To Desire, You Must Be in Denial of What Already Is – 30th December 2022

Now, either the mind has succeeded in convincing you that that presence belongs to a body and is under the service of the mind, or you recognize that that presence is unlimited, it is beyond boundary, beyond birth and death. Which is it? So, which is it? We must confirm these things. We cannot be half-hearted about this stuff anymore. Who is living here? How can any other thing be important? So, without you confirming this, the flip that I wanted to make is not going to happen. When you are still in doubt, it is not going to happen. So first, you have to confirm that it is God's presence, it is God's light, it is a higher being than you can ever imagine. And I am already claiming it for you. I'm already making the claim on your behalf. You have to follow with full faith and explore this for yourself, because without faith you cannot even explore it. You will put it in a construct which is too limited.

So, a voice that you trust, that you call Father, is making the claim for you, you see. And if you are unwilling to follow that with faith, then there is no point saying Father. Then we are just coffee table friends at best. But if you say Guru or Father, and your Guru is telling you that it is God itself which you call my presence, then that should be the center of your exploration. No other problem in the world is worth resolving as much as this is. So, drop your attachment to other things in the world which are going to die soon and get to the confirmation of the eternal existence within you. Nothing else is worth it, especially not any sort of spiritual sightseeing or 'sometimes I experience peace and then it just comes and then it goes away and then I have to explain.' All this spiritual sightseeing business is not worthwhile at all. 'But then this happens when I listen to you, then I find peace, or some days you actually disturb me even more.' It doesn't matter. There is a being within you. Until you can resolve who that is, all the rest is all surface-level nonsense.

Whose presence is that? The sages have told us that your Atma is the Paramatma. Your Atma and Brahman are one and the same. The Supreme and the presence within you is one and the same. And what are we going on about? That 'me' which we are going on about has never existed, never been born. God's light is here and our doubt always is, 'But what about me?' Nothing about you, because you don't exist. So, stop treating the non-existent as existent and the existent as non-existent. And this is the flip that we need to make. Once you recognize that this presence is here, and either on faith or on inquiry if you find that this presence is God, then this life must belong to that presence and not to the non-existent one. It is not a discovery so that you can get into a relationship with it. It is a discovery so that you can top off your own head. It's a handful of knowledge, but that knowledge has the narrative where the central character is a non-existent being.

So, come to the holy presence within you, within you, and know that it is the only existent. There is nothing else existent here for it to have a relationship with. So, when the sages said 'God or me,' not 'God and me,' they are saying it very, very literally. Even now you may be asking, 'So how am I receiving this? What's happening to me as I hear these words? Can I live like this?' It has nothing to do with any of that. Nothing to do with any of that. 'How has it changed my life because of this?' Forget about your non-existent selves. Forget about the non-existent and see that the presence that is here is beyond any gift that you can ever receive in the world. It is the most absurd exchange that we make. What the mind offers us, what even in the best stories, what does it offer us? I know about the terrible stories, but what about me? But even the best stories, what is on offer? What is it about? You'll become what, king of this world? You will become the first world president? All the countries will unite and you will become the president of the world? And then what will happen? Dying.

What is on offer that you are exchanging God for it? 'This is the most enlightened series that ever lived. You will give birth to ten Ashtavakras.' What is it? What do you, what is it that you want? Like that which every true sage is in service to, at the feet of that is already in your heart. You don't have the capacity to desire more than what you already have. It's not that you should not want, but the problem is that the instrument with which you can want what it has to offer cannot come close to what you already have. So, to want them in spite of that is only possible in a delusion about what already is. Are you hearing me? So, how is it possible to want? 'Oh, I want to be special, I want to be this, I want to be that, I want to be seen, I want to be something, I want to be free, I want everyone to know I am free.' All of these things can only happen in denial of what is already there. When you say that God is, now say the rest. Is it? Especially if you say 'Only God is,' then say, 'God wants like this? God wants to be seen? God possible?'

So, first, to want, to desire, you must be in denial of what already is. And that is why I'm saying that don't leave this exploration halfway. There is a living presence within you. If it just came, then wouldn't you drop everything else and say, 'Who is this who has come inside me?' Suppose you all day like walking zombies were walking and suddenly the presence is here, okay? Would you say, 'Oh, let me tend to my work first and then I'll see if I have time, I'll see who this is'? It's not possible. Who is this? And once you recognize who this is, how is it possible to value anything in comparison to this? Because God is here. If God is here, then how are we even talking all this? Because if an aspect of God which we recognize objectively as God, as a form of the Lord, walked into the room just now, then we would not even need to have this conversation. But you are getting a more intimate insight, a truer insight, which is beyond coming and going. But that you don't value because we don't value the real, the unchanging; we value the changing.

