what are you to do? Just see that ‘Oh, this still has some fire, this still makes me burn’. So don’t close your mind. And when the burning is happening, let the burning happen. Let it burn completely. Because all that can burnt is only the false. Nothing real can be burnt in this fire.

So from this moment, from now, don’t try to hide from any criticism, don’t try to run from any burning. Just become completely open. Arms spread open wide, and saying ‘Give me all that you have, I am open to face whatever life has to bring’. And in this openness you find that none of this has any real power over you.

In this sense of YES, in this sense of ‘Bring It On’ then you will find that all this will just come and go, and soon you will be laughing about all of this play. Very soon you will be laughing about it and saying ‘Oh, this actually used to bother me’. Not from a sense of arrogance, not from something being achieved; just with a sense of wonder. You will wonder about how some of these things would actually bother you.

Q: I know I am not the person being criticized, but sometimes the person slips in.

Yes, this is what I mean by Grace. So whatever remnants of this identity still remain, they will be brought to the forefront so it can be exposed and burnt in the fire of Satsang, in the fire of your Life. Because you truly want Freedom, and Freedom alone. And sometimes when this confusion is also there ‘Is this what I truly want? Ananta is saying: Truly, I only want Freedom’. And then sometimes this confusion can be there: ‘Is this true for me or am I just faking this?’

But I know this, that this is true for all Beings. No Being wants to stay in this constricted environment of personhood. Not really. But sometimes the mind will try to confuse you. And this confusion also, we can be completely open, to let the mind speak whatever it wants and to let it come and go. Don’t be fearful of even this voice, which is saying ‘Your faith? Is it really true?’

You know why I know it is true? Because you have been here for more than 1 Satsang. For the first Satsang I can give you the benefit of doubt and say ‘Yes maybe your friend forced you to come, maybe somebody said its very nice and you came’. But after the first Satsang…, because in the first Satsang itself, you realize that for the mind there is nothing here, for the ‘person’ there is nothing here; and it is pure boredom, pure misery for the mind to come for Satsang.

But if you can come for the 2^nd time, then in your heart I know there is a resonance and you are tired of this game and you want to be free. You have been there for 10’s of Satsangs, so it’s completely clear for me.

Q: Thank you, Father. I think it just dissolved so quickly because I think it is Grace. As it comes up it feels very much; my response to the criticisms have been ‘Thank you. Thank you for shedding the light on what is left here’ because it is clear that this, what is happening, is as it should be.

And I feel that this video of Moojiji ‘Which is the Best Mantra’ is the best video. If it is the only Satsang that you would ever see, that would be the best.  To say ‘Thank You’ to anything that comes. It says life is kicking you in the face and still you say ‘Thank You’. It might not appear externally like this, but in your heart you are still grateful to life for exposing this sense of personhood which was still there. In this Gratitude and this ‘Thank you’ it all disappears very quickly.

Q: Yes, I agree, Thank you very much. Good to see you.

Very welcome. Good to see you too.

Don’t go with any picture of what your mind is painting about enlightenment. Mind is making a checklist: lose attachment to children, lose attachment to body, lose attachment to ‘this’ Then you are free.’

But I’m saying don’t follow your mind about even this. You are free NOW. In this moment you cannot show me any bondage. How long are we going to cater to just what the mind is saying about freedom, what the mind is saying about security, what the mind is saying about the world, about our relationships? Enough. It doesn’t help. You have seen that it only causes trouble.

So try it my way now. Don’t go with its idea about anything at all. And you show me how you are bound now? You will find that you have to work really hard to answer this question. You show me bondage now. You will have to work really hard and still you will not come up with a good answer. Because in the now, in this moment, you are not bound. You are free.

You have to play this game. You gave yourself the power to pretend to be a person, the power to pretend to believe your thoughts. All of this is your own game. It’s your own maya. And you created this voice in your maya to be there as a fail safe for when you feel, ‘Okay, when I get too deluded that I am this dream character in this game and I completely believe it, make sure that this voice pops up in some way.’ You created this voice to remind you of the truth of who you are. It’s your own voice. You have recorded this message to remind you of the Truth. This is a voicemail you have sent to yourself. So are you going to believe your own voicemail or are you going to still believe this tricky game character that you programmed to convince you that you are still just this person?

What seems true in your heart? What is accompanied by love and peace and joy? Believe that voice. Still there is a sense of personhood, there is a sense of separation, then there is also the seeming choice. Also the seeming choice of which voice you will believe. Will you go along with this voice in your head or will you listen to the voice in your heart?

