To Suffer You Must Have a Notion of Yourself - 25th October 2017

The freedom is really that freedom to see that... and you said something like this, I don't know if you meant it in the same way, you said that it's all me. So this freedom is to see that all of this is an aspect of you. Is it not? As a concept here, you will not learn anything if you just pick up the concept 'I am the Self, I am God, I am awareness.' All that is pointless. So all you have to do is follow where I'm pointing and to see where that is, what that is, without any preconception, without any trial judgment, and not allowing any prior knowledge to color your own direct insight. Following what I'm saying so far?

Only on account that I can do this. I'll trash the hard thing to do.

Yeah, it is the stopping of work. It is the stopping of effort. What has been happening is that we are trying to reach it through our mind. We're trying to compute the answer of this problem: Who am I? Or how do I get freedom? Now we found that using just the mind alone is not getting us there. At the limit of my intellect also, I have not come to this recognition of the Self. So there must be a deeper insight, but an intuitive insight which can be what about through this circle, whose presence in Satsang, that is what we are trying to do.

Now if you make a project out of this, if you make a plan this out of this, then it can seem like the journey is long. You can seem like, 'Oh, I have so many tendencies, I have a past, I have ideas about how my future should be,' you see? And all of these I have to work through. That is what many spiritual practices, many parts are suggesting: that you look at all your tendencies, you forgive your powers, you let go of your grievances one by one. That is one way to do it. Here we are getting to the root of this because all of it, all of this is dependent on what? It is all defect not you. If you were not there, you could not have had a past. If you were not there, you could not have any had any tendencies. If you were not there, then you would not have a state of mind, whether it is happy or depressed. So the root of all of this existence is you.

Now this you has been misunderstood. This you who has been misunderstood and defined as if this you is a limited body, is a limited entity. If I ask you very naturally, as if we are talking as friends, if I asked you, 'So who are you?' what would you say?

I would say my name.

So then let's go slowly. So first you would say your name. Whose name is this? Can you point to that one whose name this is? Whose mission?

Yes.

So points to... points to the body. This body is a machine. Is there anything else which is official? Oh, that is what it is, a part of the body. This mind is what? Is it a part of the body like to clean, or is it a separate entity? And so this machine, as you rightly said, is we define as the body and the mind. Now maybe that was born to your parents, that was named Abhishek today, and whatever age it was me in coffee shake. Now what is common between that baby that was born and this one that is here? The body act body, every cell has changed every few years. We settle up the body I changed. So that baby body which was born is no longer here. Is that wool example of the Ship of Theseus? Have you heard it?

There's a ship in ancient Greece or Rome, is one ship of famous ship called the Ship of Theseus. Now what is happening is that this ship is getting old and one more one every part of the ship is being King, is being repeated. One part is gone, the participant after a few years that thing of the original part is gone. Nothing of the original parts of that ship is there. Everything has been replaced. Now is it still the same Ship of Theseus? This is a ship with chief of Theseus, but what made that ship ten years ago this ship ten years later? There is no thought in common between the two. In the same wheel, every part of this body has been changed. What is that which has remained constant? Find all the answers right now and this is heating all these questions in you so that something in flour on the basis of these questions.

Now you say it, 'I am the body and the mind,' is it now? The mind is even more fleeting. Mind is what? Is a bundle of thoughts and similar energies like memory, imagination. All of these energy constructs, let put it... let's put it in one terminology called mind. This is also constantly changing. Thought is there, there's a certain quality, you see? Ten years ago if I asked you, 'What is it that you believe in? Who is it that you are? What type of person are you?' you would have given a different answer. Today you would give a different answer. So all our thoughts, all our beliefs, all our value system also has changed over a period of time. Neither is constant. And yet the sense that 'I am a machine' has remained constant.

So the sages have said if you are looking for the truth, you must find that one which is unchanging. The definition of reality according to the sages of Advaita Vedanta is to find that which is the unchanging one. So that is what we're looking for. That is one clue. The second clue is to find in this unchanging one, we must look for that which witnesses everything that changes. I don't get intimidated by any of this. I'm just giving you the main pointers and we have all the time, as many songs as you like. I'm just here for this direct inquiry, so don't worry about it being a rush all the way. You're taking too much time, what anyone is thinking, that thing is your concern about a new.

