This Is a Real Possibility: Your Life Can Be Spent in God’s Light - 15th September 2023

Is it really God in your heart, or is it just 'feel good,' making ourselves feel better? 'Yes, yes, everyone is nodding, everyone else is raising their hand. I don't really know, but I don't want to seem like I'm a loser in spirituality.' Is it from there, or is it authentically God whose presence you are confirming? And if God is with you, if the God is with you—the one who is the Lord and Master of this universe and much more—then how is your life like this? Not in terms of the content of your life, but in terms of your attitude towards it, your attitude towards every living moment. If it was being held with the highest Being beyond fathoming, then how is every moment of our life not a rejoicing?

So somewhere something is wrong. Are you meeting a minor god? Are you meeting a make-believe god? And if you're truly meeting the real God, then to put it colloquially, what are you on about? How is it possible that you can go on about 'me' if God is truly with you? How is it that every moment of our life is not going in loving Him? How is it that every moment of our life is not going in hearing His direction, His guidance? How is it that every moment of our life is not in servitude to the One? If it is truly God and you have found Him within your heart, how is it that we managed to make even God about 'me'?

You see, you've taken the most irrelevant, ephemeral, tiny bundle of flesh and blood, and we made that which is the light of this entire universe—we made that one about 'me.' This is the power of delusion. This is the power of Maya, which tells you that, 'Yes, yes, it's fine, God is here, but what about me? What about you with you?' So if truly our life is spent on love for this 'me,' worship of this 'me,' and following the will of this 'me,' then let's not call ourselves spiritual. Let's have integrity and say that spirituality for me is only a way to make this 'me' have a better time here.

So really the question is: Are we in this for God, or are we in it for His things, His stuff? Do we just love the 'God stuff'? 'I want to feel His love, I want to feel the bliss, I want to live joyfully.' That if He didn't give you any of that, then you don't love Him? So it's all about God's things and God's effects and byproducts rather than God Himself. 'Oh, my spirituality is not working for me because I don't feel the peace anymore.' But do you love God? 'How is that relevant? I don't feel His peace anymore.' Do you love God, or are you in love with His things?

I was saying the other day in satsang that if your Master was sitting in front of you and there was a spoiled little child also sitting along with the Master, and you wanted guidance on something, who would you ask? And most of you will say that I would ask the Master. The Master, who is just a mere instrument in God's hands, a mere instrument of God's light—we would ask that Master instead of the tantrumy little child. But in every moment of our life, who are we asking? Are we asking the Satguru presence within, God's presence within, the Holy Spirit within, the Atma within, or are we still going with the mind?

So it is time to let go of this tepid, armchair spirituality. It's time to give up our life for God. And to give up our life for God does not mean that we have to do something to this body; it only means that our life now must be in service to Him. I came across something very beautiful today: 'The only point of my life is to point to Him.' The only point of my life is to point to Him. I felt like there is no better description to what I feel like my life is now. Can there be some other point? Is it possible for us to be infected with His love so deeply in our heart, but in our expression we are not sharing Him, we are not pointing to Him? We are still making everything about 'me.'

That is why I'm sincerely asking all of us: Are we really meeting the God? The God who is the Master of this universe, who has seen billions and billions and billions of beings come and go in His life? Compared to His light, the life of an individual body is nothing; it's not even a cloud in the sky. And if that One is truly with us, then what are we doing looking for things in the world, worried about the world's judgments and concerns? How do we break this dichotomy? How do we break this neither-here-nor-there type life that we are leading? Maybe it's best that you pick one side and then stick with it. Just pick God or 'me' and stick with it. Don't try to mix the two, and definitely don't make it so God should be in service to me. 'I have certain desires, I want to live a certain way, and I'm entitled to make that happen through God.'

A famous scientist said that the universe has no obligation to make sense to you. The universe has no obligation to make sense to you. So why do we believe that the Creator of this universe has an obligation to make sense to a tiny bundle of flesh? What gives us the authority to question God and say, 'Why do You do this? How could You do this to me? How could You do this to the world?' He should be the one asking you: 'I'm giving you your next breath, your next heartbeat. What are you doing? Where is your gratitude? Where is your love?' And soon the gift of the next breath will be gone. Soon the gift of the next heartbeat will be gone. Then what? We feel entitled that our tepid love for God is going to entitle us to His love and presence. But do we really know?

It's time for us to stop being so entitled like tantrumy little children in front of God, who we can't even fathom. We are blessed by His grace that His presence is palpable to us through nothing of our doing. We must be clear that it's through nothing of our doing. Our doing at best is like shadow puppetry, conveying what our intentions are. And maybe God has had mercy on our intentions and given us the gift of His presence, where most of the universe, most of the world, is struggling to find God. There are so many in the satsang today who can say, 'Yes, I have found Him.' But that 'Yes, I have found Him' is not the end; it is the beginning of our servitude to Him. It is not an achievement; it is His grace.

What are you going to do with His light? What are you doing with His presence? Are you valuing it more than life itself? Are you still going on about, 'What about me now? Have I really found God, and what am I going to do, and how is He going to run my life?' So truly, who is in your altar? Who is in your temple? Who is it that you spend the most time with? Who are you bowing down to the most? We keep chanting the mala of 'me,' thinking that we are very entitled and something great will come out of all of this. As much as you will want separation from Him by focusing on the non-existent ego and elevating that into your heart temple higher than God Himself, maybe one day God will also accept your request for this separation.

Some of us have known each other for twelve years, ten years. Another ten years, twelve years will go past like this, and maybe another decade. But it's time for the story to change. It's time for you to leave, for the false 'me' to leave. There's no time to waste. You're not going to be able to make it work. The personal doesn't work. So I'm reading some of your questions and comments. Some of you are saying that you don't know what is, and my advice to you would be that as much as possible, every waking breath, let that be in service to the discovery of God. How will you make your life in service to the discovery of God? By getting over yourself, by not being selfish, by not chanting the mantra of 'What about me? What's in it for me?' By letting go of your mind, by living in your heart.

And there are many satsangs about this: live headlessly, live from your heart. Head empty, heart full. And there's enough support that has been made available to you. You can do the Atma sadii, you can do the inquiry, the invitation, you can pray. There is so much for us to come to a true meeting with God. But you must prioritize it above all else so that that will become the pillar of true self-knowledge, then give such strength to your life in God's light because it is not reliant on a belief system anymore. It is reliant on true knowledge, which is intuitive heart knowledge, which initially may seem a bit shaky, but once you start getting used to living in heart knowledge, then you see that it gives you such...

