What You're Being Invited to In Your Heart Is the True Will of God - 8th November 2022

Meet the frivolousness of everything in life, the duality of it, the triviality of our attempt to make it permanent. It's just not possible. You cannot take a group of sensations, a set of perceptions, and say, 'No, you stay.' Nobody can guarantee it. And then what happens if it does decide to stay, the set of perceptions? Then we don't like it. Now the excitement is good, so what is going to be this body? It's all going, it's all good. I was saying that my new trademark is that if you're feeling vomiting and you're feeling dizzy and at the same time you're feeling bad joy, and you see if you ask your options in your heart, then that is my new trademark. Get something working somewhere.

But really, to exercise, you can do yoga and all that training and all of that—nobody is becoming eternal because of it. And then you would be tired of it if you were like two hundred years old now. Okay, now I want to change that, you know. Fundamentally, all I'm saying is that the way of the head, the way of our thinking mind, this way of life is not serving us well because everything is very shaky there, and everything is full of trying to grab, trying to attach, trying to make it permanent. About the impermanent into the problem, you must first see the shakiness of all of it in the fireworks. At some degree, we can burn that which we really want to learn, that which is our highest value.

The title through the inner lack of trust—do if I burn my highest will is for freedom, and if I burn even that, then God will maybe make a fisherman out of him. Very dear. It's not true. So inspired by Guru Nanank Ji, I just want to say that his will he must follow. And that is the main point that he's sharing with us: whatever is the will of God, he must follow. And that is so. Now what can be the difficulties? It seems straightforward, you know. All I have to do in my life is follow His will. Then what can be the difficulty?

First difficulty could be: 'But I don't know what His will is.' It's easier, easy for another disabled diseases, and I go into silence expecting the Lego frustration we have. And that is why trust is needed, and that is why faith is better. It is not that God is on a break or you are not worthy to hear His will. It is not any of those things. So God is answering, is always answering. But you have to learn to accept first that silence itself can also be an answer. He's making this point over and over again, it is really important. When you learn to accept silence also as an answer, then you're truly open to hear the rest of the answer.

But if you don't have enough trust that you wanted your way, even in this is when you want God to be the jukebox of spiritual advice—to put in the coin, 'Please Father, help you.' The coin is put and then Father should dance to your dearness. 'Here's the answer of my channel.' So that is the amount of trust that you have, that God should immediately start dancing to your tunes, and that's not going to happen. We need to learn really. So don't get dissuaded if you go headlessly without the mind into your heart. If you get silent, it's in silence is the best answer. Keyboard first difficulty, prefer ticket.

Second difficulty is that: 'Okay, I go to my heart, but heart is...' So that is not your problem to judge the rightness or wrongness of this. It is none of your business, you see? Otherwise, what will happen is you will try to make your mind the master of your heart. 'Oh, now what you have to do is tomorrow morning buy a cow, feed it.' It was just like, just like him, there's no place. Is right? Come, yes, come. That's it. You cannot say, 'Now this doesn't sound like God, I have to, you know, get a second opinion.' There is no second opinion. You have to try. The head you can smell, and I'm sharing this with you because all of you can spare your heart or you can spend your highlights. So if it is from the head posing as if it is the heart, you can smell that. So I'm not worried about that.

So you have one job. Without wasting, without request real form, you can check again and again in your heart. Answer is clear for you. I perform. If you feel helpless that the interaction is not something—like if the instruction is 'jump,' you don't know what is this, what is this jump—then take that also into your heart and say, 'I fully, fully in my heart, I wonder for you feeling. Please guide me, bless me to follow your music.' So this is the second aspect, and you cannot rush this. You cannot be in a rush with this. And that's why my message today, I shared with you that this is the only way to save time, to save yourselves for that may seem like complicated.

So I'll break it down. What will happen usually in life situations when you're pushed, when you're stressed, when you're affected by your mind? The mind will also present a notion that you don't have time right now to go to the heart, that takes too long. Have you used right now? You have to decide what you want to do. And what will happen is, usually this is not the case; in fact, it is never the case. But what will happen is that more often than even days, your head will say that 'I just want to be right about this, independent of what God says.' To be scared to go to a heart because we are scared that you receive an answer which is contrary to what we want at the moment.

So know that if you bring to your life that, that is to pick your will over God's will, then you've said, 'This is how it has to be, I am done,' you see? 'Oh, whatever, this is what I want to do.' Then how are you checking in? 'No, I'm not gonna give this, I'm done.' So even if that happens in your life, then don't say, 'I know what God would have wanted.' Say, 'I pick my will over His.' At least admit that this is how you're playing it at the moment. Admit your ego world, admit your righteousness in your own eyes, and then you'll come whenever you're out of that mode of walking to be so right, then we'll come to your heart again.

So that is another thing. Didn't finish the time point on YouTube, so the time point is very important where the mind will say, 'No, no time for that, we need to rush.' It is just not true. This is the time. Every time is the time where you see yourself. Show me Buddhism and take her if you didn't go and surrender to God, especially when your head tells you this is not the time for that. If it is really not the time for that, would it is danger? It senses that its operation, its reign, will be coming to an end. So it doesn't say, 'No, no, don't go there, we got this.' So every time is a good time to save yourself. This is the way to save yourself, not by going to the ego. That's very important.