So we said we've got to close down. That which is changing is not my real Self, is not reality. But to find that which is the unchanging, I have to find that which witnesses everything that changes. What is it? The world already knows the answers to the questions. Very well spotted. But already you know that those answers which are not from your direct insight are completely virtual. This like... is like saying 'I am a Martian' or 'I am Chilean from some other planet.' It doesn't really matter because it's just concept. If you have learned to answer 'I am awareness,' how does it help in any meaning when life is slapping us about? It doesn't help anyone.

So it is the concept of the answer will not help. It is an inner insight being due to in fact the answer is completely worthless, but the looking is very valuable. So the point of this question on like questions in school and college is that I am NOT looking for the right answer. The right answer is worthless. Whole teacher will tell you that, but I can... this is the right answer is worthless because there is no right answer. But the process of looking something for this channel, that is so this if there is a little inclination for this kind of inquiry of looking, then it's very straightforward. Then we don't have to go through the auxiliary processes of any other practice or chanting or other, you know, or any other thing. Nothing we have to do is all this taken care of in this because you know what is the root of all suffering?

The root of all suffering is the notion that you have about yourself. I can... that you could not suffer. You could still experience pain, you could still experience pleasure, but that which we call psychological suffering, that is impossible. For psychological suffering, there must be an idea that you have about yourself. And once you have an idea about yourselves, then you have ideas about how the world should be. Because if you are X, then the world has to be Y. You are none of that, then the world can be any which way and it doesn't bother us. Now where does this climb notion come from that I am... sorry, could you repeat it? You must have a notion about yourself, an idea about yourself. Now what is this idea? Where does it come from?

If I tell you another secret, I can tell you that in this very moment you are free from all notions about your soul. Like right now, in this very moment, if I don't give you a moment even to think, you are not suffering. I know this because in this movement there is no suffering. To suffer you must have a notion, you must have a constant. So where does this concept come from? Comes from an awareness of myself, is it? Comes from the awareness or does it come to that from the same would you point it earlier, which was this mind? We said it is a bundle of stars and similar image. Now need for the next want to come. Wait for the next 10 to come. And if it is there, that little bit of courage is there exposing what should I think about, what should I think about? Easy one another you giving a lot of tips. One tip is if you try to fight the mind, if you see 'I don't get thoughts,' then you find thoughts or thought. The minute you start inquiring like this, I say wait for the next thought to come.

As you pointed out earlier, which was this mind, we said it is a bundle of thoughts and similar images. Now, no need for the next one to come. Wait for the next one to come. And if that little bit of courage is there, exposing, 'What should I think about? What should I think about?' You see, I am giving a lot of tips. One tip is: if you try to fight the mind, if you say, 'I don't want thoughts,' then you find thoughts upon thoughts. The minute you start inquiring like this, I say, 'Wait for the next thought to come.' It seems like the mind sometimes runs out of words. Like that which had so much to say, when you say, 'Okay, come on, tell me, what is it you want to say?' it becomes quiet or becomes very docile. Even the quality of the thoughts becomes reduced. The mind, which was the tormentor, tormenting, tormenting—you say, 'Kick up, bring it on, what do you want?'—it becomes a weak pet. Because I am inviting thoughts to come and move. What happened? Tell me, what happens? Nothing.

Who's thought is saying, 'I wish I were not understanding anything, man'? I could choose to accept it. You see, that is very good.

So, there are two powers that can connect with this thought. First is the power of attention. It gives it a solid appearance. It seems to move and be a person. If it doesn't have your attention, it's just like a light. Like, please, nobody realized what it had or what the content was. That is the power of attention. The second power, rightly identified, is the power of belief. The thought is proposing an idea to you, and there is a primal power that you have as Consciousness: it's your turn whether to give your assent to that thought or whether to not give assent to them. If you see this, then you have already seen. But one's words once said, the only seeming choice you have is whether to go along with what your thought is saying or not. Don't worry about the word 'seeming' right now; I'll explain that to you soon. So, the only seeming choice you have is to go along with your next thought or not.

