Stay On the Scent of God, Don't Leave It For Anything - 21st December 2022

This is the second astounding thing: that not only is there a being here and that being I call I am, secondly, there is a different way or a different tool or a different mechanism or a different source of knowledge itself. Because intuition, it is not the mental induced—no, 'I got to suddenly, I got an idea about something.' You see, all the good things you know only through intuition. So there is a being, there is a source of knowledge or a way to access knowledge which is intuition. And intuitively, I know things like love, truth, peace. I know my being and I know that I am aware of this being without relying on one idea, one notion from the mind. In the complete innocence of an infant child, I know all of this.

And again, what happens? The mind, who has been the dominant force in our life: 'Yes, what intuition? How can I really see? Can you prove? Can you prove that you are aware? Can you prove that there is a Self which is empty of qualities and attributes?' It wants everything to be pulled down to its level. So satsang is to learn to rely on this knowledge which we may call heart knowledge or intuitive knowledge, although Satguru presence, whatever you may want to call it. And by the way, where does this knowledge come from? What is that heart? Who is that Satguru? The same being itself. Same being itself. The same being that lives within you animates this bunch of flesh, but actually it animates this entire universe. And that will be your insight as well. So that same Creator, Sustainer, Destroyer, Rejuvenator, whatever you may want to call it, is the one that is available to you as a source of true knowledge which will tell you about that which is all that is worth knowing. What do you know in your heart and your head cannot fathom or grasp, that is all that is worth knowing.

What is this? What is this? What is this? Even a moment leaves the mind confused. One moment leaves the mind fully confused. What is this? What are you saying? This is such a—no, that's the label. But what is this? Oh, there is a master, there are disciples. Yeah, this perception, what is this? One moment we cannot interpret, and yet who here doesn't have a story about their life? So the body is a bunch of food; our stories are a bunch of what? Garbage to people like.

So I would say, okay, we have the ability to narrate a story about our lives, but how is it possible that one that cannot put one brick on top of the other to determine what this is can talk about the castles that they have built? Again, what's the problem? The problem is that the mind is fearful of that which it cannot understand. So it again reduces the story of our life, just like it reduced us to a collection of food; it reduces our life to a collection of thoughts. This happened and this happened and this happened and this happened, now I'm here. I'm here because of this. Basically, nobody you meet agrees with you on that. Those who grew up with you will say, 'What you talking about? It's very different.' Nobody agreed because everybody has a different bunch of concepts, different interpretations of what seemingly happened.

Secondly, we cannot even confirm that anything has ever happened. Maybe the dream just started. Maybe the dream just started and you ended up in this strange place. And yet, just like in a dream when someone says, 'Where are you coming from?' you can see in a dream also you don't say, 'No, no, this is a dream, I can't tell you.' From here I came like this, I was born here—the full story is there. This also the mind cannot understand, but it has a story as a defense. Who you are, the mind cannot defend, but it has the body as a defense. So the mind's version of things and my version of things is completely different. And because it is so completely different, it is impossible to come up and create a happy middle where every spiritual seeker wants to live. He's going to determine the happy middle. You feel like this could be like a nice fast-food restaurant and you would say, 'Okay, I'll have a bit of this, I'll have a bit of non-doership please, and then I'll have a bit of something, a bit of experience or version of Atma.' A little bit of non-doership, a little bit of Atma, and I can go around and have a happy life.

We want to include what is discovered in satsang in that which we consider to be a greater life, so that that greater life can improve and become better or happier. But that is just not possible. You have to decide whether you want to live under the ocean or build a house in the sky; both you cannot do. And which is which, you can decide. I am not making a value judgment about which is better. I was saying that it is not possible to live in the way of the head and live in the way of the heart. Irreconcilable definition. Popular terms: in the way of the head and the way of the heart, nothing is the same. You are not the same, life is not the same, what meaning is given to anything is not the same. Birth and death are not the same, up and down are not the same. And this is where your mind starts to struggle. Your mind will start to struggle here because some things you take to be a given.

You may say, 'I came here to destroy my ego,' but did you realize that you have to also destroy what you think up is and down is? What has to be, even what tomorrow is, what one hour ago is, and what the next moment is? No, nobody comes into satsang believing that they will have to give up on all of that. We just want to have a spiritual experience, some spiritual insight, some spiritual knowledge, and include that nicely into our life. Make a nice—like in the corporate world we have these pie charts—so you balance it all out: spiritual life, material life, physical life, emotional life, a nice balanced life. It's not going to happen, you see. So fake spirituality is all about promising this fake nonsense to the fake non-existent one. Fake spirituality has who at the center of it? You come, you come because you will get God, and by getting God you have the best life—peaceful, stress-free. It doesn't work out because the ego is a land grabber. The grabber. So it will grab: 'Oh, now I know this, now I know this, now I also know this. I've read this scripture, my master says this has happened, this happened.'

