The Repetition of the God’s Name Has the Power To Cut the Holds of Maya - 4th March 2026

Huh? It's immaterial.

It's immaterial. Then how is entry to be gotten? No method can gain entry. But every spiritual path, every spiritual pointing points us to that doorway of His abode. You see, and there if we wait like a patient beggar with faith and humility, then by His grace He may give us entry. That is why all the sages have told us that it is a process of grace. Only through God's grace will it happen. Which doesn't mean that we can say that whatever seeming idea of choice and will that we have, we exhaust that in attachment to worldly things. We use whatever that seeming we have to remain at His door. And we'll talk more about that, how to remain at His door. But when that door opens, when that guest comes for dinner, whether He comes for dinner or not, our job is to set the table for him. Whether He comes to taste the berries or not, our job is to collect them.

No gods, nor can gods or sages force their way. And when she's talking about gods—and she in the sense that Hanuman Poddar Ji has written this from her perspective—she's talking about the gods like Indra and Vayu and Surya and all of these gods who in the Indian tradition we consider to be gods. Not any sage can command this. No sage can command this. You see, if the sage could command this and they claim to love their children, then all their children would have Atma Darshan. You see, they could command the Atma to say, 'No, these children are worthy. Give them Atma Gyan.' No sage can do it. Only God Himself can do it. So it is Jesus who could say, 'I will tell my Father to send you the Comforter,' but no sage could do it. So a teacher of God, an instrument of the Atma within, can plead, can beg with the Atma, but cannot force. So only God and God in His Avatars can command the Atma to reveal itself to us.

So nor can gods or sages force their way there. Pleasure and pain, bondage and liberation, knowledge and ignorance do not remain there at all. So what remains is Satyam Shivam Sundaram—beauty, truth, love—all that is virtuous is revealed to us over there. But conceptual knowledge has no place there. Even our highest concepts are worth nothing there. So she says—I'll skip some of it—though you are His companion, Uddhav Ji was Lord Krishna's friend and disciple, but also friend. So although in the outer world he was friends with the Lord Himself, he had not yet met Him the way that Radha had. So that meeting place that was alien to him because he was stuck in the pride of knowing. He was stuck in the pride that 'I know Brahma Gyan, I know this,' you see. But conceptually he knew. That's why the Lord Himself sent him to help him to Sri Radha. He sent him there so that he could learn that just concepts without love are meaningless, are pointless. If you make your own heart His abode, His palace of colors, then you will be free from this dry pride of knowledge and be lost in the nectar of His love.

So thank you. Thank you for this. So it's very appropriate to share today on Holi these holy words from Sri Hanuman Poddar Ji speaking on behalf of Sri Radha herself. So it's so beautiful that in this way another sage has given us His address. Where does He stay? Where does God stay? He stays in that holy place in our heart. Is that a physical heart? It isn't a physical heart. And yet all sages, or let's say most sages, have pointed to His abode in our heart. That is our spiritual core, our spiritual center.

Now she said that He has to give us entry there and I'm saying that we have to wait at that door to get entry. Now He's made the waiting at His door also very, very simple. I was going to say easy, but maybe it's not that easy. It's simple. We have to drink the name of the Lord or we have to ask ourselves sincerely, what is the reality of this 'I'? Who is this 'I'? Who am I? And the Lord has gifted us with an Antahkarana, a soul which is designed to gravitate towards what we truly desire. You see, let me even say what we even momentarily desire, it aligns itself to that in that moment. So we said the other day, if you remembered mango, what happened?

You salivate, you get the taste of mango. You may imagine mangoes. You may remember your childhood experiences with mango. So much may happen just with one remembrance of it.

You see? Now is it possible to be completely mechanical about it? Possible, but just about possible. Very difficult, you see. Possible, but very difficult. So if this happens with mango, what happens with Ram? It brings you to that door because it can't give you—you can't go exactly. So only God can give us that grace of revelation. You see, so in its design, in the wisdom of the soul, we are led to that doorway where that meeting can happen. That is the extent of what it can do here. Isn't that such a gift?

Of course, when you say Ram, then some imagery will come, some love will come, some recollection of the play of Ram's life in this human world will come. All of these things can come and we can enjoy all of that as Prasad, as gifts, like we got some beautiful Prasad today. But we are not to rest as that as a completion. No matter how glorious that taste may be, we are not to take that as a completion. We are to take it with reverence and as a gift of Prasad. But we are not confusing Prasad with Gyan. Till Atma Gyan happens, we remain with the inquiry and with chanting God's name. How beautiful is it that just with the intention to turn towards Him, He makes the turning happen. In the soul's wisdom, He makes the turning happen. We just have to turn. Swami Ramtirth Ji said God is the only thing that can be attained merely by turning towards Him.