Then the favorite one, of course, is that 'I surrender to God with one eye open.' With one eye open meaning that, 'Okay, now Ananta said you have the choice. I am Consciousness, not away from me. I hear the two voices. I hear the voice of my head, I hear the voice pick my heart.' But I think better go well because I picked my heart and I take my heart and see what all a big mess. 'I went to my heart so that I could solve things, life could become better, more peaceful. Look at this.' So you do not have the capacity, we do not have the capacity to judge outcomes, and we cannot surrender as a convenient house surrender to do go to God. It cannot be that way. If you surrender to God, it must be your true surrender if the outcomes are not your business.

That is very, very important. Otherwise, you will become benchmarked. Otherwise, your mind will still try to retain superiority saying, 'Oh, I followed my heart, but look at this. I was struggling in my relationship, I went to my heart, I followed all the advice, and now my relationship is even more in shambles than it was when it started.' So we still need using the evaluation which is judging life. So what faith is—not a cheat code you can use in life to get your way. So it is a true surrender of your life, come what may. That is so. If all of us tomorrow become like beggars on the street because we follow God's will and gave away our houses and that's how it is, is that better for us or worse for us? And some of you are experiencing software like important husband asked us to do anything to face that field. Okay.

Faith is not a cheat code you can use in life to get your way. It is a true surrender of your life. If all of us tomorrow become like beggars on the street because we follow God's will and gave away our houses and that's how it is, is that better for us or worse for us? Some of you are experiencing something like, 'Father hasn't asked us to do anything to face that fear.' Okay, on this I still want my will. I don't trust God's will enough that I want this stuff. I don't want us to end up right because of the stream. The attachment to outcome and attachments to what should happen as a result of following words is another mind trick or mind attack.

The use of a tool to come to your heart, mostly for you, open and empty is enough. Mostly we are fine. You're living in the heart and as you're living in the heart, the light of presence is also good to you. Then you don't need to go through the asking for guidance and the response process in any way; it is happening actually. It is only when you feel like, you see, that this you have to solve mentally, or there is some problem that is not being resolved, or you need some guidance and you're feeling fearful about something. Then anytime you may feel that you're too caught up in the head and you can't just drop it, that is when the pointer is coming. So a simple pointer like 'open and empty' or a pointer like 'Who am I?' or 'All is the Master's Grace.' All these pointers stop the 'Where is God? Where am I? What is love?' Anything that you can answer only with intuition to get you out of your head into your heart.

So if you feel like you believe that you cannot leave your head without the help of some pointer, then use it. You have a nice variety based on your temperament. You can pick, or based on your temperament at that moment, you can do whatever you use. Don't be shy of using. Don't be shy of admitting that you are caught up in the head. If you are judging, then don't be shy to ask for help. It's the best gift you can give to yourself. Your mind will tell you, 'What? You are acting like such a little thing. You don't need to do that. You should be beyond this by now.' See, over the years, this is one thing also I've heard. One of the things that comes is, 'Oh, I didn't really have your advice come to you or go to my heart because I felt like, Father, I feel I should be over this by now. You're still asking these kindergarten questions?' It's not true. There is no level of confusion in the heart. You can go to the heart for the simplest of that which the mind will say is the smallest of things.

To use the pointer, use the guidance. Guidance, which is your pointer, could just be like the image of Krishna or reminding yourself of Allah or whatever you feel like is the best reminder. The content of the pointer itself is not that important. It is, of course, I feel best if it is something that you have resonance with your Master on. This is another way that why additional supports are available because it gets in the view of us. What will happen is that you followed your head, you see, and then when you notice you followed your head, instead of dropping here, you start saying, 'No, no, but Guruji had told me follow your heart. I never do it when it's the right time. I'm just not worthy,' you see, or 'I just didn't want to. I was feeling so right about myself,' you see. 'I'm so bad. I shouldn't even be here. Maybe this is not the path for me.' Everything we go to like retaliative super fast. Really, it is like being the best follower to like 'not worthy of coming to satsang' and 'maybe this is not the right path.' Within two minutes, we can play that whole thing out.

See, again, this is the two-punch of the mind. So the mind punches will be a one-two punch combination. Everything I've got, keywords, okay, then it doesn't go according to plan. See, it was so mental about it. You only pick with your mind, so that is still mind, you see. So it's like you went on a fast that you're not going to eat anything. You're in a water park. You had a salad because it was tempting because it has some key videos. There you go. So as you indulge, you're indulging in the desired technology. So what's worse for your diet? Because it is not filled with identity-free, it would change anything you would give. And sometimes even the opposite, which is right narrow games. So well, we can make this work like that. So yeah, so that dessert is worse than the salad for this guy.