I said that until you go along with the thought, unless you buy a notion from the mind, you cannot suffer. In your direct experience, you try to suffer without having any notion. 'I'm not aware, she's not aware, I'm not aware of myself, I'm not aware that I am in contact'—then all of that doesn't exist. Believe it's another dimension. All the time, what these things are telling you is to become your primal skills. In a way, you can see that what is the root of all suffering? What are the powers? Attention and belief.

Now, I would completely agree with what you were saying about awareness if it was coming from a place of inside. Now, it is just sounding like a short-circuiting mechanism. If I just see that I am awareness, then nothing really can bother me. None. So, is this from your inside? Is it something you heard from what I said? To be honest, I am overloaded with so much information that I don't know which is which.

So now, why it has to stop? All the reading first, and pay attention to what I'm saying. You can easily forget about anything you heard from anybody, okay? It has no value right now. In this moment, there is no value. Just forget about it because this is not that kind of... it's not an exam at all. There's even this leeway. So, I'm telling you a very, very important secret: the secret to suffer. Yeah, the secret to suffer. I'm explaining it to you because the natural state is not suffering. But the secret to suffer, which you are doing almost inadvertently—you're feeling like it is happening inadvertently: 'I'm just suffering, I am suffering, I am tired of it, and I want freedom from it'—but you have been suffering in this way because we have caught... all of humanity has got addicted to believing what the thoughts are saying about you. And satsang is a rehab for that addiction.

And you will soon see that whatever the thought might be saying about you has no basis. And the good news about that is that without this assent to a thought, without this belief to a thought, you cannot suffer. So, this is very, very important. When there is openness and you want to come to the end of suffering, I am telling you that what the mind will come and say... but something... what you can just allow the thought to come and go. Don't serve it tea, then no trouble. If there are some 'buts' which you cannot allow them to go, they seem to have to be so magnetic that you end up... you feel like, 'I just end up believing them.' Is there something like that which occurs to you?

I think the thoughts... I think they are so automated. In those scenarios, I think the thoughts and beliefs over the years are so automated. I could not freeze them for you right now. It's on autopilot. And it's nothing more than a feeling sometimes, a very strong feeling. It's like, you know, it's like a wave. That I am only human and I'm standing in an ocean. As much as I try, as much as a good swimmer I might be, I don't have a choice. They will always carry me to the shore.

And no person can swim across this ocean of samsara. No human can do it. Nobody has ever been able to do it. Those that appear externally to have done it have come to the recognition that the ocean is just a moving part of themselves. There is no separate entity which is swimming in the ocean. They have come to this recognition that even beyond this ocean, I am. Samsara is nothing but the moving aspect of my own being. Now, all of these might sound like very big words to you, very fancy initially, but if you continue with openness, they will become your direct insight. You will be able to say these words about yourself, but not with the sense of specialness, but from an inner insight. Yes, that is what satsang is about. It is not about swimming across the ocean of samsara; it is transcending the ocean of samsara and seeing already that I am beyond it.

My first point, which is that you need a thought to suffer—how could he say to be, but to be unhappy, you definitely need one. So, this is as simple as that. And the good news is that in this moment, whatever you might have believed in the past, you are empty of that until the next thought comes from the mind and you buy into that offer. And it seems like the entire garbage can is back, the entire pool of conditioning is back, the entire tree of tendencies is back. Okay, you spoke about fear. This is like a good primary search for anyone. So, this is very good that you are asking this question.

Now, even with fear, there is so much space within your being that if the entire world's fear was to be experienced, it would not move you. Even with fear, the trouble is our interpretation of that fear, our judgment of it. Even the idea that 'this is fear,' even the label 'fear.' Actually, fear today, I suggest, you know what I mean when I say taste it energetically? We don't interpret it. Don't interpret it. Just feel this experience, this taste. You know, the fire energetically. Guruji takes a very good example of this. He says, 'Be scared of fear.' But if you just look at it energetically, you will find that it's not so different from the feeling of the excitement that you might feel for a good evening, maybe looking forward to this excitement going on. Whatever is actually... when you know, holiday is something... it is not so different from that which we call fear. But it is this interpretation, this label, which makes us feel the fear should not come because fear is something difficult to people. Yet when we feel good, that... if you were to look at it just energetically...