So He lives there. We have been given the pathways to meet Him and where we can get to by following the pathway—we can get to a very holy place where Darshan is possible by His grace alone. You see, now since you have been told about this, has your life, has my life been only about that? Can I hazard a guess? So it's not been only about that. Because besides the Atma's call from that holy place, there's another calling which is much more, you see, grotesque in a way, but I'll find a better word.

Forceful. Tangible.

Tangible. I don't know, it seems. And that force is the force of Maya. Maya says, 'This is important right now. Be here now. What am I getting? What am I getting? What am I getting?' So like Gollum in the Lord of the Rings, we are holding on to worldly things like 'my precious,' my pleasure. And when we hold on to what—if the sage also told us, what if the sages also told us? They've told us that this lane is very narrow. If there is me, there cannot be God. If there is God, there cannot be me. If you attach to things for the 'me,' then the higher likelihood is that God will seem distant. You see, if you let go, keep the lane empty for God and you wait in that open and empty holy place in your heart, then the revelation of the Atma will happen. Is there a better offer that we have and a better deal in the world?

You see, but in that moment, Maya can produce even the most absurd, silly deal which can seem to outweigh, be heavier than this. What Anandamayi Ma told us is that He dwells in the inner cave of our heart and our job as humans is to dwell with that Supreme Being so that we may merge into Him. Now we've heard it from so many different sources, but what can happen is that your mind can say, 'Yes, yes, that's fine, but for the moment you don't have time for that. For the moment something else is more important.' So what can be easier? Just take the name of Ram. Or can anything be easier? Just ask yourself sincerely, who am I? Who am I? Where do you go? Now you may say that I don't go to that place. It seems like what you are talking about is not my experience. I go into my head and my thoughts are distracting me. You see? So when distraction happens, repeat. When distraction happens, repeat. When you get caught up in the Prasad only and forget about the Darshan, repeat. The repetition of God's name has the power to cut the holds of Maya, or the repetition of the intent to find the truth about who we are has the power to cut the holds of Maya.

I have to share this, Father. Yesterday when I felt that I want to take on this project of God, or a kind of garbage, you know, like either life for God or garbage—God is the two options in the moment.

Options. Yeah.

And Father, so I feel like when I'm choosing God, of course, it's all like, you know, it's immersive and I want to keep going back and it is like an endless sort of—I don't know, it's very, it's deeply immersive and it's pleasurable and it's joyous. It's like a movement in itself, no, Father? But these—and I feel like I've noticed so many grooves since yesterday to today at every point of time. And sometimes, you know Father, like yesterday I was also seeing, I was praying, praying, and then towards the end I feel like one thing, then again next thing, then like I feel like it was different, different grooves that were playing up and it was feeling very overwhelming. Like I felt a feeling of feeling stuck in that sort of loopy state.

No, Father. But I feel like I've noticed so many grooves since yesterday to today at every point of time. And sometimes, you know, Father, like yesterday I was also seeing, I was praying and then towards the end I feel like one thing, then again next thing. I feel like it was different, different grooves that were playing up. And it was feeling very overwhelming, like I felt a feeling of being stuck in that sort of loopy state. Sorry, I'm... till I had to like exert pressure and come out of it, or I slept off actually. But that loopy, I feel like that groove after groove after groove, you know, just makes something numb here. And I can see that there are so many grooves, like so many are there. Just when I close my eyes and I sit in prayer, you know, all of those will be seen fully. But if I'm not in my prayer, they become grooves; I'm not aware of them as grooves, they just become like my daily living state. And it's just like that, it's just... so much is there, Father, with this identity. I feel like so much is convoluted, so many states.

So it's good news. In the sense that it's good news that we are finding them, that we are seeing them, that we are recognizing them. That which was hidden, claiming to be reality, now we are seeing that it is avidya. What are vasanas? There are these grooves, isn't it? We fall into these grooves and these conditions and we repeat the same patterns over and over again, you see. Now we are replacing these grooves with one big groovy kind of love, which is that big groove which leads to God. So anytime we encounter 'me, mine, I want,' we say God, we say Ram, or we say 'Who am I?' All leads to the same door to His temple, isn't it? So we are making a highway to God and we are replacing all of these false grooves.