So, this will be waiting for special experiences, some presence of some feeling, something like that. And in all of that looking for the real within the unreal, you're missing. Spending the whole, our whole life missing the real. This is the whole name of Maya. And moment after moment after moment, days after days after days, weeks after weeks after weeks, months after months, years after years, we spend like this. And soon it is time out, time over. Lifetime after lifetime, the one that you want to become is going to die anytime soon. Remember the lifetime of Lakshmana, not getting off the horse of individuality, of pride and species, and another ring going into this age's wise. There is no clue that all of you have not been provided. There is no clue that has not been provided. But if your only lamentation continues to be, 'But the mind says, but the mind says, but the mind says,' I know what the mind says. Tell me what the heart is saying, you see.

And if you did not have the power to switch out from your mind to your heart, then why would I repeat this for twelve years? Where are you trying to get clarity? Where are you trying to understand? I'm talking about the living presence. Where are you hearing all of this? 'I'm still in, but I don't get it.' Are you denying that you are? So, there would be no hope in this Leela if there was no power in us to follow a higher voice than the mind's voice. If these two voices were made available—the mind and intuition, the ego and God's light, the ego and the heart, the head and the heart—but the second one you couldn't go to anyway. Ashtavakra has told us, as long as you think you have any choice in anything, make the choice not to go with the stream of thoughts. Make the choice not to go with the stream of thoughts.

You are denying that you are. So there would be no hope in this Lila if there was no power in us to follow a higher voice than the mind's voice. If these two voices were made available—the mind and intuition, the ego and God's light, the ego and the Heart, the head and the Heart—but the second one you couldn't go to anyway. Guruji has told us: as long as you think you have any choice in anything, make the choice not to go with the stream of thoughts. Make the choice not to go with the stream of thoughts. Was he fooling us? So he said, 'Keep quiet.' Was he talking about your physical mouth? He was talking about the absence of egoic disease. Don't bind to your mental notions. Keep quiet.

Guruji says don't identify. He has told us clearly that you have attention and belief, and using which you identify. Don't identify. I keep saying: don't believe your next thought. And if you say to yourself, 'Oh, but my mind says it happens automatically, and the belief and identification happens automatically,' do you really believe that all of us are that stupid? I have spent twelve years of my life telling you not to believe your thoughts, and if your defense after twelve years is 'automatically,' then I must be the most foolish teacher you can ever go to.

So I'm provoking you, of course, to switch out of this limited mind, and I'm introducing the fact to you that you are Consciousness. You are not hostage to any mind. The mind is under your power; you are not under it. If you were not God or an aspect of God, then we could not have this conversation. Then satsang would not be Consciousness speaking with Consciousness. But because you do have that power, but you're still enthralled with what it is offering and you keep denying that, then I have to provoke you. Don't be enthralled by the mind's temptations and positions, the things that it says are true. And if you use the content of what your mind is saying to audit your state, there will be no greater foolishness than that.

So, how are you right now? The most popular question in the world: how are you right now? Where will you go for the answer? Does anyone say, 'I am so good, God is here, so I'm alright'? No, it's: 'This happened, and then this, and I wanted this job, and I wanted this girlfriend.' You know, who are you using? What tool are you using to determine who you are? You are that in which God is, and your report is about what you ate, some food, and you keep reporting about that. So where will you go for a true report? What is happening with you? How are you? What are you? Where are you? Who are you? Can you go for a true answer?

So what am I saying? I'm saying that this is not about reforming your mind. I'm not expecting that your mind will change. At best, what will happen is that the intellect aspect of your mind will start judging things for God and not against God. That is the best outcome we can expect in the mind. But you, as Consciousness, can recognize that there is a higher power calling you from within your heart. Let's see. You have to give up wanting to be right. Suppose you die fully convinced with all your mind's nonsense, and you convinced yourself and everyone around you that you are right. So what will happen? Fully, fully you convinced yourself that you are right—and not only yourself, and this will never happen, but suppose everybody around you also thinks that you are right—and you die with this in your head. You were right about what you thought, you were right about your judgments, you were right about your Master, you were right about the teaching, you were right about everything, you were right about how life is, everything. But it's all here, conceptual. That's how all the zombies are living anyway, thinking that they are right.

Get out of this righteousness. It's not true righteousness; it is only pride. Get out of it and step into the humility of your heart. Don't care about being right; care about God's light. That's right. And I'm happy I'm sharing this with you because this morning, as I opened my page, the notes page for the contemplation to be posted, something felt to refer to—you may be aware of those—and one sentence attracted my attention there, which was: 'God hates pride and loves humility.' And I was going to post the conversation about that, but then it occurred to me in my heart that the children will not understand this, like God hating pride. Because it's not that God hates. It's not that God hates, but our pride is blocking us from God. Our wanting to be right, our need to be seen or need to be special, is blocking that absence of egoic beliefs that I'm talking about. It is stopping you from becoming quiet like Papaji wanted you to.