The mind grabs all of this and adds it to the fourth persona in the guise of progress. Who's progressing? I am. But not I am; I am that one which I take myself to be. If you had a pet dog and the pet dog came to you and said, 'I am going to find God so that I can use God,' or the plants in your house started saying, 'I'm looking for God so that once I find God I will be fully peaceful, I'll be the happiest plant ever,' you will see. What makes you special that you will use God? You're nothing but this bunch of food. This is also nothing; this is old food. You want to use God? You want to meet God so that you can become better? Things have really been spoken, spoken, and then the spiritual ego—and don't get me wrong, this is all experience here, okay? All experience here. Then we roam around with our thermometers: 'Yeah, this works for me, this doesn't work for me, this practice, this.' And all the time, that which spirituality is meant to accomplish—which means your dissolution—then spirituality becomes the opposite project. We found a new—the ego found a new movie. Maybe initially it was threatened, immediately felt threatened, then: 'I can work with this because I am God. They're telling me I am God. All this is for me.'

If you're looking at spirituality so that you can come to a perfect balanced life, looking for a perfect balanced life, at least in satsang you can get some restful sleep. So firstly, the very discovery of this presence which lives within you must not be treated as a—'Oh, in my house there was another room and that's a nice one, but I'm so grateful I found this room, I'll visit it when I'm traveling.' Although it does help with that, but shouldn't in this discovery, shouldn't it shake your ego to the core and say, 'What is going on here?' Or is it okay to spend this entire life and die and at the last only say, 'Yeah, possibly God was here, but I can't really see because I went around in my merry way taking myself to be a little old me'? Or even to say, 'It was nice, I came to the discovery of God within me and anytime I was troubled I would just go there, so nice.' There is a presence, and that presence, all sages have told us, it belongs to God.

But shouldn't in this discovery, shouldn't it shake your ego to the core and say, 'What is going on here?' Or is it okay to spend this entire life and die and at the last only say, 'Yeah, possibly God was here, but I can't really see because I went around in my merry way taking myself to be a little old me'? Or even to say, 'It was nice, I came to the discovery of God within me and anytime I was troubled I would just go there. So nice, there is a presence.' And that presence, sages have told us, it belongs to God. That God which you—the aspect of God which you are connected to—if that showed up outside in your house, would you say to that, 'Oh, I've got to write an email to my boss, I'll be with you in five minutes. Don't go anywhere, please wait'? Like that? And God decided to give you a more intimate darshan and we are just in avoidance of it.

If God could get frustrated, God would be like, 'What do I have to do here?' He said, 'Show me God.' Here I am. You are saying, 'Let me just finish my other stuff because my mind tells me and my family tells me I have to do things in balance, in the limit. Don't go too far.' You know, I imagine if God had feelings like a human in human relationships, what's supposed to happen? Imagine writing to this boy for years, 'Please come, please come,' or girl, 'Please come.' You know? So she comes from a different realm, not an objective world, not like this universe at all. She makes the journey between that realm and here. She is available. 'Meet my beloved.' The beloved will be so, so overjoyed. But the beloved comes in your heart and you're just like, 'Okay, wait a bit. I have got stuff to do. The Eternal can wait. I have to talk with my boss.' And then you may even say, 'Okay, now that I have met you, how is my life better?'

Although I'm exaggerating in a way to make the point, our human condition as spiritual seekers is just like this. God lives in our heart and what are we up to? So either we must not be—we must be going with our mind which is doubting, or we must not have found it, you know? But to meet God and then make it priority number thirty-five, it's something. This is what is the problem. The problem is in the meeting of God, you realize that you're running away from that. You cannot live on what you thought were your own terms anymore. So far, spirituality has been on your terms. 'I am going to rebel against the world. I am going to do the opposite of what my parents are saying. Now I'm going to—I'm going to do all of this.' So your mind was getting to its version of freedom.

Now, as you're meeting God's presence, you're finding that it is impossible to hold on to individual will and stay in the true version of the Lord. And that is scary for you because you did not count on having to let go of your will. You wanted to have an amplified will, a greater freedom. And therefore we came into spirituality trying to use surrender, but really not getting to the root of what surrender actually means. What are we surrendering? What are we surrendering? If you don't surrender your will, then you've not surrendered at all. Then it is just lip-service spirituality. If you continue to do everything on your mind's terms—which is not your terms, you believe it is 'my' terms, but it is under the mind's terms—then that is not true spirituality. And it is scary. Don't run away from that fear. Allow that to burn you up. Make the fact that you don't know—sorry—in surrendering to the light of the holy presence that is here, what may unfold in the next moment? Your false idea of control will get extinguished in this. But for the false to get extinguished is auspicious. Any way of believing a lie, and now the lie is being burned.

So if you believe that coming to satsang you will get a broader freedom for your mind to do whatever it wants, you may be in for a surprise. Because in the spiritual marketing, especially in today's world, they say, 'In a second you get peace, you'll be happy.' But it will also be, for many of us, the most difficult and the most painful thing we've ever done. Because it is for these belief systems that we are even able to or willing to give up this body and the bodies of others. If in the human condition a human believes something strongly enough, then they are willing to end their life and the life of others for these beliefs. And you come into satsang and you're being introduced to something deeper than belief, which is faith. But to live in faith is to live empty of belief. And in that way, it can seem like the most difficult thing. You just came for better beliefs. 'Give me the perfect belief system which is spiritual and I'll go happy.' No belief is allowed. All has to go.