So if you're going to be open and empty, you will observe the script. You will observe this tree. And we tempt you with the simplistic thing that the knockout punch is to consume your life. 'I'm out of here. Satan is not helping you. I'm wasting my life.' But then I'll give it until then. He said between my five minutes back and he was just like so happy. So the mind reading music that gorilla opportunity really press the point really hard. So one of the tips, of course, is that if you are rushing, you're being in the head. If you're rushing in order, if you feel like it's a rush, that is a symptom of the head.

So these are some of the main tricks of the mind which will prevent you from surrendering to God's will. The most important thing, of course, as I was saying yesterday, is that there are two wings of this bird: one is Jnana and the other is Bhakti. You shared the Bhakti part because I feel like the Jnana part has become very straightforward for me. It seemed like that was the more complex part of spirituality. 'When will I ever come to the true recognition of myself?' you see. That seemed to have been the more difficult part, that 'Okay, I have to do that and the rest will follow because then I'll be self-realized' or something like that. Something I don't have to worry about.

Actually, what you're finding is that moment to moment, just following some simple guidance and pointers, the insight is quite clear, quite available. Your presence is apparent. That which is aware of presence is fully clear moment to moment. Of course, your head will continue around and how about that? I'm just saying in the actual taste of it, it is very straightforward. So the Jnana part of it has been made into a very, very digestible portion now, which is mostly you need to work on the conditioning part, letting go of the false. But the insight into what you are really helps in your surrender. If you feel yourself to be a limited person, then to accept God's will over your will, now you know that the will that you're trying to impose, that one doesn't exist. And that's why it makes it lighter and then you can say, 'I can discard it.'

If you truly felt that there's a person still, you see, and you felt like you've not had an insight about the lack of this person, then you would say, 'No, no, I want private this. My life is for me to experience my will. Why should I hand it over to God's will?' It will look like too big a sacrifice. But now that you have seen that there is no such individual, there is no such entity, then you know that this will is just a mental sort of process which is trying to create the delusion of individuality where actually, in actuality, there is no such person, you see. So who am I toggling in asking you to hand over your will? Nobody. There is nobody like that anymore.

So it's like the two modes of consciousness: one is the person mode and one is God mode, okay? So now you would not switch out of person mode if there was an actual person to kill you. If there's an actual person to kill, so it's more difficult to go to God. But you've seen that no such person has ever existed, so it's easier. It doesn't seem like a sacrifice anymore. In fact, it may even to your intellect seem like the most rational thing to do. Of course, the guidance you'll get from your heart will take care of that rationality very soon, but actually even now, like it's an understandable thing. A person doesn't exist, why insist on following the personal will? It seems quite rational also. But when you encounter what you're being guided to, then that will always provide something to squeeze. They always provide something that screams as you are the thing, that there is no risk and there's no fear. Something must be getting the risk, otherwise it's very comfortable spirituality. 'You all there is a good, my child.' See, that's all that I did you get from your heart. Yes, soon you'll be so spiritually complacent and arrogant.

Your presence knows very well what are your blind spots. And we don't know by virtue of them being blind spots. Because they are blind spots, we don't know how much we still know, although we think now we don't know anything and we don't want to be right about anything because we win in satsang. You may start to think this much before, so we are actually leaving the identity. This is a fantastic way of denial. So what difference against that? And this is relevant to the first conversation also, is that of course what is showing up is God's way. Of course what is showing up. 'But I can't do anything. This is what's God's will. What do you want me to follow, Father? What is this happening anyway? What is my following or not?'

So that's what I started saying now. And maybe first I said, yes, this is God's will, but the higher will of God is what you're going to do in your heart. What you mean I do in your heart is the higher experience of the true will of God. So when you aren't hiding behind the absence of surrender in the form of 'only God's will will happen.' So what happens is that we learn in satsang that God's will is all that plays out, everything is Ram's will. What is that? So how where do we verify that? By looking at the world. What is God doing? This is what. Then why do I need to surrender fully? What will do I have to give up? Why do I have to follow my heart or be in the heart's presence if ultimately only God's will will play out? And that is why I'm giving you something to make you uncomfortable. It is the higher will of God is that which you feel guided to in your heart more than what your perception version shows. It can seem like some trouble, excuse me.

So that 'All is Master's Grace' is a beautiful instrument of surrender. It prevents us from resisting what is showing up in life. We are not questioning, 'Why does this happen to me?' you see. It's a beautiful tool of surrender, you see. But every tool, as pristine as it may be, has its limitation. So one of the limitations of this tool is to give us an excuse to not surrender fully because then if it is God's will, then it will happen. So we can hide ourselves, our ego, behind some of those emotions. 'Only God's will is only happening like that.' So if I give you a tool which tells you that what God's presence is showing you, that is an elevated expression of His will compared to what your perceptions are showing. So to test that even more than what you can trust your perception, then you can become a Vedantin as far as that is concerned because all your perceptions are Maya.