Ok, so let’s do it like this. Let me just speak from what’s coming up. Yes?  And let’s hope that helps.

Whatever might be the content of your appearance, no matter how strong it might seem, no matter how real it might seem, none of it is actually really happening to the true You.  The true You is the pure witnessing of all appearances which are coming and going.

You just see this now; see that no appearance, whether perceived through the senses or internal appearances of thoughts, emotions, memory, imagination, all of these objects, none of them can touch You.

Also see that there is no separate person. The person is only an idea. And all that is moving is being done by the Consciousness itself. In the Presence of your Beingness, in the presence of I Am, all these appearances are coming and going. In the deep sleep state there is no universe, but when the light of Beingness switches on, then the world appears.

So You are that which is untouched by any appearance. And You are unconcerned by any decisions, by any choices, by any movement. All is going to happen on its own.  Don’t let your mind convince you that you are a person by pushing any button, no matter how strong it might seem.

All thoughts are talking to you as a person only. No thought is speaking to you as Awareness.  No thought is speaking to you as Consciousness.  All thoughts are personal.

So trust in the Grace which brought you to Mooji Ji’s Presence, which gets you to Satsang. Trust the Grace to do everything that it is doing, even when we cannot understand it; especially when we cannot understand. Because if we were to understand, then what is trust? Then everything is just understanding. But if you trust the Master, if you trust Grace, then trust even that which you don’t understand why it is happening.

Just say that ‘I am always at my Master’s feet irrespective of what seems to be appearing in and around me. I will not lift my head up from my Master’s feet even for an instant, may everything come and go in life’. In this way not even death can touch you, because you are that. That is one with the Master itself.

In this way, all fear, all decisions, all that is happening, will have no power over you. With only the Satguru in your heart, let all that has to appear, appear; let all there is to go, go. How long can an appearance last, anyway? Fifty years, a hundred years? It is nothing for eternity. All appearances come and go.

So bless every appearance with your own holy Presence, but don’t be attached to anything at all. Let everything come and go according to the will of God.

Not a blade of grass can move without the will of God. And trust this; trust this Grace. You will yourself say, you will yourself say one day very soon that ‘I see that all of this was such supreme Grace because it got me face to face with my own reality’.

I know that right now it might seem incomprehensible when I say this, but very soon you will come here and you will say that it was pure Grace, all that is happening.

So just keep Guru Ji in your heart and go take every day, day by day. Let every moment come and let every moment go. You just stay with the Master in your heart, and very soon all of this will go. None of this can stay.

All that comes in this world has to go. All states, all appearances, all people, all bodies, all relationships are coming and going.

If we get mixed up, if we identify and say ‘This is me’ or ‘This is mine’ that is when all the trouble starts. Know that all is God’s alone. Know that it is the Satguru’s alone.

I am always with you, my love, and I’m always at my Masters feet. Therefore Guru Ji’s Presence is always with you.

All my love and blessings to you, always, always.

I feel to tell all of you that you are already free in this moment.

When I say like this, it is not something you’re father will say to encourage their kids. It’s not something which is like a hopeful statement. It is a statement of complete truth. And it does not require your belief. I do not need you to believe it. But if you can just stay with me and just see this, just check this, you will see that it is completely true that I am completely free in this moment.

And what does freedom mean? What does freedom mean? Because as Awareness, we are completely untouched even by this concept of bondage and freedom. As Awareness, it does not matter if you were to take 100 more lives, and each of those lives to be identified as a person. Because as Awareness, you are completely untouched.

Then, what is the freedom that we are talking about? The freedom that we are taking about is just this freedom of the drop pretending to be separate from the ocean, and then just checking and seeing that it is the ocean itself.

So, it’s all a question of beliefs; all a question of mental concepts. Somehow, through a trick of Maya or whatever you call it, we have this power to pretend that we are separate. This is called the ego; the belief that I am separate. Yet, if I were to ask all of you and say ‘Where is God?’ you would say ‘God is everywhere’. Then, if God is everywhere, then how can there be a separate you?

So what you’re really saying is ‘God is everywhere but me. Everything that I see is God, but I am not’. You see? This sounds like humility, that ‘I am not God yet’ and ‘I’m trying to find God’. But it is the greatest arrogance; that God can be everywhere but I have this power to be separate from God. You see? So this is ego.