For the mind, it is scary because in the mind's version of living in service to God's will, living in a true surrender now as it is unfolding seems like a powerless, control-less, controlled like a puppet life. And yet the clues about this have been everywhere. It is well established in all cultures, all religions, that those who let go of individual will come to God. Those who come to devotion come to God. Those who surrender come to God. Where is it now? Everywhere. To meet Ram, you have to become a Hanuman. To become a Sikh, you have to follow the Hukam of God. To be a Muslim is to follow the will of God; Islam means to surrender. Christianity is 'Thy will be done, Thy kingdom come.' And my kingdom cannot come without 'Thy will be done.' If you want to live in God's kingdom but 'my will be done,' it's not possible.

So every—you see it—every religion, every Master, everyone has told us this. But you want the benefits of living a peaceful, happy life, living in heaven, but under the control of the ego, which is the—it's a little another lord of heaven. If you're going to give it strong without 'Thy will be done,' without 'Thy kingdom come,' it's not possible. And then what is the output? 'Don't take my will away, but just make it better now. Okay, I'm willing to learn. How should I change?' Let go. 'No, no, I agree with you. Is there anyone else up there?' Let go. 'Can't do it.' What is being asked to let go now? This is your way.

So what we don't realize is that we want to live with God, but we don't realize this: we want to live with God, but we want to be the dominant one even there. You want a God-assisted life, not a God-dictated one. If I told all of you that from this moment on your life should only follow what God is dictating, only what God is dictating, that may seem scary. But meet that fear instead of pushing it under the carpet. What are we attached to? What are we so scared that God will take from us? And if we know better what we should have or not, what is the surrender thing we are talking about?

So that very presence is the only way that we can determine what is good or bad or right and wrong. We have no other way of doing it. We've tried building ethical principles, moral codes—nobody ever follows them. They all disintegrate as soon as they are created. And yet in our hearts we know. We always know. So initially it will seem like there are two aspects to following God's will. The first aspect is to allow the light to unfold naturally, this being in God's presence. So all your fears about self-image and how you have to present yourself and what you have to say and how you have to behave and all that may go out the door in this itself. And this itself may be too scary for most.

But there may come a time where this body, which is truly in service to God's will, may start getting used as an instrument of God's way. You know, a more authoritative being in the sense that that who is truly living in a surrender may then be used as an instrument to guide others in this surrender, in this path. And that, although it may seem like a very glamorous concept to many of us, and we may feel like that is the mind's version of the culmination of what is going on in satsang, anytime you may realize that it's not exactly what we thought it was. It demands—if we are going to be true to it, then it demands the greatest surrender of handing over this life more than we ever imagined. If we're going to be false with it, it is going to be a worse existence than hell itself. And that I would not wish upon my worst enemies.

Because to live a life where you have to come and pose in front of those that you call your children for hours on end, you see, to pose and return to selfishness, that's not a way to live. No amount of people falling at your feet makes that worthwhile. No amount of money that you may have made from exploiting people around you in exactly that kind of duality, that kind of duplication persona of the ego, is more than enough to trouble life. And we've created a spiritual persona and then—so return to that. So that demands a surrender which is beyond anything that we originally fathomed. It's amazing. And there's like everything in this world, what things seem to be are not really what they are. Because there is no instrument or teacher or Master in this world who can be at peace and happy unless there is a total surrender to God's will. It's just not possible. It demands of you a complete squeezing of your personal desires.

It's very important to meet this upfront because never come into a position where you feel that the guidance that you're receiving in your heart is only to be shared with others around you. You have to then be completely bowed down on your knees for the rest of your life if that is the life that seems attractive. You can only be in service. This prayer came to me a few days ago: 'Father, may I never forget that I can only serve on my knees.' Can only serve with your head bowed down and on your knees. Although understanding your persona may be authoritative, it's fine. But in your heart, you have to be humble. Because if you carry a little bit of ego, that will magnify, because that is what God will demand of their instruments, of God's instruments.

I met a friend who consults with my wife's company and he was saying—so using—he could go because he knows the answer since he was joking—and using, not today, a few days back, he said, 'Go Google. You have your satsang to go to. And if all things fail in business, at least you have that. You can, you know, make a good living out of that.' Then Garima told him completely about what this is. So he said, 'No, you're wasting the best opportunity. You're wasting the best opportunity. You've been doing this eleven, twelve years and you haven't made money.' This is what it looks like from the outside. Is it because you see these images of people who are then so comfortable, well-off, maybe even wealthy? Some are known to be wealthier than the smallest nations in the world, you see? So it can seem very glamorous. What else do you want? You have people falling at your feet, they put malas on you, they do all of that. You can see them so attractive to the world. All the attention you want, all the love you want from so many people is there for you.

If you step into this with even a speck of dust in your eyes, that dust seems to get magnified and amplified. So we must learn to first follow the guidance which is—if the guidance is there, then the guidance must be followed. Let no one believe that they are like the Lord, like Krishna, and say, 'Do as I say and not do as I do.' Things are possible for God to say. It is said that Krishna said, 'Do as I say, don't do as I do.' Those things are only possible for God to say. An instrument of God, a servant of God, which is what a teacher is, should never preach or say anything that they themselves cannot follow. The life of the teacher demands a great authenticity of ours.