So Maya cannot guide you as to how to be free from Maya. So then we are changing the track a bit. So what can guide me to be free from Maya? Not the content of Maya itself. We are in, okay, that's a separate point I want to make. But what can guide you to be free from Maya? A higher guidance, a higher presence, God's light. So that is what I'm saying. So you place greater value, if you want to, if you need guidance, rather than taking the world's word for it, take God's word for it and follow that. I was saying that within Maya we cannot find an escape from Maya, and thankfully God has made one exception to that. He has placed an alarm clock, His alarm clock, within your dream. So whereas everything within the dream is part of the dream and belongs to the Maya or the dream, God has placed a direct alarm clock within your dream in the form of the Master.

Rather than taking the world's word for it, take God's word for it and follow that. I was saying that within Maya, we cannot find an escape from Maya. Thankfully, God has made one exception to that. He has placed an alarm clock—His alarm clock—within your dream. So, whereas everything within the dream is part of the dream and belongs to the Maya or the dream, God is pleased to direct an alarm clock within your dream in the form of the master. The master is connected in his heart to God, or her heart to God, and then is a glaring alarm saying, 'Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up.' This voice is representing God and you can follow that. But otherwise, to find something within Maya which is going to help you transcend Maya—how do you know that this alarm clock is the true alarm clock and not just another Mayavi alarm clock? How do you know?

You will start feeling a resonance in your own heart as you meet the presence of one who is in the heart. You will start feeling the resonance in your own heart. It will not be a usual friendship which is on the head, where you enjoy the company and you like the jokes that the person makes and it's very nice. So you feel good when you come to satsang; you may not even feel good in the head, you may feel like you're being squeezed, you see? Something starts to resonate in the heart. So it is for these ones who resonate with this expression deeply in the heart that I demand a full surrender. For those who don't, don't follow me. That's okay. God has made enough—made one alarm clock for each, at least one. No, that's fine.

But my job, if I am your alarm clock because you feel it in your heart, you know it in your heart, then my job is to keep bellowing, 'Wake up, wake up.' But you say, 'No, no, but I just found the prettiest girl after thirty years of looking,' or 'I'm richer than King Solomon,' or something like that, you know, whatever. Wake up. So as my assigned role from God, I have to keep saying, 'Wake up, wake up, wake up,' no matter how many protestations and tantrums you have. But I cannot circumvent your will. I cannot say to you 'wake up' in spite of you picking your own will. So I can keep reminding you, I can keep telling you the weather is very nice here, so I want to become the best pointer. But because you are Consciousness as well, and ultimately we are one Consciousness, nothing can take the power of your play away from you. How you want to play is going to be completely up to you.

That is why sometimes I say that this is not necessarily a single lifetime relationship, because there can be lifetimes also. And the good thing is that I don't mind this game. I don't mind this game, but in the way you're playing now, you seem to mind. You seem to mind it, so better you wake up now. This is how the bypass code that God has placed within the realm of Maya is for you to take. Because God also realizes the way Maya is designed, he could play with that Maya for eternity, forgetting like Narada. For God, it's only when suffering came, it's only when suffering came, the flood came and the fire came and everything started to get taken away from him, he remembered, 'Oh, I was just on a mission from Krishna to get a bit of water for him, and look at me, I spent all my life in this Maya not realizing.' And yet there was something always calling me. That is the call of your heart. It's always there like a quiet whisper, but you do everything possible here to try and avoid that, to push that away.

So the bypass code for Maya is placed within Maya in the form of the master, because that one has got the heart connection with God. So in the presence of that one, you also feel the heart connection starting to deepen. The call starts to deepen. Your mind may become more fearful or more calm, or on the mind level all these things may happen, but if you can start to smell the call of your heart, you will notice the deepening. That is undoubtedly so. And when I say master, I'm not saying Ananta the form, because the master has to also de-hypnotize you, appearing first like that, then like that, then like that. So it's not a particular form of the master; it is the master itself which you are ready for at that moment and end up following. That is the Satguru presence, the presence which is the alarm clock.

So it is my presence, my heart, which keeps using this instrument to keep reminding you to wake up, because you're used to dealing with instruments at the moment. And all our conversations basically are: you say, 'But my head says,' and I say, 'But your heart says.' That's all, literally all that is happening. In the guise of talking about Consciousness and awareness and will and surrender and all of that, we really just say 'head' and then you have a place where you are 'at heart.' At heart, okay? It's like a drop which is trying to fall back into the larger water, you see? If you've seen the scientific photographs as the drop is dropped, the drop never falls in one shot. It bounces back, but some part of it gets absorbed. And the bouncing is little, then it goes in again, bounces back, some more part of it is absorbed, and it becomes lower, closer, closer, smaller, smaller, smaller. So that's our idea of separation, our idea of individuality. When does it end? It never ends because it goes on forever until probably you remain like a single water molecule or something in that process. So that is the ego. It's a beautiful thing.

And then many times you go back into the head also. Feel free. 'I don't need this stuff. Who needs to inquire and surrender?' I saw somebody on Facebook and they were like, 'I'm so relieved that I'm not following my Guru now. Like, I just do this for a few minutes and then the whole day I'm working peacefully and things are all fine. I don't know what I was doing.' Excuse me. So that is the bounce. And the bounce is going this way while it seems to be going well, until it starts hitting the friction from the top. It seems like it's having a nice time, then the friction starts coming. That's when you start taking over yourself. That is the game as it is being played.

