You will never become anything more than what you already are. If there is anyone that promises that you will now become something special or extraordinary, then it is not true. You already Are That. It’s just that you’re deeply identified sometimes as being a person; which you never were.
That’s why for 3 years almost, I’ve been asking the question; I’ve been also offering $1,000 to anyone who shows me ‘a person’ and nobody has claimed that award…, because it doesn’t exist. There is no such thing as ‘a person’. So, since the person doesn’t exist and you can never become that which doesn’t exist, obviously, then the only thing left to do is to check what is here.
What are you right now? …, (before any mental conclusion about it).
Are you not aware of this entire appearance?
If you are not aware, then who is aware?
And what knows?
This is the place where I lose most of you, but I have to keep trying. [Laughs]
What is that which knows the phenomenal appearance?
I know the phenomenal appearance.
Who knows that I know?
So it is Awareness which is aware of Itself.
I know that I know.
I am aware that I am aware.
That’s why when I ask you the question: ‘Are you aware now?’…, what happens? (…before even you can say ‘happens’?)
Naturally, this seeing is there: ‘Yes, I am aware’.
It is Awareness Itself that sees it is aware.
And I can understand that when these words are spoken, it can seem like it’s just completely un-understandable for many. It seems like the mind comes with a lot of resistance and it just seems so abstract and obscure. Because we’re used to a phenomenal sort of seeing.
So many of you will enjoy much more when I say: ‘Can you stop being now?’ Because the sense of Being is phenomenally perceived. It could be the root phenomena. It seems much more tangible because it’s our habit to go for phenomenal experiences.
But when I say: ‘Are you aware now?’ it’s even over before you can conceptualize the question. And yet you know the answer is ‘Yes’. How do you know the answer is ‘Yes’?
I am aware. This ‘I’ which is aware is Awareness Itself.
So, if you can leave the ‘of’…, ‘I am aware OF…’ aside for some time, if you can leave the ‘of’ aside for some time, and just stay with the sense ‘I am aware’…
What are we saying actually? What is the meaning of the word ‘aware’? Who taught you how to be aware? And can you not be [aware]? Can we change it to ‘unaware’?
What happens? All of you will be able to just KNOW ‘Of course, I am aware’.
‘But, but, but…’ It is the ‘but, but, but…’ which is trouble. The sense of ‘but nothing happened’. What does it mean? It only means ‘It was not a phenomenal experience, and I’m used to only phenomenal experiences’.
So when you say ‘I am aware’ what are we saying actually? What does it mean to be aware?
Is it subject to the world of duality, where I can be aware OR un-aware? Can I switch states? The content can keep changing. It can also change from something to nothing, from waking to sleep. But who is aware of both; of either?
I am…, (before ‘am’).
Q: [A couple of words only; inaudible]
Wait, wait. Are you with me in ‘I am aware’? Don’t let your mind dilute it with ‘this’ and ‘he said this’. Forget it. I don’t care what I said.
This sense ‘I am aware’ is pointing you directly to what you are. You don’t need any other words. So, if you stay with me in this ‘I am aware’…, then is it unclear or clear? Where are you in this?
And this is for all of you. Don’t let your mind come in and distract you with something else. All of you can say ‘I am aware’. What does it mean? What is the meaning of ‘aware’? Is it a state that can be turned on and off? Can it come and go, this awareness?
Let’s look together at this. Don’t worry about any conclusion that the mind is making.
Prior to Being also, ‘Am I aware?’ That which is aware of Presence.
Yet, because Being is made up of Awareness alone, it comes to the recognition of its Source in this way. Because otherwise, what is the point of inquiry?
Awareness is aware of itself, and Being recognizes that this is what is…
Yes. It only comes after, and within. But it is made up of the same knowing.
So, it is true that [Nisargadatta] Maharaj prescribed the practice of ‘Stay with the Presence’. And with this ‘Staying with the Presence’ then ultimately you realize that even the sense ‘I Am’ is not what you are. He said ‘The only thing you can say is true is the sense I Am. Ultimately even that is not true’. So, I find no trouble in pointing you directly to that which is your very own Source of Being Itself. You see? And you cannot deny the experience of that. So even though you’re reporting as Being, you’re speaking as Being, you cannot say ‘I am not aware’.
Exactly. So who is reporting this?
Q: “Being is.”
Being is. That’s the point. This recognition that ‘Awareness is aware of Itself, and I am That’…, arises for who? Awareness is always aware of it. This recognition arises for who?
So, only Being is here for any recognition.
Q: “How can the Being…? [Inaudible]”
It [Being] recognizes that ‘This is where I come from’.