Okay, why I'm saying all of this is because if you are going to learn to live in the light, then you will not be able to predict or say that, 'Ah, okay, I want to become a teacher.' It'll just unfold organically. As you're living in the light, you will see that there are some who start to get attracted to you and see it. You may be sitting in a group, but people may just want to sit and listen to you somehow. You don't know how that happened. So it just flows like that. And initially to the mind it may seem attractive, but keep that which is providing the words in your mouth, one must then be fully surrendered. Having said all this, I want to also say that I can—

Why I want to become a teacher—it'll just unfold organically. As you're living in the light, you will see that there are some who start to get attracted to you and see it. You may be sitting in a group, but people may just want to sit and listen to you somehow. You don't know how that happened, so it just flows like that. And initially, to the mind, it may seem attractive, but keep that which is providing the words in your mouth. Once then, be fully surrendered. Having said all this, I want to also say that I cannot imagine a greater use of this life than to be used in service to spreading God's light. I cannot imagine a greater use of this life. Everything around us, everyone around us, seems oblivious to the presence of God. And if you like, there is only one way to live in this world, which is the way of the hell full of desire and aversion. And with that, because basically we are living hell, as you have found refuge from the hell of your head, it's only natural for you to spread this in your love because you will not be left. So again, as with anything else, you have no choice, not actually, because you love in your heart. And if there is love in your heart, how will you see your brothers and sisters and children go through a living hell when it is possible to live in the view of the heart? If it is possible to live in God's light, it is natural for you to share it with those who are living under the ego's operation, in the ego shadow.

It's very naturalism confused you completely, even you have to make do with that. Let's see if I can make it simple. If you graduate in fake spirituality, then you will become a fake spiritual teacher. And graduating spirituality in that—if you graduated in the spirituality where the 'me' was central and not God was central, then you will continue to teach that, to share that. You will continue to be at the center and you will have to pose as if God is, you know, the pose as if God is, but actually you want yourself to be at the center of all of you. That will be your most oppressive, troublesome way to live. So I would not suggest that to any of you. But if you surrender fully in your heart, then this body will be used as an instrument to share God's light. It is not inevitable, but almost inevitably, because in Consciousness all things are possible, but usually you will find that that is how it unfolds.

In fact, even if you don't want people to please you, then there's a sage—someone sent me that video—so she didn't want anyone to choose her. She is living the life of a beggar, she's called, and she's got a very absurd name. She's called Topiyama because she wears a cap. And then she was just like an Avadhuta walking from here to there. Nothing she does makes sense; it's just all over the place. But people obviously must be feeling something in her presence, but we find, we find an attraction to being in her presence. So this one who doesn't bathe for days, who spits all over her mouth and, you know, threw chai on her clothes and all the things—people like this, you know? Because when there is a calling in our heart, if you were to find that which fulfills our longing in our heart in the most difficult of the world's circumstances, even that we feel like nothing for us. And there's a calling in our heart for the truth, and if you find our Master, but in the way of the Master it seems like the most terrible, oppressive way to live and the mind may want to run with all of its might, you finally in that you have to fulfill that longing no matter what.

And this aspect of it also cannot be undervalued. With this very presence, your heart's presence, there's a Guru presence within you which the singing Master on the outside can seem to bring to your focus. And that is though possibly the only job of the Master outside is to bring your inner light into focus because it is in this inner light that we find true rest, we find true peace. We get tired of the world, get tired, and then we feel that all of us have said at one point, 'We are so tired, please leave me alone, leave me alone, give me some space.' Many of us have wanted to move to mountains and spiritual places to be alone, but what are we trying to escape? Many unfortunately continue to carry that with them. So you may move to the holiest place, but if you carry the lawyer for the living hell with you, it doesn't help. So rest and rejuvenation is completely possible where you are if you drop the advocate of the false. That is what we are yearning for when we want to rest and rejuvenate and be alone.

So in this presence, you have said so much about this presence, we have said so much, and yet most of us, most of humanity, seems to live in a way as if it doesn't exist. It is the creator of this world. It is our only true guide in this world. It is our only rest and rejuvenation in this world. It is where all judgments about good and bad can come from. It is where our true self can be recognized, that which is beyond even being and not being. All that is love only emerges from there. All the life energy emerges from there. All insight only comes from there. What is life without this? If you had the body but you had no being, would that be living or death? If you found a way that the body could still animate itself but you were not being, just like a character in a computer game, just like a Fortnite character with a headset on, would you call that life? How are we living and in denial of life itself? Life is here, but we follow the way of that one that never lived.

I am going to fight every moment of my life for you to lead a true life. I know that the main principle behind which the ego works is to reverse everything, make it all upside down, so that death may seem like life to you and life may seem like death. Obedience to God may seem like oppression to you and freedom of your mind may seem like life. To follow God's will may seem like a constriction to you, but to be selfish may seem like freedom. But as long as you are willing to hear what this one has to say, I will fight with every waking breath, with everything at my disposal, for you to switch sides from head to heart. Many of you will come to this kicking and screaming; I'm well aware of that. It is very much a part of this human condition that the ego doesn't leave us, usually doesn't leave us easily. You will have tantrums, you will want to be like you want to know, you will want to judge, you will want to attack me, you will want to say all kinds of things. But as long as I remember that although you call me Father, I am actually meant just to be here as your servant, to serve that which is truthful within you.

