There is Nothing Outside of This - 2nd Oct. 2015

You know, sometimes it can seem like we are going around in circles because we start the spiritual journey and we go around a circle and say, 'I'm still... nothing happened. I'm still there.' Then again, 'Okay, this time better run faster, better, stronger.' And then again, back to the same time. Any journey cannot bring you to what you already are. Sometimes it appears that this journey is undertaken, but the discovery at the end always is that I have always been this. So this process of going from identified being to unidentified, unassociated being can happen. The truth about what we are remains unchanged throughout all of this. I feel that's why it's very powerful to try and leave yourself. Just try and leave it. Leave yourself apart, aside. I know it sounds very silly, but that's the whole point—that to leave yourself is not possible. And if to leave yourself is not possible, then how can you find yourself? Therefore, the seeming finding of the Self must only be the seeing that I cannot leave it. It's always here.

Guruji, I am here, always here. Where is God? This 'I am' is God? Why am I not able to feel Her presence?

You are, because you see, I am here. That's why I say, can you stop being here? When we refer to God, we are talking about Consciousness. This being that cannot be stopped is Consciousness, is presence. It is your own presence. You cannot say 'I am here' without first experiencing God. Then you say, 'But I don't feel like God. I always feel like there is something.' How does the mind know what God must feel like? Because God Himself said about His attributes, such as He's omnipresent. So where is the being not there? You see, 'I always feel like there is something missing.' So there are two possibilities here. One is that you're making a mental influence that this can't be it, it can't be just this simple, this is so regular, something like that. Or it could be that some sensation of discomfort or some something is coming up and you're taking that to imply that this means that something is missing.

Do you get closer into the examination of your own being, your own presence, which we undermine because it is always here? If you just stay with this, you find that the entire world of experiencing is happening here. Experiencing is not happening there, outside. Happening here. The outside is happening here. Everything is experienced here in this being. And then you can say that only this being exists phenomenally. Only this being exists. So I say God is all there is. Without being, there is no world. The body is experienced inside this, in the space of this being. Some of you have asked that it seems like this being is constricted by the body. Check again and see where the body sensations are arising. We experience the body only as some sensations, and the mind paints a picture of a boundary based on these sensations. But these sensations are coming in the infinite spaciousness of being, and you see that there is nothing outside of this. You've been trying to find this on the outside, but actually everything has been inside this 'I am'. This one experiencer of all that can be tasted in this realm. This one light in the light of which this entire dance appears and disappears.

So don't go with what a thought is saying about this presence. Don't go with what a feeling is trying to convey. Stay with your direct seeing, direct experience. And to see this itself is freedom enough. But one day you might say that I witness even this presence, and then you can see I am that which is even before 'I am'. You say God might feel like me feeling whole and complete. Maybe it's not about a feeling. And if you let this being remain unassociated, you will find that all feelings are coming in service to this being—all the love, peace, joy, contentment—but not the other way around. If it's still there, we are still hoping that some state will come, then that itself is personal, you see? Then being cannot be unassociated. So this discovery ultimately must be about the discovery of myself irrespective of which state is coming, and then you will truly not be concerned by states also. I know it sounds horrible to the mind, but here, if there is never any joy felt after this, there is no concern about it.