Now, if you continue to recognize them and return to the highway to God, then the groove will lose its power. You see, if you use these violins to the 'me,' then the network of avidya will continue to spread. So it's good news that you are spotting it, but you're not to then use it. You're not to embed that groove even more deeply by believing it, you see, because then that will become a ditch that you constantly fall into. So, it's good that you're seeing it. It can be troublesome to see that all of these are still there, but better today than tomorrow. You see, better today than tomorrow, better tomorrow than never.

You see, so you are at least seeing that so many sages have pointed me to and given me a pathway to God, and yet I would rather go with these grooves which are there, which seem so inviting in that moment, which seem so right in that moment, which seem so true in that moment. So these are good opportunities. So we must say, 'Thank you for showing me this condition that I have. I will go back to God. Thank you for showing me this that I have. I will go back to God.' You see? So like the priests in the temple, we receive everything from the world, everything from the mind, offer it to God, and respond only from what God wants to give back.

The priest's job is not to determine the prasad for himself. His job is to wait for God to guide. Okay, this one came with ten flowers and twenty fruits; what they should get back is seven flowers and twenty-three fruits, or something like that. That's not for the priest to determine. You see, so same way our life becomes like that as the priest of His temple. Whatever the world gives to us, whatever is shown by the mind to us, is brought to the temple of God in our heart, and whatever He wants to give them back in return. Only on His nudging, only on His will, only in His guidance do we return that to the world. No matter how important the grooves may seem or how many they may seem, they cannot be more important than God. Isn't it? So we must not get into that groove of 'Oh, I have so many grooves.' You see, we have to keep returning to that highway, the true love in our heart.

You see, so grooves will not get... avidya will not get resolved by creating more avidya, by creating more notions about the 'me.' It'll only get cleared up in the love for God, in the surrender to God, in the desire to live in His will alone, in the intention to find out who really is here. What really am I? Now it is pretty much guaranteed that if you were to take the name of the Lord, then Maya is not going to sit quietly by and wait for your Atma Darshan to happen, you see. No, it's not going to wait like that. You say 'Ram,' it will say, 'But what about this? But what about that? Fix that first. Let's work on that. Finish this off. Make enough money. Sort the relationship. Do all of this then.' Yes.

So, it's not going to sit quietly by. Invitations to put on the garb of the 'me' will constantly be offered. Maya is Maya. Maya is that 'me' comes as Maya. So anytime we get an invitation for the 'me' to become the protagonist of the story, we change that mode and we return to God as the central character, as the protagonist. You see, we will not resolve this by thinking about our grooves. We will not resolve it by counting our grooves, by thinking about them. We will not resolve them by the content of them. You see, we will only resolve them by keeping on bringing them to the doorway of the heart temple. That's what we have to do. So then treat them like distraction and keep repeating the name of God. How do these grooves present themselves? As thoughts, isn't it? So when you get distracted by that thought, then instead of you getting into checker mode of what is afflicting you, return to the heart, return to God's name.

With that, there is so much... it's also a groove. Because... I forgot that Jyoti is interpreting. It must be tough. I've been going very fast. Where is she? Is she there? Rapid fire. Satsang.

Yeah, I've also been mumbling, Father. But... I'm sure she's given up on the question now for sure.

Uh, yes. I was just getting disheartened because I was feeling like some of these things have been there for so long and they... because it's a familiar thought or a belief, it keeps coming again and again. And in those situations, those kind of things only keep coming. So...

Yeah. So that's why there's no left turn or right turn towards disheartened, distress, despair, being disheartened. The only turn we have to make is to God. Whatever is showing up: God. 'Oh, this much I have so much trouble, so long.' God. God. So resolution... the resolution can only happen in God's light. See, we were saying the other day that there's this mistaken idea that the acceptance of something is to keep thinking about it more and more. You see, and the idea that if I bring it to God, then it's a sort of denial of it. That's not true because how will you accept something through your thinking? Thinking can never encapsulate any situation anyway. It cannot encapsulate one moment in time.