The invitation you can pray. There is so much for us to come to a true meeting with God, but you must prioritize it above all else so that that will become the pillar of true self-knowledge. Then give such strength to your life in God's light because it is not reliant on a belief system anymore; it is reliant on true knowledge, which is intuitive heart knowledge, which initially may seem a bit shaky. But once you start getting used to living in heart knowledge, then you see that it gives you such a stable, strong foundation. So then that becomes the first pillar of your life, which is insight or knowledge or intuitive insight, intuition—whatever you want to call it. That's your first pillar. That's the wing of Gana which Bhagavan spoke about. But just like a bird cannot fly with one wing, you also need the wing of Bhakti.

And especially because Bhakti is the term which is not necessarily very clear, especially in the West, I feel to break that down into two different aspects. One is the aspect of a deep love for God. All the love that you can muster in your heart, let it be for the presence in your heart. Love the being, love the Self deeply. In that way, you're loving God. And from this love for God, you will find that it is reflecting on your life in your love for all your brothers and sisters in the world. And so far, everything seems very palatable to all of us. We feel like, who doesn't want intuitive insight? Self-knowledge sounds great, I'll have some of that. Who doesn't want to love and be loved and share love? It sounds very beautiful.

But there's an element of Bhakti which is very important, and that is servitude. Bhakti is not possible without the attitude of service, without the servitude, obedience, faith, humility. Faith is to trust your intuitive insight with all your heart. Humility is to never consider yourself to be anything special. And obedience is to follow the will of your heart. And to follow God's will in our heart is very, very important and is the core of most religions in the world. Even to paraphrase Jesus, he said you may say 'Lord, Lord' all that you want, but unless you follow the will of my Father in heaven, I do not recognize you. Guru Nanak Ji said that his highest pointing is for us to follow the will of God. The word Muslim itself means one who follows God's will. And in our tradition in India and the Hindus, there is no greater way to live than to live like Hanuman, whose complete life was in service to his Lord Ram, to follow his will.

So there is no true path without this servitude to God's will. As much as in the modern world, in our modern mind, we don't like the word 'be a servant.' We don't want to have a God-dictated life. We want to have a sweet partnership: half you decide God, half I'll decide; let's collaborate; let's have a board meeting every morning and discuss how our day should go. That's how we want to run our lives. But that is not Bhakti. Bhakti means to be open, listening moment to moment to our heart nudges, to what our heart is saying and how it is moving us. But for that, we have to learn how to live in the heart and not in the head. And imagine if all of us today were to switch out from the way of the head to the way of the heart, what an explosion of love and light that would be in this world. If the purpose of all of our life, if all the point to me was only that I can point to Him, it would become the sole purpose of our existence. Then what a beautiful switchover could be possible.

So a Bhakta is not self-serving but self-sacrificing. He's not asking God, 'What are you doing for me?' and 'Why didn't you do this for me?' and 'Why have you done these things to me?' A Bhakta is saying, 'I'm Yours, God, in every way.' It means that everything is Yours and it is now handed over to You, surrendered to You. What belongs to me? Nothing at all. We were hearing a kirtan the other day on Wednesday—I don't know whether the internet went away—but the singer was beautifully sharing that there's nothing mine in me, everything in me is You, is Yours. So this is the essence of servitude, of faith, humility, and obedience. You know, a simple test would be: as much as you have wanted God to be obedient to your whims and fancies, let's start with becoming that obedient to Him. So in this way, the Bhagavan's pointing, teaching of Gana and Bhakti come together in the life of a true devotee, and that is what I would call a truly spiritual life.

Okay, Georgie's had her hand up for a bit. Everybody's video is a bit choppy for me. Is mine okay for all of you? It's kind of sort of okay. So should we keep everyone's videos on or should we turn them off? Okay, all right. Georgie can come.

Hello, Father. When I'm listening to you, I feel the call is very clear. Yes, and it's here. Yes, and it feels your call on the heart. And there's no doubt about that, but I feel very, very unworthy of it.

Yes, Ma. So my advice—I know that there's more to your question—but my advice is to not wait for worthiness. Don't wait till you feel that you are worthy to love God deeply in your heart, to stay in your intuitive insight and to make your life in service to Him. Don't wait for a confirmation of worthiness because I don't know what that would be, actually. Because I truly, sincerely am saying that I feel like I'm just beginning on this journey of loving God. I myself am a beginner. So I'm nobody who can conclude on anyone's worthiness or lack of it. But I know that whatever our past may be like, in the present I can love God deeply in my heart. I can make myself available to His guidance and grace, and my heart knowledge shows me His presence so deeply that with such grace in the moment, I don't have time to even think about my credentials. And actually, I don't even feel like they matter, you see.

It's like suddenly you woke up in a spaceship, you know, and it's a beautiful spaceship. You're traveling through the entire universe, you're seeing the most magnificent things, and then suddenly sometimes the thought comes, 'Why did I get onto the spaceship? There must be billions of my brothers and sisters waiting to get on, and how do I find myself here?' So it is the same with Grace. Grace has brought us here. Grace knows what Grace is doing. God knows what God is doing. So we don't have to worry about our worthiness. We have to make sure that we are utilizing this moment to moment fully with all our might. Because only rare ones can say that they have met God, and even rarer ones can say that we are living in God. And I know that for some of you, and for all of you actually, this is a real possibility that your life can be spent in God's light. There's nothing I want more than that.

I hear you now, Father. Yes. But sometimes the way you speak it, it feels so far from where this life has been or how this life is being led. And I've been thinking a lot about discipline lately, and you know that you don't talk about that, but it somehow feels as though lately... and I raised my hand when you talked about Atma Sadhana. And when you began, when we began, I was doing it every day and I could feel the power of it. And how can I feel the true power of that and how can I actually receive it and then go from that to just leaving the practice, or not leaving it completely but not going on every day as I was at the beginning? I don't understand. It doesn't make any sense that I can hear you, I can hear this call, and I can feel the power.

Yes. So it's very good to notice where we sway away from the path. But once we notice, we must instantly come back. We must not spend any time thinking about how I could do this, why do I do it, you know, how, why does it happen, you see? Because that is just adding to that postponing, you see. And I'm not saying that instantly you must start doing the Atma Sadhana this moment. I'm just saying return to your heart in God's love and service and allow everything to flow from there. But be careful of the mind which poses as if everything is flowing from there and it uses this as an excuse to not follow the guidance from the Master. So you have to be very, very clear, and your heart always tells you the truth. When it is an avoidance, it tells you; when it is clear, it tells you. So just follow the heart.

And I tell you a secret: that if you have an intention to be true to God, even if you're being tricked by your mind, God will make grace out of it. If your true intention is to be true to God, but somehow the mind pretends so well and pretends to be like the heart and God's guidance and all of these things, but your true intention is to follow God's light, God will make grace even out of the mind. God is not hostage to the mind. God will make even that into grace. So just hold your love for God in your heart. Just hold your love for yourself, the true Self, in the heart, and from there all faith, humility, obedience, insight—everything will come.

