The Awe of Being in God’s Presence - 30th March 2026

Yeah. There's a part of you which is fully clear that God is here and he is with us. He's taking care of everything. Now that part is called faith. Now is there another part of you which says all that is all right but what about real life, you see, so-called real life, day-to-day practical real life? All of this is good, but what about this that I have to deal with today? What about money? What about relationship? What about body? All of these things. So that part is called mind, doubt, Maya, whatever you want to call it.

So our spiritual journey is moving from this Maya, this mind, this doubt to a life of faith, that he is a reality and he is here with us right now and everything is taken care of. Now you see the danger of it becoming just a mental spirituality. Because if it was just two compartments in the head, one saying he's not true, this outer life is the only real life, and the other saying that oh, God is reality because my teacher told me, these scriptures have told me, but it's only mental, it is not real faith. It is based on a conceptual conclusion instead of heart knowledge.

You see, if it is like that then this fight is very treacherous and it can seem very stormy. But if you're really going from head to heart, even that is treacherous and stormy because the back and forth can happen. But the more we are stabilizing in the heart, the more we are learning to rely on the heart, to take care of things on what does that mean, his presence to take care of things, on his name to take care of things, on his reality to take care of things. Then the storms start to mellow down and they may still spurt up from time to time, like warfare, but on an overall basis start to mellow down and our life seems a little simpler.

Now when we learn to live in this faith, we are really learning God's reality. The miraculousness of God's reality being ever-present with us. So that's why I said the theme for this year, although a quarter of the year is already gone, the theme for this year is to bring awe back to our spirituality, to bring wonder back to our spirituality, because we are neglecting and we have normalized the most important fact. Why should we all not be dancing right now? Give me one good reason. If God is really here right now, what should our posture be? You see, it doesn't have to always be an outdoor dance, but you know, inside should be dancing.

You see, so what happens when we make just words, when we allow the mind to just make just words and include God in a personal narrative, in fact as a sub-character, not even the main character? That's what happened. Yes, God is here, but what about me? But how is it possible to do that? You see, if it was Ram Ji, if it was Jesus, if it was Krishna, if it was Allah, if it was any of the sages, prophets, any of them who were actually with us right now, what would be our posture? You can allow the smile because that would be our posture. What is that worry when the Lord of a trillion universes is with us? What is that worry? Tell me one legitimate concern you can have. It's only based on the forgetting, isn't it?

That I'm in this by myself for myself. I have to do this. Even spirituality I have to do this for myself by myself. I need to decide big things. I need to make these choices which are so difficult. You see, I don't know, and I've been trying for so long. You see, then where is God in the narrative? At best God is, yes, he has actually helped me, and for all of us, I'm talking about myself first. So what happened? This is what my life has been, and actually I have to admit that God has helped me every time. Is that worthy of his presence? We settle for these things. No, the mind, because we're bullied by the mind. The mind allows us to settle for these peanut-type narratives about our lives.

You see, but the fact of the matter is that we can be in a constant Satsang with God throughout our lives. You see, this Satsang, any satsang, is just a sampler. It is a sampler product, you see, like you get in the supermarket. Somebody says try this out and then you may become a lifetime customer. So coming to an outer physical satsang like this is the sampler product of the promise of what our life can really be: lived in God's presence, love, light, taken care of, everything, the most beautiful things.

So when we lose our faith then we are bound to suffer. And the more we stay with our faith, the deeper it becomes, and through eyes which are not phenomenal physical in nature we see the richness of our inner life in his presence, in his light. That is staggering, actually. Okay, let me put it much simpler. When we are suffering, what is more important? What is in our heart or what is outside of that? You see, what is outside: the emotional realm, the physical realm of sensation, the mental realm of thoughts, memories, imagination, the intellectual realm of judgments, right and wrong, true knowledge, false knowledge, all of this. And then we haven't even got to what we think is the cause of suffering, which is the outside world. You see, but when we are living in faith, what is more important? Because he dwells there. He dwells there.

You see, that's why I'm ranting constantly against the pseudo-scientification of spirituality. There is, when we hear the words, the words are absolutely beautiful, actually, but our mind has made them into force fields. Consciousness sounds like a force field, awareness sounds like a force field. So it's like getting some electromagnetic therapy, going to the force field and healing ourselves in that way. Not that these therapies can't work for the body. I'm not saying that. But I'm saying that God is not that. You see, God is a living being. Imagine the most loving, merciful, honest, humble, intelligent being and much much more. He lives right there, as the Atma itself, much more than we can imagine.

So remember that if you start to meet your life at this level, which is that I am getting into Maya because I'm losing faith that God is right here right now, and there is no other problem but that, you see, then we don't get caught in the maze of life which has so many different confusions and combinations which can trap us. That the only thing to see is: am I relying on my spiritual core, my heart where he dwells, or am I relying on something outside that? And there is nobody. Even when I was an atheist, I just neglected this aspect of me. If I had turned to this aspect of me, I would not have been able to deny that God is here, that God is clear, because it's very very clear there.

We may not have had Atma darshan. We may not be able to say I have come to self-realization, freedom, moksha, nirvana, all of these things. But that is not needed for us to lead a life in God's light. When we learn to lead a life in God's light, then the world may put these kind of labels on us but we don't need them. You see, so if our life can become simplified in that way, God or me, God or Maya, and if you just dive into this, your mind will see you're being inauthentic. You're faking it. Where is he? Show me. Don't get bullied that way, because if God was to be met that way then you'll always be bullied by the mind. The mind is saying come and dance to my tunes. If he's real, show me. Then it's asking you to neglect your heart which is clearly telling you he's here.

You see, or I think: yes, yes, he's here, but that's not going to pay your bills. Really, he's here, but he's not going to pay your bills.

Yes.

Yeah, I know. I know. That's a usual trouble. He's here, but then, whatever we can replace that with, pay my bills with X, Y, Z, you see. So, what are we saying? He's here, but he doesn't love us.

Maybe he wants to give us a lesson.

Maybe he wants to give us a lesson. So, is that actually, can it be that I don't really need that lesson, but he's just a very very painful teacher? So he just wants to give us a lesson but I actually don't need it. I am happy without it. Can it be like that? Cannot be like that. You see, do you feel like his timing may be a bit off? That lesson should have come much later. Why is he giving it to me now? He obviously doesn't know what he's doing. His timing is very off. You see? Can't be. No, it can't be. Then he's not the most. Then what are we calling God? You see, so we can't say God and then put attributes of unloving, bad timing, bad curriculum. None of these things can be applied. You see.

And our idea is that our mind's idea is that he actually doesn't know what is happening in my life. You see, he actually doesn't know what's happening in my life. I'm telling you that the same place which tells you that he is here also tells you that that is an impossibility. Our life would not be our life. Our life would not be life unless he knew. You see, his knowing makes our life our life.