How does the ego operate? It operates through resistance. It is only a resistance of what is. It tries to control what is appearing. All these appearances are just coming and going. It tries to convince you that there is some sense of control that you-as-a-separate-identity have over this appearance. This is a great fallacy. And like this, most of humanity is trying to control their life. And I often say this is like trying to control the flow of a river with a twig; but not even this twig we have; with an imaginary twig actually. [Laughs]This is exactly how it is. We are resisting life while we are just pretending as if there is something that I can do.

So what is this freedom that we speak of? This freedom that we speak of is to drop this imaginary resistance.

Actually I’ve been saying this for quite some time, but I feel like now this is clicking with many of you, and you’re starting to realize the meaning when I say ‘Don’t resist’. What is the meaning when I say ‘Be completely open’. Now it is starting to click for you. What is the meaning of ‘Be completely open’ is being open to ALL that is appearing and disappearing; exerting no sense of false control over anything at all.

So, in this way we leave the body completely free. It already is, actually. It is doing exactly what it wants. But we are just pretending that ‘I am moving my hand up and down; I am breathing’. You know? Some may even pretend that ‘I am beating my heart’.

All of it is happening on its own.

We are just the pure Witnessing of all of this movement of appearance.

So when I say it is imagined resistance, when it comes to the body, it is this sense of doership. What must I do next? Where must I go next? All of these are just the pretense problems that we like to deal with.

So, leave your body free to be exactly how it is. And the breath also, you leave it completely free. Leave it completely free.

Another area where you have trouble is that many of you try to control your thoughts. Because you hear that thoughts are the cause of trouble. So then the mind itself comes up with a solution:  ‘Okay, thoughts are the cause of trouble. Let me try to stop all thoughts from coming’. Then you find all the Yogis sitting in the caves doing all kinds of sadhana to prevent this flow of thoughts. But actually you have seen now (most of you have been in satsang for some time, and you have seen) that thoughts are not trouble. Thoughts are allowed to just come and go; and then they are no trouble. That it is only through our belief in them, when we buy what they are selling, then it seems to create this imagined resistance.

So, be completely open; don’t resist any thought. It will scare you: ‘I’m very scary. I’m very horrendous’. Sometimes some of us are scared of beautiful thoughts also: ‘I don’t want to think that, because it might become a desire’. Nothing can happen like this without your belief.

So, let all thoughts come and let all thoughts go.

Then, what are the other forces you have in your command? Very few people in the world look at this actually. We seem to have the force of attention, and the force of belief. And attention is very troublesome. [Laughs] Because the more you want to control it, the more it wants to jump around here and there.

So, freedom, again, is not a constricted state where you’re trying to control your attention and keep it at a particular point. Although many spiritual practices prescribe this; and it’s okay. It’s a path; and if you’re fully into that particular path, that’s okay. But my submission to all of you is much more simple. Let this attention also completely go free. Let it go wherever it wants. Don’t try to exert any sense of control even over attention.

Now, everything is set free. Body is set free, breath is set free, thoughts are set free, emotions are set free, and even attention is set free.

And now you remember that there was one thing which is left; which was belief. Belief: what does it mean to set it free? That we don’t make any effort. We don’t make any effort. And to give belief to something is some effort, is a ‘doing’. (Is a seeming-doing, but still, it’s a seeming-doing). So, don’t do this also.

Don’t give belief to anything also. What is belief? Belief is the power to pretend. The truth does not need belief. You see? But the false needs constant reinforcement through this belief.

So, to believe that you are a ‘person’ you have to work hard practically the entire waking state, and consume the content of your thoughts with this belief. Without this, the ‘person’ idea cannot survive for too long.

So, drop belief also.

This is the way of the sage. The simple way.

Also I want to tell you that the sage has no intentions. There are no intentions. Everything is just appearing spontaneously. The game can be played; there can be some pretend planning. All of that can go on. But there is no intention, and there is no attachment to any outcome.

In this way, everything that you seemingly-pretended to pick up is dropped. Then naturally, naturally, in this simple surrender, just to see that ‘I never was separate. I never was a person’. We see that everything has been flowing on its own.

In this way, you will then experience the Presence of un-associated Being, you’ll experience pure Love, pure Joy, pure Peace…, without any desire for any of them. I can honestly say that it is these energies that come to be in your Presence; (not the other way around. We are not meant to chase them). These energies are in service to your own un-associated Being.

So, very simple like this: Don’t resist anything at all. Drop all effort.