So whatever you think you want now, don't want it, and don't want the opposition. Just be open. In that openness, everything is basically taken care of. But if you still feel like you need some guidance, some help, you follow your heart's pointing. Remember to trust the silence of your heart. But then when it is clear to you it is your heart, then follow unwaveringly no matter what the guidance may be. That's fair. If at all you feel that the ask is too much, then admit that openly to God and say, 'I hear you clearly in my heart. I'm still attached to this aspect of my will. I still wanted this for me. Please help me, God, to get over that. May Thy will be done fully in all things.' Whether I am shining your light on this instead of hiding it under some fancy words, I'm not hiding anymore and I'm exposing you. And then it becomes really like the thorn which could be embedded in your hand, but you sort of just denied it and put some lotion on and forgotten about it every day. And when you shine your light on it, it may seem to become quite painful because actually what is happening to you as you are deepening is that this apparent distance of your individual will—you see, you don't want it anymore. You can't bear it anymore. It's like a distance from the Beloved which is poking you. Those are the remnants of our selfishness that still get in the way.

So it's important to bring that into God's light and offer that up, not as a convenient excuse, but as a call for help and decision: 'This I still cannot hand over. Please bless me that I become open and empty.' Then your spiritual life becomes full of fire, full of light. We left the spirituality behind me.

I was just about to ask, if there is no guidance, what is the guidance? Higher guidance, what you are talking here. Do you feel like you don't hear any guidance from your heart?

So that's why I'm saying that initially you have to learn how to trust silence itself to be the answer. It seems like a lot to us because you feel like, 'But I need the answer, like should I do my job? Should I quit my job? Should I ask for more money? Should I ask for less money? Whatever, I need to send that mail.' And you say, 'Okay, Father said it's a hug.' So what to do? Continue to remain in the light of your heart. You need to remain in the light of God's presence. Don't return to your head. Don't give in to your fear and return to your head. Continue like that. The answer sometimes is not received in words, but it is not possible that God does not answer you. So as you continue to remain in the presence, you will find that whatever action needs to happen will happen organically. If you decide that 'I am not going to move until it's clear in my heart,' then you will see that the heart uses your body very naturally. But if you allow that to get contaminated with your righteousness and what you think is right and your will, then it seems to take on a different direction than you. You're on the journey of the ego for a while longer.

So every moment you can cut that short and bypass it. Bypassing, take the view of the heart right now. Enter the silence. In the silence, even if you don't get the outward answer, God is taking care. This needs faith. There is no—I can't give you any further guarantees in that. I can only make my life a living testimony to that and share these words to point to that. Beyond that, I cannot. Please. Yeah, it will happen. Very good. But your idea of 'very good' may be very different from God's idea of 'very good.' There are no guarantees possibly that I can make, you see? But as your father, as a spiritual father, I have to live up to that myself because I cannot be living in the head myself but come to satsang and say this. And I will not wish a life like that or anything. Lack of integrity is not bad for anybody else; it's worse for that one themselves who wants to live like that as its actors. Imagine if you had to act like that. You need to act like the heart weekly.

So the alarm clock, the instrument of the alarm clock, has to be showing you how it is done. That is just words for words; you can read a book. So my job is to live in the heart, to speak from the heart, and to offer with integrity what my insights are along that path. The relationship is not one of those 'do as I say, don't do as I do.' One wants to be shown this way because it cannot be templatized. I cannot make a step-by-step process about it, although a little bit of system is offered so that you have some broad ways to swim. But every stroke is not defined. Every stroke you can only learn by following the—like you have to catch my pulse. If you are my disciple, then you have to catch my pulse. What is this? What is the resonance of his will? So from that, then you can be coated because that connects you to your heart. Then that is—I cannot.

So if somebody tells you, 'What does Ananta say? What do you have to do?' the broad strokes include: inside without perception, without concept, full surrender, full God. Two categories of what you're learning in satsang. And beyond that, it's for you to tell you and define them, and it must be really captured in your heart, your connection, rather than conceptually. If you follow the silence of your heart, okay, it will be still a lot less of a mess than if you follow your head. But if your head defines what mess is and what good is, then follow. Nice job as a teacher. He was being offered a deputation to like a county, like a village for some time, the countryside. He could have taken that, done a few years there, continuing to—his heart said, 'I quit now.' In that moment, in that moment, could anyone have zoomed in except God and said, 'This will go good for you or bad for you'? In that moment when he was saying 'I quit,' nobody could have predicted. But because that moment happened, he followed his heart, that moment all of us are sitting here today because of that.

Nice job as a teacher. He was being offered a deputation to like a county, like a village for some time, the countryside. He could have taken that, done a few years there, continuing. But his heart said, 'I quit now.' In that moment, in that moment, could anyone have zoomed in except God and said, 'This will go good for you' or 'bad for you'? In that moment when he was saying 'I quit,' nobody could have predicted. But because that moment happened, he followed his heart. That moment, all of us are sitting here today because he entered the universe of his heart and broke out of the universe of the head at that point. So first, here are sharing the life. So one instinct of following the heart changes the whole universe. So never be disheartened with what has happened in the past. The mind will use that to push you until you're not doing well with using surrender. You know, it doesn't matter. One moment changes the whole universe, you see that in all.