What if I am weak? What if I am weak?

Yes, yes. All of us are weak. All of us are weak. There is nobody here strong. All of us are weak. And it is to notice our weakness, to notice our selfishness, to follow our mind rather than God—it is to notice that and to have integrity about it which God uses to make us a true instrument. We don't have to wait to become strong. All of us are weak, especially in front of God. God is the creator of this universe, and this whole universe is nothing but a firefly for God. So in front of Him, all of us are weak anyway. No matter how strong we become, no matter how good we become, we will never be perfect disciples, we will never be perfect devotees. But we have to make do with what we have moment to moment.

And that's exactly what I mean: that truly I'm just a beginner. I just feel that what is here that is so good? Why do you children even want to listen to me? There's nothing that is so nice here. I'm just beginning to love God. I'm just beginning to be in service to Him, and even that I can't really say I've even... so don't wait to become better. Don't wait to become strong. Don't wait for any confirmation. Use this moment to love God, to be in service to Him, to be in a true insight about what is. Don't think about your weakness but His strengths. Don't think about your unworthiness but His love. Make everything about God. Make everything about the true Self. Let there today be an explosion of love for God in this satsang. Let us all explode in His love and light. May we all keep all our self-concern aside, all our self-judgment, everything aside, and just make ourselves fully available to Him. It's important that all of us recognize that to live in His light is the only worthy way of living.

You've already come such a long way from a few weeks back where there was a resistance even to the word God. So you can... by His grace we're doing well. We're doing well.

Father, I need your help, Father. I see that in my heart there is a lot of joy and there is that love which leads me further to a longing which I don't understand, Father. I don't know what it is, but it is very difficult for me to be there because it's very intense. It feels as though I'm going to explode. It feels like I'm going to burn in it. It feels like... I don't know what it is, Father, but it's just difficult for me and I need your help, Father. I don't know what it is or not. Is it a longing? I don't even know for what it is, Father. I just feel...

Very good, very good. So there is love, you say. There is deep love, there is deep joy. And when you go to the source of even this, you find that there's an unexplainable something. There's an unexplainable something. And to the mind that is very scary because it can't understand, you see. Because love we can meet, we say 'this is love.' We can meet joy and we can call it 'joy.' But when we go deeper than that, there's...

I don't even know for what it is, Father. Like, I just feel very good, very good.

So there is love, you say. There is deep love, there is deep joy. And when you go to the source of even this, you find that there's an unexplainable something. There's an unexplainable something, and to the mind that is very scary because it can't understand, you see? Because love, we can meet love; we say, 'This is love.' We can meet joy and we can call it joy. But when we go deeper than that, there's just something which is unfathomable to the mind. But that which is unfathomable, and that which is perceiving the unfathomable, doesn't need to understand what it is. It doesn't need to understand what it is. It's your mind which will struggle to try and make it understand. Your heart already knows itself. That is your heart. That is the core of your being. That is the hand of God which is calling you in. And it is scary to the mind because you don't know what's going to happen. You're right; it can feel like you may explode. You may explode, you may burn, your life could be over. It can feel that strong. But I want you to have the courage and hold my hand and stay here in the light of your heart, because that is how your life is truly becoming God's life. That is how your life is truly becoming a truly spiritual life. That is where you're truly meeting God. And our life is no longer this timid and armchair spirituality which is all about me, making ourselves feel good or feel better, but truly in love for God and service to God.

Walk at the right time. So this is when our spirituality becomes a fiery, alive spirituality. I am waiting one day to walk into this room and just go looking at all of you, full of so much light and love, instead of the, you know, 'What about me, Father? What about me? And what about my life? And I can't understand.' Instead of that, if I walk in and just go, 'Look at that!' It's possible. All you have to do is flick away this tiny voice. Find the source of love in your heart with the holy presence. The Atma is within you. You realize the magnitude of this statement? That God's presence, God's light is within you. And we are not just speaking poetic, metaphorical words. We are speaking literally. God, Bhagavan, the True One, the Lord—His presence is within you, your true Self.

So either we become very intellectual and conceptual about God, or we become very emotional and driven by emotions about God. But keeping both of those aside, can you imagine the wattage, the wattage of the light within you? If this bulb is 100 watts or whatever it is, and there is 20, 30, and that lights up this whole room, what is the wattage of the light within you? You're missing that power because it is getting contaminated by our ego. Very good. But you dive into this. I'm with you fully in this, and fearlessly, because the mind's fear is unfounded, you see? It is just trying to save itself. It is just trying to save its dominance. 'Don't go there. Love is enough now. Joy is enough now. Why you have to go to its source? Why you have to meet the holiness beyond that? You can have a nice, comfortable life just in that love and joy. Don't take it too far. Balance. Don't take it too far.' That's what the mind says.

Take it far. Take it really as far as you can. Let's push it. Not mentally, not emotionally, but take it as far as your heart wants. Push it. Push beyond the egoic boundaries of conceptual understanding. Meet the God who is unfathomable. Get over all timidity and lack of courage. Recognize whose light is shining in your heart, with Him, with you as your very presence, as the One who gives this moment light, gives this body Prana. That One is with you. There's no need to fear.

Father, I don't know anything. You only have to help me.

Yes, I already said I help. That is good enough. Just become innocent like a child. You will be led by this. Okay, let's go to Aniku.

Thank you, Ananta Ji. Can you hear me? As he was speaking, there was so much fear that came up. And also, is it just the same as George, or is it kind of like a realization that somebody says it's like half of me and half of God? But at the moment, I just felt it is all about just me. It is just for the byproducts, as you say, for love and bliss. And I just don't want this. I just want to ask you to change this inside me because I cannot control it.

Very good. It's good to notice this because at least we are blessed now that we can recognize that even in the guise of spirituality, it can be about giving this 'me' a better life. And therefore, I've been talking about God for me rather than me for God. So with full sincerity in your heart, offer yourself up to God. Make yourself available fully. Even if the mind resists and says you're faking it or whatever it is, just offer yourself fully. Surrender to God and don't let anything come in the way. Don't let the whole world catch fire with you. Stay with God.

What are you scared of?

