Do You Want Truth for Truth's Sake Only? - 22nd November 2017

And as you look at who's aware of this awareness, the boundary between that and I will fade away. The idea that 'I have an object having this experience' will dissolve. The primary notion that 'I am the body' will start to seem funny. This body-mind will become a source of enjoyment. They always have been, but the quality of the enjoyment will be same, same, different. It's funny, I don't know whether I can say this from abroad. Many times I look at this Ananta and I feel like I'm not—there's also one of my children. It's like the rest of the Sangha all because we start to see that no concept, emotion clearly applies to the reality of you. Who could have imagined that the path to God's kingdom was this worthless form? Remember, as I've been saying so often these days, that all, all, all confusion is only confusion about who you are. That is why I have been suggesting to everyone to keep the 'whys' aside for some time and focus on the 'who'.

But the lines can be very confusing. Why do bad things happen to good people? Why is God playing like this game? Why doesn't he see that I've been through enough in my life already? Why never ending? But you clarify the 'I', then you lock it, all of these 'why'. The shortcut: you can try to find some individual meaning in this world, which is meaningless for the individual ultimately. Let's accept them all. You can look at what you are and then see that your view of this morality of the office, time and speed, and this play of light and sound just is because it is. Why consciousness? This is what I mean. What is the cause of all things? Which is where is the effect? Experience consciousness.

Yesterday after satsang, my children started to follow bit sick. I don't notice them. So the other said, 'Father, why are you doing this to me?' If I am doing, then I must be experienced. We are the two of us. And I've given you so many tools to look at this very, very directly. Even a simple question like: where do you draw your boundary? You know, even this question, the answer to this question, if you thought around your body or eyes your body, given to the mind it won't make sense. Something knows it so deeply intuitively that you are not this. So if you say, it says, 'I draw my boundary around this body as this box,' except in your heart which is already clear to you and it's clear to most of humanity. That's why we can say things like, 'Like after I die, after this body dies, I will rest in peace.' That means you already don't do the use that you are contained in this body. The body is gone, when you still rest in peace. Even in popular notions, the body limitation is not easily accepted.

My dad used to ask people, 'What were you before your conception?' and nobody says arty. Anybody said, 'I came into existence only on my conception.' Feels like in your heart you feel that you have been timeless. I feel like the other day was it so. There are some people should very nice pose then just making jokes about it where dielectric he said, 'Who remembers being born?' And then do some were talking about how the physical birth can be done do it. But the point he was making is that you were there to watch even that perception, that experience happen. It's the same was asking, 'When I see who goes to sleep, who wakes up?' Opportu used to ask, 'What woke up this one? Who is aware of sleep and your waking?' Is it a secondhand experience? Oh, it is you. But it is not you that you consider you have considered yourself to be so far. Any boundary, forget about any limitation, forget them.

If you do not use this personally though, because many can feel like just the limits this one. You see, you can give it to the mind, the ego, and it can pick up some delusions of grandeur like that this because you see that this is a dream doesn't give any advantage to the dream character. So these days have been saying: who wants the truth for truth's sake alone? Or you want the truth for the plugs? I know I realized that the birds saw promised in spirituality, but I'm really asking you now because this direct pointing resonates the best for those who are not looking for the truth because of some other benefit that it might dream. It is the longing for the truth itself is there, and whether joy is experienced or not in some special part of the story comes after this hormone. It's not really so important to you now.

And there comes a point where this becomes a very real living question for you as you start to see that the master is asking me to drop every expectation that was promised even in spirituality. Am I here just continue to be here just for the sake of the truth alone? It is these that a one would call the dry pattern powder. Keep it close to the flame when it burns up. And you have seen that even those who have consistently been able to be in satsang have seen that even the dampness of expectation is drying up to the presence of simplicity. That which we came for into spirituality for is not so relevant now. Now the mind cannot get a hold on you. Then the mind says, 'This is you are free right now, but you are not killing any bliss.' You just look at that Allah. Who is here that cares about bliss? Who is here that wants anything at all? What games can the mind play with you now? What can it offer you that you have not transcended already? Which, which desire still has so much power? Is the idea of a good light still in so compelling? The idea of a lot of money, the best relationships, the best body English? What about the idea of becoming that enlightened sage?