So when we are going through challenges, we definitely get into fear and doubt. Is it an invitation from him to extend our faith even?

Yes, it can be taken like that. Every moment that we are in the wrong place is an invitation from him to return. It could be that we are just taking Maya to be too real and this body to be everything, and we notice that bodily pride coming in, and that is an invitation to return to him. Anytime the self is ruling center stage, this is an invitation from him to return. So we must take it as that. We must take it as that.

Now whatever practices, whatever tools have been given in satsang, just like let's let's say that live the next till Wednesday till we meet again. Till Wednesday meet as if he is right here with you. And Maya comes and makes you forget just return to the remembering. Don't get into any mode of beating yourself up and all of that sort of thing. Just say okay now what was the homework for these two days? Just reminder that reminder that he's here with us.

Last satsang also you mentioned that next two days it is, what did I say? Said God or me. I guess it go me like if thought comes then you go back to your you go back to him go focusing on him. And I I tried and I failed miserably. And and yeah and I wanted to come and tell you that the first thing and but you answered all the question because.

Know that your one moment of trying changed the trajectory of your life. Every moment you try, you change the trajectory of your life. And a few of these moments, maybe hundreds of these moments, get us on the path to sainthood, get us on the path to being such lovers of God, being such close disciples of the Atma. You see, all it takes is a few hundred of these moments. So that trying is very important. Of course, we will try and fail.

Father, those moments felt so real like I could see that that that razor edge that, that I know that I have to go to victim, you know, I have to go to court. But I just little bit I'll just dive dip my feet there and then see what will happen and and I'm gone and then I and then pulled into the whirlpool. Yeah. And then I like okay no okay come back pray.

Yes. At some point, when we notice that I've gone to the wrong place, the sages have told us that that noticing itself is God's grace pulling you back. You see, so that noticing is very valuable when you notice. So it is like your finances: it's a write-off. Okay, all those moments when you fell into the whirlpool and you didn't notice you were in the wrong place are a write-off. So forget about them. They're done. No more good money chasing bad money. Okay? So, now that has been written off. Now, you noticed, which means the reminder came by God's grace. Because when we are caught up in all of that, it is very difficult to notice also. It seems so real. You see, like we put on a virtual reality headset and we got in the game: after one hour of playing that game it seems to be the only reality we are inhabiting. So that noticing is a holy call, you see.

And then whatever you're doing, if I remember correctly, you're taking God's name. So just Ram, Ram, Ram, Ram, Ram, Ram, Ram, Ram, don't leave it, you see, till you see the loosening up. The loosening up will happen and then you can return to the normal way of prayer. You can just use God's name to its maximum. And for those who are doing the inquiry, just say: who is this happening to? Who's at the middle of all of this? Who is living in this body? Is there anyone living in this body? You see, not any idea we have, but an actual insight that we can check and verify for ourselves.

And of course for everyone the problem is everyone has too much money, isn't it? One of the problems is that no matter who we are, there could be so many of us in satsang today, but very few may actually say I have too much money, if anyone at all. But one's idea of too much money may be another's idea of just about enough or not even enough. The ideas keep changing and it's a never-ending trap. You see, now there's one thing you cannot have too much of in your life. It is God. Cannot have too much love for God. Too much presence. Too much. Too much. I need to tone it down. You see, that is just mind tricks that there's too much God here right now.

So keep returning, keep trying and don't give up. Don't despair because the reality is his presence. The reality is his love. The reality is his light. You see, now be honest with yourself and you don't have to expose this in satsang. But does that seem like the bigger part in your life, the reality of his presence, or does that seem like the smaller part? And some of you may not be able to quantify also. You may say actually it's a very important part of my life. And that's good. So but that will grow more and more and more. That will grow more and more and more. And it continues to grow in my life also. Continues to grow every day in my life as well where I see the wonder of his presence, the awe of being in his presence more and more every day.

That is the beauty of this love. You see, this love doesn't become like a worldly love where you say, okay, now enough, I need some space. Worldly love: no matter how much we have, after some time you're like, okay, now can we just have like a day of space? Can we just have some time apart? This love is not like that. This love just keeps sweetening, keeps deepening, keeps becoming so sublime. There's no end to it. And you wouldn't wish there was. You would never wish there was. And because this love is so apparent and so beautiful and so given and taken fully, that's why I don't like using the sort of force-field type ideas. I'm not in love with the force field. I'm not in love with magnetism or electricity. You see, I'm in love with God himself. He knows me. He knows every moment of my life. I may forget but he doesn't forget. He's constantly here. So this deepening, this ever-sweetening process of our life cannot be exchanged for anything else. I can go to, I'll repeat the question. You can turn it. I'll repeat the question. Yes, don't you, you can ask normally. Okay.

For me it's not like a force field like magnetism but it's also not a personal, and I've been reflecting on why why I'm ending up in this this place in between. Let's call it that. It's a very warm loving maybe I'll use the word entity which we are all part of. But I'm not able to naturally see it as a personal being that cares about me. And I've gone through very hard times as you know in the last four five years and I'm okay with that. I I'm not like it's not something that is rattling me that why doesn't this being take care of me when I need it and all that somehow some sort of maybe peace is the wrong word but I'm okay with it but few times that I have tried, like no I, and I see it so beautifully in so many people in satsang, always see it. I try to bring that personification to like like how you describe it today. But then I get quickly derailed on that, for example when you were sick and it was really hard for all of us, not just your pain but also I was like, if father has to go through this, and if he's not being taken care of, and I'm not saying that in some rut devotey kind of way, I can lose the path that you have brought us on. I didn't lose faith because you you kept your faith. Hence, you know, most of us kept our faith. But when stuff like that happens, my my general takeaway without overthinking it has been, yeah, it's this beautiful entity. We are all part of it. It has created everything. It is doing everything. I am it. You are it. All of that is coming very viscerally, naturally. But at the same time what is happening in this realm, this so-called material realm, perhaps it doesn't really care, a rude word, but what I'm saying it's a non-issue for it. That's all my drama, my body, my this. Yeah, that's that kind of space.

Yes. So this happens often: if God is so loving, he's so kind, he's so compassionate, then why is there suffering? Why are there people in pain? Why do so-called bad things happen to good people?

Actually, I'm not bothered by that anymore. Like my reconciliation there has been: it's beyond my comprehension. I'm not going to break my head over it in that line of questioning, which I used to have as an atheist. That's why I became an atheist, because I couldn't answer those. But now I'm not going there. I can't figure it out. It's okay. I feel it. He's there, she's there, it is there. And I don't need to understand it.