To lose myself. To lose everything. You see, what happens to the life of a mediocre spiritual seeker is that they are dead already, fearing death. So you have to fight this death. Come to true life. And when you're coming to true life, that is when the mind gets scared. 'Oh, you're going to die! You're going to die!' But are you alive without God? Who is alive without God? So it's like the zombie who's getting scared, 'I'm going to die.' I have news for that zombie: you're already dead, you see? So there's nothing to fear. If you go to God, it can only become truer. It can only become truer life, truer light, truer love. There's nothing to fear. Those of us who take ourselves to be just this bundle of—are we alive? Are we just food walking around and we think we are alive? Not alive. You're missing life itself. And when you are called towards true life, the mind says, 'Don't go there, you'll die.' The child was saying everything is being taken away from me. That 'everything' is dead. That everything is dead already. God is what is life. Life is God. So the dead should not fear dying. Come toward life. God.

Pick one side. Don't go to the other side. Representation: God is shining in our hearts. We go there, then we get scared, we jump back to the mind, feel sorry for ourselves, then we suffer, then we go to God. Just pick a side. God is filling you with laughter, then just laugh. You don't have to be proper. You don't have to control yourself. Thank you. Okay, let's go to Edgar.

Morning. Can you hear me? Good morning, my dear. So, my question is: can Grace talk about what we want here, which is to get alive with living in God? It is primarily like Grace is the primary cause, right? So you cannot make it happen as such. You can only do so much, but I don't know what it is that you can do. What can you actually do to make the environment right for this Grace to happen? Because you say that you cannot do anything about anything you do; it is ego-based, right? So I'm pretty unclear about what it is that I can offer or I can do or I can think or feel. Very confused. I'm back into satsang after a pretty long time in my perspective, so I cannot remember or I don't have anything clear at this moment. I just wanted your orientation on that. Thank you.

Very good, very good. So the question is that if Grace is to do everything and Grace is the true cause of the auspicious to happen in our life, then what is it that is needed for me? Why don't I just go around in my merry way, following the mind if I want to, following my desire if I want to? I'm just exaggerating the question to be more impactful in some way. So don't worry, I didn't hear you say all that; I'm just adding on all of this. Yes. So the mind can say, 'But then what's the problem? I can just lead a life of any sort and God's will, God's Grace has to do everything. So there is nothing for me to change. I don't have to go to the way of the heart. I don't have to follow God's will.' And that's where the contradiction is.

So that's where intellect can come in strongly and say, 'But I see that truth can happen with Grace; everything can happen only with God's will.' But the contradiction is that then why did Guru Nanak say we must follow the will of God above all else? Why did even Jesus say that you say 'Lord, Lord,' but if you don't follow the will of my Father, then I will not recognize you? Why is one of the largest religions in the world Islam? Why does the word itself mean to follow the will of God? Those who follow the will of God are called Muslim. Why do we revere Hanuman so much? Because of his devotion. Even that devotion must have been great. So what's the big deal about him? Why should we put him up on the walls and pray to him every Tuesday? Because he didn't do anything? He was just chilling and then Grace came to him? Yes?

So there's something there which can seem contradictory but actually is not. And that is why the metaphor that I find best to describe this is that with all the power that we use to do everything in this world, in this life—because all this lack of doership only comes when we come to satsang and in spirituality. In the rest of our life, you feel like, 'I can do this. I can be good at this, bad at this.' So all of that power that we bring to the rest of our life, before we stop ourselves in this intellectual spiritual way, we must make that in service to God. Make yourself available to serve God. Ask God for guidance. Be open to receiving His nudges, His prompts. Be open to receiving His love and to love Him, even if it feels like you can't do it, like, 'I can't love; love has to happen to me,' you see? In spite of that mental block, love God. Love God. Be open. Be empty. Empty yourself for God. Live as if you don't exist; only God's light exists.

Will Grace do all of this or will you do it? There is no way to tell. So Bhagavan said, Ramana Maharshi said, that as long as it feels like I have any choice, then we must make the choice not to go with the stream of our thoughts, and one day we may call that Grace. So whatever you think you have, make it available for God. So that is what I call setting the table for the dinner guest to come. Setting the table for the dinner guest to come. Whether the guest comes or not is up to Grace. So whatever we think we have, to offer that up is to set the table. It is up to the Lord, up to God, whether He accepts our invitation or not.

Now, on the other hand, if you are already living your life fully empty, there is no 'me,' you can truly say there is nothing of me here, all is already Yours, then that is already setting the table enough. But I have never met anyone like that. Even Ananta, I've never met anyone like that. Is it? So we must not fall victim to like an intellectual understanding of non-doership, especially when that is in contradiction to what all the masters and sages have told us. And the greatest lights who have pointed us to God have told us to follow God's will. Now, if you were to just say that, what are they saying? 'Already everything is already God's will.' So they must be then really stupid and we must be the smart ones. So explore what could be true among the two. Could it be that Hanuman, Jesus, Krishna, Guru Nanak, the Prophet Muhammad—all of them had it wrong and we have it right? The mind would love that. 'The first one to crack this! Don't need to follow God's will; it's already God's will. You cracked it!'

Again, I'm not saying Edgar said all this. I'm just saying that this is what the doubting mind can do. It can trap us in an intellectual understanding and intellectual notion, and then our life becomes a tepid, tame spirituality where we continue to be intellectually amplified but there's no real fire in our love for God. So simply put, everything you think you can do in any aspect of life, offer that to God. I lost your audio, my dear. Can't hear you now. Oh, he's muted. How did that happen? Yes, yes, no, it's happened because there was some noise out.

I am just saying that this is what the doubting mind can do. It can trap us in an intellectual understanding and intellectual notion, and then our life becomes a tepid, tame spirituality where we continue to be intellectually amplified, but there's no real fire in our love for God. So simply put, everything you think you can do in any aspect of life, offer that to God. I lost your audio, my dear. I can't hear you now. Oh, he's muted. How did that happen? Yes, yes, no, it's happened because there was some noise outside.

So what I wanted to say is that that indication that give everything that you think you can give, give everything that you think you can give—give it all to God. Like, in what sense should I think about him more? Or should I not think about that, not think about anything?

To be empty for God is the highest and simplest way to be with him. Just be empty for God, meaning that you're not putting yourself in any shape. You're not limiting yourself because of your mind's notions. You're remaining empty, and in that emptiness, it is almost an inevitability that God's presence will shine in you. His light will become palpable in you. So yes, if you can remain empty, that is the highest. If you are not going to be empty and you're going to think about things, then it's better that you make God the object of your focus. May your thoughts become prayerful; all of those things come into play if you find that you cannot always be empty. And it's a rare one who can always be empty. I mean, I can see the peace in you, so I can pretty much say with conviction that you are living in God most of the time, almost all the time.

I couldn't say the same about me. Is that like—I just want to, in case I get lost in my thoughts because I know it happened in the past, is there like any prayer or anything that I can do?