It's all the most ironic that that who wants to serve that which is truthful within you is called the Master in this life. I am only a servant to that holiness within your heart, to the God, that God's light within your heart. This instrument is only meant to serve that. It's like an alarm clock has only one job. After a night of partying and drinks, in the morning what happened? Nobody loves the alarm clock first thing in the morning. So the external form of the Master is just a glorified alarm clock. He says, 'Wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up.' 'Fifteen more minutes.' 'No, now, because that fifteen minutes will never happen. Wake up now.' Of course, most of you are able to put me on snooze mode. None of us can ever say, which is their loss of some. And I stopped going to Art of Living; I never decided this will be my last attempt. I was going there once a week or twice a week, but something just started resisting. So we can never really say, we never really put it off for tomorrow. So I have to wake you up today. Whether it happens or not, I don't know, but I only have to wake you up today because today at least your head isn't drained. When will you put it up next on the deleting of Satan? We don't know, we can't really say. Today at least it's a dream.

And although really what is the chopping? What is the job? The chopping is only through showing you the greater. It's through showing you the greater. But if you insist that you want to take your imaginary friend along, then sometimes, 'Stop it, stop it.' And that can seem like a chopping. That's the extent of the job. What is the imaginary friend? That which you take yourself to be. The falseness about you cannot be carried by you to your heart. It's not possible. And anyway, all of you have said, 'Burn, burn, burn me, Father. Everything that is false, please burn.' But a little bit burning, that's not true. Because if you feel like burning, there is no poetic and sweet, sweet. It's not like that. It seems obvious, it seems okay. What do you feel like? Just like we've been able to convey words of true surrender while holding on to parikho and somewhere, in the same way we feel like we'll be able to go through the burning without really burning in something that you cannot fool your own heart. You cannot fool life, which is just a projection of that Godly presence in your heart. It will always create the most conducive environment for your heart's longing and create the most conducive environment for that to really come true.

Yeah, if you make a true prayer in your heart that you want to surrender and you want to burn all that is which is false, even if there is an aspect of you which is still attached to that which is always, life will create the circumstances and environments in which that surrender can be made. And at that moment your mind may complain and resist and say, 'But this is not what I wanted.' It is what you wanted. As he says, it was an answered prayer. Meeting God, finding the presence of God—all that we've spoken today, the awe of meeting God itself through this presence in the light of this presence is beyond comprehension. But no amount of computation and understanding and reading—and not that any of those things are bad—but just by that, without God's presence, true insight is just not possible, just not possible. True anything is just not possible.

So as it is properly said, true love is also not possible because you may read the hundreds and hundreds and thousands of books, but if you don't learn two and a half alphabets of love, nothing real. I'm accepting, but to me, the love which is without expectation is usually only possible in the Guru-disciple way. Most other relationships are plagued with expectation and desire, projections of right and wrong. Most relationships in the world are just not between two people, but two sets of projections. When you meet your Master, you experience a love which your mind will try to box in some way. This is what it is. In the same play of rejection, it may even start, but you realize quickly enough that there is no dance of projections possible, not possible. And that is the value of this love. And it's also very rare to be able to receive such a love, not just to find, but also to find and then to receive. Because initially, of course, because we associate it with the human condition, we'll keep checking, 'What does he really want?' I just want you to wake up. 'No, no, but what, how can I help you?' You really can't. Please wake up. We're not used to that. I'm not used to that. 'But there must be something I can do.' No, there isn't. Just wake up. Your skeptical mind with you and the bonding of the small things—what you think you can give, I don't want. But I want everything that you take yourself to be because all of that is basically garbage. And just like any parent would say, 'I would rather have it.' So it's a strange sort of circumstance where you're not used to giving this sort of love where you don't know how to demand, what to demand, what to say, but used to receiving such a love. Okay, he doesn't want anything I have to offer, and yet he loves me. Or he loves me, whoever the Master may be, or God, the aspect of God you're devoted to.

God's love in my heart—you have no option but to try and display it, to spread this infection far and wide. That's all that is really happening. Remember that. Tell me something. So we got... I once told you about this. Yeah, that one. Yeah, yeah, she's always... I was so scared of...

No demand what to say, but used to receiving such a love. Okay, he doesn't want anything I have to offer and yet he loves me. Or he loves me, whoever the master may be, or God, or the aspect of God you're devoted to. When you feel God's love in my heart, you have no option but to try and display it, to spread this infection far and wide. That's all that is really happening. Remember that.

Tell me something. So we got... I once told you about this. Yeah, that one. Yeah, yeah. She's always... yeah, I was so scared over you know so... but when she looked at me I realized that she wasn't mad at all. I mean, you know that you said you're saying no, but your... I think when 2020 eventually that nothing and then we go over there and she was also there and I showed you... I guess today's... themselves but enough. I didn't have to write anything, I just started which I got a like just seeing what the verses were saying. So I just changed that and I posted it.