That's very good. So that is one usual one. And the second is: why do we need to be so glorified about him? So why do we have to paint him in such a big light? I am that. You see, then Tukaram Ji actually said that if you are that, just create one universe and show me. You are that, just create one universe and show me. So he says that your knowledge is in your mind. It is not a fire in your bones. You see, and obviously he was using colloquial language, but it's very important.

So to reconcile this fact of the oneness, and yet the devotion to God, and in terms of what happens, why is there pain, why did all this happen to me, your answer may actually be higher than what I may have given, which is that it is actually impossible for us to fathom. It is, we are too limited to understand the ways of God, the mystery of God. But we can contemplate one thing: that even in spite of pain, were there always two modes available to me, which one was of suffering and the other one was of openness or emptiness or love? So my feeling is that instead of saying, if there is a God why does the world suffer, we can say, if there is a God why do I suffer first, or why do I continue to suffer, and then we see the mechanism at work, and we see how we create suffering. And the whole thing is really, I feel, and tomorrow my answer may be different, but today I'm feeling the whole thing is about the nature of love itself.

You see, the nature of love itself which does not force, which uses consent. So imagine the humility, and today I'm using this construct: imagine the humility of the being which is all there is. You see, who still says, okay, now like St. Thomas Keing, I don't know whether he's the same, this Thomas Keing said our prayer time, our contemplation time, is when we give our consent to belong to him. You see, so he who is the Lord of all the universes waits for our consent, for us to belong to him, for him to share his love with us, for us to share our love with him. You see, so the nature of love, as we are investigating more and more, we see that there is deep humility, there is deep faith, there is deep patience, there is deep waiting for consent in that holy process. And it couldn't have been designed any better.

I know it may not be a direct answer but it's worth contemplating these things at a global level, I feel. So just look at: if you say, okay, turn to God and you will not suffer, but why does God give that option only? He should just keep everybody turned towards him only. Why does he create this opportunity to suffer in this world? But then that would be a forced love, is it? It would not be a consensual thing. It would not be a humble thing.

And as I look back at my life and I see that whatever has been gone through, especially in the last few years, I see that I'm extremely grateful, extremely extremely grateful. Because I feel like I'm just starting to begin to love him, and just because of what he has got me to look at, what he has got me to contemplate, to meet in my heart. I'm just starting this journey in such a pristine way, and I'm so grateful, and I realized that he is the most kind and merciful. It's very strange. It may sound like a very strange thing to say, that somebody went through so much pain for whatever period of time, then his son was also in the hospital and there came a few days where we felt like he may not survive this. And yet looking back at it to be able to say that he is the most merciful, may sound like this is exactly the kind of spirituality I used to hate. Like, what are these people, can't they see what's happening in their life, and they're like I just love God. I've become one of those. No, so we have to be careful of who we hate because we become that.

Like my intellect cannot understand this, my mind cannot understand this. But my heart, my faith is so deeply clear on this fact. You see. So when the center of gravity in our life shifts to the heart so much, then we start making these absurd-sounding statements, absurd to the mind, absurd to the intellect.

Some time back I had felt that in in connection with this question about suffering and the goodness of God. No, I can. In in the the question of human suffering, is not something that is questions the goodness of God. And that is like two different spheres that are both true. Human life is full of suffering, pain, and there is the goodness of God which is I do believe in it, somehow I'm like I cannot put into words maybe. But I remember asking once a very divine person who was suffering a lot, why that they're suffering such a lot, and also so I felt that maybe not only why are they been chosen to suffer but why can't they stop it also. So, and that person said to me: if my life went perfect, always good health, always wealth, always no perfect family, everyone tiptop behaving themselves and all that, then you all would think this is the reason to be at God's feet. You all would think that now I can control Maya. But this is not the thing. So they're believing in the goodness of God. I don't know also no words but has to be sort of very gently seen as separate from this journey of the. And I think also in my quest for an answer sometimes I felt that the Hindu philosophy of karam kafal and the you know the last life helped because I mean who knows you know but let's say it's true, and it really does help to explain a lot of the things while we are on this path. And okay I mean I was very ill also whole of last year, and it helped me to see it as something that okay fine, it's it's it's getting, whatever, it's a journey.

So can we pause there because there are two very beautiful points you made. Uh, and I I love that answer that it sounds like a truly divine being like you said. So, so I'm very happy to hear that answer and it's it sort of reminded me of little James. Little Jean, who said that uh I have seen you heal so many uh to Jesus. He's saying I've seen you heal so many now even more. You have sent us and we have been healing and you have seen me walking with the stick and you've seen my leg doesn't work. Why haven't you healed me? Like what are you waiting for that you have allowed me to heal, you have healed so many but what are you waiting for in my case? And Jesus said and I may be paraphrasing that uh in your case to have faith without anything in your life having to change. To to have that uh deep faith and the ever deepening faith without having this problem go away. That is what you are ready for. You see that's such a beautiful answer also. It's very similar to what she said. So that if the outer body of those who were free or with God uh just was perfect all the time, family was perfect all the time, everything, money was perfect all the time, then it would seem like most of us would get into this not for the love of God or love of truth but for the love of getting that perfect. So that is a beautiful answer. I'm happy to rest in that.

What is the second part? Yes. Yes. So often many of you don't bring up the topic of karma with me because you've heard me say that I don't buy into karma. And let me just explain that a bit. I feel it's a wonderful explanation. You see, it's a wonderful explanation, and if it brings peace to our mind then maybe it is also a law. But for me, why I don't rely on karma as much as most other teachers do is that it takes away too much from God's moment-to-moment grace in our life. You see what I mean? That he is so involved in my life, you see, moment to moment, just like a loving mother. Then if I was to say it's because of karma, or good things happen because of my past good karma, or bad things happen because of my past bad karma, maybe, maybe, I'm not even saying it's a bad thing, but I'm saying: can we give more weight to the fact of his continuous moment-to-moment involvement gracefully in my life?

I cannot imagine any karma I would have done which brought me to this point of loving God this much. I see that as pure grace. I cannot imagine what I would have done to sit on a hot seat one day in satsang and to come to the darshan of my true nirvana nature as the Self, capital S. What karma could I have done to deserve that? I cannot. I feel like this entire life has been just a series of silly things coming from my side and grace coming from his side, and I would rather rest on that fact that he is taking care of me in every single thing. I don't need to worry about any laws which are controlling this world or any of that. I just feel like his love overrides every other force or law that may exist in this world.