Just like the river can see where I’m floating. [‘I am the riverbed, and the appearance is the river’ Ananta had said earlier in satsang.]
That’s why often I’ve said that the sense ‘I Am’ is a two way gate: it has the power of belief and it can attach to various things; but you also use the sense ‘I Am’ to go within the ‘Am-ness’ itself and come to see the Source of the ‘Am’ which is ‘I’ itself.
You see, the Knowing is always Knowing.
Awareness is always aware, and this is always ‘I’.
So although Being is coming to a realization of its Source,
The ‘I’ has always been ‘I’ .
Even in the playing of ‘I’ as ‘I Am’,
‘I’ has remained as ‘I’.
The confusion and the delusion, and all of that, arises for the playing part of the the ‘I Am-ness’. But in the play, the ‘I’ has never left the ‘I’.
It’s not true. It’s not true that it [ego/personhood idea] can only be stripped off by a Being marinating in the Presence I Am, (which is beautiful. I’m not doubting.)
But to see the Source, I feel, is the quickest chop. All the sense ‘I am this, I am that’…, once you see that ‘I am nothing. This has no quality, no attribute. This is what I Am.’…, then this Awareness Being Aware of Itself, and the recognition that Awareness is Aware of Itself…, is the quickest sword to cut your head off; not to stay with the sense ‘I Am’.
You do whatever feels more comfortable to you, between these two. Whatever feels more at home for you, you’ll be fine.
What are the options we are talking about? The option is ‘Should I stay with God? (as Being)’ or ‘Should I stay with the Absolute from which even God comes?’ What options are more beautiful? [Laughs] I have to say it like that since you say it so directly.
I have already said that, in my experience, I feel that directly we can see the Absolute no-thing-ness, which is the Source of Being. It is the ‘I’ which always is.
Then you say ‘As Being, then let me stay as Being’. Stay as God. The one that is saying ‘What is quicker for me?’ is neither, you see?
Here it was already said that there was not this sense that I would have neither the attention span nor the patience to just stay with the ‘I Am’ all the time. I don’t even feel it is a requirement.
So, you want to realize the Self now…, then it needs no patience, no trust also. Are you aware now? Or not? That is your realization of the Self now.
Q: [Laughs] [Inaudible]
Who are You? Who are you that says ‘For Awareness says this, for Being like this, for me like this’. Who are you in all of this?
How did you leave Awareness and become Being? How did you become Being? Don’t fall for these tricks.
Because if you have remained as Awareness and it is your direct experience that this is true, then why are you trying to sort things out for Being?
Exactly. Exactly. And who are you? Exactly. I agree with you. But you cannot leave. I have been saying this every day:
You cannot leave Awareness.
Yes, because to recognize the Source of Being clears it up for Being very quickly.
What is recognized? It is recognized that I Am Awareness.
Where are you in relation to the knowing? It is recognized that there is a knowing. Is there an ‘I’ that is in relation to the knowing in some way?
How far from you is knowing?
How far from you is knowing?
Q: How can it be far?
How can it be far? Then can you not be this? Can you be something else? If there is no distance, no separation, then can I be something other than that?
And this recognition is happening in the Presence of Being? Or not?
Yes. Because this recognition is naturally there; in the sleep state no question about it. So the being is recognizing its Source.
This Awareness, I Am.
Before ‘Am’…., ‘I’.
Then what is left to do? How many years should we keep our attention on Being?
[Laughter in the room, and Ananta laughing.] The bliss is coming from inside, but his mind is saying ‘No, no, no. No, no, no…, No, don’t come yet’.
Q: ‘…all the great Masters…’ [Inaudible]
Forget it. Please forget it. You stay with your direct experience. Forget even what I’m saying. NOW, I’m saying. Where do you lose me in your direct experience? You stay with your direct experience.
So, I hear what you’re saying. You’re saying that your idea of freedom would be that there are no more thoughts coming from the mind; the end of the mind.
I have not met anyone like that. Definitely it is not there, so I can’t show you how to get there. I doubt very much also that this is predominately what Bhagavan was saying, because…
But it is like this; the allowing of all to come and go; the Samadhi. I doubt very much that [inaudible] said that ‘the mind completely stops’. I would like to see it. At least I cannot offer you that.
So, his point was that ‘There must come a state where there is just no thought, because as long as there is thought, the potential for belief is there’. I cannot promise you that; because from here also, thoughts arise…, but are not believed.
Don’t believe your next thought. Many get confused by the simplicity of this instruction.
Q: “I try to follow these instructions…”
Just now. It’s now. It’s always now.
Excerpt from full satsang of 2nd Feb. 2016
“The Supreme Will is Taking Care of Everything”
Thank you Beloved Anantaji