Simpler Than "Just Being" Is Your Being - 16th January 2020

Good, good. See, there's a difference between letting go and repression. Many times people get confused and they feel like if what you say... letting go means just let them come and go, many confuse that to be repressing something really. Repression is done out of fear of facing something, and letting go is done out of a complete openness, a complete defenselessness, you see. Repression means you're scared and you don't want to deal with it, so like an ostrich you put your head in the sand, you see. That would be to repress. But to be completely open means everything can come, you see. Every thought can come, every proposal from the mind can come, but it is allowed to go in my full openness, in my full defenselessness. You see, that is great courage. That is great fearlessness. It is not a repression. So this is good. That's a good start. Letting go doesn't mean only for the ones that are going. You don't have to force yourself to think about it. Leave something like... ask a question. Not hungry for questions, but if there's something good you're still holding back.

I have seen a lot, actually. I cannot figure out that one. Well, there is a fear of going from here, like a fear of leaving here, and there is a big fight going in the mind. Like, there is nothing like that. I mean, the mind is trying to justify me that one or opposing this kind of... what is more message in the fear? What could happen to you if you leave? You lose something?

So what is the worst that could happen?

Because of the lack for a definite time, the stress and struggle is still having an inversion. Like, it can come, some stress, some study. There's a fear that that might return when you return.

Grace will not be mean to you. Because the mind will say, 'But I can't keep doing this one, I have to get on with my life.' Sometimes it says there is no difference between normal life and spiritual life, you are just making that up. You are struggling yourself with that. Sometimes the intellect is only solving non-existent problems. Now, the result of this kind of question—is there a difference in normal life and spiritual life?—you see, whether you say yes or whether you say no, and depending on the credibility of the speaker, you can agree to either answer. But what does that answer actually give you? Just a band-aid over the intellectual void. There's a gap and there's a need to conclude. So the gift I want to give you before you go is that these gaps we get don't have to conclude anything.

Still trying to solve the currently... we have problems and sometimes I go with that one and finally it seems like I lost in that one. But sometime, somehow it's revealed that if there is... it's a part of... but still there is a fear of that one, like I'm a goner.

You may get out of this. But all the insights, all the contemplations, everything that we have seen together is with you. It will not leave you. And I love to be with you. I love to be with you too. So let heart preempt grace. Let's see. Let's see how it all plays out. You don't know everything. Everything is the Master's grace. Everything. God is not going to mess up your life. Both of you then support each other, help each other like you have done.

Not so far, because you were joining on your hunting.

You know, he says that when he was in this process, let's call it, he used to have this fear that you become like a hunchback beggar, a cousin will do, picking on the street, some big stone or something. And we can sometimes have the reverse fear also: that I'll return to my work life, I'll get into the corporate world, I'll get stuck in that and I'll forget about all this. Don't worry, all that is the same to you, just the flip side of the same coin. I'm familiar with this one, actually. 'What if work just sucks me in and then I forget about all this? It's so clear now and yet it's like both seem to flow.' I have to predict how it will go in the future, but at least for the moment... but perhaps used because there is a notion of time to balance both worlds. Don't worry about that notion at all because that puts additional burden. You don't have to balance life. Life is balancing well enough. It's when you try to balance too much it goes off balance because we compartmentalize too much. We make distinction between satsang and family. You don't have to balance anything. It is all win-win-win.

I'm still believing, you're holding on to this idea that when I know the truth, I will know something. Since ever since I have not known a thing, it's done. For example, okay, I will tell you why it feels like that. You know that I will answer. What is that? When I stopped, almost like stopped watching news channels, because whenever I see a lot of things happening, then I feel, 'When I get there...' because there is only one. So if when I am that one, I'm going to stop the world. I'm going to stop the world. The world, yeah, because so many things are happening which are hurting. Okay, but then I thought, this is... I'm not the first one to get this kind of thoughts. People have thought about it, but when they get there, they have not stopped it, right? Because there's not something. So that is why I am saying when I get there, I know something.

