Attachment is at the Root of Fear (Silent Retreat) - 18th Oct. 2015

The voice of the ego, the voice of the mind, also derives its power from you. So although it might seem like the trickiest, most subtle, cunning voice, it is exactly what's to push. It cannot outsmart the Supreme intelligence that you are. So let's do a small exercise today so we get to the root of the beliefs that we still seem to hold. Many of you are now saying that 'I don't know what I'm holding on to, but it feels like I'm still holding on to something.' So let's see then if we can unravel some of this and use the trickster itself to uproot this trickery. Use the tricks of the ego to weaken the foundations of this identity.

So just for ourselves—I will not be asking you to expose these if you don't want to—find out what it is that you are most fearful about. What is your biggest fear? What is the message underlying your biggest fear? And come face to face with it. Don't deny it, don't try to push it away. Even if in Satsang it doesn't seem so strong, just stay with it. And if many of them are coming, then just start with one. We will look at all of them; just start with one. This fear is a pointer to some attachment which still remains. There is attachment at the root of fear. Find out what type of attachment this is. Is it to something in the world? Is it to something that you seem to have? Understand that whatever the fear is, it is based on this attachment. Come face to face with this attachment. No running, no resisting, and no denial. Right now is not a good time to use denial. Let all the feelings associated with this attachment come up. Don't hide, don't dive.

Now find out which identity that you are carrying is attached to this attachment. If the attachment was for children, for example, then find out whether it is the father or mother identity. If it is to a special relationship, look at the relationship identity. The identity which still must be dear to us, that we are still attached to—which identity are we unwilling to let go of? Now look at the thoughts which reinforce this identity, the thoughts about this identity, and you will find that there is belief in these thoughts. Belief has been given to these thoughts; that's why this identity still seems strong. Again, no room for denial or proclamations. This is not the time for this kind of self-deception. Look, look closely and unravel the thoughts behind this identity. Find the one thought, the one thought which you're not willing to let go of, and stay with this one thought. Inquire into who this thought is referring to. Whose thought is this? And as you look more and more, you will find that this thought does not apply to you at all because the 'you' to which it is referring does not exist. Give up this thought. Let it go. Allow it to burn in the fire of this Satsang here. You have been deluded by this long enough. It is not in service to you; it is only the doorway to misery. And if for some of you this thought is coming up strongly to expose in Satsang, you can do so now.

So there is a... it comes from a feeling of inadequacy, and probably right from my childhood. Today, I think I questioned my wife's love for me because of that thought, and it's coming up very strongly. Through you, I want to please sit at your feet, Father. Thank you.

So you want to expose it or no?