So my nature of rebelling against the notion of karma is not that I'm denying the fact it could be a law. It's a beautiful explanation for sure, but I feel like it takes away from his moment-to-moment care and involvement in my life. You see, it almost sounds like there's a law put into motion like a computer algorithm and that algorithm just keeps running. He's uninvolved. If something rings an alarm bell too much, then he looks at the algorithm and says, okay, what's going wrong, let me change something there. That is not my experience. I don't see that, that is my experience. So, honestly, because I feel it is love, moment to moment, taking care of me, I'm not so concerned about whether there are other forces or laws which are coming into the picture. But otherwise it's beautiful. There's an explanation if it prevents us from suffering as much. Especially the why question goes away. You know, the why question is a big suffering question. Especially the why-me question. So if you say why me, oh, you must have done something. So it's just all going away. It's getting burnt up. It's fine. If that makes us feel better, all right, that's good. That's good.

Yes. You see what I'm trying to say? I know I may not have explained it in the best words. We'll come to. Yeah. Yeah. So for karma and last satsang you said very beautifully father, I don't know if you remember, but if something good's happening to you right now you take this as a credit for future work rather than the results from the past so that you can. Yeah. That's very. Thank you.

Yes, thank you. It was in the context of, what is, who was I answering?

One of our brothers was saying that I I'm here because of my good karma of past.

Some very sweetly somebody made a very sweet statement actually. So I hope it didn't sound like a job. So somebody said I don't know what I would have done to deserve God's mercy in my life, because he went through the emperor of all maladies. And thankfully his reports are all clear now. So he said that I must have done some really good things to deserve that, which is a very sweet thing, beautiful thing to say. But I felt like to just help him turn towards God. I felt to say that sometimes he gives the gift in advance, and now we must do that in our life which we think we would have done to deserve. You know what I mean?

Yes. So father, what you really said right now is we are giving credit to ourselves for whatever is happening with us, whether it's karma positiveness, rather than having faith that it's him or me. So thank you for that.

For me the karma question got settled. And I hear a lot of talk about it, especially when people are gloating about another person's suffering and say oh it's karma, you know what. When I looked at the lives of the prophets, not one of them escaped suffering and some suffered terribly, and God was speaking to them throughout, deeply connected with them. So if if they suffered then we really don't know. We don't, we can't begin to guess. Absolutely. Something similar. My question went away because of what she said. It's like, you know, Jesus. Exactly. Krishna got shot by an. Really. Yeah. It is said, sorry. Yeah. I will just go ahead. No, it said that he knew that his food was poisoned but he still just to keep his follower happy to take it as a prasad, just to. Sorry.

Okay, let's meet Kevin. Hello, my dear.

Hi. Hello. Yes, I can. This is this was very good. Yeah. Thank you so much. Thank you for the opportunity. So welcome. Thank you so much. I would like to clarify something which is bothering for a while. So when I want to answer the question that if this non-objective I am presence is unchanging or unborn or not, then I I come to a limit in my mind saying it felt like arising in the morning and also when fainting comes it seems to go this presence and because of this thought it's I cannot confirm like right now it's unchanging and so also because I reason like whatever it is that goes when fainting happens it cannot be set to be unchanging or unborn and that must still be with the with the body like some condition with the body but I hear Mooji say that I am is actually unborn and also like any reports like after leaving the body still fully conscious and so I would like if you can help to clarify.

Okay, thank you, thank you for this question, very good, very good. So first let's understand why a question like that is asked. Let me take an example. I have some friends who are just not interested in God, in satsang, in truth, in any of that. But when somebody in their life passes away, then they write on Facebook or Instagram or some platform saying rest in peace. So even those who have no interest in spirituality don't feel like death is the end of all things. So they also feel like something survives. So what is it? Where is it in the human condition, human situation, where we don't feel like death is the end of things? The body's death is the end of things, you see. So what I'm trying to get at is that the point of the question is not to be solved with our reason but to take us to a deeper place which is beyond reason.

You see, if you take the most popular question in spirituality, which is who am I, where do you feel like that can be solved? Not through reason, of course. So that means not through concepts, not through any sort of thinking, not through any reason. Okay. So the not is clear. Then where can it be solved?

Yeah. So yeah. So I just um I just don't know like uh if I should uh so like stay with the faith that uh that that just the fact that uh I am self-aware and that's not objective, is is that is uh, also remains remains in the deep sleep and stuff. Yes. Thank you. So what what do you mean when you say faith? Like like like the faith. Like because because the mind reason would be like it feels like I am conscious or I am presence, it feels like arising in the morning, so then it feels like maybe it's it's it's not the unchanging one. So I would take the faith from the guru saying no actually I am is unborn. Like.

So let's work on the definition of faith for a moment. So if you heard something in satsang, and because you have a lot of credibility assigned to the teacher and you take that to be a special belief construct, you see, then you would call that faith, but that's not what I'm calling faith. Faith is that which you know intuitively. Faith is that which the Atma has taught you, or the holy spirit has taught you, in the heart. You see, now to answer any spiritual question we need to go to the spirit itself. You see, so the revelation of who you are will happen through the revelation in the light of the spirit itself, in the light of the Atma itself. So Atma jnana, Atma darshan, is when we don't rely on our belief-system constructs, when we don't rely on our sensory perception, but we rely only on heart knowledge, which we may sometimes call intuitive insight. We rely only on that intuitive insight.

Now, without thinking too much about it, do you feel like the death of Kevin's body will be the end of you?

No.

Something just deeper than in our bones. Something very deep in us feels like this body's end will not be the end. So that place which you went to just spontaneously, what else is that place telling you? And I'm not looking for an immediate answer at all. You see, what is important is for you to visit that place and to stay there. That is the place of silence or stillness that all the sages have told us about.

What is this like, what really resonates like, what is the reality is like really beyond this, that okay now I am conscious and when I flip now then I'm unconscious. For that the reality is is beyond this um, be beyond this statement. That's what I feel. I feel like what may happen and I'm often wrong so don't take it to be the gospel truth but often what happens is that we remain for a few moments in the heart but because maybe you're under pressure or in a in a environment of public speaking we give it to the mind for interpretation saying this is what I actually found you see so don't give it to any filter just allow yourself to be there. And because I try to to override this kind of uh reasons that comes from the mind and comes based on sense perception is to say that actually this simple fact of like uh that I am um I I am self-aware is like uh actually like um like prime like prime uh primary and like uh divine deeper uh deeper dimension or something. And then I just kind of making this into my like like a mantra. So this this I I don't know like uh I I try to uh and it works.

Yeah. Yes, I can see how it may work. So if you remind yourself that you are self-aware, what happens? Can you take me through that? Because obviously you're not saying that I'm just saying I'm self-aware, I'm self-aware, I'm self-aware, each time saying it with a lot of conviction and just believing it much more deeply. I hope you're not saying that. I feel like there's a deeper thing you're saying. So what you're saying is that when you remind yourself that I am awareness or I am self-aware, then what happens?