Yes, it can be emotional because what has been happening in all our life is that we are meeting the world through the lens of our mind already. The mind is giving you strategies. You see, now say this is fun. If you notice, before you step into the restaurant, your mind is already saying, when you walk up to the waiter or the waiter comes to you, this is how you want to order. The mind is already creating strategies. If you meet somebody new, the mind is already judging this. So, we are not meeting life as it is. You are meeting it through the filter of this mind. So, like if the person has come close to you and already you have a preconceived notion about what you're meeting. So, this side, all of this garbage up here, the photocopy... we have been experiencing life in the photocopy version based on the mind's interpretation of me.

I see often that I never even saw a flower until I met my Master. I had never seen it. I had only met an idea of it. Immediately something comes, the mind's interpretation comes, and this we are buying. You see, we get so involved in the interpretation that we lose what is in front of us, even sensorily. So, what I said about fear applies to the rest of life also. We don't need this mind to taste life to its fullest. Those who are tasting it properly are doing it without this mind, without this filter, without this mask. So, the purpose of this mind is to convince you that you are a limited body-mind, you are a limited self, you are a limited entity that which we call the person or the ego. What is the design of Consciousness? It wanted to taste this world as if it is a limited ego, so it gave itself this tool of the mind.

Now, coming to satsang, you might feel like it is your effort which gives perception, but nobody has been so long and so open in satsang unless there was already some deep longing for this truth. External mechanisms aside, there are deeper forces that work here. When someone comes to the truth, it is Consciousness itself saying, 'I'm done with my limited play. I am done with my limited idea about myself, and I am open to this exploration of something which is beyond these limitations.' So, that is what is at play here. That is what is functioning here. So, you will find that you cannot suffer, you cannot pick up a limited notion about yourself, nothing will be too overwhelming, nothing will shake you up, unless you mix the mental judgment or interpretation with it.

What to do with this interpretive mind? If you can allow it to just come and go, not to intervene as much as you can. Now, at times in which something will be picked up, you can have the sages... you believe anyone who tells you that 'I don't believe a single thought that comes to me'? It's not true. When the sages... the Rama did it, Krishna did it, everyone is that. Okay? But when that is picked up, individuality has been experienced. It is dropped very quickly with no sense of guilt. 'Oh, I shouldn't have done that. My Master said don't pick up that thought. See, now I am with you. I can't do this. It is too difficult for me.' Then we picked up the salad, then we become the main course and the dessert also. Because of sense, it's fine. But don't pick up an unworthy idea about yourself. And if you pick up guilt about yourself, you are not moving refreshed. Now, in every moment, nothing, nothing is stronger than your Being in the present moment. This moment, you are all prior conditioning.

I'm not. My things, because of trying to control too much or using my mind, I think I was trying to solve this maze for a long time. And I was... I don't know if I tried to solve it or not, but the maze came into existence nonetheless. And it showed up like a sneaky thief that sometimes said hi occasionally, like a gorilla. Those guys, that gorilla guys that hide, come attack, and then go and hide again. And as soon as you ask them to come out, they will not show their face.

And we love this. This is... once it is quite natural to come. In fact, 99% of the time when I say this, this is the usual response. It has many different words, you see, which is that, 'Oh, but then what is going to happen to my life? Who is going to run my life?' And my heart-joking answer usually is that, in the previous way we have been going so far, has it been so good? Now that sperm is ready to be found, exactly. So, if that way has not worked, we can experiment with this way for a day or two and see what happens. That much is enough. I mean, if life has got us to a point where we are depressed, we want freedom, we are tired of the maze, all of that which you are reporting, then try a new strategy. See, because the fear will come: 'But how will I make decisions?' Earlier in my life, it is a very common fear.

How we have been going so far, has it been so good? Now that the sperm is ready to be found, exactly. So, if that way is not working, we can experiment with this way for a day or two and see what happens. That much is enough. I mean, if Guruji has got us to a point where we are depressed, we want freedom, we are tired of the meal—all of that which you are reporting—then try a new strategy. See, because the fear will come. I made decisions earlier in my life; it is a very common fear, it comes. So this fear actually, like Guruji says, is the fear of saying that if I hand over my existence to God, He is going to make a mess of it—as if we have done such a good job of it so far. I know that this kind of fear coming up is not true, and I am saying try it for a day. We will meet next; try it for one or two days and you come and report how it went, right?