So the acceptance of it also can happen in the open and empty when we are at God's door. If we bring our own frame into everything, are we accepting or are we denying? You see, you're like, 'I have this frame.' You see, now through everything I will meet: 'Oh, you're in a rectangular box. Oh, you're also in a rectangular box. You are also in a rectangle.' You see, it's not that all of you are in the rectangular box; I am carrying that frame of a rectangular box which is my conceptual framework. You see, now there is a mistaken idea that only after meeting everything through my framework are we accepting. So let me sit and worry about it more and more and more. So you're realizing how miserable everything is. You've really accepted how bad your life is.

But if you say, 'Bring it on, I'm not going to apply my frame to it. I'm just going to keep bringing it to my heart. Just going to be open through everything.' You see that openness? What is the mind going to say about it? It is going to say you're in denial. The true acceptance, the true openness can only happen from there. We've seen this in people around us. You see that everything fits into their frame. So some have the frame that everyone is basically a bad person. Huh? So they have that frame. So they're just looking for evidence to make that true. 'How is this one bad? How is this one bad? How is this?' And they'll find it. No, we'll find it. We'll find some way to twist everything and make it into that frame. Yeah. And then that gives us the delusion of knowing something. Now I've been able to conclude that everybody is bad or everybody is this way or everybody whatever the frame may be.

But who has the courage to let go of their frameworks and just meet fresh like a child meets? You see, have we ever met anyone freshly? Someone appears, you see, we start judging immediately. 'Oh, long hair, big white beard, must be Baba Ji types,' you see. So, as I've gotten older, many people have started talking to me in very Shuddh Hindi. And I struggle to understand those words, you know. So I'm just like... because that framing happened. 'Now this one looks like he's some spiritual teacher types, you know, so his Hindi must be really good in that way and very scriptural and all of that.' I don't understand most of it, you see. So we don't meet each other first, no? We already presume. We already presume, 'Oh, she is like this, she is like that, she or he is like that.' So it gives us a false sense of safety, a false sense of security of knowing something.

And this knowing something is pride of knowledge. This is what Uddhav suffered from. He thought Krishna Himself has got trapped in delusion. So that conversation with Uddhav and Krishna is the most absurd. 'Lord, you have forgot that you are the Lord of the universe and you are here crying for a woman. You see, you're falling sick. What kind of love is this? You are just stuck in Maya which is your own creation. Please remember.' I love this version by Krishna like, 'Oh, thank you. I was so lost. You see, I was just so lost. You got me out of it. Now I realize who I am.' So Uddhav realized that he is with the Lord of the universe, but he thought that he knew better than God Himself and he could explain to God how God is messing up at the moment. You see, because the knowledge he thought he got is beyond shakability. 'No, don't you remember you are pure awareness? Can it be shaken? Can't be shaken.' So then we go and remind the Lord Himself.

And Krishna being... it was not Ram Ji who would have had a sincere conversation with him. Krishna being the artist that He is said, 'Thank you, thank you, thank you for saving me. You please go and help my beloved Vrindavanas, you see, and go help them. Please go, you know, go explain to them your thing. They are suffering also too much like me. Then after hearing your great words they will get sorted out.' So the breaking of Uddhav Ji's pride happened in that meeting with Radha Rani where, you know, when you encounter such a love... like if you see Radha Baba's photo there, I don't know if you can all see it. So just... you don't need to hear anything from him. Maybe you can take it down. Just take it down. Like if you look at the photo, just look at it. Everyone, look at it. Do you need him to say anything? Like, even at the body level, the love is shining through. You see, and you cannot force that pose. You cannot make that pose. You see, you cannot act that pose.

So at every level of your being that love is shining through. And when... like this is Radha Baba, who was Radha herself. Can you imagine what he must have experienced when he saw her? Then in just that meeting itself he realized that there's something missing. She didn't need to actually tell him that there's something missing. Can we see it also, the photo? Yeah. No, not photo. Let me see if I can show light. Can you see? So just to see a sage fallen into the heart, full of love itself. There are no words needed after that. So when we encounter pure love in this way, then our pride of knowledge may break, and it's very inspirational for all of us.

He experienced when he saw her. Then in just that meeting itself, he realized that there's something missing. She didn't need to actually tell him that there's something missing. Can we see it also, the photo? Yeah. No, not photo. Let me see if I can show light. Can you see? So just to see a sage fallen into the heart full of love itself—there are no words needed after that. So when we encounter pure love in this way, then our pride of knowledge may break, and it's very inspirational for all of us. It gets us in touch with that which is beyond the human usual kind of love, which is about give and take and exchange. This is a very pristine love.

