Keep Belief in Your Pocket and Set the World Free - 18th July 2016

Life will make the space to align with your innermost urge. So if your innermost urge now is the recognition of the truth and the letting go of that which is false, you will find that life makes the space. Don't try to do something about it. This doership actually is one of the strongest pillars of the ego. If there is a desire in you to play with both ends of the spectrum—the Leela and the truth—then that is how this manifest will appear. And as that becomes clearer and clearer—'I just want the truth of Who I am'—then you will find the trust and devotion in that which is running this life, which takes care of even this body, that will increase. And also you find yourself more and more in the inquiry and in satsang. In fact, it's just you don't have to even do that; even that is being done. And it's home. The development of trust can be very simple. All you have to do is just see how what is being shared in satsang, how it is. Play with that, experiment with that, and you see that it helps you see. And as you see some things really work, then that trust gets developed. So as trust gets developed more and more as you hear the words of satsang and imbibe them, then you find that one day, without even making the switch like that, you find that not just trust but devotion is here. And it's one. The love is already here. So love mixed with trust is devotion.

Oh yeah, this actually is a very good space to be in. What's cooking? But this is really not this...

I don't know-ness can seem a bit uncomfortable, but it's actually very auspicious. And as you get used to this grayness of 'I don't know,' this openness of 'I don't know,' then you will find that you don't need to rest on conclusions all the time. The mind is always making a conclusion: 'Get to some conclusion. What do I do now? See, what am I supposed to do?' You think all of this... as we get used to not having any of these conclusions, then we get used to our truth which is not based on these mental conclusions. The mind is pushing some conclusion, pushing some interpretation. If you allow them to come and go, you find that it's so simple. What we speak about is because we are used to buying the ideas like, 'I don't rest enough,' 'You should do better at this,' 'You should manage your things better,' 'You should only be in satsang,' 'You should only be at work.' If you keep switching all these ideas on, you don't worry about them. Let them come and go. See, you're not sure of the ideas?

Yes, yes. If it is possible just to simply keep your attention in that way, like you're just observing. Very quick sometimes to reach that space, not blowing up, but suddenly feel it's him. It feels very social game stuff.

Yes, yes, yes. Actually, the last couple of weeks I've been speaking about this a lot. This primal fear, this dropping of the identity to the mind is death. So when Bhagavan Maharaj said that you have to go through your death to find your freedom, this is what he meant. Because this not knowing, this neutrality, is wobbly, suffocating, shaky. It can come, and we want to run and hide behind a concept. The mind will offer a specific purpose. It gave you the answer: 'If this was it, you just do that.' And you buy that just to get away from this. But you can take the wobbliness for sometimes. You can take the air, let it pass. Then you see that you get comfortable with that not knowing, this neutrality. And as you get more and more comfortable with that not knowing, in fact, you start enjoying this. Then you do the movie not knowing what the next scene is like. We want to make interpretations and judgments which take away the joy from the present moment. This not knowing—you don't know what the next moment is going to be, you don't know what I am going to say in the next five seconds—enjoy this movie. That is when you're truly meeting life. Otherwise, we are meeting our ideas of life. So let it shake, let it feel calm, let happen what happens. All these energetic movements will become like popcorn. Not such a big deal. Over here it comes, okay, it feels a bit shaky in this not knowing, and it's okay.

Like a check about... what's your favorite food? Okay, biryani. Okay, so you're in this... have you heard me talk about this conveyor belt of thoughts? This example comes from an actual restaurant in London which is called Yo! Sushi. So what happens in this restaurant is that you're sitting at your tables and there is an actual conveyor belt which comes across all rooms with all the dishes over there. So whatever you like on the conveyor belt, you just pick up. You don't have to order, you don't have to do anything. So the mind is like this conveyor belt. It brings various ideas. So you can just allow them to come and go. Now suppose that you love biryani so much that you can't resist when it comes on the conveyor belt. Then you will find that initially this impulse will be there when the dish is crossing. You know, you can smell it coming with all this saffron and everything, you can smell it, and then you think, 'Maybe just one last one.' Yeah, you pick it up. Like this, the mind will offer you concepts saying, 'Oh, but this not knowing is too scary,' you see? 'It's too crazy, you know.' So all these concepts will come. All your concepts of unworthiness, not doing it right—all these will come because these are your favorite concepts. You indulge in them, and now there is a habit to pick them up. So the mind uses these opportunities to offer these up on the conveyor belt. So all we have to do is not to... initially it can seem like effort. Initially it can seem like effort. So when I say that there is no practice or no effort here, actually it is true. Because actually it is in the picking up that the effort is. But because our habit has been to pick up, it seems like there is effort not to pick it up. So as long as that feels like effort, my suggestion has been that go ahead, make the effort and not pick it up. It means nothing; it only means allow it to come and go. Let the conveyor keep moving. You don't buy anything from that.

You will buy—everyone buys, you see—something or the other. So when you do buy, then don't buy the next one which will be the guilt one. So the mind will come and say, 'See, now you are such a bad boy, you picked up the biryani and he told you not to.' Then you pick up that one. And then when you come, 'Oh, you're such a movie seeker, you'll never make it.' Pick up that one. Not to do that. You picked up one? That's fine. Don't pick up the next. That's it. 'We started with the salad actually. Okay, now that I started I might as well have the mangoes and might as well have the dessert.' This is how conditioning keeps increasing. So if you picked up the salad and biryani, don't pick up the dessert. If you picked up everything, don't pick up the next meal. There's nothing to feel guilt about. See, here there is no perfection to be attained. And as you allow your thoughts to come and go, then what happens? You'll notice a shift in the quality of your attention. So if your attention is like a fist which is holding on to things, and you let it go, then it just opens. All of us can play with this if you like. If I concentrated either with our thoughts or some content in the phenomenal realm, as you open the fist of our attention, we find that our perspective becomes more global. This is the letting go. This is the openness. So allow your attention to be free. This is how to be tension-free. If you allow your attention to be free, you will see that if you find a little stressed or tensed up or something, your attention will be closed up in the fist like this. Allow it to let it go and peace will come. We are used to doing, doing, trying to get it right, trying to make it. And even in this spirituality and the self-discovery, we try to use the same rules, but they don't apply, which is why it is so frustrating. 'I try, I try at this.' And your natural resting into what you are... this is simple recognition. You are tension-free. Allow your thoughts also to come and go. Just don't give your belief to anything at all. Keep your belief in your pocket and set the world free, including your own body. You have maybe some concepts of the body; leave them all.