Yes, yes, yes. Because you've not been here for a bit, I'll give you the guidance on that. So if you go to the Satsang with Ananta YouTube page, the first video should be something called the Atma Darshan Samadhi. You see, the simple way to be in God's light. So if you can watch that, it provides a very detailed way to just be in God's presence, be in God's light. It's a beautiful, beautiful guidance that came through here from God in my heart. So I would strongly suggest you go through that.

And one more question, I'm sorry. So we know that all of us in our separate lives and our particular experiences, we kind of go through different things and learn about those. So I think I'm right to say that even if we live in God and we dedicate ourselves to this type of life, and if that happens entirely, that we should still see like the ups and downs of life, the problems and the shortcomings. Like, we are not going to become perfect, right? Because I am guilty—I feel guilty sometimes for making mistakes and like, this shouldn't happen, it shouldn't even come to my mind if I am devoted to God, which is what I really want, right?

Anything—there is nobody, like I said to Georgie earlier, there is nobody who is perfect. All of us are going to make mistakes and we must not be so concerned about what has happened in the past. We must notice it and we must just allow ourselves to let go moment to moment. Because if we spend too much time on post-mortem and we spend too much time on why something happened and like this, we miss the opportunity to be freshly present in this moment. And to be freshly present in this moment is to be in God's light in this moment. So it's not that we don't learn from our mistakes; we do. We notice them, but we don't dwell on them so much. We don't post-mortem them so much.

Thank you. It's very refreshing to talk to you again. It feels very peaceful.

Thank you. Thank you as well. Thank you. Let's go to Claudia. Namaste, Father.

Namaste, my Namaste. Take your time, take your time, there's no rush. I'm very happy. I really can feel the presence is there since I do Atma Darshan prayers. Something changed. No, God's presence is there. And as I wrote to you, I don't go out of the bed if the presence is not really palpable. And like you said last Satsang, before it was an open and empty way of life. It became a little bit my mantra in the morning: open and empty. Something didn't work? Open and empty. Stay open and empty. But now I can realize what really open and empty is. And going to the past, not being present—but in very difficult moments, I always could feel God's guidance even if there was fear or deep, deep grief. But I got up and I just moved. There was no capacity to think about it. I did what I did by God's guidance and grace. I moved. And now there is, like Ananta said, there is this joy and yes, I'm a little bit like a butterfly or like a child. I get up doing this, doing that. Yes, it's a very unspiritual life. I do my prayers in the morning, my exercise, but for the rest, I do a practical life and I'm not guilty about that. Friends are coming, then they are not spiritual, and no, I don't think about it and I just live in God's light. But is this really God's guidance or is my mind making up this enjoying of life? And you said also before, you have to push. And now there is no fear, there is courage, and I can't push. God will bring me where it should be, but I'm not sure if not mind. The intuition says no, but and just do, but I don't know if mind maybe makes it up.

No. Okay, so what—let me see some guidance for this. So intuition about that, yes, thank you. So I'm very happy that you're continuing the Atma Darshan Samadhi and you're taking my advice of not leaving your bed till you come to God's presence. So that is a beautiful start to your day because I've been saying that without God's presence, you don't want to spend the day with yourself in an egoic way, and you definitely don't want to inflict the ego on the rest of the world for any reason. So must start your day every day with living in God's presence. And if that means that you're so caught up in the mind on a particular day, you're so caught up in selfishness and ego and all of these things that you don't feel God's presence and you have to spend the whole day in bed, then that is still better than going like that and afflicting that ego on the rest of your brothers and sisters in the world. But for most of you, I can say that it will come. God's presence will become alive in your integrity of asking for his grace. So it will happen.

Now you will find that as you're living—so you found this holy presence, now you have to be anchored to this presence throughout the day. So if you find that in interacting with some people then it just feels like that was in the morning and now it's all over and now the rest of the day goes about normally, then just take a minute, return to that presence. And once you've really activated yourself in this way to be in his light, then you will find that to return to the presence through the day is not that difficult. So as long as you're living the rest of the day from there, then you're not leading an unspiritual life. You cannot be unspiritual connected to spirit because that is the spirit within you. Now as you're connected to God's presence within, naturally you will start to see that somehow God finds a way to make everything about God. Make everything about God and make everything Godly in that way.

So everything about God does not mean that we are only talking about God—God is like this, God is like that, you see. Everything about God means that it becomes loving, it becomes kind, it becomes compassionate, it becomes giving, it becomes holy in that way. So whereas the content of the conversation may not always be God, but the temperature, the feeling, the texture of the conversation becomes full of love and kindness and compassion. So just notice like that and see if it is going like this. And if you feel like in some moments you are getting pulled in because of other people's interaction and things are getting pulled into the mind, then notice that and return to God's presence throughout the day. And as you keep going, you'll notice that our life becomes fully immersed in God.

Yes, I would like to hear this commanding God: do this, do that. This guidance I'm a little bit missing, and then mind comes in and says, 'Oh, this was maybe not in service to God' or I don't know what I'm making up. Then what mind makes up?

Then God is not holding back from any of us, and whenever something in us is prepared to follow him in that way, then it'll start to happen. You start to notice the nudges before they become commands. You may just notice them as heart nudges, you know, just the heart moving in a particular way. You don't know why, but it's just guiding you in that particular way. So as we become better at following our intuitive guidance in this way, as Satguru presence in that way, then the—I mean, let's call it a relationship provisionally—then the relationship deepens more and more and we will never feel like we are left without guidance.

Before you said to push a little bit, we should push. What did you mean with this pushing?

Yeah, yeah, because we've been looking at the mind's and the world's motivation to tell us that you must not overdo it. You must retain a balance between the world and God; don't overdo your life and God, you know, these kind of things which is popular for our families to say and maybe our mind to say. And the other day I played the song, Judas's song called 'Heaven on Their Minds,' where he was telling Jesus that you're going too far with this God thing, you're going too far, you know, you should have kept it in check and then we could have all lived. But because you went too far, that is why we are in danger of dying. And so this fear sort of overcame him. So that is why I'm saying that when the mind tells you that you must hold something back, retain some part of yourself, you must offer that up even more. Don't hold back from God.

Thank you so much. Thank you. Thank you. Okay, let's go to Sam. Can you hear me well?

It's all interference. This is better now.

Okay. I feel like I miss you so much. Yeah, I just miss you so much. I don't have actually the words to how much love I feel for all of you.

And if it is about love, then it is not possible to miss that because there's so much of that here, all my children. But how do you mean by miss? Like, what would be an antidote to that?