So when the invitation these days is coming often from this expression that you must live as if we are humble servants of God, it is just because as a humble servant of God, we don't need to be right. We don't need to prove anything to the world. You don't need to become special. To switch out from egoic and then equate beliefs to a life of God's light cannot happen while we are arrogant. And the extent to which that goes is to the extent of even one thing you say often, aware that to know even one thing is to know too much. What do you know without knowing anything? That is the extent of humility that is needed. And I mean completely; I'm being fully literal. You have to become fully empty. Your knowledge burdens you; it makes use of you; it is making you tired. It is the burden on your hands. You may think it is what you have that is of value, but it is not so.

When your mind is empty of conceptual knowledge, that is the only point at which intuitive knowledge can sprout and flower. Till you are not empty, then all your talk about awareness and Consciousness and God is empty. Very important. Till you're not empty, all your talk about awareness, Consciousness, God, and inquiry—all of this stuff is empty. Then you may be the most inarticulate, uneloquent of all speakers, and your words will carry your perfume. You will need it yourself in your heart. Maybe that is a good test, actually. Believe that which you would teach yourself before wanting to share. Find the words, then you will experience your own fragrance. If you don't enjoy your own company, you don't enjoy your own words, then no amount of specialty knowledge is going to help you. You may combine the words of the great Adi Shankaracharya himself with the words of Buddha and Christ together and come up with the best-sounding words, but if you're full of identity, those words will have no power.

Words have the potency to spread God's light, but when you're full of pride, even you don't want to hear yourselves. Let's see. So where are we? We talked about who is it that lives in your heart, whose presence is this? And I'm claiming on your behalf that God is here. God is living in your heart. Then we are saying that our life must become about the centrality of God's light instead of about the non-existent me. And we are exploring how false knowledge and the need to be right can prevent that from happening. Now, humility is a very important provision while we need to switch away from head to heart.

Now you're here, and purified God's light is unobstructed within you. Now, firstly, the question will not arise as to how should I live. But suppose that it did, suppose that it arose within us: how to live? Of course, light is already living you. It's already living you. So allow that to unfold without mental obstruction. So that solves the problems of what is and how it is to live surrendered to God. And there will also come a time where guidance would be palpable to you from your heart. Whether it arises for that which you call yourself or for others, they must follow their guidance. So that is to live in God's light. That is to live in heaven on earth.

Some of you already have that sensitivity now, that as you find your attention itself gravitating towards the mind, you're able to withdraw. But don't worry about that. If that attention is still in the head a lot, at least don't believe what you're being offered. Just support one question. Father, you say that God is, God is here. What are you doing? But sometimes the word 'God' seems to create more separation than union. But that is in our hands. If I say Bhagwan—so suppose you don't hear 'God,' you hear 'Bhagwan'—you say, 'I think this is nothing but the Hindi for God.' Or I said 'Allah' or I said 'Yahweh.' Point is not that. The point is not the word, although the word I have no aversion to. But really the point is that there is a presence within you. Who is that? That is worth exploring. And it feels like a holy presence, a divine presence, whatever word you may use.

How can anything else be worthwhile? One point that is not this—and of course that is not your question, it has reminded me of that because it came to me in some conversations, some of the kids I had yesterday where it just came from here—that a lot of time we are trying to take our accountability from God. 'I can't believe in a God that does this. How can a God be like that? I can't buy into a God that is like this.' You see? But what you believe and don't believe and accept and not accept, it is not God that is on trial in your court. It is completely irrelevant. God is not accountable to you. God doesn't have to make sense to you. Even His created universe doesn't make sense to you. Like the great scientist said, the universe has no obligation to make sense to you. And you expect that which is the Creator of that to make sense to you?

In what way are you accountable to God? God has given His presence to animate your life, to make you alive. How have you used that? What have you returned as God's gift for even one breath? Or can you be thankful for even one breath that He has given me? No, now we are out to make God accountable to us. And these things have become very natural and regular in the world, but I spot the ignorance in them. And therefore, not with the idea of producing any guilt or unworthiness, which is to get you to look at what is happening. Look at the way the mind is playing this game. It has made itself the judge even for God, forget about you and your friends and relatives and relationships. 'I can't believe in a God that does like that.' Who cares about the judgment of a non-existent one?