If the realizing Buddha had not followed his heart and got attached, how many Buddhists now? Some 500 million, not there. You're not good with this. Christ said, 'I'll apologize, I apologize,' and just count out to the Romans' rules and the Jewish priests. For two, two and a half billion people, for thirty questions? So one moment of you following your heart in this, the universe, how? We don't know. We can't tell. When will you see the fruits of that? You can't tell. Like we will cast in the body that was crucified, few followers, nowhere near. The other day, it has the total population of the world was 200 million then, and Christ's total population was 200 million. Now there are 2.2 billion Christians in the world, 11 times the population of the world that he inhabited there, if you believe the linearity of time. Just to set some narrative.

This is the mystery that we must accept in our heart. If you want God's ways to become predictable, then life is not worth living. What does it mean? 'I followed my heart and even what I had was taken away from me,' suppose so. That is the interpretations the mind can do. Does it really have the capacity to say, 'Okay, now two thousand years later, this is the impact of that one action'? Bhagwan was having a death experience. In that moment, he followed his heart and said, 'If I'm dying now, I want to see it. If I'm dying now, I want to see it.' So he'll lie down on the bed. If he'd followed his head, the head may have been screaming saying, 'Go to Mama, go to doctor.' Good boy, young boy. I will not be here. In that moment, somebody could have told that boy, 'Lie down and face her death'? No, because they'd say, 'Come with me to doctor' or like something psychologically wrong with the company, get mixed up or something. Who would expect this to make sense? Because God's version of time is very different from our mind's version of time. I'm only trying to create some reassurance for that which is ultimately unreassurable. You have to dive into the field.

Yes, and I have trust in him. And you said 'jump' and I was not sure if in my backpack there was a parachute or not to this. I jumped. I said, 'I have to jump,' because I didn't continue because then I was going in the mind. Yeah, my aunt said I jump, but it comes out not that it's still I want trying to follow, not sacrificing, not as important to sacrifice. Yes, but yet this facing death and attachments cannot do that to my large when I, when my dad went back meditating. But so it was a little bit dramatic. I even stand up. I said, 'Okay, when I have to die here in this physically in this 21 days I came first time.' You said a few days, this is overcome, and it made me feel that everything I said, 'Okay, but I went up tonight and I wrote all my pins and all my people as a rightful for Peter.' Yes, so if that happens that he wouldn't have the mess I had when I had last year with the friends to Greece and the son died or when my husband died. And so it's to overcome his. In fact, this is true because at the end I didn't know that go too much in mind and so that's okay. It's still good.

It's still very good. This is the very project. This is what I'm trying to provoke. It's very good, it's very good. I see because I am not saying you have to die. I'm not saying anything. I'm saying jump. That is the power of an instruction which is happening heart to heart but your head is not able to understand. That is the power of an instruction which your heart fully gets but your head is not able to understand. So all the fears of the head, all the ultimate like death and then this and everything will be failed. So this is the beauty of this. For one thing to be met in this way, for one instruction to be met in this way, like my job is done. One, one. Like I told Mira the other day that what would happen to you that you, if you had a drug that—I'm not suggesting you have, anybody having it—I'm using what would happen if you had a drug that made you fully open? So that instruction got her that way and this is the result of that. You started churning a bit also, so vomiting and giddy, and yet in your heart you know it's auspicious.

That there was a find yourself with psychedelic, yes, yes. It was a seminar, seminar, and I read it can be something that we because to come to this in this unadulterated fashion is where you have to meet your frustrations, your fears, your people's desires have to be met and faced and been coming up in your life. And many times you will feel like, 'Hey, I was better off before I came to satsang. I was better off, you know, because I could go and have a drink and just feel all right about myself, just double my mind or something like that.' It's fine.

But your heart knows no greater gift you can give to yourself than this unadulterated freedom, unadulterated self-realization. Because all substances, all is in this thing can just give you some temporary ephemeral sort of experiences, but they cannot give you the experience of the non-perceivable. No matter how much LSD or whatever you have, it may give you a psychedelic experience but—and it may give you an idea of seeing some blankness or 'Oh, there was nothing there' or whatever—all this may happen. But the unperceivable, unconceptualizable insight into your own self here, without color, quality, blank light, being, not being, none of that, it is not possible to do with any, any aid. Only aid to that is God's instrument in the realm of Maya itself, which is the bypass, you see, which is the presence of the master. So don't none of you waste any time on this kind of stuff. If you're still, you're of course not to go to it, but even for the future, whoever hears this live, all this is experienced using with bliss cheese and it's running away from facing your own fears.