Once you see these horrific events on news, you have this idea that because I am one with the dream, I could stop the world. And tired of the horrific events, 'I'll stop the world.' But you think that that is not valid because others have discovered this truth and they have not stopped the world. How do you know this world is already still going on? You stop the world every night. And I'm tired of not just the light stuff, but even the good stuff. We get tired of all this experiential universe. We get tired of it after a while and we just want to rest as ourselves. And we experience just ourselves empty of any phenomena. That is called deep sleep. Then we can't... provisionally we have to say we want to, but we want to experience some taste again. And you don't know which world is going to show us now. In this world, you may call that a dream world, but there's no phenomenal distinction between all of these, any of these realms or states. But you, the one who you are thinking that you are, can't do any of this. Any idea that you have about yourself cannot do any of this. I'm speaking of just yourself. So all of this world is happening, appearing and disappearing only in your light. Have you ever experienced the world without you being there?

No.

Don't try to fit this into your intellect because the intellect can't handle this. Let this reach your intuitive insight whenever it has to appear.

Are you saying that it's my projection? Maya's word?

I am saying it is the operation, but not any idea you have about yourself. Years ago, close to the year 2000, 2001, I met Swamiji from the Chinmaya Mission. I said to him, just like this, 'If all of this is my mind, why can't I just visualize the palace and live in that?' And he said to me an answer which I could not understand. I only wanted to show off how deeply I'm contemplating such an important question. He said to me, 'You are confusing big mind and small mind.' And we can know the distinction of them. In spirituality, many times consciousness itself is referred to as the big mind, and this quiet mind is referred to as this form. So any idea we have about ourselves is a small mind. If you think that that one can do something, it is impossible. We can't move. If you could do everything, what would you want?

I don't know.

That's good. Because if you know, 'I want that,' that is called a desire. And then that desire is resistance to what is. You are doing this, that is more than enough. I'm telling you that if you go digging there, you're never going to find gold. The gold is already there with you. You are it. Not even that you're swimming in it, you are it. We have been oscillating like this together a few times. The intellect takes hold of something and says, 'This is valid. You have to solve this till you come to the right conclusion about this. Till then you're not done.' How is it actually? It will say, 'How is it? Does it know anything about everything so far?' All it has is labels and interpretation. We go on this merry-go-round with these labels and interpretations because there is no answer in any of them. They just lead to more words and those words lead to more. So you have the whole experience in one word. Every idea that needs every other idea, and that idea is... so we move away from this constant wanting to grasp to just gently resting on a forest before temple. Everything you could ever want was already yours. You see, God is. Now the strange thing is that when you allow yourself to rest even for a moment, then this becomes apparent here. The mind wants evidence first. It doesn't want to rest. 'Show me everything is mine first, then you can rest.' Then I'll rest, no problem. But here you...

Every idea that means every other idea, and that idea is... so we move away from this constant wanting to grasp, to just gently resting. All you could ever want was already yours, you see? It is yours now. The strange thing is that when you allow yourself to rest even for a moment, then this becomes apparent. Here, the mind wants evidence first. It doesn't want to rest. It says, 'Show me everything is mine first, then you can rest.' No problem. But here, you have to trust first to see. Put down your seeking for a moment. Don't judge: 'Am I getting it? Did I do this right? Am I really resting?' It will all come and go. This is the mind traffic. Your only truth, your only self-content, that is your reality. But the mask that you put on is very young. The last thing we put on... no, we only play where our intellect is solving non-existent problems, valuing non-existent answers.