If you exist, where have you got that existence from? Who has gifted you that existence? And if that one was to hold you accountable for the gifts that you have received, have you valued the presence of God? So switch it around. Our way of thinking is in big trouble and only the way to suffering. God has given you life. God has given you a beautiful instrument called a body. God has given you this universe, this dream called the universe. You are living and breathing in God's light. If there is one that has rights now, which one is that? If there is one that can demand now, which one is that? It's like a guest came to the party—my Guruji said in a different way—that everything is His. A guest comes to the party and says, 'I'm hungry.' You offer that guest food and he says, 'Is it organic or is it gluten-free?' God has already given you everything, and then you hold God on trial. This is the absurdity from the mind.

So there's another question on this, and the term 'God' will actually represent itself that is here now. You must admit by now that there is a very palpable presence. I am. Nobody looks at this presence and says, 'You are.' Everyone says, 'I woke up this morning, I am. I am sitting.' So this is 'I am.' And in our room, no matter what words we use, now we're also finding that this presence 'I am' has no limit. It has no boundary. In fact, very little of it can be sensed in the perceptual realm at all, where you can sense a vibration, a subtle presence 'I am.' You can sense its presence, and yet the being, instantly as you meet the presence, you recognize that it is coming from an unlimited source. Nobody comes to the presence of being and says, 'Yeah, there could be a little bit there, there's a little bit I am.' Does anyone have that experience? You go into 'I am' and it's small? No, it's simply vast, unlimited. You cannot define it. So this presence appears as if it is within us, of course.

In the perceptual realm at all, where you can sense a vibration, a subtle presence, 'I am'—you can sense its presence. And yet, the being instantly, as you meet the presence, you recognize that it is coming from an unlimited source. Nobody comes to the presence of being and says, 'Yeah, that could be a little bit... there's a little bit of I am.' Anyone have that experience? You're going to 'I am' footer-motor, then simply respond: unlimited. You cannot define it. So this presence appears as if it is within us. Of course, upon investigation, you see that it cannot be within the body, although it may seem to correlate in this. I need to find this unlimited—the presence of an unlimited one within you. The words are secondary. The question is: who is this? Whose presence is this? And if you do find a word that you can use for it, if that one is here, then how is my stuff, quote-unquote 'my stuff,' relevant anymore? Whose life is this?

So if there is a duality, is it that, okay, I already take myself to be me and now there is another one here? But that means an indisputable... so if we confirm that another one is here, that would mean that there is separation or that there are two. I am saying that for me is not there; it's completely questionable. And you must ask the question, and only God is the request. But it seems to be more of all in acknowledging or knowing or feminine desiring things.

Yes, both, you know, go hand in hand. Go ahead.

Should one feel the presence of God inside? Can we trust in our mind's assessment of that? Or should we just stop believing in the false feeling of being limited?

Okay, let's look at this again. Is it right to say that one should feel the presence of God inside? Yes. Right to say, and more important too than to say, is to feel, to meet it. It's not really a feeling, although it does have that primordial sense or feeling. So it's important to meet it, then to see it, it's important to hear it. Can we trust in our mind's assessment of that? The mind cannot assess that. A mind is nothing; it can comment on it. So suppose you've never been to, say, the Grand Canyon, and you've never seen a photo also, but you may want to assess it and say, 'Oh, Grand Canyon, what's up?' You see? So in the same way, the mind will assess this, but the mind's assessment has nothing to do with it. It has no access to this. It is just the measurer of name and form, of grade and size, of time and space. This has nothing to do with this. So don't go with your mind's assessment of it. I am introducing you to your intuition, to heart knowledge, to intuitive insight, to the Satguru presence within you that you can trust.

Then you say, 'Oh, should we just stop believing the false feeling of being limited?' You must stop believing in any concept. Stop believing anything, you know. Do you believe this or that? I don't remember what the person asked, but he said, 'I don't believe in belief.' Among the few, very few things, that this is also very nice. What is your life without believing the mind? What is life? What is your life without belief in your thoughts?

The first mode is that you live as if there is no presence. You live as if there is no light, there is no presence. 'I am just a bundle of food I made, a conflation of blood that is flesh, blood, and bones, and that's all I am.' So I am proposing to you that that is almost like not having lived at all. That's the first mode of operation. The second mode of operation is that you start getting a call from your heart, and that there is something deeper, something beyond this realm of perception starts to become apparent to you. But you keep shutting it out and saying, 'There'll be time for that. I have other important things to do. I will do that.' And most likely the mind will also win in that life also, saying, 'Okay, you can't even say well, right actually, let's say they try.' Good, I had it easy.

The third will be those who, through grace, through inquiry, through surrender, through faith, came to the insight of God's presence. But in spite of that, the attraction, temptation, pull of Maya was so much, they neglected this light and continued to live in their heads, to live in the ego shadow. Then there's realized, which is completely surrendered to this, astounded by the divinity and holiness of the presence within them, astounded by the completely unconnected reality that they are discovering within them compared to the world's version of reality. They may live a true life while doing this eternity within them, and yet may feel like it is a bit divided sometimes—when they are in the head, sometimes they are in the light. Then there are some of you who will only make adventurous tiny visits into your head, and as soon as you feel the temperature, the heat of hell in your head, you are sprinting back home without any prayer.