There are no shortcuts available to this. The master is pointing in a very direct way. What you, what your mind takes is a convenient refuge in the form of free drugs and all of these things is just going to make it more difficult. It's going to make it more troublesome for you. So don't get ever distracted by any of this. There are all kinds of things on offer today, you know, because the magic of search and social media, and many may be offering it with good intention also. I'm not doubting the intention. But because we are so attached to just experience, experience, experience, and maybe you're so tired of the suffering of the human condition that we're searching for some magic pill. 'Pop this pill.' This is very different from the invitation I made to Mira, which is the same like pretend that you already had it without having you still had to go and get it. And that is not the instruction. So that sort of pushed, push, push, push. So all the churning is happening because of that. So that is my attempt to, to make everybody uncomfortable in this world. But in your heart, if I ask you, do you see the auspiciousness of it or no?

Even in the outer space here that is always there. I started in praying this prayer, 'Please look at the asking assistance in this.' In that case, let the put your hand and that's it should be this word of as are that won't cut and not going on the cross like Jesus, Jesus. So assist me in a way that all this doesn't have to happen. Yes, but I can continue to enjoy my stay in Bangalore and there it was again.

This is very primal, my dear, very primal. Thank you for sharing this. So, so this is what we need to bring into our life. What are we sharing with you the other day also, that if I heard of what is my limit, what is my boundary of surrender? So what's mine is yours, which is both good and I pretended.

Exactly, that's the thing that your heart, your head does not know how to pretend. That's what the frustration is, that's what the churning happens. Your head doesn't know what to pretend, but your heart in the heart is already true.

Yes. So then that is the like worthy friction is that the two stones rubbing which will cause the fire, you see. Otherwise it becomes too comfortable, then it becomes like purely intellectuals. Ananta is talking on Saturday, which is having fun. It is not where we are right now. That is so, so we need to smell more strongly because the obvious signs of ego are now mostly taken care of. Tiny, tiny, tiny blind spots. That's why it is provocations in the Leelas. And you may like, you may be given like this the story of Christ or, or try to understand why Krishna's behavior was right or in any culture you look at, you'll find something. But you may actually find that your blind spot is actually something very small. You may actually find that it's something really like small and you may feel bad about that, but you don't have to.

See, can you feel like, 'Oh, now Father is talking about crucifixion and things. I am worried if, you know, somebody steals all my money.' Or no, not even that. Like, 'I'm very much...' and that, that avoid the two punch in that. The one, one is okay, you see. The one is like what you are scared of losing. So Father like this, but I am scared that if my, um, something what is relative is if my friend stopped liking me. Something like if nobody talks to me, you know, they think I'm a bad person. To be as simple as that. You don't have to have just the extreme example. For some it can be listened to you, but actually a denial of faith, the denial of trust has no level. It's my level. So as far as that is concerned, all of us are in the same boat. All of us are in the same boat because I could not do what Abraham was asked to do.

So you said that when it could be a friend, it could be whatever that you're saying surrender and you're saying surrender and my mind saying, 'What if the money gets lost?' or 'My friends will talk to me.' So that's what makes you say a living somewhere they're alive. See whether you know levels means okay, say it runs Abraham, faith is the same as you not wanting to be here. And I mean for each one whatever. So, so why I'm saying this is that what the fuel for your fire is good enough. So don't allow your mind to convince you, 'No, no, no, I need to find a bigger project.' Hey, what are you, what life is giving you now to chew on is, is your sadhna for now. And don't believe that it is a linear process. As you get over this, you don't know, you may be, this may be the last, you don't know. But don't allow your mind to say, you know, 'There's no point even doing this. Like what is this? What if somebody comes and asks you what is the surrender you're trying to make and you say, "Oh, my friend online..."' This is what kind of discipline like that? This is the antidote to that exactly, absolutely, absolutely.

Like I value my righteousness. Come on, I am right about what is good and bad in this situation more than God's will. So all the differences for the ego are built around being right, understanding good, understanding bad. This is yeah, but just before we think, I don't know if the question on the same thing. So what I'm really saying is that what God has given you in this moment is enough. What, what life has given you, what life is showing you and this moment is enough. So just someone you said, 'Okay,' I said that if you would imagine, pretend you already take it. So there's a—no, I mean this is quietly here. Here, no, that is actually not for you because for some...

What I'm really saying is that what God has given you in this moment is enough. What life has given you, what life is showing you in this moment, is enough.

So, just something you said... I said that if you would imagine, pretend you already take it. So there's a... no, I mean, this is quietly here. No, that is actually not for you because for somebody else, you don't have to do that. You know what I mean? And it's too clearly about... yeah, smell it. If something is already fearful of that, then it shows you you have to dive into them. Because it's just like, no, no, not for you, not to even... what if it was for me? Yes, we're also at some point, but it's already done. I mean, it could be another time because, I mean, I'm just saying. But like you're saying, that's a fear, but I didn't see it as a fear actually. I saw it as... I mean, what advocacy that we... yeah, this is somebody else. I mean, oh, it's just the voice of my head. I can just ignore it in a way. I can just see.