Sometimes this can seem like, 'Oh, this is not about awareness consciously, this is about something like what...' Don't worry. Even if you meet them, you see that how much you only block by worrying away. Okay, so the one is clearly said. In fact, we were talking about these videos where in today's world—and I don't know if earlier also, but it's become like a world primary sort of mode of living—work is... and go to worship has been taken so strongly that work is like we say 'work is worship' but worship is not worship anymore. Like, only work is worship. And most of you will have this because if this child passes to her parents that, 'Oh...' and she's like, 'I'm not a small child,' but he lives most for most of us. How long was... so this is the condition. What did you say to your parents? 'Oh no, I was working for the last five hours non-stop.' I hope it gets some reality properly.

If the outcomes of our actions are only determined by God's will, then how is it that we take action to evolve a little bit? You can take action to be guarded. The fruits and the outcomes of those actions are only in God's willing. And what happens in the movements of my mouth and my hands and my feet and whatever is only up to God's will. In the power is only with God, and therefore action by itself is only enough; it doesn't have any life without God's letter. It's just enough. Then we are free from worry about outcomes and fruits and things like that. And only free from worry in this way, in a surrendered way, is the doorway to freedom open, or freedom possible.

Then from Matthew, Jesus had said, basically paraphrasing: Why do you worry so much? You have to worry so much about tomorrow and that there will be food to eat and clothes to wear. These birds don't do agriculture, they don't sow and they don't drink, and yet they are flying freely. And aren't you supposed to be much better off than birds? So God takes care of even birds. And why not? Same thing. Surrender all doing, actions and inactions, to me. Rest in me. And you see from here, very surrendered.

Please, then discount them if they're showing up through in some way. Let's see if you can follow because if it is covered grounding, very good anyway. So you can still look at it, but it may show up something where you might find that you still have some attachment to some idea that it has to be this way, in my life has to go this way, this is what I need to do, I don't need to do it, all of this thing. But one thing is important that maybe you should write that in the competitions also is that I am speaking about you inwardly. Thinking about your emerging is going to be a unique expression of how God will play this out, but inwardly we are one. Inwardly it is the same job. Conceptual emptiness. What you find within you is the one being that animates this whole dream with seeing all of us seeming to be here. It is not that you go within you and you find a different God in that. It's also beautiful, of course. 'Within' is the term I'm using very loosely. What is within what is also upside down in the mind is philosophy.

So now what could be left? It is not resolved by God's presence. There could be a silly idea: 'I haven't really seen it' or 'I have to stabilize my five years.' Our presence is not really—although poetically we may say sometimes—but not really less or more. It is just what it is. It is your attention, it is your focus with your business, it is your intellect which we seem to guide you in another way. And God is the light of this universe. Is there an aspect of what I'm saying it still sounds like science fiction, you know, fantastic this mythology? So then you ask, every human doubt can just hide behind that. It's where guys to... I say, and I first heard, 'Okay, nice poetry, he's talking about me.' So everything I've said is that something has been about you, if you think you've been about me. So don't allow your mind to create some barrier, say, 'You know, I have to progress more.' I have said that which is alive and true about who today has is you. You don't have to believe it if you grab something degree which you cannot do, yeah. And that is helpful because wonder sort of mixes open and then I say the wonder we are open, come back.

Lord and you, God and me. What is the means, what are the tools that you are at disposal to general? How will you do it? Yes, how do you feel your daddy? You can't. That's what I'm saying, it's impossible. But maybe what are you feeling like? There's an oscillation. It's partly sometimes...

I think it's much easier to forget it's because it's cold. And this is in a way because all of this stuff can just sound either too fantastic, poetic, even mystical, all of that. All these words are available for us to guard against this most obvious reality. If you come to satsang, so then are you making a new visa? This is a good time to check that because once you leave your mind, you're making it up. You haven't really found her. Are you making any of this up? Is the time to confirm and maybe leave a note for yourself in your pocket. Refer to note in pocket then you doubt: Is God here or no? Is what I'm asking it up difficult?

At least am I able to do it the other way? Actually very troubled, Father. I'm very angry with your face the other way around. This big family, what's happening? So happy. So I said, tell your face, making fun. One tip I have for all of you is that just like how we started, remember that your mind's conclusion or narrative about what is happening in satsang today or any day has nothing to do with your anxiety. So many times I see this after the satsang. I get a report, but I see you in satsang also and the report is completely different. So I noticed that the mind can just get you and say, and you're truly fully off track as your mind is proposing. Then I would spot that in satsang and get your attention in some way. So don't buy into the notions of the conclusions that the mind sells to you, especially after the time, because that is the time where you'll try to grab your university.

So now it's my children, when you come back from work, your work is done. Now your mind like this challenge is to say, after those days used to small company, small programs, just come back to normal. I wasn't funny because I wanted to convince myself to be contemplation. It is... they're not opposed to each other in some way. If you're going to temple you feel nice, you feel the presence of God, it's very beautiful, nothing wrong with it. And when you see a contemplation, what happens? All of them or just some of them? Oh my God, yeah. Today is quite very straightforward. I didn't say anything. It was good to notice this. So like sometimes when I feel like, 'Oh, but God's will,' and then it will come in a way and I will burn my ego. But it could just be this: the master is saying do the contemplation every day into maybe since that itself could be just be enough to one day google. You don't have to expect big things to happen.