To merge with you, to merge in this presence. I don't feel like I'm apart from it. Well, I don't know. Like in two ways I miss you. One is that I really feel that urge within my heart towards you and Guruji and being in your presence. This is also just so palpable and this kind of hunger arose a lot recently. Yeah, I think this and the other one, I don't know. Recently I have no idea about anything. Like, I don't know anything. I don't know even—I cannot even listen to you. I don't know, like word to word I can say I don't understand anything, Father. I don't know what God is yet. I mean, I'm not even able to speak recently. I don't know what's going on, but I'm not saying it's bad or good, just like this. But at the same time, I have to say that yeah, I'm not doing so much, I just miss you. But also some kind of dirtiness is within, dirt within my system. Yeah, I don't know, Father. I mean, I feel always—I feel always good. Yeah, there is just this urge, I think that's all.

This urge to merge is very, very auspicious, and presence is right there with you. Satguru presence—I'm just an instrument—is right there with you. You must hear that heart call and fully make yourself available to merge. And if you don't hold back from God, you will merge.

But also, like some kind of dirtiness is within—dirt within my system. Yeah, I don't know, Father. I mean, I feel always—I feel always good. Yeah, there is just this urge. I think that's all.

This urge to merge is very, very auspicious. And presence is right there with you. Satguru presence—I'm just an instrument—is right there with you. You must hear that heart call and fully make yourself available to merge. And if you don't hold back from God, if you don't hold back, you will merge and you will find His life.

Um, a lot has changed recently, Father. Um, but I—I don't feel any—I don't care so much. Like, so much has changed, but I don't care. And yeah, this urge comes after that. Like, only—I don't know what is God even, but only—I don't know, just an urge. Yeah. And maybe—maybe I can share this. Like, um, there was little—no, it's not important. Like, world has no meaning. I—I don't even need to—I don't know. I don't know. I don't care, Father. I don't care about anything. I don't care. Yeah.

Yes. I'm sorry. Very just love God, serve God. Insight about God's presence is there. Hold on.

Yes. I—nothing else beyond that is needed. All recently, I—yes, like I'm making this conscious choice again for this. Yes. My thank you.

Hello, Father. Thank you so much. Welcome, welcome. I still see Samia. Now I see you.

Um, I—I don't know what I have to say. Um, maybe to tell you I'm sorry. I'm so stupid sometimes.

Today is that kind of satsang a little bit. That kind of like, "Hurry up and wake up" type satsang a little bit. So it's fine. Yeah.

Maybe. I was quite sick in the last few days and, uh, I couldn't—we got coid and I couldn't focus on any sort of practice. Like, even breathing five times was hard. Um, but I resisted the temptation to ask for a blessing for health, which is, um, yeah.

And whatever you can worry about, it's good to pray instead. So, if the resistance to asking for the blessing for health was because there is no concern about it as well, then it is fine. But if you're going to spend time being concerned about it, then it is better to pray about it. Because the mind stops us from doing that because it says, "You cannot go to God or Guru with such a small thing." Yeah. But if you're going to then take time and be concerned about it and worry about it, then it's better you give it to—it is better to give it to God.

Thank you. I did pray by myself. I was more like—I didn't find it appropriate to, yeah, to ask you or Guruji for help.

Then how did—sorry. Oh, I didn't hear you. I think that without the light of the Satguru within, it is not possible to pray. Yeah. Yeah.

And if there is something I can pray now to you, is to guide me with your love for Him and my constant—constant blessing, constant prayer. And there's the ability to fully surrender and offer up this life to Him with full heart and honesty. Thank you.

Thank you. Okay, go to S. Audible?

Hello. Thank you. Very welcome. Now I don't know what to say. Take your time. Don't worry, don't worry. Take your time. I'm very tired too. Don't—I'm not being fully honest with my—I want to be sincere. Up the kindness. What is the last part again? After "not been sincere"? Still, I said I'm still—still grateful. Like, you—you—you are—you both are so kind. And I also, like—is it a story or coming from her to—I don't know.

Why do you feel you've not been honest?

I've not been able to share everything with—

We just take a minute and breathe. Don't worry, just breathe.

I'm not—I'm wasting my—

It feels to you that you're not good enough for this and you're wasting your teacher's time. So what is option number two? Suppose you're not good enough for this, then what can you do?

But I can't stop coming to satsang.

You can't stop coming to satsang. So suppose that—like another child asked me, no? She said, "It seems too difficult. It just feels like I'm not worthy. I don't know if I'm cut out for God, if I can even do this." But when there is no other road that we can walk on, then there is no—it's not optional to walk on this road, isn't it? In the sense that I've often said, and these days especially I've been saying, that our life is a zombie life. It is a dead life without God's light, isn't it? So the option is, if we—if you're going to live, then we have to live in God's light. If we have to live, we have to find God. Now, there is no better way to find God than to follow the guidance, the way of the teacher, the way of the master, isn't it? So unless the master has told you—the teacher told you—you cannot come to satsang, then you must latch on to it. Keep it latched on for dear life because there is no option. It's like you can't say, "I'm not cut out for oxygen, nitrogen. I'm not really cut out for oxygen." Can you see that? Can't say that, no? You have—you have recognized that God is the lifeblood of our very existence, and to live a Godless life is to live in hell. To live a life without God is not to live at all; it is to be dead, you see. So we die, we continue to be dead for 70, 80 years, and then we die, which is not to have lived at all, you see. Now, God has sent you a messenger, a servant of God. So unless that messenger said that "My message is not for you" or "I'm not in service to your living in God's light," it is not for us—it's not up to us to judge whether we are right for this or not. It's not like we have any other option, isn't it? So then what happens is, then we stop living as if we are like in victim mode, you see. Because even in this where we are being self-deprecating is where we are saying, "Oh, I don't know whether I'm good enough" and all of that, but we're just dwelling on this victim sort of mode. So we must snap out of it and make everything about God. So if you've found God, then you must live in God's light. If you haven't found God, then you must trust the master who is telling you that God is right here. Till we have faith in our own insight, we must follow the master's words fully, faithfully, with all our might. Okay? And if you try to hold on to something of yourself, if you try to balance it out and say, "This—this is my life and this is God's life," you see, and you try to do all of that, then it doesn't work out and it becomes a greater struggle than just trying to lead an individual life, you see. That's why many who come to spirituality, they expect peace and bliss and joy and happiness, but for the first few days, weeks, or months, it can feel like life has become even more of a struggle, okay? It can feel like that because we're trying to still hold on to an older way of living while trying to include a new way of life into that, which doesn't work. So whether you're good or you're bad, you must hand it over to God. Let your life with full integrity become God's life. What are you scared of? What are you scared of? Now I'm literally asking, not rhetorically. Oh, did you—no, I can hear you.

Now there are a lot of fears, right? Lot of fears. Judgment, not being alone, not living up to expectation.

