No Fear or Guilt About Where Attention Is Going - 3 June 2015

Namaste, Father. My dear, so good to see you here. Good to see you. I'm so happy that PVA brought this up because I had also watched something with Adya maybe yesterday, and maybe we were watching the same thing. But I just, when you were talking about it with her, I could feel that it was kind of skimming over me or something. Yes, and that's always suspicious to me, that maybe something's not wanting to hear. Yes. So, my sense is that something so enjoys the sort of elevated experiences and then when experiences like, you know, what might be considered typical human experiences like feeling sad or worried, when those come, there's some assumption that's instantly made that means that I've lost it or that I'm not being myself or something. And then there's this sort of like, "Okay, wait a second, that's not true. This is all this one."

And so, I don't know if what happens is just the fascination with these elevated experiences or if there's really something still in the game of avoiding. And I don't... so I just, however you can guide me and show me. I feel very open to hear, and I'll mute so I can hear you well. Thank you.

Thank you, my. So what we said is, and what she said when she started, is that in our heart it is completely clear that this is the truth. And that clarity is an unshakable one, isn't it? So this is clear: that I am this awareness. Now, in satsang, why do we say it? Because sometimes you need the reminder, because there might be some feeling that this clarity is not stabilized, so you need this reminder. But if we are operating from this clarity, then we must not use this as some sort of an advantage in our day-to-day practical living, because very quickly it is the ego itself which uses Advaita concepts as an ego defense, you see, or as a cheat code for the rest of our life.

It's like it'll say, "Okay, this game of life I figured out because now I have the cheat code that I am awareness." And it doesn't work like that. Enter "I am awareness" and the game all becomes, you know, only the expectations of the mind then get served up. That's what the ego itself is, see? So with this unshakable clarity about what we are, we see that in day-to-day life everything is moving in resonance at that level. So somebody comes to you and talks to you about work, building a website, then you're talking to them about building a website. Somebody comes to a lawyer with the case, he's going to talk to them about the case. He's not going to say, "Oh, first let's come to the conclusion about who is really suffering from this legal matter," you see? It's not like that.

So that becomes... that is what is the reverse kind of level confusion, see? You see your reality to be this, and ultimately what can we really say about reality? What can we really say? Even the word awareness does not do it justice, you see? So there is no word which can really convey what we are, you see? So what happens is that in the rest of our life, we are just letting this Consciousness play out the way it is playing out and not confusing levels over there. In satsang, we come and say, "Okay, just satsang is reminder." Okay? Satsang is reminder about what I am. Can we hear? Yes, I am this awareness. I'm this awareness. So there must be no aversion to even hearing this "I am this awareness" because that is what satsang is for. Because here we are here to remind you about what is real.