And don’t believe this thought which says ‘Oh, dropping of effort is seeming like effort to me’. Na? That’s just a mind trick. Yes, I know it can seem that way initially, because the habit is to pick up and do all this heavy lifting. So initially when I say to keep down your heavy bags, it seems like ‘Oh, it takes so much effort. I’m just comfortable carrying this heavy load on my head. Why do you say keep it down?’ It can seem like that is effort. But it’s not. It can seem a little uncomfortable because you lost this seeming-mischievous teacher which was inside your head. [Laughs] Because it was always saying ‘Do this next. Go here, you’ll be happy. Go there’.

To be without this voice, or with this voice having no power, it seems a little bit of a limbo state initially. I know this. But if you can just hold my hand during this time; and I am telling you that you are learning to fly. You are not falling. You are learning to fly. Then you will find that this is the most natural, most effortless state.

And even this this thought very quickly will dissolve, that it seems like it is effort, the dropping of effort. It’s like saying that you go to work every day and I come and tell you ‘No, today actually it’s Sunday. You don’t have to go to work’. Then the mind will come and say ‘No, but I’m used to going to work, so it seems like effort not to go to work on a Sunday’. It’s just like this; nothing more than this.

Then what trouble can you have? It is only resistance which is trouble. But this is openness. This is freedom.

And I promise you that you will not say that there is something missing in this. You will only say that ‘I have lost my ability to suffer now’. ‘What have you done to me’?  [Laughs] ‘I have lost my ability to suffer’. [Big smile] Because it will feel like so much hard work to suffer, with anything.

And if somebody comes to you and says ‘I will give you a billion dollars, but you come back to how you were’ it will sound like the stupidest deal possible. And if somebody says ‘I will give you the BEST partner, if you become a person again’ it will sound like the stupidest deal possible. Somebody says ‘I will give you the body that is in the BEST shape, the best! You can then run 10 miles without stopping’ you will say ‘That sounds like the stupidest deal possible’.

Now what can come, to which you can say that ‘This is happening to me?’

[Silence]

Q: “It can tell you things that get that attention, but …”

Okay, shall we all do something together? Can we all do something together? As an experiment, we play around with something?

Just right now let your attention go completely free.

Don’t exert any control over attention.

Let it go completely free.

Let it go left, let it go to right, let it go wherever it wants.

Let it go to thoughts, let it go to emotions.

No sense of control over attention.

Be completely open to whatever it is bringing.

Don’t judge anything at all.

Let it do whatever it likes.

Just hold onto your belief, keep your belief in your pocket.

Let your attention go completely free.

Be completely open.

Be open to all that is coming.

[Silent gazing]

Let attention go, let it go wherever it wants.

[Silence]

Leave your body also free. Let it do whatever it likes.

If it wants to fall down to the ground, let it fall.

If it wants to stand up, let it stand.

Don’t exert any control over your body.

[Silence]

Let your thoughts also be completely free.

Set them free.

Whatever thoughts wants to come, just be completely open.

[Silence]

All emotions are also allowed.

All emotions can come and go.

Don’t resist anything at all.

Everything is moving naturally and freely.

Let it all just come and go.

[Silence]

Don’t try to come to any state.

Don’t be concerned about any states coming or going.

No state means anything to you.

Let it all come and let it go.

Leave your attention completely free.

No concern about where it is going.

[Silence]

Ego means resistance. Ego is another word for resistance.

When there is no resistance, and there can be no separation.

In this non-resistance, you are discovering the freedom of the sage.

And you are discovering that there is nothing that needs to be done.

There is no state that needs to be found.

[Silence]

And this might seem unnatural at first.

It might seem like you don’t have legs to stand for a while.

But this is your natural state.

Everything is allowed, nothing is resisted.

Without resistance, you cannot suffer.

Just let go.

[Silence]

Om shanti shanti shanti

Ananta: So, in the appearance, there were these sounds. And the sound was ‘Father’. And then a sound was heard from the other side, ‘Yes, you can come’.

Who’s aware of all this movement in appearance?

Did that one also move?

What does this one look like?

Q: “I don’t know Father. I can’t see it.”

A: And this I, this I, who is this one?

Q: “That was the mind.”

A: So there was awareness of the movement of appearances, and there is some new movement in the appearance saying ‘I can’t see it’, ‘I don’t know.’

Is the Awareness touched by this movement also?
At what distance are you from this Awareness?

Where are you in relation to this Awareness?

