What Is Closer Than Truth? - 28th June 2018

Whether it has been killing that freedom is so close, just beyond this wall of distracting thoughts that seem to kill my awareness and block my path and my field of vision. I see this is the largest piece of awareness, but I fail to expose it and offer it at your feet in the heart. Freedom is close, but even that is not close enough. What is closer than truth? What means no parts, not a step, no joining? What is that? It doesn't need even a thought to be stirred, no feeling, even though peace, joy, love has to arise. Nothing has to happen. What is that?

This presence which we are tasting now is ever free, but it has given itself the ability to wear these masks, you see. So before we can decide how close or far it is, we must clarify our starting point. And if you find that at the starting point itself you are free, then no journey is left. So then you like no journey or no seeking that become a concept. How many of you feel after a bit not to come into something and it's fine, completely fine like that? Then we have not tasted the presence which is spoken of. You can say being, your consciousness, Atma. Do you feel that you have? I just want to know this one for some feedback, that this sense is tyranny, it's a bit dodgy, or actually no idea?

So what would you see? Apparent silence cannot be mine. Silence cannot be mine.

So it's not mine. Before you can reach that state, is that not already here? These states will come and go. All states will come and go. Everything became silent as you were walking, and this something that you were still there, that which saw. So you saw that without the noise, your being is just there. Now the same being is here, same existence is here, but sometimes in their minds can't seem to come back. But nothing really happened to that.

What can happen in these spiritual experiences of awakening is that after they happen, it can feel like, 'I must hold onto this.' After they're gone, it will feel like, 'Oh, that should not have gone, and that is freedom. Once I get to that permanently, then I will be free.' But it is not. It is a showing you that all these states can change, but you remain what you are. So freedom is not the holding on to of a particular state. Freedom is the allowing of all states to come and go. Now as everything fell away, you were there, and as things come back, you are still there. Is that you really affected by the coming and going of this? It is only a confusion which are affected. 'Oh, that was it, that should I have that, I should only live like that.'