Like because it's uh because this is just referring to like uh just the fact uh that I am self-aware and then rather than accepting the mind's uh immediate response that okay but it's it's limited or in some way rather than saying no it's it's actually unlimited. Or like primary because if it's primary then it cannot be bound by space or like anything.

So let me clarify. If your mind is saying it's limited, do you with your reason settle for the opposite, which is if the mind is saying it is limited therefore it must be unlimited? That's not the process you're saying, isn't it?

No, it's more like the trust. What I say is, I trust in what you say or what Mooji says, and then I go with that.

Yes, my dear. Okay. Okay. So if I say that this coconut water today is very sweet, you see, then is it so that you can trust the fact that because he's saying the coconut water is very sweet, I must just believe that and not question it? Or is it so that I'm trying to get you to taste the sweetness of the coconut water?

No, I don't understand this.

Yes. So if I say in satsang, for example, I say that all love actually comes from the presence of God, okay, now is my intention to tell you that, to give you a new piece of information which you can use, or is it to inspire you to check this where it can be checked for yourself?

It's to inspire.

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. So that process which all the teachers are trying to inspire cannot happen in the mind-intellect system. You see, it is an inspiration for you to feel safe leaving that alone, even if for some time it seems like I don't have any ground to stand on, but I'm not going to rely on my conceptual understanding even if I've heard it from my teacher for this. You see, so till I taste this fact that the source of all love is God's presence, I will stay in that looking.

So the point of the teaching being shared in satsang is that we allow the Atma, the spirit, to speak through the mouth, so that those who are listening can return to the spirit itself. And it is in the insight from the heart, which is what I'm calling the spirit, that the truth of who you are, the true I and the birth of the I am, will reveal itself to you in that holy place. Because I can try and give you an answer, but if that answer just becomes a concept, then it's actually blocking your spirituality, not deepening it.

You see, so know that the modes of knowledge of sensory perception, the modes of knowledge of conceptualization and intellectualization, those modes of knowledge are not the spiritual modes of knowledge. They at best are stores of pointers, but each pointer is meant to bring you to a place of a deeper insight which comes from your heart. You see, so that is the only use of the teacher's pointers to you. It is not meant to be used so that you can negate its opposite. It's meant to be used so that you can fall into the heart and see the truth for yourself.

So don't give it to any filter, just allow yourself to be there, even if complete nonsense comes out of your mouth, that's completely fine. Even if nothing comes, that's also completely fine. Even if I don't know comes, that's also completely fine. But don't give it to any cleanup process in the mind. You see, so let me ask you another thing.

You say that the I am wakes up in the morning. If I told you the morning wakes up in the I am, what is more true?

Then I would believe you. To believe you and and then stay stay with this belief.

But what I want you to do with what you hear in satsang is very sweet of you to say that you would believe me. It's very nice. But what I really want you to do is take it to that holy place of silence. You see where this truth reveals itself to you in a way which is ineffable, in a way which is inexpressable, as to how do I know this now? How do I know that it is the I am which wakes up? Within the I am waking up is the birth of the waking state. And in the birth of the waking state, all that we call this world, all that we call the morning, afternoon, evening, night, all of these states arise within this waking of the I am.

You see, but what will happen is because our conditioning, our lifetimes or maybe lifetimes of conditioning have got us to rush into answering conceptually. You see, we don't allow this to just brew in our heart, to just brew in our heart so beautifully. And what it'll reveal to you is the nature of consciousness. It's birth within awareness which is beyond time and space. Time and space are born within the sense I am. So but all of these things you can check only in a place which is beyond your reasoning, beyond your intellect, beyond your sensory perception.

Just to reassure: this fact that I am self-aware and it transcends the waking state, I can trust that.

You can trust that. You can trust that. You can trust what you're hearing in satsang, and you can also use that for it to become so clear in your heart that you don't need to refer to any outside authority to confirm that to you.

Yes. This is what I wanted to clarify. Thank you.

Very very good. Very good. You see, now don't take only the last part of what I said independent of everything else. Okay. Which means that if you take only the part that I should not use any outside authority to validate what I'm contemplating, then that will cause you trouble because you'll stop asking questions and such. That is not what I mean. No, no, I know. I know.

I am self-aware and then it's that it transcends the waking state. I can trust that.

You can trust that. You can trust that. You can trust what what you're hearing in satsang and you can also use that for it to become so clear in your heart that you don't need to refer to any outside authority to confirm that to you.

You see, now don't take the only the last part of what I said independent of everything else. Okay. Which means that if you take only the part which I should not use any outside authority to validate what I'm contemplating, then that will cause you trouble because you'll stop asking questions and such. That is not what I mean. No, no, I know. I know. Very good. Yes. Thank you. Thank you. Very welcome. Very good. Thank you. I enjoyed these questions. Very beautiful.

It's worth contemplating the simple thing. We feel like the I am wakes up in the morning. But really, it is the morning which wakes up in the I am. And I'm very happy if you debate me on that. But not conceptually. From your own inside. Thank you. Thank you.

Let's go to Georgie. Hello.

I don't know what to say really. I just wanted to talk to you. Just feel like I need you more this day.

You know what? Like 20 years ago, if somebody had told me, brother, know that God loves you, I would have said, shut up. That's not spirituality. Talk to me about the nature of awareness itself. Let's talk about real hardcore spirituality. Don't talk to me about this airy-fairy hocus-pocus spirituality. So I'm sounding so much like those ones who used to irritate me. But just the remembrance that he's here and he loves us, do you feel like it has to become secondary, at least if not forgotten, for us to really struggle and suffer?

Sorry, my mind is not very clear right now. So I don't know I don't know what you asked father. Can you ask again?

I'm just saying that does the fact that he's present and he he loves us so much have has to be made at least secondary if not fully forgotten for us to really suffer deeply. I only have a a sense of what you asked. Before you asked but I I.

You remember we had a conversation where um we went through the four things. Yes. Yes. What was it? He's here, all the time for me. He loves me. He would never want to make me suffer. And but he can't do anything because he's bound by his own law of karma. No, that I'm adding. Like he's here, he loves me. He doesn't want me to suffer any one iota more than necessary for me to grow. But really he can't do anything because it must be my bad karma. Now was that the fourth one?

So what was the fourth one? He can change everything like this if he wanted to. He can change like this if he wanted to. You see? So does knowing that it must be for my growth and for my deepening in love and light that he allows this to happen to me, does knowing that help?

