The Big 'A' (Awareness) or Small 'a' (appearance)? - 30th December 2014

Satsang with Ananta. Big 'A' Awareness or small 'a' appearance? What’s here now? What’s here right now? Can we look at that? Because the truth is here. We don’t need to go looking around here and there to find the truth. The truth is ever present. In fact, I say that I am not interested in that which comes and goes. Of what value would that be? If it is something coming and going, no matter how glorious it is, of what value would it be? It’ll only lead to more attachment, isn’t it? Attachment and then suffering when it goes. So, can we find That which is always present? And if you focus on what is here right now, then you will not be able to tell me that there is something missing. Something is always missing in experiences from the past or projections into the future. The most common one that we hear is that, ‘It’s all ok now,’ you say like this in Satsang, 'But what about when I leave?' And immediately you pick up this projection of the future, isn’t it?

When you taste your own Presence, then you stop searching here and there. Your own Presence of Being. This is the Presence that wakes up and then we call it the waking state. What is the difference between sleep and waking? One way to say is that all these appearances are there in the waking state, isn’t it? One way to say is like that, but the other way is first to see that first there is a ‘me’. All these appearances are arising from me, in my Presence. Can there be an appearance without a ‘me’? So it’s never possible to have an appearance of something without there being this perspective of there being a ‘me’. Can you say that, ‘I saw something but I was not there?’ No, it sounds like a silly thing to say, isn’t it? We say that ‘I saw something”. It’s always that ‘I’ saw something. So the ‘I’ must be always present. We have to find out who is this ‘I’. Who is this one?

This ‘I’ sees our thoughts also. A thought might be coming now. A thought could even be, if it’s your first time in Satsang, ‘But this is little abstract.' It’s a little something, but it’s another thought, you see? Just a thought. You are witnessing this thought. And this you, who is witnessing this thought, this emotion, this external world: this you is who? Who is the witness of all of this? This witness, this Awareness is what you are. Is what I Am, and it’s always present. And this witness has no trouble with any appearance coming and going. Isn’t it? Yes?

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It’s okay. It’s good. Satsang is a place where you can be free. You don’t have to be proper, you don’t have to be restricted. If something is coming, it’s ok. Is there something triggering it or is it just happening?