Yeah, yeah. It's that voice which is saying it's all familiar to you. You're hearing it. It's not... there is no one here to validate or invalidate what your response should be in regards to this, except you have to be true to yourself in the heart and say, 'Okay, was that avoidance or was it seen like a transcended thing already?' That only you can check in your heart. I mean, that's wonderful, you know? I can't say it's not. It feels like both.

It feels like it still works, but make sure that the 'both' is not a new way to avoid. That's why I'm checking, and I need to see this because I'm getting better.

It can also become very like... okay, how are you checking? Every advice, excuse, which could have ever existed is now coming. I noticed with some of my kids also that what is being shared now is also being put into that mode, you see? That's why I took away that 'this whatever is happening is God's will' to say the greater will of God is what your gratitude in your heart is. Now that excuse is going to be used in this way. I'm just finding these too, also. We know of the medicine I have given you. It is the job now, it's time to wean off that and come to a different plane. It's like you're something, right? So notice, you can smell avoidance for yourselves. You can smell and see that, okay, now is my saying that all of it is God's will, or is my saying that it could be both, or is my saying that this is Maya, or is my saying that how does it affect awareness... is my saying all of this Advaita stuff, is it truly met in my heart or is it just conceptual for this moment?

That one chance is that... ah, this one is like the fifth, you see? But the speed with which the answer came, I realize it's coming just conceptually. I said, no, no, it's about meeting the fifth, not creating a category of the fifth. You know what the fifth is? So in older traditional schools of logic, there were four logical responses. Then in the Greek way, there were just two in logic. So either something can be true or something has to be false in the Greeks. And then because of the Greeks and the Western system is what most of us follow, then our intellect has all got tuned to that. So, the four corners of the room: one, it is true; second, it is not true, it's false, you see; third is that it is both true and false; and fourth is it's neither true nor false. Okay?

Now the Buddhists and Indians and some of these used to have four of these. But because we started following the Western style of intellect and logic, we forgot this. Yes or no? Nothing can't be both yes and no, nor neither yes nor no. Now, when a question was asked which was purely intuitive in nature, where the answer can only be got intuitively, the Buddha would answer the fifth: neither yes, nor no, nor both yes and no, nor neither-neither, see? And the fifth we cannot fathom. But sometimes what happens is the pointer itself allows us to keep a mental category of them. So, are you having an intuitive insight of the fifth, or is there now one, two, three, four, five? So whatever the four we can't answer in those four ways, fifth. That is not the point. The point is just like a Zen koan. What is the fifth? Is there a fifth? Can you find a fifth? What is beyond yes or no and neither yes nor no? So there must be a fifth. What is your living experience?

Neutrality, where whatever... whenever we're not judging, because you're not in that field of the judgment itself. You know, like your favorite is the witnessing of it without the judgment even involved in...

Well, I think that there's beauty and convenience in most pointings like this, right? So the convenience is that, okay, now I know of a new category for those questions which I can't answer, I'll just say it's the fifth. The beauty is to really contemplate and meet the fifth. Can you really with credibility say this is? You cannot unless you met it and let's say it's your real-life experience. So, for this statement with you... so why does the question that was asked to the Buddha was, 'Why does a... does the one that is free, does that one have to come back or not come back to this world?' Buddha said the fifth. We can say, 'Oh, very nice. Now one, two, three, four... so I don't know, five,' you see? Like that. It's a very convenient proposition, really. Is to truly say like it is the fifth. Can you say it like the Buddha said? That is the question. Why can we not see it?

So when he said it is the fifth, he met it in the fifth. From there he said, 'What is the way of that meeting?' So all these things which are making you uncomfortable are meant to take you to that insight into the fifth. What is beyond logical categories? Computer missed that whole conversation, so you know the four corners? Did we speak about it? The four corners of Buddhism and then Buddha used to say the fifth. I was just saying that in Buddhism, in ancient traditions even in India, logic was not confined to true or false. Logic used to have true, false... so I'm pointing to the corners of the room: true, false, both true and false, neither true nor false. Okay? So then questions could be answered in these four ways, which sound so alien and absurd in our life because we got so used to the 'if it is false it can't be true, if it is true it can't be false.' It's kind of linear thinking, you see.

But then what would happen is if there's a question that was purely intuitive, like 'Does the enlightened one come back in the body or not?' There is no Atma to carry forward. So when a question is asked, 'So what happens? Does the enlightened one come back in the body in the world?' The Buddha truly answered the fifth. He answered this. So now the fifth can be like either a very convenient notion, like you don't know the answer so you take a nice Guru-type pose and say, 'It is that,' or really like in integrity be able to say it is beyond the intellect but it is available in the heart.

Into the mystery.

Responding to the mystery, exactly. The mystery, that which is supremely mysterious in our head and yet such a beautiful flow in our heart. But we must be able to come to a point where we can answer it like the Buddha himself. To not... because the Buddha used to answer fifth, you see, is not enough. Find the same answer in your heart with integrity. Whatever expression comes, it is now. The house of that insight is available to you. It is where you see that you are aware. It is where you see your being. See, using the word 'see,' using of course... that's where you find all of this. That is the home for all himself. Hello. I attracted all of you with the promise of kirtan and bhajans. Tonight.