And what is there to try? It is just a simple space of openness, a simple allowing. Come and go. You are not to take a position. So the mind is saying 'open the door,' you are not believing the opposite thought which is like 'don't open the door.' And that doesn't really matter because that is also believing. What I am saying—and this is the little chuckle because we use only two opposites—the mind says 'open the door,' therefore I must not open the door. That is not what I'm saying. I'm saying allow the thought 'open the door' to come and go. Now, whether the opening of the door happens or not is up to a higher force, is up to life, is up to consciousness. Because you are actually testing whether there is a God, isn't it? We just think if there is something called consciousness or life. So far, we were believing that it is me, it is me that is running this. Now we are testing an alternative theory: that there is a higher force than I ever considered to be myself. This one doesn't need a thought to function, to run. Like Tony says, it is the originator of even thought, okay? Not to take the opposite position. Anyway, let me see.

And you hear this pointing, believe me, it can feel like, 'Oh, I must do the opposite. My mind is saying this, so I must do that.' I did this. I'm inside, go right to that shop there, so I went left. It is not lying about phenomenality; it is lying about who you are and who is running this life. That is the discovery that you will make, which is also called non-doership. That which we consider to be the doer, that which you consider to be the decision-maker, has never been that which we consider ourselves to be. It's always a movement. But you cannot take my word for it. I want everything I see to become your own insight. We have to leave a little bit to experiment with it a bit, you know, in a playful manner, peaceful, happy, joyous. See what happens if you allow thoughts to come and go. Even if you report next time, 'Yes, it was nice, but then a thought about something came and it really got me,' it might feel like more suffering came, but it's not that. It's actually that we become more sensitive; you see more clearly what is happening. Don't worry about any of this. If you can come to the simple open space of having most of your thoughts just come and go. It's like the old saying: allow these visitors, these thoughts, to come and go; you don't serve them tea. So, 'don't serve them tea' only means don't give them your belief, don't identify with them. Do this experiment and then I can take you even further. We will go like this.

Next, Father, I want to come. My dear, for the last few days or so, it's like a kind of energy, a big energy, an obscure chance watching something. It's not very clear, you know? I don't know what I am searching for. Answer keys and, you know, because of that I don't find it satisfying. Maybe I have some checklists like, 'If this, this, this happens, then...' and maybe there is a subtle idea that I can find freedom somewhere down the line in the future someday, but not now. Like I am watching videos, although I am moving and moving and looking for something, but I don't know what I'm searching for. Sometimes it feels like this is a course. If I try to inquire like 'Who is searching?' there is a search. You say that I've been observing that everywhere, including watching a lot of satsang videos, trying to get something without taking it too seriously.

Drop the seeker identity. See, the seeker has become just like this: 'What can I find? Finding my freedom, where do I go? Who will tell me?' And yet, what is the sage saying? Find that which already is. What is it that you are right now? Now, you said that the answer is not forthcoming, and I asked 'Who is searching?' or 'Who am I?' You see that the answer is not coming, which means the concept of the answer is not coming. Now, this is actually good news. It is very frustrating for the mind, but in reality, it is good news. That means you are done with all the fake answers. All the good answers which used to satisfy you earlier, either the answers which had the terminology of satsang earlier and used to be satisfactory earlier, they are not satisfactory anymore. So you have to tell me now, live, if you have to check now: Who are you? What is it you find which is seeing this?

At least I cannot describe. Yes, I am.

Which is the best news. The best news to come to this 'I don't know' is the most important thing. It's the most important because we have known something which is false. We have lived with the false notion of ourself. See, many coming to spirituality pick up more notions about themselves and can feel like, 'I used to have the right answer.' Maybe in your case also, we can say you picked up the right answers at some point in this existence. I can see exactly. You can see where you got the concept that you are wrong, okay? You exist. You see, I know that I am aware that you may bring to this. Sometimes it is, 'I cannot let go of... I don't have a context.' It feels like that. That is why we have satsang every day, because we did nothing special. I asked you some very simple questions and you saw that this is true. Anyone who is a little open can come to this point. But what happens is that this story, the conditioning, has been believed for so long it seems to carry its own momentum. That is called the habit or the addiction. That's why as we come to satsang more and more, we are coming to this reminder to come to this insight again and again. Then the story will start becoming more and more laughable. Till then, it seems like a strong addiction.