And of course, my blessing and of hardly hopeful prediction is that all of you go beyond even that, find your own permanent home in God's life. Okay, of course, in the human condition, you've seen that a few momentary moments of identification do happen, but may they become light and short-form. Obviously, from here to Brahma Gyan is not any distance at all because to recognize the presence in the light of this presence, not only are all questions about life answered, but all questions of that which is beyond life. You recognize that your unlimited being is here, whose presence is in your heart effortlessly. And it takes no time with the right instrument, often due to the insight you recognize that you are aware even of this. You are the untouched awareness of even the unlimited being. That is a magnificence. You're beyond all things and perceptions and understanding is fun. This one? Yes, yes.

So you recognize this. The presence is here. You may say, 'I experience the presence in my heart.' Some of you may say, 'It's still in my head.' It's always good, it's around me. Excuse me. So you're saying that the presence is on the cusp of manifest and unmanifest. You can taste its vibration, you can taste its sweetness in some way, and you can confirm God's light is here. But when you are asked, 'Does this presence have a boundary? Does this being whose presence this is have a boundary? Does it have a start and end?' So you will yourself say that although I experience it in this way or that way, whichever way we say, but it itself is boundless. Now, although this is boundless and the whole universe appears within this, even this is not your ultimate constancy. It's not ultimately constant. It is that which wakes up when you wake up. You say, 'I am.' This 'I am' is unlimited, but 'I' is independent of 'am.' And 'I am not.' You are aware of even this being. You are aware of even this presence. You are the ultimate witnessing principle of even this existing 'I am.' So you will always find that although in reality they are one, there is a qualitative difference in the two questions: 'Can I stop being?' and 'Am I aware now?' Can I stop being? And we cannot work towards this. Don't try to work on this question. Just let them be like grenades with you that you throw in your heart and let them explode. Explode whatever insights have to show up.

So this is your magnificence, that even the unlimited, even the Ishwara or God, you are that Absolute, the Nirguna, that without all qualities. Either not being me and not being all of this is the gift of this insight within. The Guru is a very strange role in this world, you see. Why is it strange? It's strange because I feel like I have the greatest gift to offer everyone, you see, but everyone seems to be running from this gift. 'Please take.' 'No, I'm going to run. Thank you.' So this is the strange sort of thing that the role of the Guru is sounding very attractive to some of you. I'm going to tell you that mostly people need confirmation and need to be told that they are right. And they will freely want to follow a Guru, especially in today's world. It is more like you must come to the master, and the master is a good one if he's saying, 'Yes, yes, yes, yes, what I came for.' For that, pride has to go. That arrogance has to go.

Like my first Guru that I met in this world, he said to me that people are so quick to call me Guru and then so quick to tell me how I should be and what I should do. So quickly they use the term Guru but then become my Guru. You don't realize that this is how we operate. And I did that with him, by the way. I did that with him in spite of hearing that. I judged him and said, 'You know, I'm going to move on. Thank you.' So these are the follies of time. Please, light lives within you. Tell me one piece of better news you've ever had. It doesn't matter who you are, how many satsangs you've come to, how many spiritual books you've read, God's light lives within you. So the one who is the bringer of this best news, we want to run from that one. We want to run because the sacrifice seems difficult. So if God's light lives within you, the difficult part seems to be that you must be empty of yourselves, of the thoughts, to know this to be true. Now, what are you unwilling to risk for that? What is so great about you that you are not willing to become empty? What do you want to hold on to and yet meet God?

If you give it up for God, what is the worst-case scenario? Worst case, it will be known as the stupidest one who has ever lived. 'This one, you had all the opportunities, you could have made something out of yourselves, you could have become someone.' But you took this, converted it all on God and said, 'I will become no one for God.' Who can do it? You could have been a contender, you know, maybe you would have won. But instead of that, this strange silly man was telling you, 'Okay, risk it all. Give me one life. Don't try to become anybody. Don't win at any game. Be a loser.' The world's closer that you have to be somebody, believe the loser. If that is the worst-case scenario, what do you have to lose? One lifetime you will live, we die as an insignificant insect. Being willing to do that—I'm not saying change anything in your outer life, but inwardly, if that is God's will, that you die hungry because nobody looks at you and you die of starvation naked on the streets, accept it. Or whatever the worst scenario is for you, risk it. Because I cannot guarantee you what your life will be. I cannot even guarantee you that you set your table every night for God to come and you may spend the next 50 years of your life doing that, but you may still not find God. I cannot even guarantee you this because you may say that 'I am willing to do this, but guarantee me that God will.' I can guarantee you only the possibility. But that there is a possibility to meet God, to live with God, to live as God in God's light—how much are you willing to risk for that possibility?