So we can have pride of knowledge about conceptual knowledge, but we cannot have pride of knowledge about Atma Gyan. That Gyan and Atma Gyan is not intellectual knowledge; it's Atma Gyan, okay? But what happens often with Atma is like what happens often here: because I'm used to encountering a particular question, I have made the answers into conceptual knowledge, you see. The times where I don't wait for the Atma to respond, then I'm going with just my heady Gyan, you see, and I can become proudful about that. When the process is of receiving in the heart and allowing the mouth to be just an instrument of that, it is impossible to become prideful about that. You see, because if you're sitting like a beggar and the king is gifting you something and you pass it on to your family, it's very difficult for you to become prideful about that process, isn't it? It is when you think that you have something and you are giving to others and family, then about that you can become prideful.

So with true Atma Gyan, we can never be prideful because that is just a transmission from the heart. That is just a transmission that flows through in whichever way it has to be articulated. Most of it is inarticulatable anyway, you see. That's why many times I just struggle in such—what? I don't have the words to, I don't have the constructs to express what I'm feeling in my heart. Okay. So, so we realize the very limitation of the outer speaker, of a teacher of God, outer speaker, and we realize the vastness of the true inner teacher, and that is a very humbling process.

So the sharing of Satsang, prayer, anything spiritual should leave us humbler than when we started. In the ideal situation, it should leave us in nothingness. You see, but since I'm far from ideal, at least in my case, it leaves me humbler than when I started. Now there's a huge, huge difference between humility and despair. Huge difference between humility and despair. So we realize how inadequate that which we can take ourselves to be is. But we are not to despair because that would say that God is not kind and merciful. We've also experienced His grace and kindness throughout our lives. At every step of the way, we've experienced it. You see, so to now say that I have room to despair is to pour water onto that.

So, so this is the odd thing. No, the odd thing is that when I recognize my oneness with Him, I realize that I need to serve Him more and more. Which in the chai shops of Tiruvannamalai may sound strange, but when you recognize your oneness with Him, you also realize your love and desire to live in absolute servitude to Him. And this intellectual contradiction is not at all a contradiction in the heart. So Achintya Bheda Abheda is only Achintya in the head. There is no struggle with it in the heart. So that's why to all future teachers of God, and a constant reminder to this one also of course, is that we must not rely on our conceptual knowledge because we'll get trapped in pride if we do, especially if for some reason others seem to get impressed by it. You always seem to get impressed by what you think you know. Very tough.

The only safety is to allow the heart to speak and to be the receiver and listener just like everybody else. Why do I say it's dangerous? Because like Uddhava, we may end up with the highest concept, but we may miss the truth. We may miss the true point of the spiritual search. It is the presence of God Himself. We may come to a spiritless spirituality. It is like a foodless restaurant. You go to a restaurant and they give you the menu and you say, 'I would like this from the menu.' And they say, 'No, no, we don't do that here. We only have the menus.' It's going to be strange, isn't it? So in the same way, if you just have the names, we have the concepts, but we have no insight, we have no lived experience of what we are saying and the words are not arising from the true Satguru itself, then it is not Satsang.

So spiritless spirituality is just a duality or something. What about spirit? What about Atma? So God placed His presence in the form of the Atma in our heart. He must have kept it just optional, you know, just like it's just an option. Like that, His own presence in the innermost chamber of our heart. And the sages have told us, all of them told us, many, most of them told us, He delights to stay there, you see. But our meeting point, our rendezvous point, must not be this inner chamber, no? That must be just like that. So it is my—sorry if I'm sounding too sarcastic about it—I'm just meaning to actually beg and implore that my brothers and sisters don't do a spiritless spirituality. So the spiritual tools, the spiritual pointers are to strip us naked of the 'me' and to bring us to that holy rendezvous point where the revelation of His presence may happen. Not me, but You alone. Lord, only You. Only You.

He too. What's up? I guess I said it like a story in the Bible. And so there's this man who came to Jesus and so he called him like 'good teacher, what must I do to inherit the kingdom of the world?'

So I'll just repeat for everyone. This man who comes to Jesus says, 'Master, what must I do? Good teacher, what must I do to inherit the kingdom of God?'