Once you see that nothing the mind is saying really applies to me, you are seeing it now. Every day, a little bit of this, your doctor-written dose of this, with which you follow up the question, we will see that more and more what the mind is saying has become laughable. Now, maybe the trouble that you are having is that even the satsang that you are watching on YouTube, or however you watch me, you're watching with the mask of the 'me' trying to find something for this 'me,' trying to grasp something which is the seeker identity. 'This me will get it finally one day, I will get it.' That one itself is the trickster, the thief posing as if it wants to catch the thief. Like you did right now, any satsang is like this. It is the same question. You may hear Guruji speak, you are hearing me speak, we are asking the same thing, isn't it? How are you able to see it so clearly now in this moment? Because you dropped even that notion of 'me getting somewhere, getting it finally, holding on to it.' This was forgotten for a second and you say, 'Yes, I am aware of my existence.' This awareness remains unconcerned no matter what the movement of life might bring. That is freedom. You found it now.

So the recognition of it is so simple, and yet it is this prior conditioning that can seem to have so much momentum. We need this alarm clock again and again. It seems like we go back to sleep again, then alarm again, alarm. But nothing additionally has been given to you; all is already there. You are full and complete in this moment. Is it? Now the mind will sell you the notion of your limitedness. Anytime you believe yourself to be limited, you will search for something to complete you—be it a relationship, be it money, be it freedom, enlightenment, liberation, anything. Because in your heart you know that you are not limited, but the mind will convince you you are limited. 'But you can become full if you had that perfect partner. You will become full if you find enlightenment. You will become full if you had more money.' See, all these are just notions. You are complete right now when you don't wear any mask. You don't get couple masks. What did you do? You just checked: Who is aware of my existence? I exist. No movement of concepts was needed for learning knowledge. It is my... how many satsangs you've attended doesn't matter. It is this 'I am.' 'I am' message is like where everything is.

When I check, it feels like... but what happens is that sometimes I project myself into thoughts like in virtual reality, like you have a character there. And then when I project myself into the thoughts and imagination, these are most of the times negative, like hopelessness. At the same time, I am aware of these things happening. It somehow, maybe somehow, it feels believed.

So what is happening now? It pulled you back in the same coin, under the same chakravyuha, and then it feels like, 'Oh, I have to cross through this battle.' Nothing. Forget it, forget it, forget it. Nothing is done. We are existing effortlessly and you are aware of it. These two fundamentals can never change no matter what the mind is saying. You might have some report about some prior conditioning, and so what happens to 'I am'? All of that is just the same trick of the mind. You said something very beautiful. You said, 'This I am is everything.' It is everything. All there is, is I am. All there is, is consciousness. See, but the mind's job is to convince you that this which is everything is something, is limited, and something is lacking and somebody to go. This is the eternal con, the eternal wonder. This is the design of this play of consciousness. It is created for itself, this con artist of the mind, to play as if I am a limited entity. Because one minute of investigation shows you that this 'we' has no limit, has no boundary. Every boundary is experienced within it, but the boundary cannot contain it. It contains the boundary. See, we are seeing that in a minute of investigation, and yet the mind is so tricky. It will give you some notion and say, 'Ah, maybe this is now what I have to do. This is what's happening to me.' You see? And the 'me' is back. Mr. Me is back. It started by saying 'I have everything' and it even turned that back into the story of Mr. Me. This is the cheekiness of this. This is why we need satsang.

I am actually not in the... yes, that's where it is. Only really vehement even when the belief comes that I am something. I am just... I must say, Father, this state is effortless here. I have only one thought, that is: being is not timeless after the body drops. Let the one that is timeless be concerned.

You say, 'I have one thought.' That is the grandchild of that which is timeless, that is dependent on being, and that one is trying to understand the nature of being. See, the grandson is trying to figure out the birthplace of the grandfather. Oh no, no, wait a second. Pharaoh's fellow. Okay, I'll see you later.