Even if that possibility was infinitesimally small. Suppose this is a lottery where one out of 10 million will win, but those 10 million are the ones that are willing to give up on all outcomes they wanted from their lives. Would you participate in this? Yes, sir. One in 10 million. One in 10 million, where you have to give up on yourself. You may die an insignificant insect, nobody cares. Yes or no? No entitlements, no rights over God, no judgments about God and God's will. Just a simple humility, true integrity, true love and devotion, compassion for our brothers, but not asking for something in return. Accepting the slim odds, one of them. This is what it means to be empty of pride. Even now, you can meet that within yourself. Take yourself to be better—that is the situation of the human condition. All seven billion of us take ourselves to be better. You see the contradiction? All of us take ourselves to be better. But your absence of pride now must become neither better nor worse, because you will try to make yourself better by taking yourself to be worse. So not even that. Become that insignificant to yourself.

Bonded on... it was a way, sweet man. He went to a master because the disciples invited him, and he wrote a nice letter. And in response, he said he heard that as long as you are private because you know in the country... so what is going on? What's going on? So this is the beginning.

We try to make ourselves to be better, but your absence of pride now must become neither better nor worse because you will try to make yourself better by taking yourself to three words. So, not even that. Become that insignificant to yourself. There was a sweet man; he went to a master because the disciples invited him and he wrote a nice letter. In response, he said he heard that as long as you are private because you know in the country, so what is going on? What's going on? So, this is the beginning of the human condition that all of us, in spite of our life's circumstances—even those who keep saying 'I am unworthy, I'm unworthy'—actually believe somewhere there. Because unless we put ourselves in that false position, what gives us the capacity to judge? A judge must be put on a pedestal first. So, notice these subtle tricks. This is what will block you.

On the worst odds you can imagine, become a nobody. For that, surrender to the holy presence within you with everything that you think you have at your disposal. You don't waste it by judgment and argument and intellectual living, right? None of that. Bend it all in your heart in God's light. Don't worry about the outcomes. Don't expect guarantees. Don't expect anything to make sense. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Okay, let's go to Kit.

And this Atma is designed, we can't see it. See here, let's see. I must say, yeah, I've been really appreciating your songs the last couple of months. It's just being really like, just yeah, I just really just shot straight to my heart. And it's kind of like the shake, you know? It's really, really needed because it's so easy to get distracted. It's so easy to fall for me to go into my doubts and doubt what's important, look for approval in my relationships, that sense of survival as well, you know? And the pride was a really that one was, yeah. The possibility to meet this one, you know, there's one that wants to hide in shame with this, but I guess that's not, yeah, that's not me. And you know, I even noticed the pulling away and kind of like, you know, when you kind of out it and you say it's kind of like, oh yeah. And it's, you know, to just keep getting that reminder because you know, when you say you're giving this gift to, giving this gift to of God, you know, God's in you. And yeah, there's just this fear, would you know, this response of fear in the body which I'm just used to running from. So, you know, it really does feel like the life is at stake.

There seem to be meeting, but which is pointing to me and reporting with full integrity, so very happy. Is there anything that you feel like you get stuck with or something I can help you with? If something else, please, like a block or something.

I just really appreciate that reflection because I think there can be a judge going, 'You don't get this, you don't know what's going on.' Um, yeah, and I just feel really lost and feel like tears, you know? And yeah, just, yeah, I feel really touched by just being able to speak and...

Very good. So, the only pointer tip I may have to use then is that you're doing really well. You're doing well. And just see if you can make this more and more about God's light rather than what is happening to you in God's light. Just about God's light. And if there is a story, let that story be about God itself, about God's light shining brightly, rather than keeping the protagonist as 'me' and what that means relationship is with God. So, this is my advice to you. Yes, although you're really deeply marinating in what is being shared, I want to prod you a little further and say: make this even more about God.

The mind, of course, will come and say, 'But then I can't see anything.' No, make a report. How do I respond? I don't even know. But we'll find a way, and that is how the sharing of Satsang happens. When the person is of no concern to you and it only becomes about sharing God's light, that one then becomes a true teacher of God to themselves and to the world. So, it is my encouragement and prodding and pushing and inviting everyone: you share this light that they're discovering in their heart. Because all of us are sharing mostly in the world, we are all sharing the false anyway. So, all of us are sharing with me. Let the content of that sharing move from the further distribution of the ego shadow to the spreading of God's light.