And some—I never really, like I always somewhat, like when you're reading this thing sometimes like you don't see, something blocks you from seeing. But before he actually responded to him, he said, 'Why do you call me good? No one is good except God alone.' And like it was biting me. It's like it was—I was like, what? Why do you say this? Because it was like where they—I don't know. I just, just biting my insides or somehow and there was just like so much just in that one thing. It just felt like all of spirituality was in that, like how I'm supposed to be in my inner heart posture. And he was like the rich man where he went on to tell him to like sell everything. And then he obviously, his face was like—he was very, he was very... because he said he's followed all the laws and all of these things. But after when Jesus told him to like sell everything and then come and follow him, he was very a bit sad and so he turned away.

And so the disciples asked him, said—if he said that it's more difficult for like a rich person, for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich person to inherit the kingdom of God. And so even his disciples were like, 'Okay, so if this is the case, then who can? Then no one can. Then it's impossible for us.' And he also said that with man this is impossible, but nothing is impossible for God. And the revelation of that last statement, you somehow, you like wordlessly showed me how it was true. Like, I don't know, like when the first time when I met you when you used to just be like, 'It's just God.' I don't know how to explain it. It's not in—it's like in the just accepting what you say without understanding what it meant. I saw that there's actually another power that is here that is actually like supporting the sense of even like the introspection or the witnessing. Because no matter how much the introspection happens, without that thing, even the obviousness or the simplicity of it—like the spell of personality is still going to always be in the soul no matter without—I don't know how to say, without mouth to explain this thing.

And because I saw before, I used to, when I was doing like the witnessing thing where it's just like inquiring and like 'who is talking, who is walking, who is doing this'—like this kind of way, just in a very crazy way. But it's only in that, like the presence of the heart thing where—I don't know how to explain it. But only disallowing, you can only in like—it's like the sweetness in the sugarcane of the thing. It's that thing. And I don't know, even like all my concepts about God have just fallen away, but I just know that. But at first I used to be afraid because I felt like if I don't have a sense of like the conceptual frameworks of how I grew up... and even because I felt I was afraid and I grew up in a Christian environment. So I felt like if I let go of all of these things then maybe I'll go to hell. This kind of—all these concepts are like... but there's so much power in just a pure spirit. And this spirit has no—he has no favorites. He doesn't have any chosen people and some people that he doesn't choose.

He's so pure. He's so pure. It's so pure. And it's just so pure. It's so pure, Master. It's so pure. It's so pure. It's so pure. And it's so pure. It's just so pure. It's just so pure. So pure. It's so beyond human. Like it's just so pure. And I see that I'm not able to fully reflect it in my human expression, but it's like it's so pure somehow.

And I just see that every expression, every way in which it's like—it's always going to leave like a part for anyone that wants to come to it in whatever way that it comes. Because I wasn't understanding how there are like different religions and different ways in which people come to know God. But I came to see that as much as I'm able to be empty of my own opinion and about my own concepts of God, I see that you can meet it in different—sometimes someone might not even know about God but they have the fragrance of the thing but they are not aware of it somehow. While another person is full of concepts about God but somehow they believe that so right and so they are not open to the pure spirit of the thing. So I'm seeing these things and it's just showing me how not to—to be just very empty of my concepts and of myself as well. I'm just seeing the deep importance of that and I don't know, it just came to me in my heart.

Just very good, very good. So happy as always, I'm so happy to hear you. Very, very good. As you shared the story of this man, so Lord Jesus said, 'If you want to follow me, first sell everything that you have, give it to the poor, and then you come follow me.' So that actually—maybe there are more, but I remember two that Jesus said that they should follow him and who refused. There are two. The first, and I'm a combination of both of them I feel, which is a very lamentable state. So the first was—who remembers? Nicodemus. So Nicodemus didn't follow Jesus because he already had position. He had a very high position. People revered him as part of the Sanhedrin. He was a part of the highest council of Jews. So he got a lot of reverence. He got a lot of respect from everyone. He had a comfortable family life. So that was one.

And the second was this rich man who then found it difficult. He knew everything in the Bible. He knew all of these things. But he was unable to leave his attachment to worldly possessions, to sell everything, to give it to the poor, and to follow Jesus. So I have both. I'm Nicodemus plus this rich man—not that I'm that rich, but I'm unable to have the courage to do what Jesus asked. So, we just have to pray to God to clean my heart more and more and to live in a deeper love, a deeper faith. Then he said that then this seems impossible to us. How will we do this? Because Jesus said it's easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man. A rich man is the one who is attached to his possessions.