Yeah, I do feel that it all helps to to grow some just sometimes, sometimes in the middle of it situation seems so impossible and, and sometimes staying, staying in that faith seems very hard. It doesn't seem hard. It it is hard. It is hard. It comes. Yes, it is hard. In the last uh few months, we've heard about certain medical conditions and when I hear the doctor's report, when I hear the uh report of the loved one, I don't always have as much faith as I should. I just feel like this time it seems like too much you see but somewhere because of whatever practice or whatever I just try to return fullheartedly to that faith and say he can do everything even at this point he can change everything around you see but that is very difficult to say in those points you see it's not the easiest because it seemed like a overwhelming opinion seems to be that things cannot be healed from this point on. So to have faith in the uh overwhelming opinion of the world and definitely of the mind that is a very difficult thing. It is a very difficult thing. But he has shown me over and over and over and over so many thousands of times that just to have faith in him can change everything. Just can change everything.

Okay, let me simplify. You were saying, just go, because I feel that I don't know anything right now. Also, it's looking to me like you've lost a lot of weight. Are you eating properly?

I don't know.

Okay, that is the first commandment. Please eat properly. Do not give up on your health. That's the first thing. Second is that if Jesus, Ram, Krishna really were sitting right there holding your hand, you see, would you be concerned?

Repeat the question.

Same thing. If Jesus, Ram, Krishna were sitting right there holding your hand, then would you be concerned that something could go wrong or anxious about life?

What keeps me suffering is maybe the desire for things to be different. It's that simple.

Are you saying that if Jesus was sitting holding your hand, you would say, no, make it go? Exactly, the way I want, not the way you want.

No, I wouldn't. And I'm still not. But I still see that there is a desire for that. The desire does come. It's not all the time, but it does come.

Yes. But what is greater? God is greater. The faith that he is here and I'm taking care of and he loves me and he has all the time for me and he has all the power to change everything. Is that greater? Or is the fear, the desire, the wanting things to go only this certain way? Is that greater?

God is greater. I don't know. In the middle of big struggle, spirituality seems to take a different form.

Yeah. So can you say, if it is true what these things are for you? Can you say, say if it is true what these things are for me? What? Yes. Thank you for getting. So I want you to just say God is here.

Huh? You want me to say God is here?

Yes. Yes. Yes. You know, like like you mean it.

God is here. He loves me.

You know what the attempt is? The attempt is to just get you out of the hypnosis of the mind which is painting so many narratives and pictures to the higher narrative, the higher truths.

Yeah. Yeah. It is. It's I think it's because I'm sorry to defend this, but because the situation is just so massively complicated.

Yeah. And please don't misunderstand. The attempt here is not to try and trivialize what you're going through, or to make it sound like it's very small, or it's meaningless and you're just struggling needlessly. That is not the attempt at all. The attempt only is that when times are the most difficult, all of us feel like I wish we had people around us who would remind us of the higher truth, the higher facts. So the attempt is only that when things are so difficult, can you be reminded of the greater truth?

Yeah, that's why I wanted to talk to you, father. But I do confess that sometimes I just want some validation for the day.

Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. And I hope that our conversation today was not sounding like I'm trivializing your pain. And I know it's not the truest thing to seek for validation.

I know, I want more than that.

Yeah. No, I can I can resonate with some of that also. It's like if I had a lot of uh pain in my chest and uh one of you was just like but God is here but you know he loves you like this and I'm like can you first just meet me at this place that there's a lot of pain in my chest. I can understand that. I I do find the grace of making it easier to see that I don't really know anything and I can't really solve anything.

Where where don't you know anything? Sorry, I can't help it. It's just habit what to do.

And the traditional way that I thought that I could solve things and I could find ways ways to make things better. I, that's not.

By God's grace. That's exactly. So that's the best news. Yeah. Yeah. As tough as it seems. So when we don't know anything where we thought we should know all the answers, then that leaves us only with one door, isn't it? The door of our heart. Are you sensing anything at all from that door?

Yeah.

Yeah. Now mostly what we sense at that door we can't put into words. You see, but it still does all the work that is needed. It's been feeling like a big back and forth these days like a big struggle to sometimes even to want to be at the door.

Yes, that is a big struggle. Just the wanting to be at the door, because it seems like the real test, the real game is somewhere else. It seemed like it is in body, it is in relationship, it is in money, it is in all of those things. It seemed like that. Now thankfully for us it is not true. You see, thankfully for us, in the human condition, although Maya makes it seem like that is the only playground we should be playing at, it is actually not true. But wanting to turn away, wanting to look toward the door to God, the heart temple, seems difficult at that time.

So what are we meant to do then? Just notice, thought by thought. Thought by thought let it go. Return to uh the heart as much as we can or use God's name. It doesn't want us to rely on God at this time. So when we are caught up in these difficult situations, then many times I don't know how it has been for you, but many times we forget to take God's name. We forget to do our practice.

I think I probably take God's name more in situations like this. But sometimes, like when I woke up in the morning today, I was completely taken by Maya. But I remember these days, for some time now, I remember to just say God's name nonstop. I don't know what it's doing in those moments. I don't know what it means. I don't even know who Jesus is or anything like that. But I just keep saying it.

It's very good. Very good. Very good. So what I want you to do is eat some food. Get some rest. Take God's name as much as you can, gently, gently, no forcing. Take care of yourself, and know that this too shall pass. But I'm being a complete Indian parent right now and I'm not liking this malnourished child that I see in front of me.

I'm not that different from you. You really... No, you're looking very. Should I show everyone?

No, please don't do that. Take care of yourself. It's true that it's hard to take care of oneself, but I don't know if I've lost that much.

We need that body around for a few more decades. That's a temple of God.

Oh, I just prayed that I just wanted to. Okay. I write it down later. I just wanted to make a prayer, but maybe I'll just write it down later.

Ah, you light it. Okay. Okay. Bless you. Bless you. Bless you. Okay, let's go to Bodhi.

Thank you, father. Very welcome my. Thank you. What was coming up is that I would like to ask you please if you could say a prayer for for the soul of the teenage girl I don't know how old she was who tragically died a few days ago and it's a it's a daughter of my friends from Czech Satsang community. And it came out of the blue and I feel that they've got a huge support of the Satsang but I met this little girl some years back. And there is some connection with her and I don't need to know anything about what happened. I just if we could all send her love and parents who are wonderful beings who serve the Satsang and Guruji in the purest possible form. Thank you.

Thank you. Bless you.

Thank you, Father. May I speak a few more things, please? This heart, since since it pulled me to speak to you, the heart is beating like crazy. It's so beautiful and I cherish this opportunity to step up and to your feet, father. And sorry, I have to just do something about this. I don't have. Hold on. Yeah. Yeah. You know, this departure of the of the soul, young soul, is uh came almost at the same moment with the other part of God's grace, that I had a friend who suffered from severe cancer and she was just fighting it with, she's totally. I was not with her but somehow it's not like obvious prayer for her but there was like this necessity like, either even if we are not in touch or we are not such a close friends as we used to be when we are young, it was like, this can't be ignored, I just have to, somehow something within me need, wants to be invisibly with her. And you know it looks like she got healed from the cancer, or she was just given some some extra extra time, for which I'm very grateful. And it came, you know, it's such a mystery, because there are these two sides: a young girl taken, and another one given a chance. So it's just, we don't know the second when we are called. So so I just put all my prayers for everybody to God's feet in our heart.