So, as you find yourself in an inarticulate position where something is posed to you saying, 'Make this even more about God and completely about God,' and maybe for days you may not have a way to do that, you may not feel like, 'I don't have a report about God, how can I report about God? What can I say about God's light?' But given that that advice has come to you, see how that unfolds in your heart. May that lead to that light which you are discovering for yourself in that spread to the whole universe. Yay! I'm setting tiny targets for all of my own, just very small.

It feels like, you know, going to say Mooji in India felt like almost like permission to give so much attention to this. And yeah, it's almost like seeing all the parts that want to hide that light or something, and it's being able to actually go, 'Oh, that's okay, that's free to be.' Really, I think it's so happy to hear from you again. Hope you'll continue getting so deeply in this God's grace, my Father's light on practice. Yeah, and yeah, and just to say thank you so much to the Sangha as well. It's just so helpful. Yeah, so all right, thank you, thank you.

Okay, let's go to Shush.

So Father, it's a bit of a story, I don't know how else to say it, but I tried following what you were saying, you know, that try to... I mean, who is here kind of thing? Like, who is it really just being? Yeah, so I was like, usually I asked myself the question like 'Who am I?' or 'What exists?' all that. Then I asked, 'Where are the boundaries of this being?' As I was listening to you, something came up like I would just ask, 'Where is my boundary?' instead of the being's boundaries. And I was like looking around, I was on the terrace and listening to you, and then: is my boundary there, that building over there? The tree beyond it? Does it on this side? For a while it seemed like I had the score of being and I was walking around in the world, but then it seemed like there's this huge thing that I am, and in that, that center thing, the centrality, it was not there. And I looked up at the moon: is my boundary there? And so my thing is like, even when I'm here and I came back inside and I don't, I can't look at the moon, I can't hear those distant buildings, but I'm sort of relying on the memory of that visual to sort of say, you know, 'Where is my boundary?' kind of thing. But I'm guessing that's something else that you're talking about and I wanted to just ask you.

Yes, yes. So, you're on the right track. Keep exploring this because beyond this, and maybe this is which is to say that the perceptual world that you are using to test your boundary will make that appear. Or even within you, who does that exist? Is it present? Long time I remember when you first used to talk about dreams, so you can use that metaphorically to help you with this. So that if this was a dream, then how would you find the boundary of the dream?

But I'm really looking for a question which pushes you beyond the mind and yet is interesting enough for you to wonder in your heart. That's good. Otherwise, what will happen is that the questions were offered and we can make a judgment about that prevention. But I don't want to know. This is like my name is... I want to create one grenade for all of you where you cannot meet it in your head, but and yet you are very, very desperate to find them. Then you have to find that intuitive mobility within you to grasp all of these things. So just keep doing the same thing, like keep marinating in being then at levels sort of which is not really like expressible kind of thing. Soon you will find that you cannot do it in the traditional... like you found with the earlier questions that you can use empirical methods to find graspable somewhere. So I'm just getting all of you used to leaning towards that intuitive insight.

My childhood, thank you. The dream, something like this. What is the question? If it's a dream, then where would your boundary be? If this was it? Yeah, thank you.

Okay, let's go to Batool. I hope I pronounce that name properly. Namaste.

Namaste, thank you beloved Father. I'm so happy to speak to you. Actually, I wasn't preparing to speak and it came suddenly. Yeah, so to expose what is the, what I feel is going on into, yeah, just put it like this: I feel like it's since almost one year, but it's become more and more obvious and also urgent. Like all my entire being wanting to find rest in the self-realization and everything else become foreign. I know, I know truth is in everything and everywhere, but it's become somehow this noise of the world become very much painful and has come to two points. It looks like unbearable, you know? I don't want to be running out of life and I know that there is no place for fear when the heart is open for the reality. It feels it's all fine. So how everything is fine? Everything is fine, everything clouds passing, even pain, even distractions, identifications, everything is fine at the same time.

And because in a moment which is, I came to a new country, I have to learn its language and to start something new and to be able to stand on my own here. But this, like you know, like when a newborn baby, you want to go, it just don't wait, don't look to anything, to any appropriate condition. It's just if someone in the street, it just come. Yeah, so something feels: forget about everything and just everything is saying you have to do this and that and to fix this and that, but something says forget everything and just now go to Sahaja and be in this protective environment to just feel the rest that you need. Yes, and to the home and to complete this, and then you will be able to somehow go out to the world and do what you have to do, if there is any. Because something really lost the investments in everything and it's become very, very heavy. Why I'm doing all this? Because I'm in this spot, you know, I have to sustain some things at the same time. I applied for going to Sahaja and something complicated here. If I went, I will lose the school that I am in it and something will happen, but I cannot think so much about it, you know? Otherwise I will be, I have to wait so much until summer and I feel it's so difficult, all of this. Thank you for this space too. Something not worries about all of this, but you know this feeling of postponing something, it's also become very, very hard, you know? Just so yeah, thank you, thank you for that.

