You Are Not What You Think, but You Know What You Are in Your Heart

Everything is your being. So it doesn't matter whether the attention is outward or attention is so-called inward, you see? Attention is actually only outward. There is no 'inward' as far as attention is concerned. To go further inward, let's stop with your attention. You cannot do it. This is the roadblock. How do you go further? How do you see that your being is unlimited? You know this. You know your being doesn't have a boundary. How do you know? Any question which is asked, you can only answer intuitively. How do you know? I don't know with my attention, because how will I check on the unlimited nature of my being with my attention? It's not there. Where would you send it to check? You can't check. So, does your being have a limit here with me, my dear? Does your being have a limit? Where do you know that? Congratulations. Because were you being born, or were you born? Can this die? All these questions can only be answered from that, and the answer is not even in an instant; it's before the instant. This is happening. Consciousness is playing these beautiful games.

There is no mental way to make progress with that, you see? Mostly people are in fact in denial of this. You put it into some categories of deja vu or some astrological something, and you put it into the strategy of coincidence, you see? You put it into these technical words and we hide away from that. Because actually, you know what? In the human condition, we are scared of this. You feel like we will lose our sanity to come to that which is without boundary. To come to that recognition that I am that which is not perceivable to the mind is very scary. It may look like death. It is the death of the false, you see? But you feel like, 'Then I'm over, finished.' So most of us, although this knowledge is hitting us in the face every day, we are running with all our might away from this because to the mind it's scary. It is contrary to everything that the mind thinks about the world, the opposition to our notions about time and space. Who wants to live like that? No notions about time and space? It all sounds very good on paper, but I'm telling you, it's really good. That's why the presence of a living Satguru is so helpful, because he can really show you once that it's going to be fine. You're not losing anything of value.

To give up on an old way of life really is... so when you call someone your Guru—and no Guru would ever force anyone to call them Guru—but if you call someone your Guru, really what you're saying is, 'Take my life.' Until you are willing to give up on that conceptual narrative you have about your life—and I'm kind of mellowing it down to not scare everyone—until you're willing to do that, you see, then it's not really a Guru-disciple relationship. It's a gift that you are giving to yourself to give up on the false, no matter how glorious or exciting or even painful. Sometimes we are attached to our painful stories because we love our comfortable hell. 'Okay, I'll give up on all the good stuff, but this really happened to me. He did this to me. I cannot forget that. Ram forgives, but I can't forget, you know?' What is that? That's our own prison, mind-created. So let go of all these attitudes. They are your chains. They are stopping you from flying.

Suppose in reality you're a sparrow, but you think you're a turkey. And then you say, 'Yes, I want to fly, but I want to fly like a turkey.' Will you give up on your turkey-ness? You cannot fly like a sparrow otherwise. That's all that I'm saying. So it's the same way. You will not lose anything of value. When I say that, this is what I mean. You may think, 'This is very valuable for my turkey life.' I'm not talking about the country, by the way, the bird. 'It is very valuable for me as a turkey.' But actually, I want to fly. How many turkey stories are valuable to a sparrow? Zero. You are not what you think you are, but you know what you are in your heart.