I wanted to follow Jesus. So I have both. I'm Nicodemus plus this rich man—not that I'm that rich, but I'm unable to have the courage to do what Jesus asked. So, we just have to pray to God to clean my heart more and more and to live in a deeper love, a deeper faith. Then he said that this seems impossible to us. How will we do this? Because Jesus said it's easier for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man. An average man is the one who is attached to his possessions. I would look at it—I'm nobody to say what he meant—but I would read it like that: that the one who is attached to his worldly things, it's more difficult for them to go through to the Kingdom of Heaven than it is for a camel to pass through an eye of a needle.

So everybody got intimidated and said, 'Then how will we make it?' So then he said that in our strength it will not happen, but with God everything is possible. So that is my hope: that this Ananta cannot do anything except to pray for this, and in God's mercy and His kindness, I shall not despair. I shall keep offering myself to Him as much as I can, and in His power, He can make it happen. He can make it possible. So to come to that place like the sages said: 'There is nothing which is mine and me. All that is here is yours.' May God give us the faith, the courage which is needed to be true to this proclamation instead of it remaining lip service, which it mostly is in my case.

Any reports on the simple suggestion that was made last time? Did you find yourself easily resting in the heart temple? This is the wisdom of the soul, and just to use the name of God as a kind of rocket fuel that just naturally fuels the spaceship out of this universe.

It's easier to come there, to rest there. To stay is more... a lot of distraction in the mind. Just repeat it. That's so good. It's just like I'm starting to get a sense of how I just feel like I'm drinking up God's name. Like every time I see it, I'm drinking such a sweet, you know, like this coconut water. So, repetition is not a problem. It is not additional work. It's such a sweetness.

Look at that. So like we know when you say that, if I can't force an understanding of that, if it's not revealed in my heart, then I can just stay with it and I can ask God to help me.

Which is to stop forcing the understanding of anything. Yeah, but earlier you would notice a resistance and just move on, but like you said, I have to ask God.

So anything... sorry, I was so involved in saying what I wanted to say. I'm saying that if now, okay, let's try this: we are not forcing anything into our conceptual framework. Now, then, not even that we are not forcing. You see, otherwise very quickly and very sneakily the concept that 'I must not force anything' will become stored in a conceptual framework.

What I was actually asking was that to not dismiss that which I would have done earlier, but to hand it over to God to stay with it so He can reveal it. Like you said, if I can't do something now, I have to offer it to God rather than...

Just, but not just only once. Because sometimes you just say it like that and the next day you have another question and the third day you have another. I'll give you an example of this. It's just coming up, so it may be completely foolish, but let's see how it goes. So suppose that you're sitting at God's door and you're sitting there just completely foolishly, no? And then there is something calling for your attention, but you've just lost it in love with God. You are not concerned. You see, what do you feel God's response to that situation will be?

So in this sense, what I'm trying to say is that what that temple priestess is, is a very organic process when we are empty of ourselves. You see, so then suppose that your neighbor is calling you, you see, with something very important, but you are sitting empty at God's door. Then do you feel like God will not say, 'Oh, this one is lying foolishly at my door. Let me take care of his neighbor issue.' He will, isn't it? In His kindness. So He may move our body in that way, He may move our mouth in that way. Whatever needs to happen may happen in that way. So we just lie foolishly at His door. And then this which I said, that we respond only from the heart or respond only in God's will. We allow God to use us in that way.

Yeah. That's why exactly.

So said if you just lie just naked at His door, will He not take care of you? So Ram Ji sitting in His darbar, all the most beautiful things are happening there. Will He not remember that you're sitting at the door of the darbar and take care of you in the process as well? Krishna is playing His Leela, and Radha-Krishna are playing the Leela in Vrindavan. You're sitting, you're lying down at the door of the Leela. Do you feel like Krishna is going to forget you and say, 'No, let him be, let her be'? Impossible.

So it's such a gift that we have God's name and we have the self-inquiry, because that brings us to the point where revelation is possible, where the gifts of God can be received. And we talked about it last time. I hope none of you think that we go to a different place when we ask 'Who am I?' It brings us to the same innermost edge of our Antahkarana where that Michelangelo's finger meets the divine finger. You see, that spark can happen where the Atma resides. So it's a completely supernatural process, not in any 'woo' way, but a very holy way. It's out of the bounds of this universe where the meeting happens, and what happens is not in this realm of time and space. The rules of time and space don't apply there. What a blessing it is then that we have such a heartline to God in the form of His name.