And we noticed that how easily the mind makes a fog around that and the movie doesn't mean it really. I do. He's like, 'No, I'm not doing this.' And I'm noticing again everything I'm saying is from my own experience. But none of you must feel guilty at all or something. I'm just asking you to notice that what is being asked of you is not something that you are doing for someone else. You're in just for you to lead a life with you yourself are yearning for you. But then what can happen is that, you know, this one I don't know my practice of inquiry, but I'm not saying leave any of them. It didn't build a contemplation for ten minutes, slow read and just try to meet him now. So it's good to notice this, yeah. It's good, that's also good. But don't allow your mind to make it in opposition to each other because both those things are on the same side. This is one of the tricks of the mind which was it and now this is not want to go to it. There's no correlation like that. You can do both.

What is the true way of knowing anything? Remember that whole 10, 15 days we were just like: How do you know? How do you know? It is you break that linkage beyond of knowing through our mind. And I feel that example, analogy, metaphor or whatever is very good: that if you call the thief for his address, it's going to always tell you a different direction. So if our knowledge is based on that itself which we are trying to be free from you... that I'm talking about. And this race in 2003, if you're trying to catch a thief, who will be stupid enough for us to call the thief and say, 'Tell me where you are, I want to catch you'? Who is... yes, that comes. Who would be stupid enough to follow? That is our human condition. There's no point shying away from it. Better to meet it and say, 'This is what we are doing.' You want to have manana, complete dissolution of the mind, because you will not be free, you will not be self-realized, whatever. Yeah, yeah.

If he said that, then where do we go to find it? How will I get? What do I have to do? Have I got it? So Bhagwan, is it the diet metaphor is good for this one? Go on a complete diet. I mean, while munching on our cookies and chocolate, how should I go into that? All right, let me last thought. Why doesn't it happen to me? To win such human people that the instruction is meant to be met instantly. Empty of mind now, contemplate, and it shows up. What is being asked is that you meet with your heart. All resistance is mind trying to avoid this meeting. It is very good for us to notice collectively all of the things. It is these ten small things which could all add up to get them in the same way. When you're thinking about freedom, surrender, we may be hoping that a big event will happen and I also be surrendered to God, Guru, and things will be done. It doesn't necessarily have to be like that if these smallest boundaries images.

All right, because what does freedom mean to you fundamentally? Equalism. If God's will was completely opposed to your idea of what you should do in life or what should happen in life, what would you forget? Not that it will be you or has to be, but if it was, would you still found it? When you live in God's life, that is the only time we can truly say we are living in need. This notice and return. If you break your fast, don't eat more chocolate cake afterwards. You can still return to this mental now because I've... because you made us experience this year when I go back somewhere and we bought this because it just seems to be an avoidance of that which is coming up. And that's not a bad thing. So it doesn't feel as badly anymore. Does it take you out of the mental hypnosis or it's just like you feel like it's a very sort of timid sort of tactic is the mind itself is using? Is that what you meant by mental now? But that itself is a good noticing because how many can even spot this? Spot the business the mind is trying to control my spirituality now. So what if it comes when they don't become antagonistic towards it? And you will come on this is very important. Thank you for coming with that because when we are switching over from the way of the head to the way of the heart...

Just like you feel like it's a very sort of timid sort of tactic the mind itself is using—is that what you meant by mental? Now, but that itself is a good noticing because how many can even spot this? Spot the business the mind is trying to control my spirituality now. So what if it comes? Then don't become antagonistic towards it. Thank you, and you will come on. This is very important. Thank you, thank you for coming with that because when we are switching over from the way of the head to the way of the heart, one of the mind tricks is that the mind is smart enough to know that you made such a conclusion for yourself. So then, like a parent who uses reverse psychology: 'Come to the now.' And you are the mind: 'I won't come to the now.' So what to do then? Find the true guidance giving me.

So let me simplify it. What is the crux of this? Are you living in God's light or not? If you're not living in God's light, then with everything at your disposal, come to it. Like this life is not worth it without it. It's not a way to live unless you're living in God's light. Everything—contemplate, meditate, breathe, whatever, whatever your heart is in—come to it with all your passion and all your mind and everything you think you are and is at your disposal. Dedicate yourself to God in this way. And once you come to that light, allow it alone to unfold. Allow, because God's presence is also God's will. Not in the way that we can understand it, but being in God's presence is also to be in God's will. To meet God's presence is also to meet God's will. So allow that to unfold as you are allowing life to unfold in God's presence, in God's light. It is following God.

And if you are guided to something from the heart clearly, then follow that. And if you can't follow it, you bring it to God itself, saying, 'This is my attachment, this is my fear.' That's basically it. And all a little bit here, was there too much mind craft? And even working to the people, you only lose some little bit of self-image. So first is whether you've come to God or not, that God's light, God's presence. Because before this, before that is done, it is like all of that has only been building up to this. So it's like saying that I have read all the menus in the world, but I've not tasted any dish. And many seekers in this world today will go like that. He's reading all the menu and maybe a glimpse here and there, but really it is about being able to live then in God's light.