Yes. Very good. And one more thing, father.

It bothers me in the last maybe months, weeks, I don't know what, how this it was, pretty timeless time. But I want to know how to say this. Father, if you could please, like it's not initiate, I don't know how to say this, like open it up within me the this the trinity principle because it's father son holy spirit and we just say it in Christianity so commonly. But it's also the trident and I was always drawn to this trident because I just love Shiva, I just love him. And there is, if I may say this because I need to tell it, say it loud, in Christ Chapel, someone painted beautiful paintings which are alive for me, and only after years sitting there I just noticed there is, on two paintings there is half of the silhouette, nice, like half of it, and on the second painting there is like second half. And then I thought, because I'm reading the Bible but not all of it, just parts of it, gospels I'm drawn to. And then Jesus was saying like I leave you with the friend here when I'm gone. And I wonder, there's just this deep connection with this, whatever that it symbolizes, you know, and I just need to know but not know like no but like to realize it or just please help. Thank you.

Yes. Thank you. Over the past few weeks we've had a few satsangs where I've talked about this comforter, the friend, that the Lord said he is going to ask the Father to send. And so when we say father, son, and holy spirit, we're really talking about Nirguna Brahman, Saguna Brahman, and the Atma, the spirit in the Atma. Actually, in India it's pretty clear to everyone that they are the same. I in fact even asked a church father whether what we call the Atma, would he say that is the same as what they call the spirit, and he said yes, it is the same principle. So to come to this friend, to come to this comforter, to come to this guide, to come to this Satguru, the one who truly heals, the one who truly gives us rest, that is the whole point of satsang, because to come to the spirit is the beginning of spirituality.

So all that, using God's name, using the inquiry, using all spiritual processes, niti niti, are meant to bring us deep within our soul where the holy meeting with the spirit can happen. Even asking the question who am I brings us to that silent, still, holy place which is ripe for Atma darshan, for the meeting with the spirit. So if some of us can send you those satsangs where I've taken quite a fair amount of time to go step by step about how to meet the holy spirit in our hearts, what part of it seems to be something we can put some effort towards, and what part of it is purely left to grace. But to sit in that stillness where that holy meeting can happen is very very important, is very important for that darshan of the spirit to happen.

Thank you father. And may I ask? Yeah. When um sometimes there is this um I've got like I'm very careful with uh even mentioning this um sometimes there is this guidance that comes from within within and uh it's a clear clear guidance uh like I can't say that it's the guru's voice or um you know and I just don't I'm careful with uh with um I don't want to be dragged to some conclusions or or you know like uh it then needs to it has to be only the truth. Yeah. So what is it father? Yeah because I don't know if it's like is it the Satguru talking or is it this holy spirit talking or because I'm not I don't I just don't know these terms.

Yes. So what even some of the highest sages have done is that when they felt like they were hearing an inner calling, they validated that with the scripture, and then they were able to follow that. So when you hear some guidance from within, you're absolutely right to question it, because many times the mind can trick us into various things. It can try and sound beautiful. It can try and sound authoritative. It will try and replicate all of that, and sometimes it just mixes up. So it's very difficult to say fully mind, or fully heart, or fully Satguru presence. So it's best to then go to the Bible, like you said you read the gospel, go to the Bhagavad Gita, go to any scripture that we value, and just open a page with full faith and see if that kind of guidance is also being shared on the holy page of the scripture as well, and trust that is beautiful.

This is beautiful. Thank you because it was exactly that. Yeah. Thank you father bless you. Thank you very much. And I want to say that the last uh I don't know how many months it is four five months, the way of practice uh changed and I'm really deeply grateful for atma and sadi because it's just uh works on a loop uh within. I'm far from all those uh great beings who can who can practice like properly. I still feel like you know uh but but the name of god is a huge help and uh it's just I'm so grateful for that and uh and beautiful beautiful that the what what is inside that name? Yes. Is revealing like, there's a life presence I don't know life emptiness I don't know but I feel like this is Jesus uh living Jesus. Not it's not always like that because sometimes when the you know mind is active or so but but it's like mind became scared of the name Jesus you know or I love to say Ram as well or sometimes Allah it's all beautiful and Krishna you know. I got beautiful connection because he just appears sometimes you know. So so god bless you for this father like if we didn't get anything else from you just and somebody you know like god bless you and all the generation and everybody. Thank you so much. Thank you.

Thank you so much. So happy. Bless you. Bless you so much. Thank you. Okay. Let's go to Shivham.

Hello, father. Hello, my dear. Can you hear me? Yes. Well, yeah. I wanted to talk with you and I don't know exactly what to say. Yes. Yeah. I wanted to to check to check with you and um to see where uh because somehow maybe I feel um in this period uh sometimes I feel so far away from you from Guruji from uh from something is like um so much. So this is putting this faith in in a very in a very is doubting so much. You know it's uh even though it's so I don't know in the in you know so many gift has been given to I I I speak about in terms of revelations and moments where I saw and and I I could uh really understood what you what you're saying what Guruji is saying and or so I I I wanted to come up just because I I sometimes I feel so uh that yeah that I'm on the age of on the some somehow I'm I'm don't know I don't know how to say it but sometimes I feel so far away from you and from and but but I feel that it's fear I feel that it's um and so I wanted to come come and and and and talk to you and and um and and and stay here because I. Yes. Yes. Yes. I don't know. I don't know how to to put it in another another terms and and and.

Thank you for sharing that. So can we make a deal today? That for the whole month of April, whenever you are in satsang, you will come up and talk.

Yes. I won't be able to come every day because I'm working with a child. But I will try to do my best on Mondays and Fridays.

That's very good. That's very good. So that's the first thing. Now for today, tell me something which feels so true to you. It doesn't matter whether it's from the heart or from the mind, but something which for today seems very true to you.

I'm sorry, my dear, just this power cuts. No worries. Now, did I miss something? No, I've been waiting and see.

I don't know, father. I can't tell. Maybe it's true that I love you, for sure.

Love you too. And how true does the distance feel? I think the connection is still. We have, I don't know if any of you can hear me but we haven't still struggled with the internet. Is is it, am I audible? No. Yes. That's later. So yes, if you can connect on the phone. Okay. That's. Okay. Am I audible from here now? Yes. Ah, wonderful. Wonderful. Okay. So I was saying, between your love and between the distance, which one feels greater?