Q: “No distance. [Long pause] It is only the belief of the mind that keeps me away; that gives me the illusion of being away from it. Only the mind which separates me.”

A: Yes, but the illusion is good to see. It’s only an illusion. I can never be anything but this Awareness.

Q: “Last couple of days there’s been a lot of movement; there’s been a lot of (for lack of a better term) disturbance. I’ve been able to keep myself away from it. So I’ve been able to watch it for the most part and it hasn’t disturbed me. But at times the disturbance gets pretty loud and fills up the whole screen, so to speak.”

A: Yes, so imagine that the whole screen is filled up. Is filled up and is full of muck, full of muck. How does it touch you?

Q: “It does not.”

A: Then when we see that it does not, then we stop fearing all our fears. Anything can come, anything can go. And we stop resisting life. We stop trying to control life. And we let it unfold every moment in complete freshness and wonder. Because we see that nothing that is true here can be threatened by any appearance. And if you’re brave enough you can also say ‘Let it all come. Whatever has to come, let it come’.

Yes, so show me how you can be touched by anything which can come and go. So then our spirituality changes its complexion from being a very weak sort of spirituality, saying ‘This happened to me and then this happened; and then I went there and then this happened’ to saying ‘Nothing. All is allowed to come and go, but nothing is really happening to me. I’m untouched by the content of any appearance’.

Then we allow life to unfold without any resistances. And without resisting, you cannot suffer; there can be no suffering.

Q: Father, could I say something?

Yes, my Dear, of course.

Q: There is such a sadness here.  Such a very heavy sadness and it feels so wrong to be sitting in your presence and to be feeling sadness. It feels like exactly the opposite of how things ‘should’ be and so I just want to say it to you and bring it to you.  That’s all.  It’s all I wanted to say.

It’s very welcome.  You have to come as you are.  You don’t have to be a certain way.  In fact, it’s better that you come to satsang if there is this feeling, some feeling which is like this, you see.  It is better that you come.

Q: I didn’t want to be in the hangout with my grumpy face and I left for a bit, but when there was a space again, I just felt I have to come back in, even like this.   Yeah, I’m not really sure. It’s not about anything, I’m not really sure what’s going on.  It’s just, [Laughter] I don’t know.  I don’t know.

Is this your grumpy face?

Q: [Laughter]

Show, show, how it goes, how does it go, the grumpy face?

Q: [Laughter]

Is that as grumpy as it gets?  Doesn’t get any grumpier?

Q: Not right now. [Laughter]

Now she is working hard to be grumpy.

Q: Very hard.  [Laughter]

So it’s just a feeling, it’s just these energetic feelings, or is there something more to it?  Is there some belief about something; or no?

Q: No. Nothing. [short silence] No, there is nothing there, it’s just a, just a feeling of heaviness and sadness. No, with no story attached, whatsoever. Nothing.  Just a feeling.  But it was a feeling that made me want to avoid being in your presence, because I did not want to be here with you with that feeling, I guess; though I knew I had to be, if that makes sense.

Let’s not resist this feeling also.  Because it feels like, you know; because once we label it as something sad, then we feel like, automatically we say that it should not be here.  Let’s not say that.  Let it just be there, just see that it is also part of the appearance, isn’t it?  Whatever the feeling might be, no need to give it a label also.  You don’t know what it is.  It just is.

It’s appearing and we’re completely open to whatever gifts it is carrying for us.  You say that it is free to stay.  There is nothing which needs to fight it to go away.  It’s completely free to stay, and there is nothing here which is getting affected by this feeling.  There is nothing here, which is actually touched by it.  There is an awareness that this feeling is present but this awareness is untouched by the content of the feeling.

So it doesn’t matter if this feeling is here, if it goes away, if it comes back. None of this makes any difference to me.  All this is part of the play, and I’m completely open to this play, whatever it has to bring.  And I refuse to believe the voice of the interpreter no matter how truthful or meaningful it might sound.

And, in this openness, all is well, all is well.

Q: Thank you.

It’s very good.  And all of you also, this is very good for you to know that, we don’t say that ‘Come to Satsang only when you are happy, or feeling good or something’.  In fact, you must come to Satsang if you feel like there is some resistance to Satsang.  Feel like some resistance is there, even it could be boredom.  ‘Oh, enough, enough.  He says the same thing everyday’.  [Laughter]

The Sangha is not here not just to share laughter.  We’re here to share everything, everything.