To live in God's light, first we must come to a true meeting of God's presence in our heart. And all the tools that we have made available to you, the contemplations are there for you for that. Everything, all right? The beautiful scriptures, the sages, everything is for that. Thank you. The spiritual meeting is the inquiry, the surrender, that everything is whatever appears to you. And if you found one you can call it a master in your life, then follow that one as well to lead you to your heart. And it is my prediction and my blessing that for those who dedicate themselves to this thing, before it will happen, it will not be not found. And yet, don't make that expectation primary.

So as you come to this and as you stay with this—and the staying is primarily into two, although initially it may seem like you stay with some attention—but as you stay with this, you will realize that everything I have said about this in today's satsang and much, much better is actually true about this presence. Then what is it to live in God's will? Ask me somewhere again.

The inability is because of what? Mind activity? Attention to my belief in my mind? I actually believe and lack of experience. What tells you about the lack of experience? The feeling tells you that you are not experienced enough. Okay, the feeling is just a perception. It's just like a vibration. How do you know what the feeling is conveying? Is your heart telling you? My heart is telling me.

So that is the same as mind craft. There is a beautiful example of this. He says if we have something like stage fright, if you think we have stage fright, then what happens when we go on the stage is we may feel that, 'Oh, I'm so scared, I don't want to talk.' You're so nervous, all of those things. But if you experience the same feeling when you're going for an enjoyable holiday in the evening: 'I'm so excited, I'm so happy.' This is not the feeling in itself; it means something. It is what the feeling is interpreted to be. Okay? It is what I was saying about satsang also. Many of you, I see you in satsang, you're just fine. But later the mind makes a narrative that this is what's happening. So that whole matter of not calling up the thief for the thief's address.

It is come on, it will be solved. Until then, make yourself, make very regulations, but don't make that a thing because the mind will keep beating you up based on that. Look at it as a good thing that at least I am getting the meeting to happen. It is a great blessing in life because it will try to convert it into something. No, no way, because you were able to do it independently, you have not got anything. And somehow with the boys that happens more than the girls. You have seen this. This is the boy who always at one point says too, maybe it is like that Alexander syndrome, was a great conqueror like sort of manually independent sort of things which will, which may propose to you that it's okay, how much do you want to be dependent? He's told you, but can you do it outside? Useless, there's no point.

Instead of that, I would say that how many have this blessing in this universe, in this world? You know, this Earth of seven billion of supposedly, that they are able to come to an environment where for a few hours you can praise God? Very few. If you have regression, so first when you enter satsang, then don't try to solve it for the one that is not in satsang later. Immerse yourself for you. And what happened to the one later? Even this is the best gift you can give that one also. If you spend your time on satsang thinking about that one, that is not the best gift for that one. For your complete openness and emptiness right now is the greatest gift you can give to the apparent future one. Okay?

Because I've seen this trip from the mind. Because when you are here, you're thinking about what will happen after you go from satsang. And then when you're out there, you're relaxing. 'It doesn't work, it's not happening for me by myself.' So both times the mind keeps you away from the true insight. Instead of that, now you have it available in front of you. Don't think about dinner, eat it up. As you immerse yourself in this moment, then you will know. Even contemplate this because you notice this and you see that what are we saying? We're saying that God is right now, but what about later? Hello? What is felt now? God is felt now. And that will be short-circuiting the mind's acting.

We had some clarity a few years ago and then maybe we have ideas about how it would be differently and then all those things. But you'll notice that just so naturally, and I think within myself about light is here and only about later. The greatest force in the universe is meeting you now. Eat it now. Lie down to it. Even if it seems like a mild fragrance. 'Can I really be sure? Am I fooling myself?' All these doubts will come in the head. Don't follow the doubt. If you feel like a silver lining is calling you from, get on that scent. Like a well-trained dog is God working to follow his son. The police dog, get on that scent. Don't leave it. Come what may will come. That's all you have to do. Nothing else is important in life. This is important here. Everything else can unfold on its own.

Don't be attached to any offer coming from the world, from your mind, from anything. In the stories what we hear, when somebody was truly meditating, what would happen? Because all the distractions, then they would show that all these minor devtas will come with some offerings. 'You take this, you know, you settle for this, I'll give you this.' Don't settle for anything less than God. And if you spend your entire life just chasing the slightest fragrance of God in your heart, it will be your life worth living. Better than if you became the richest man on this Earth or you got the best partner who you never had to offer. None of that means anything compared to this. To complete devotion, complete dedication to this. Everything in life.

It's a rebirth. It's a rebirth in the light of God, in the sign of God. So this is the part that I was talking about. Once you find it, then to live in the light of God and to allow this presence to unfold without mental rule, hypnosis, and contamination is to live a life in God's light. And most of it may happen wordlessly, but don't create this as an idea that I cannot be guided in words by God. Because if God will use you as an instrument to guide others, then the words can be used for yourself as well. That is true spirituality. Nothing for me. No way did I say, 'Okay, now if you come to this, you will get great peace and your life will become stress-free and all the money you can manifest things.' This is the secret. Thank you anyway. You come in front of me, coming with me anyway. I'm just gonna keep reminding you because hopeful as it may sound momentarily, if you don't live life in this building, you are not living anyway. Dead man walking, which is not something I can bear to see. My hearing. Thank you all so much for being here. It's been quite long today. Love you all so much. Very happy, very happy all if you can join.