How Do I Confirm That I Am Aware? - 25th July 2016

How do I confirm I am aware? Why do I use these words 'I am aware'? Why would I say 'I am aware' if it was not the truth? And yet this awareness is not seen phenomenally. It is just aware of itself because of the primal knowing of knowingness itself. Why are we more inclined to say 'I am aware' rather than saying 'I am not aware'? If it was not found, we could be neutral to it and say either, and it wouldn't make a difference. Why is it that we are more inclined to say 'I am aware'? Because there must be the knowing of this already, which is very, very deep. And then once you see that 'I' and 'awareness' are the same thing, then see if you can become some other 'I'. Can you really be another 'I'? Can you be that which owns this body-mind? Do all other labels, do all of the reference points for this 'I' start to fade away? Start to lose their magnetism, their strength? Because everything else that you use the 'I' for, there is an awareness of it. This awareness is the most fundamental, the most primal backdrop to any appearances you can see.

We can see where we have this... those who are actively following... when I... yeah, I can't find it, Father, but it still somehow feels separate. A little separate.

Yes, yes. So let's keep looking for points of separation, because this is the idea, you see? This idea of separation is the whole cause of all of this drama. Without the sense of separation, we would not be able to pretend to be people. So now let's keep looking for this separation. Let's not presume any separation. Let's look: how is this 'I' different from this awareness? 'I am aware.' What is the difference between 'I' and 'aware'? What is the separation? Is there 'aware' and 'I am not aware'? Where is 'I' and awareness is not? That must mean separation. If there was 'I' but awareness was not, that would mean separation. Or awareness, but 'I am not it'. It has to be separate only that way, isn't it?

I'm very happy if you're able to drill down on this like this and not go with any other mental gymnastics. When we say 'Are you aware now?', the answer is 'I am aware.' The question is very simple: what is the distinction or difference between 'I' and 'aware'? And all of you have already seen that no amount of visualization, creativity, or appearances are helping with this question. So in that way, we learn to keep them aside. No thought can help us here. All the concepts which are needed for this inquiry are being provided from here; nothing else you need to add on top.

Who is this 'I' that is aware? Is this 'I' an object? Is it light or sound? Does it have a size or shape? Does it have a start or end? Was it born and will it die? What can we say about this 'I'? Those of us who are looking at this, don't change this question for any other question and don't come to any conclusion. This is the time where a lot of very fancy spiritual concepts or something attractive in the worldly realm will be offered to you by our mind. Just let them come and go. Don't settle for any conclusion about anything. Remain with the question. Even if this entire lifetime goes with this contemplation, it will be worthwhile. I am aware. Who is this 'I'?