Even that now the mind will come and say, 'But this is you're pointing to a meaningless life.' There is still and then this try it and I can promise you that you never had fun like this. Try a life without expecting even this. It's your desire for your plan for your lives which convinces you again and again that you are limited to the limit itself. Because if you look at your plans, are you planning and saying, 'Okay, tomorrow morning I better make sure that the sun comes out from the east. Tonight just make sure that all this stars show up in the sky.' I have plans about consciousness that continues to run without any clamp.

Swami says, 'Father, I have to come. Oh, angry you. Oh, like a huge yes, I do want something better. Why not? Why not?'

Entire sorry, I just even, even morning it to be good little set of the beam terrified set open finally and everything just settled because it's one thing even though this support. I know that moments of anger, they can get water this restriction. Why shouldn't I have a better one? 'I am this body.' This idea after having sung, 'I definitely deserve, I should be free by now.' But this 'I' is not you. And I can say it for four years, I can say for ten years, you can say it for a hundred years or a hundred lifetimes. And for a while it can feel like a battle, if you like, 'I have unchanging sounds.' And if you feel like you have an unchanging you know, then they record what I was saying.

With this support, I know that moments of anger can get water. This restriction—why shouldn't I have a better one? 'I am this body.' This idea, after having satsang, 'I definitely deserve, I should be free by now.' But this 'I' is not you. And I can say it for four years, I can say it for ten years, you can say it for a hundred years or a hundred lifetimes. For a while, it can feel like a battle if you feel like you have unchanging sounds and if you feel like you have an unchanging you. Then they record what I was saying actually, that I was saying very commonly. And I'm saying that sometimes from the emotion can come what can convince you that 'But I am this and I want it all, I want it better, I deserve it.' What does the non-existent one deserve? And when is it ever? What it changes is a little bit of desire fulfillment. The unknotting of the knot of desire seems like it is some sort of human to us; it's nothing really. What happened? It seems like this energetic knot formed every time you pick up a desire, and as that desire is seemingly attained, then this is what happened: 'I am in attending.' That's maximum. You think the next thing, the next project makes this. I realize, wonder why I mean this resistance is not personal, you see. It is the same guy which somewhere here will keep wanting to send this kind of message to all of us. It uses whatever life events or emotions that a new person might be feeling as an opportunity to come up, share, speak them out loud. What the mind is saying to all of us, enter this is that you whatever seen actually. That when I see truth for truth's sake, or for the sake of a better life, I know which one you would ultimately see. One's truth for truth's sake. But there are moments where I can feel where it's all about getting a better life. How long will the better life last? Two years? Fifty years? Any idea how long do they last? Forty years and fifty years. One thing, it will just come and go. One way to live them on a more better life, the next way to life. What is the end to this?

We start where we are right now. So, the story here, the story here is a 'me'—that there is something wrong with me that needs to get fixed and put together. It is the story. Thank you for this seeing. Such a 'me' never happened to the real also. It was just seen that sometimes it starts like, 'Oh, why are you still going to satsang? You should have got it by now.' And no, no, no, that does... thank you again.