If you're going to fear, then fear only one thing. You don't need to fear anything, but if you're going to fear, then only fear that it is possible that you may spend your whole life away from God, that you will have a Godless life. That is the only thing that if you are going to fear, then you can fear. All the rest is secondary to that. All the rest comes after that. Whether people like you, they judge you, that you are left alone, lonely—all of that is irrelevant because the one that we are so concerned about is going to die tomorrow, is as good as dead today. So all this concern about the dead is not needed. Just be concerned about the fact that: Have you found the Atma within? Have you found eternal life through the life of the Atma within? And if you haven't, don't waste a moment on anything else. Not one moment, huh? Can you do that? What is going to be the—what is going to be the only important thing in your life? Find God. Find God and to live in His light. Do you think it is—you think it's a worthwhile—it's a worth-it project, huh? Would you rather find God or would you rather find, like, the best things in life: a loving partner, best financial security, the best body that you can have, all the peace, the love? If you had to pick—if there were two ends of this and you had to pick—that you will have God and truth but none of the good things in life, or you could have everything that is on offer in this world, what would you pick?

So not sure, sir.

Okay, so that is what you need to contemplate. We need to contemplate that and say, if I want—if this is still about finding love and relationship, or this is still about feeling companionship and not feeling lonely, then how long is all this game going to last? And we may have an illusion that we are very young, but anything can happen. We may not wake up tomorrow. And then if you are face to face with God and God says, "How have you spent your life?" are you ready with that answer? Are you happy to meet God in this moment? Are you happy to face God and say, "This is what I've offered to you in my life because of my love for You, because of my gratitude for every breath that You have given me"? Okay? What is the best-case scenario? Suppose you had all the perfect things in life, then what will happen?

You'd be very happy, Father. I deep down know, okay, that is not—that will not last and that will not be okay.

But if you know, then you would have dropped it. So there must be a "but" somewhere, no? What is the "but"? Could it be that actually this world is only real and God is just an idea? Is that fear there? Okay, "Ultimately if I don't succeed in finding God, at least I should have a happy life." But you can't—you can't hedge your bets in this game, you see, because that doubt will hold you back from leading a true life. If you try to—that's why I'm raging so much, so much against this whole notion of balance. Because if you don't hand over your life to God, God will not live as your constant presence. If you try to say, "Oh, the spiritual aspect of my life is just one aspect," then that is not true devotion to God. That is actually just a feel-good method. So you have to really spend a lot of time in contemplation and really contemplate: What is your life for? What is it that you really want? I came across this one line today which I shared in family groups also, where I said that the best way to fail is to succeed at all the things that don't matter. Can you meet the sentence? So the best way to fail is to succeed at all the things that don't matter. So suppose you've been successful, you have a happy relationship, happy worldly life, you have all the money in the world, you succeeded at everything, and then you die. Have you failed or succeeded? So the mind offers us things and offers us ways to succeed in all the things that don't matter, but it never offers us the way that really matters, the thing that really matters, because its dominance is over them, you see. So first you have to spend as long as it takes to answer this question for yourself truly in your heart: What is it that matters the most? What is it that matters the most? Now, if you come to the conclusion that it is God that is the only thing that truly matters, but the precondition to meeting God, to being in God, is that—which means that nothing belongs to me, everything belongs to God alone, you see. But you've determined that He is the only thing that is important. That is only going to give you the courage to do it. Because otherwise, if you keep hedging your bets saying, "This, this, this," then you're never going to have the courage to lead an authentic life in God. It will seem too difficult. And that's what you're saying, that it's too difficult, you see. Why does it seem difficult? Because you're trying to juggle too many things. If you were uni-focused, one-pointed just to God, then there's no difficulty. But you're trying to live life on your own terms and follow God's will. That cannot happen, you see. And this, by the way, doesn't mean that God will naturally say, "Don't have relationship, don't have a life in that worldly way, don't make money." It is not necessary that God will say that, but you must be open to hearing what He says.

Why does it seem difficult? You see, it's because you're trying to juggle too many things. If you were focused, one-pointed, just to God, then there's no difficulty. But you're trying to live life on your own terms and follow God's will; that cannot happen. See, and this by the way doesn't mean that God will naturally say don't have a relationship, don't have a life in that worldly way, don't make money. It is not necessary that God will say that, but you must be open to hearing what He's saying instead of just presuming that God will say have a decent relationship and money and all of that. So if God says you must become a beggar on the streets, then you must become a beggar on the streets. If the Lord says you must become the king of your land, then you must become the king of your land. But you can't presume.

Like honestly sharing such rather important—I can't imagine life without Ma anymore—like that's very good to hold on to your teacher's feet with all your mind. And I'm very happy to hear that my child is having such an impact on you. So I'm very happy that you found that the best way to God is through the Master's feet. But then you must be wholehearted in that and you cannot hedge your bets and say, you know, I will follow this much but then I also want this, you know? Because you're increasing your own struggle. If your whole—suppose your whole being had to be filled with oxygen, I don't know why these oxygen-nitrogen examples are coming for you—if it had to be filled with oxygen but you say, 'No, no, I want one nostril to have oxygen, the other one to have hydrogen,' then that can't work. Then you must fully inhale what is being offered to you with everything that you have.

If you hold back, my child, it is going to be a struggle. You must learn to fully surrender with everything that you have. So it's not enough to say that I can't do without this, I can't do without this, you see? You must dedicate your life, your being, everything at your disposal fully to that. It's not a crutch for you. It's not a crutch for you; it is a way for you to lead a true life. What do you come to—why do you go to satsang? Okay, what are the options? You could be going because I love Ma, because of the love that you feel, but for that you don't need to go to satsang. You can just call her or you can just, you know, have a video call or something like that. Why do you go particularly? What will you get? Let me put it more directly: what will you get in satsang? Do you just like the companionship or is there something more? What is it?

Deeply touches, Father, that is beyond human understanding, isn't it?

Yes. So where does that calling from the heart—where is it calling you? Have you tried following it to its source? You must follow that. That is God calling you. Otherwise, there's nothing so attractive about satsang. There's no reason for any of you to come here or to go to any satsang. It is only because you recognize something that resonates deeply in your heart. Like you said, something is deeply present there. Now the thing is that this must become the only thing. It has to become central—not just central, but the only. Are you willing to do that? Because the most troublesome, most bothersome for any teacher is the ones who are just neither here nor there.

If you are fully called to God, then it's okay, I have nothing to do with you. If you're fully burning in God's fire and longing for Him, then I'm at your service, I'm at your feet, you see? But the ones who are in the middle—one day like, 'I want this more than anything,' and the next day saying, 'No, no, but I have to lead my life and I have to, you know, balance things out and my family is saying'—that is the most irritating because you don't have the courage of your own heart and you then become all over the place and you want the Master then to dance to the same tunes. Any Master who is truly sharing from God's light is energized by your fire for God, you see?