Right now the love.

So stay in that place where you feel that as the greater, as much as you can, because in that place is where everything, all truths, all beauty, all insight, everything is available there.

Does it seem like a battle to you right now between heart and head, or does it feel easy to stay in the heart?

No, it's not easy. It's not easy. Yeah, some feels a little bit like a battle and like nightmares, how we're. And what is my main practice at the moment? I've been trying to say the name as much as I can, and yeah, sometimes like the Atma darshan mantra. Yeah, but mostly the the name when I'm doing stuff and, but to be honest, I I I don't like, I'm not doing it that often like to stop and and sit and and say it. And I feel like very, like a very confused, I don't know like very, sometimes I do it, sometimes I don't, I not do it. So this is why I feel sometimes I feel so so far away too, because it's like I I can't fix a practice.

So can we try doing just 15 minutes, either one 15-minute slot or even three five-minute intervals in a day, where those 15 minutes are only for you and God? It is not doing any other work or anything else at that time. Just for 15 minutes, till we speak next time, try to see if every day you can give that much time. And even if it seems difficult to sit in one period of 15 minutes, just see if you can do it thrice for just five minutes each time. I feel that may help, because just hearing the symptoms, it's sounding like you just need some alone time with God. You just need some alone time.

Yeah, for sure.

All right, I'm going to mute from here. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Thank you, father. I'm back on this now. So if you can try this and give me a report next Friday or this Friday when when we come. Actually this Friday we have an amazing um singer, a very beautiful lover of God. She has given her whole life to God since she was 2 years old. She's been married to God in a way and she didn't have any relationships, nothing in her life. She only had God. Her name is U Gavri Mundday Ji. I'll send some bajons from her. I may have already sent but she's visiting us which is just a miracle. I don't even know how it happened that we just reached out to her and it was just God's grace how it happened. But from Thursday to Sunday she will be in Bangalore. Well, Thursday even Thursday night to Sunday morning. So really just Friday and Saturday. So but if we in satsang don't have a don't have time for question answers you can just write to me Shivham and let me know whatever you feel to write but this Friday we may have a beautiful satsang with her uh beautiful singing uh it'll be mostly in a dialect in a language here which most of us don't understand even I don't understand Marathi but I feel her love And I feel her devotion to God and I just felt to just sit at her feet listening to her beautiful singing to God and really looking forward to those two three days in this devotional way. So this Friday satsang may be a bit different uh but very beautiful and if you're worried about the language don't worry because even I don't understand the language really it's just that I feel like the way she loves God is very very beautiful for me. Okay so that's Friday but we meet on Wednesday for satsang God willing and we plan to go. Thursday. No, Thursday we pick her up. Street. Ah, yes. Wednesday we had planned to go on the street, but maybe not this week then because Friday we'll be singing anyway. So, so no uh street singing this Wednesday. We'll have regular programming as always and then we see what happen.

Okay, quickly, let's go to Radheshyam Ji and Nupur, my dear. Bless you. Very good. Okay, let's go to Nuram, father.

Father. I feel everything that you've been saying today was directly pointed and it has always been that way father but today I think especially with Georgie it was so potent and you said something which I'm paraphrasing about having faith and you felt that faith in the toughest and all situations. And father there is this immense faith on you, I don't know, I feel the faith is more on you than on on God, so. And only this faith in you and your pointings is helping me in this time, Father. So, I am my head is at your feet, Father. Like, I've never felt this way. So much love and devotion, Father. So, I'm so grateful for this. And I think this this this phase of life is teaching me that it's only God and it's only it's only his blessings and only surrender. So father it's only it's I think we are all so blessed to be in your in your grace. So thank you father for this because I would have I would have crashed father had it not been for you. So I'm just so grateful father for all your love and blessings and prayers father just just please keep blessing me that I can be of service to my mother and and not do it from a space of of daughter. I just want to be there as a presence father and that's that's what God's love is showing me that you know detach from the role and it's coming very profoundly and that's the only way I can be of service. If I'm so attached to the roles then I can only feel suffering and pain but the moment that thing goes then I can be of service and that's what she needs right now she doesn't need a daughter who's like moping and crying all the time so I want to just be of that and it's only Father, your words. I wake up with your words. I wake up with your conviction and your not conviction for for me. It is for you. It's your reality that God is here and be appreciative and and be. So, Father, that I wake up with, I sleep with, I listen to it. And that is the only thing, Father, that's helping me. Thank you so much.

Thank you. I'm so touched by your report. May God bless you in this situation. And of course, you've been in my prayers throughout, you and your mother. And by God's grace, he's taking care of everything. So I'm very very happy at this time. I'm so glad that this foolish man has been of some support and some help. Truly, it's only God's mercy, only God's love, God's light. But I accept that in these difficult times, if the words of this man are helping you deal with this difficult time, I accept that. I accept your love and devotion for your teacher in this way. But it makes my job to keep making sure I offer everything to God. I have to make sure that I don't hold anything as mine, and just keep remembering I'm just a mere servant of his love and light. But I bless you with all my heart, and I bless that this situation heals and becomes better, as it is doing from what I understand. So grateful to God for blessing us in this way.

Thank you, father. Miracles are unfolding, father, and finding help from unexpected quarters. It's all grace, father. And I want to say a big thank you to the team that's doing the recordings and posting on YouTube, because I can't attend videos live. So I'm so grateful, because these videos, and even those excerpts that are sent, that's like oxygen right now for me, father, and I'm not exaggerating. And father, please bless me that I can come and see you. I know distance doesn't matter but I want to just be with your presence and at your feet, father.

I have to admit that something came here as well, that now that you're in the country, maybe you'll be able to come even for a short time. It's a full full blessing for that.

Love you, father, love you so much, thank you so much. And thank you, thank you for the team. I never thank them, so thank you for reminding me. And to the Satsang, father, I can feel their support when they message me. This is not just some group. It's a field, father. It's an energy that I can feel. And it's just thanks to everybody, father. Thank you so much.

It's thanks to everybody. Thanks to God and thanks to the Satsang, because I don't know the mechanism of miracles. Okay, I don't know, if somebody said a miracle is needed, I can only turn towards God. I have no power. I have no lever. I have no instrument except to just like a little child go to God and pray to him. That's all.

And father this guidance of yours is really touching this one today that just go to go to the go to God and just be the child and put your head at your his feet. Father this is this is really helping mother. Thank you mother. Thank you for being that light. Thank you so much. Love you. Love you. Love you always. Bless you. Bless you. And see you soon.

See you soon, father.

Very good. Okay, let's go to Shakun. I don't see her on the video, so I'm not sure if she pressed it by mistake, but we'll give it a moment or two. Okay. Doesn't look like she has a question. Thank you. Good morning.