Recognition is a Re-Cognition - 9th Sept. 2016

It is called the recognition, which means it is a re-cognition, you see? So it is already here. It is already cognized; it only seems to have been forgotten. That's why we are recognizing it. So as we are recognizing it, that this has already been seen, this has been our truest seeing anyway, so then what happens? Like you said, the only thing that seems to get in the way is the fear of this dying—this fear of the separation dying, actually. You think because we have felt like we are this separate entity, and all our identity conditioning has been about this separate entity, so when it feels like this will dissolve, it can feel like 'I don't want to die.' So all of our resistance in Satsang, it can sound very trivial, what is coming from this. And as you become open to this dissolution, then you feel that nothing real will die; only the false is burning and dying.

In fact, it is the same fear of death for us, knowing that it is not helpful for me to believe my thoughts. It is this very fear of death which comes as this urge to hide behind the concepts which the mind is selling. We all know now that it is not helpful, actually, you see? And yet many times we do it. Why? Because just this emptiness, this openness, feels like it is too raw. It's too open, and it feels like death is coming. So we want to rush to the thought somewhere, knowing that this is escapism but justifying itself, hiding behind even our spirituality, you see?

All of us are now recognizing the truth of who we are, but it is this conditioning of separation, this conditioning of preservation of this separate identity, which will come up as these ideas in our mind. It could be the most innocent sounding idea. It could say, 'But this is too difficult for me yet,' or 'I am just getting started,' you see? It could even be, 'Oh, I know all of this,' you see? 'I know all of this, I know all of this, there's no big deal in this, I know this,' you see? It could be like that one. It could be saying, 'No, no, I don't have... he's not talking about me.' It could be like that, you see? All our avoidance, all our escapes.