You may say that I am weak, I don't know if I can do it, but truly in my heart all I want is God. Then you see that the Master will sit at your feet and serve you with everything that you want. But if you are neither here nor there, a little bit airy-fairy like this, like that, you see, and just emotional but not truly from the heart, then it's not going to activate that power. See this? You know what it means to be you. You know what it means to be from the heart but not emotional. So dive into that more. So a lot of contemplation is needed, my dear. So just first contemplate: what is it that you want? Even if it is at the cost of everything else, what is it that you want? And then go with that commitment, go with that fire, and you see that everything that you are truly longing for will be made available to you. But if you keep vacillating, it'll be difficult. Thank you for having the courage to come. Thank you that you spoke with integrity. So all my blessings, all my love is with you.

Emotions sometimes seem like they're insurmountable. They seem like they're too difficult and, you know, we are driven by our suffering or joy or any of that. But actually they are a tiny aspect of your being. So don't waste your whole life just being driven by your emotions. Notice that there's a deeper place to you. Very good. Let's go to Beatrice.

Yes. I feel so bad. I feel so bad. I feel it great.

Okay, what are you feeling bad about?

I don't want to live anymore, Father. I'm tired.

What will happen if you don't live anymore? What is the benefit of that?

I don't experience life anymore, or pain or something.

You won't? How do you know you won't experience? What if you just end it here and instantly you're back in another body-mind which is worse? And then you end it over there and you're back in another body-mind which is worse? Do you know for certain that that can't happen?

I don't know. Maybe I will be a cat, I don't know. But I'm tired.

See, so instead of following the mind's escape route, which is to say maybe you should just end this, it'd be better—any life would be better than this, even if I come as a cat it'll be better—that is what the mind is saying, you know? But the Master is telling you...

I don't want to live anymore, Father. I don't want to meet anyone. I don't want to work. I don't want to even go to the street. I can't.

I can understand you. So you have two options. One is the mind telling you, 'I want to escape all of this by dying or whatever method.' But the Master is telling you that the only way to escape this really is to transcend it and to live in the holy presence of God.

Yes, Father. I see that is the mind that comes over and over during all the day. And I try to do my best. All my life trying to do my best. I'm tired.

Trying to do your best in what? In living in God or...?

All the time, Father, since I was a child.

It cannot be that we can do our best in everything. We can only do our best in one thing, you know? So this is true for all our lives. Some people are very good at doing their best at work. Some people are very good at doing their best at improving their body. Some people are doing their best in some other way. Now what I'm telling you is that you have to do your very best to live in God's presence and don't be the—you don't have to be the best at anything else. You can drop all of that burden, expectations; none of that matters because the only thing that truly matters is God. And this ephemeral life anyway is going to end. Why do you want to end it in a way that you'll have to repeat this whole thing over and over again? End it in a way that you meet the eternal light and it is the end of transmigration, the end of the cycle of birth and death. Which is the better way to end it?

Is this mind that is coming like this with this kind of thoughts and it is growing? It's growing.

How can it grow? Can it grow by itself?

No, Father, because I believe. It just keeps growing bigger, bigger. It just keeps growing super.

Let it grow. Let it explode. That would be cool. So just leave all of that, what the mind is saying. It doesn't matter what it is saying. You stay with the presence in your heart.

Maybe just fine, Father, but I have so much thoughts and beliefs and many, so much, so much, so so much.

Yes. How much? This much? Much more?

Big, Father.

A thought is a mosquito. It has no power unless you make it into the dragon, you know? The mosquito comes in your head and you think it's a dragon and then you say, 'I can end it all for this dragon.' But actually it's just a mosquito.

Yeah, I try to do everything to be—to leave it and be empty as much as possible and okay, I'm now show me, now show me now. The mind says I've tried everything, I've tried to be, yeah you see, I've tried everything, it doesn't work, I'm just going to end it.

Yes. So break through all this mosquito noise and stay in your heart. Stay in your heart. It doesn't want to drop the story, you know? No, it can't be that easy. It can't be that easy, you see? You can't just go away like that. I had decided now I don't want to laugh and just throw away the narrative. It's like... I don't know what is like, what is the thing that is taking...

So let's think about that. Yes, please. I need to resolve this, Father. Who is the one that is thinking? Let's—I need to find the answer because I can't live anymore like—I don't want to live like this. I don't—yeah, you see this thing before about the servant not serving the 'I' and serving God. And I see this 'I' there that wants to die to serve it. No, I—I don't want to serve that. Then I see—I just say that I see when you say this thing about serving God instead of this 'I', I see how this 'I' is in life as God says. The whole thing from God's perspective instead of 'I' perspective because you say that I noticed this 'I' was there and then I, I, I, I, I. No, leave the 'I'. Make it about God. What is God's perspective?

I don't feel that He has any perspective. God—there's no perspective. Like, I don't think that God has any perspective. Mind will say, 'Why you want to turn to God? God doesn't know anything. He has no perspective.' Yeah, He's just neutral. Yeah. 'Why did I follow God's will? God's will is neutral. Go left, right, go either, I don't care, I have no perspective. Stay in the head, stay in the heart, stay with me, stay with the devil, I have no perspective.' God is just like the blessing Baba sitting. So how much we try to create God in our image, in our idea of what He should be, instead of just meeting Him, being with Him.

Father, I want to finish with the mind and the identification.

Yes, but the 'I'—this 'I', no? Yes, that's the thorn. It is saying that 'I' want to finish with all this identification and all that, but it is made up of identification. Yeah.

Yes, this 'I' is identification itself.

So leave it.

Yes. Yes, this is why it can be so strong because I see it more and more that this is not the one, the one.

Yeah. Then if you see that something is untrue, it catches you more or less? If you see that it is not true, there is no one to catch. Good, good.

Father, give me a blessing from the heaven, please. Blessing, Father, please give me the final blessing. Yes, final blessing, please.

Yes. What is the blessing? I don't know, you—wow, I get to pick! But I have no perspective on you. I bless you that this fog that seems so true and alive at the moment, may you see through it. And may you find such a comfort in being in God's presence and being in love with Him that may the mind never have the power to convince you of a false identity and any notions about how to fix your life. May you follow only God's guidance and His will. All my love, all my blessings are with you. Thank you. Okay, we'll close today because my throat is giving up and I feel like we've shared everything for now. Thank you all so much for being in satsang today. Satguru Shri Mooji Baba Guru Ki Jai. Om Shanti Shanti Shanti.