Almost missed the satsang. Just want to say that I just realized surrender had already happened to you. I don't know when. It was just the person throwing tantrums all these years with all the arrogance and resistance. Almost missed the satsang. Just want to say that I just realized surrender had already happened to you. I don't know when. It was just the person throwing tantrums all these years with all the arrogance and resistance. All I am doing is allowing the surrender to happen more and more. I have been meeting you, you know, very intimate, real, sharing the silent space of awareness. It's a bit of the resistance is very natural. It's...

The person throwing tantrums, all these deals with all the arrogance and resistance—it almost means the satsang just want to say that I just realized surrender had already happened to you. I don't know when. It was just the person throwing tantrums, all these deals with all the arrogance and resistance. All I am doing is allowing the surrender to happen more and more.

I have been meeting you, you know, very intimate real sharing, the silent space of awareness. It's a bit of the resistance is very natural; it's bound to come. The mind can have many ideas about who a master should be, what they should be like. Then we realize that no matter what the outer expression might be, there is actually only one of the master, which is your own intuitive presence. It is your own heart that you are surrendering to. Without a formal change, as with everything else in the world, it is constant. But your surrender is actually happening to your own presence. In that way, I am not concerned as long as there is surrender. For me to see real in a digital format, the master, as long as they're pointing you to the truth about who you are, the master is happy. It doesn't matter whether you compliment... I was just a servant at his father's feet in Guruvamma. Let me to you the same essence which is guiding you to your own self in this play of this outer play of guru and disciple.

But they're going through legal fights now. Slight worry is there, but it should be okay.

Yes, the thing is going to be just fine. Okay.

Request your light on this. This beingness and awareness is completed in itself, but mind says that this is the reality of 'I am' not before that. The symbol used—forget about it. Stay where you... you know what is here. The camera is not panning there, but you know who's there. Stay there.

On any of these expeditions, don't go on any of these ideas that you will understand this one day. You want? Yes, forget it. That which you consider yourself to be will not get it, and that which I am pointing you to—my father's feet—you are it. This is the report I want to hear from you: 'Father, you pointed me to your father's feet all of these years, months, whatever time it has been. Where I went, that I found it is my home. Being is my father's feet.' Don't go on any expedition of trying to figure out anything. It's just your mind distracting. The mind is like a child; it has no idea of reality. No matter what, thank you. If I get driven so, if I understand doing so, if I think like this and really getting it—it doesn't happen like that. I mean, mind can say that, but my father knows. Do we? Thank you, Father.

Before the last puts on your head, after this I have absolutely no version. I am recording this part. I'm keeping it. Yeah, it does. It has been always like this, total completeness. Okay, material, damn serious this time. I say it or no, surrendering this time. You will be recording?

Yeah, sure. Like I said, the only report I want to hear from your true eyes, your true ears, from your true inner intuitive insight, and the words will come. I will celebrate them with you. Then I will keep chopping them every day. Other more words will come from there only. Only it will only be a gratitude holding hand like this. You are now your resume English.

Yes, I understand what you're saying.

Be the silence. Don't say 'I am silent.' Said the one who just said, 'Yeah, I know, I know what you are saying. I know what your things. I know, I know.' Sorry, isn't it funny? You go to Facebook or any social media platform and inside so many people saying, 'Being silent.' And you have to see it if you've been silent.

Yes, Father, but that is the thing actually, that it is a habit actually. Because one who is silent will not even speak. You know, my empty... by see you, everybody. No story is worthier than my father's feet. I am there. You meet me there. You don't have to speak a single today. The shield invited us to holiness and it was like Atma in celebration. So I felt that I want to share. You might not know what the values about. I gave their minds when they looked, thick, thick set of books. When I looked at these Ramacharitmanas books, when I go to these Tulsidas, and she said, 'I... it is what we're using.'

Thank you, Father. Thank you. Thank you. Guru Govind Dau Khade, Kake Lagoon Paye. Balihari Guru Aapne, Govind Diyo Bataye. We just ended something like this, just vanished. Thank you all so much for being in satsang today. Satguru Sri Mooji Baba Ki Jai.