It's also as a defense. All positions are about ego. All positions are about ego. The truth is positionless. The positionless doesn't need to go to satsang, nor does it need not to go to satsang. The positionless doesn't need inquiry, nor not doing inquiry. It is neither doing nor not doing. Positionless is untouched by any appearance. Now the mind tries to sell you the story of its idea of the self. I'm very glad that you exposed that because it's common for many, many of us. It says, 'You don't need an inquiry anymore. You don't need satsang anymore. You see, you are the Self.' Thank you. Be seeking. You could be sitting with the tree and you see, 'This tree is my...' This fancy spiritual fantasy is still convincing you that you are a 'me,' still convincing you that you are a limited object. I'm very, very happy to see that you are seeing through these tricks of the mind and you're not buying any story of the 'me,' whether it is spiritual or whether it is worried. Because otherwise, what happens is that we give up the world ego and pick up a spiritual ego. Nothing. In fact, this spiritual ego is much more suffering because it has stronger ideas about itself. So, I am very happy that you caught it well in time and threw it out in the fire of satsang. This is what the mind is trying to tell me. Actually, it happens in many expressions of consciousness that these kind of thoughts start coming and you start believing them and stop coming to satsang. That is how consciousness is playing like that over there. And I know ultimately it is all the play of consciousness, but the design of this alarm clock is to keep wanting you, to keep waking you up from all of these positions that the mind still wants us to take. Even the supremely enlightening position—all of these are ego. It is said: neither compelling nor dispelling the notion of a good life. Yes, nothing. Neither desire nor aversion. No need to avoid, no need to accept or renounce. Right? All positions. We have to deal with all positions. All positions are just positions for a limited self, the non-existent you.

So let's look at this. He says, what it means appearing in this moment is that the truth of this moment. Now, what if we take in as the definition of the truth? So, I am aware. So what doesn't change is the truth. So that which is your direct insight and that which does not change. If you were to apply these two filters for truth, it is not what is appearing. You don't need to get into a denial of the appearance of it, but what is the truth here? So what is occurring is appearing, and we see that whatever can appear will also disappear. What can come will go. Let's apply the filter of the truth and see if there is something which is unchanging. Unchanging in the sense what I meant by truth is not become so simple later. Because if we try to fix appearances—which is what the talk was about—'I can't fix my life' or 'I can't make it better.' This is not good news at all. What you are saying to me is sounding like super good music. But when we feel like the appearance has to be different, appearance has to be something else, we get stuck in this trying to control my life and to change my mind, trying to bring only that which we desire into this life and try to hide away from that which we are fearful of. Aversion. As you see that you cannot be scratched, cannot be dented by any appearance, what is there to fear?

In fear, we don't. You were saying yesterday when you were looking a bit about the devastation, I found that they served that action without expectation of outcome. This karma yoga, all these other seeming paths to truth. Expectation of outcome was coming up. With no expectation of reciprocation is back to you. This love for seeing truth for truth's sake.

This gang now, for hundreds of years, many centuries, either the heart teacher prescribed where you used to come from. And it's not a straight line that you can only be this or that; it is usually actually a combination. But you notice that in all of this part about not being feverish about a result, not having expectations, it's common. Because it is with this expectation that we believe there is this life, that this appearance should be something else. And ego has nothing but a resistance. Another name for resistance is ego. And you cannot settle for second-hand truth. It is not enough to have a second-hand truth. All I would have to do is give you a book. Here is a book which has six months of satsangs; please get to know the main concepts of that and you're free. It doesn't work like that. In the energetic presence of satsang, the mind seems to make some space. Mostly today might not be the best way to... but to waste time to savor. Mostly he seems to make some space in which direct insight is so obvious. So when we are talking about the truth, it is not a concept, children, or the perception of some. Truth is that which is beyond all of this. It's like, go beyond the perception. What is then? If no appearance was here, would you cease to be? Can you exist only because you are perceiving? What is that which exists and who is aware of that existence?

Yes, because this mind wants to just accumulate and postpone forever. Yes, spirituality becomes a tactic for mind.

So as we resolve confusion about the 'I', we come to the right insight about the 'I'. After that, you can delve into all of these beautiful spiritual treasures which are there in our tradition and beyond our tradition. But like Maharaj once said, you might even read the Gita from this perspective and not our general... it is not blasphemy. Certitude to your own divine presence. Thank you all so much for being in satsang today. Guru Sri Mooji Baba Ki Jai.