Guruji picked me up on his lap and never put me back down

like sharing a story, I just said I just stopped. This idea, I am doing something, I have to do this, I have to go there, I have to say this, I have to control basically that just come. So when I mean that Guruji picked me up on his lap and I never put me back down again, I continue to be there and this is what it means. This whole idea of, I mean my life, maybe it doesn't have that. So because of our conditioning, even condition you must do like this, you must be like this, you must behave like this, you must say like this. So all that stops, you realize that, it's just like, one of the teachers I used to say, it's like a heavy bag that you put down. Somebody would ask them about the radiation freedom. It's like you're carrying this heavy bag, let's do that and this,