You already know that that which we call the inside is not inside the body. But we are in neglect of the question then: where inside? What is it? Now what the sages have said, that inner cave... Kabir Ji said, 'What is that inner cave? Where is it that the Supreme Being resides?' Such a promise, no? You see, and what happened to us is because we have so much access to so many sages now, we just become so jaded about their words, almost in a way that you... if not like complete skepticism saying, 'Does she really know?' you know, and if not, maybe they're just lying and showing off. So all of these sages that we revere, they were all just lying impostors, hamsters, because they kept saying that He lives there, He lives there? But we will refuse to look and find out for ourselves. I'm not saying any of you are doing that, but that is the general state of our world, isn't it?

What a promise they have made, and sage after sage has made the same promise. He lives there in your heart, in the innermost chamber, in the cave, in that secret room. You look at all traditions, everyone, they've all said you will receive Marifa there, you will receive the transmission of Atma Gyan, you will receive all of this. But we would rather grasp on to that which is perceivable instead of letting go. Just let go. Is it legal to have such a somber Satsang on Holi day? No, not allowed. You can sing some Bhajan if you like. What is happiness? What is happiness? When we please the Lord and He is pleased in our heart, that is happiness. So one of the representation... ah, there's some hands up. Okay. Somebody was saying something. Okay. Clarissa can come for you.

Hello, and can you hear me? Yeah. I just wanted to leave everything at your feet. The whole Satsang resonates because I feel very ignorant at this time and there are strong forces playing and there is the tendency to quit everything, to quit the heritage of my father, to quit the job, and I don't know what is coming next and I don't know what to do. And so I just wanted to leave it at your feet.

All my blessings fullheartedly are with you. May God bless you so much that you remain in your heart in His holy presence and you deal with all of this worldly turmoil from the heart itself. Full love and blessings. A singer escaped, lead singer. That's why Vidika is here. What are you supposed to do? You're supposed to sing. Holi appropriate.

Not by reading and writing you will get Him, get the Lord. Constant vigil. Constant vigil. Even in separation there is union, and even in the answer there is the question. Different people want different things like the jungle or fashion or respect or pomp and splendor, but Baba says—Baba's pen name was Hum—so he said, 'We don't want any of these things. We want only the glory of God.' Seven names of God. God, yes. Hari, God, yes. Allah, God, yes. Ahura Mazda is the Zoroastrian name for God. Da is another name in the Zoroastrian. Hu is the name of God in Islam. Who am I? The answer is 'Hu'. Somebody got Mansur Al-Hallaj.

So this Nikunj is there and we pray to Maha Radha, to Sri Radha, because she is meant to be the most merciful. She's meant to be Mahakaruna. So we are pleading with her that please, whatever you do... Krishna can be a bit... He can do a bit of justice, He can take things into account, but you are super soft and merciful. So we have no chance with Krishna directly, but if you... you can do it. So we pray to Radhe Radhe Shyam that you can do it. You see, so when this innocent childlike bhava has a lot of power, it's like we pray to Hanuman Ji. See the Ram Ji. The darbar glory.

Sorry, we can't hear you. Are you, Father, are you talking? Okay. Yes, Father. I got fired from all the roles. Both mics. Try something. Which one? I sleep. Not a good idea. One life for us. So you're laughing, right? He doesn't qualify for the... I don't remember the lyrics and all. Together. That's one I remember, one verse. You got your... yes. What do you want to see? Sing Hare Krishna.

Are you talking? Okay. Okay.

Yes, Father. I got fired from all the roles.

Both mics. Try something. Which one? I sleep. Not a good idea. One life for us. So you're laughing, right? He doesn't qualify for the... I don't remember the lyrics and all. Heal together. That's one I remember, one verse. You got your... Yes. What do you want to see?

I just found the... All my blessings, all my love for this, on this auspicious day. May all of us meet the true beloved in our heart. May Lord Krishna bless all of us. May Sri Radha bless all of us. And may that which represents the love story between the soul and the spirit, the antahkarana and the Atma, may that be our living reality. May we all merge into His holy light, His holy love, His holy presence. May God bless all of you. May you all be filled with all the colors of your heart. May God bless you with all love, peace, and joy. I love you all with all my heart. Happy Holi, happy Holi, everyone. I'm too sober a teacher to celebrate a Holi, but this is very heartfelt. Ram Ram, happy, happy.

Thank you. Thank you, Father.

Bless you both. Bless you both.