And absolutely in service to those who feel this urgency, urgency in their heart to come to this discovery because there's really no time. So, to recognize that there is no time because the theory round is for time. Mind will convince you that there's enough time, take your time, do your stuff, then when there is peace, then you find God. But some of you have seen through that and seen that you can keep playing that game lifetime after lifetime. Now you come to a point where there's no time. It is urgent and you feel so drawn in our heart for the truth so urgently. So, the whole form of the Master here is just to help you to be in service to those children who are prioritizing this in their heart above everything else. Yeah, and this is beautiful. One tip I have for you is that don't go to cruise feet with any expectation. Don't go with any expectation, which is fully empty ingredients. You don't even expect that you will find rest or you won't find rest or whatever. None of your problem anymore. Who made the move and went to the Master?

So urgently, the whole form of the Master here is just to help you to be in service to those children who are prioritizing this in their heart above everything else. Yeah, and this is beautiful. One tip I have for you is that don't go to the Guru's feet with any expectation. Don't go with any expectation. Just be fully empty. You don't even expect that you will find rest or you won't find rest or whatever; it is none of your problem anymore. Who made the move and went to the Master? The rest is not for you to judge. If you have rest, feel it. Give the rest because your mind will otherwise use those things and make comparisons and judgments and say, 'I was in the city and those problems were there, but now I'm here and these problems are here.' So don't allow your mind to play that game. Any expectations you have, just give them to me. Know that you are at the feet of that one who can help you meet God. That's all that counts now. Whether that needs more aggravation or more rest is up to that, okay? We'll just go fully innocently with no preset idea about what should unfold and how it should unfold, because the smallest thing the mind can use to create a wall. Surrender to this longing in your heart completely. When you say that 'I want to put this first,' how it moves outwardly is not something that I am concerned about because the outer play exists in service to your inner life. So if your urge is to just be in that light inwardly, then the outer circumstances will always be in service to that, even when they feel like it's just to burn and get you deeper in them. I'm not so concerned about that. But if you get invited and you take the opportunity to be there, then don't have any predetermined ideas about how that will be. And those who need this call, the longing from the heart with the full urgency of spirit, there my blessing is that it will unfold. Thank you so much.

It is inside my heart. It is clear that everything... it's not even if I'm here or if I'm there, but everything, because this is what is important now. This life is for this. No, the disturbance, it's not here because something trusts this completely. It just is. Nobody decides about it. Nobody said it's now or before or after that. The disturbance happened outwardly, not inwardly. I want to go now and no matter what will happen after that, something said, 'Now leave it to the Master.' So you don't lose the Master and the things that how it should or should not be, but how it's stable in the situation here and go to the Master. But it's true, I know that it's inside. It's so difficult to continue like this before.

Yes, maybe that's what I'm saying: that follow the longing in your heart fully and be completely open about how that moves in the outer play of this time and space and light and sound. The determination that 'come what may, my priority is God in my heart' and leave it to God itself as to how to unfold your life and how your body will move and what you say. Just leave it to the light. You will see that it is already moving in. There's an idea that we have to decide. This is the idea that we have to decide, and now that decision should come from God itself.

So when I applied that, I felt... I don't know how it really goes. They said something, I said, 'Let's see, just let it flow.' Yeah, thank you so much.

Trust the longing in your heart. Thank you. Let's go to Martina. Namaste.

Namaste. Can you please help me to speed up this process?

Ah, speed up the process? Okay. Yes. What is the... is there a roadblock? I don't find one. There's no roadblock, no. Without a seeming roadblock, there is no time that is needed. So if something needs to be speeded up, it will be having to travel somewhere. Yes? So right now, is God's light apparent to you? Yes, it is apparent to you. What stops you from just living in that light? I don't know. Yeah, so this is good. So what... the only thing that seems to stop us is the hypnosis from the mind which says, 'You have other things, your other responsibilities and priorities,' and takes us away from the innocence of living in God's light. Without buying into the mind's hypnosis, there is no time. Nothing needs to be speeded up because God is already there. Yes. Conversations like this I love because they're so simple and straightforward. So what is the distance you have to travel? No distance. So if no distance, then no speed needed. Yes.

Okay. Want to sing something? Those things, okay. Sorry, I need to deliver it first. You go first, yes.

Please put that one, Kisha. Let's put your hand up. You ready? The one from The Chosen. Hello, can you hear me?

Yes, yes. Um, I'll try. Let's see if you can hear my ukulele. Hold on, I'll do a test real quick. Okay, you can hear it? Yeah, it's very hard. Okay. How do I know? Every time you're gonna ask me, I swear it was prepared.