If there were no opposites—no good or bad, better or worse, right or wrong—just what is, how would you suffer? That's a world like this. So I just want to say this is coming up, you see. Spirituality is the ultimate KISS. Now, what does that mean? No, all these kids keep it simple, stupid. Always know that. Keep it simple, silly. The minute you go into complexity, it is mental. Just keep yourself to the simplest thing you do now. Simplest thing. It doesn't require one simple 'just be.' Just one minute. And if you didn't know what the word 'be' meant, would you cease being? If you forgot the word 'be,' if you lost the intention to just be, would you not be? Does it seem impossible? Only in the mind. Actually, it is fruitlessly like that. Simpler than 'just being' is your being, including 'just being.' Anything more complex than that is the mind. Everything more complex than that is the mind.

No strategy, no tactics, nothing at all. What is here simply is. This is on the left strand. Let's see that which is here now. That is Atma Gyan. Which thought can make it better? Think an exceptional thought, a fantastic thought, and see if it makes just what naturally is better than it already is. It just doesn't. It cannot make any impact. And yet, the whole ego project is that: to resist what is, to present something better. We are so caught in this 'better.' I would like this thought; this is better and worse. Should I go there? Should I go there? Which is better? Should I ask these questions or not ask? Is that better? Everything is tucked in with better or worse in the background. In reality, there is no such thing as better or worse. This is what it takes.

So this misery of these opposites of good and bad is the apple that had on it the misery of this duality. So would it be better to talk better? All communication, even the sharing of Satsang, is in that paradigm. But at least it's trying to point you out of that, because that would be better. But what is, is. So all these propositions of the mind are only for what is not, what never is. What never is can get better or worse, not what is. No matter how many times you think, no matter what pristine thought you may get, you cannot improve upon this. Your very presence is God itself. Your very presence is God itself.

Father, I just... you have learned more than just amazing to see. Going fantastically classy just from this. This is a lot about me because I see that there's just a gentlest temptation into having to do something, yeah? And then it seemed that it passed, you know, the next moment. No, that secret cause again. Just... I'm just enjoying, you know, watching it. That's go around and around and around. This secret itself with the temptation to do something, you say?

Yeah, yes. But it's all utterly resolved, you know? Then it... then you know, it's fun to watch this entire cycle. But then what was then? Yeah, then even its commentary on how beautifully resolved everything is, also this, you know, just enjoy.

Can I say, except... something is incomplete when you understand something. A lot of what understanding... if I don't want to put it in a very polite way, then just show me. Show me. I actually reduce... I'm not saying it the only thing. Then I get no... all you see is it. We're never all you see. Do you exist?

Yeah, that is it. Everything is in the light of your existence. That is it. What do you want it to be? I am showing you what it is. What do you want it to be?

It means me. I want me to be free. If you want to see God, how about you? Okay, God, Self, anything I want. I want to see. I am not denying it can be. I am not sure whether it is there or not until I see it or know it.

Do you exist? I do exist. This existence is God. Who knows of its existence? I. You will never find any other Self than that. And as I say every day, if you don't burden this discovery with what should happen to me because of it, not only normal, but the aesthetics of any sort, only a person... simplicity after simplicity.

So Father, am I understanding well that you see, but there is no need to even constantly think about this as you do hereafter? Because I am already that. Everything is a Supreme Being, which is existence, consciousness, bliss, and I am that. By constantly cultivating this pure thought, they trade of impure thoughts. But if I remember myself sometimes about this and I feel myself getting caught up in the mind, then is it okay?

It is okay. It is into fun. You need one pointer. Whichever pointer resonates best for you, that brings you back to your open emptiness, use that pointer. It is equal to you. You don't need more than one. Even from all the scriptures, take something. If you are tied to do this, take one thing. If it is this, then just take that. You don't need to make a warehouse of pointers. This one, what fun to experiment. But what a metaphor. You want to remove the thorns, but you don't need more than one. Is it Who am I? Or is it the Master's grace? Or is it the Mahavakya 'Tat Tvam Asi'? Whichever you feel like makes it just gives you to that simplicity of beyond even 'just be.' For some, that can be the one: that I just be and I just want to be. But hopefully, it is pointing you to beyond this intention, even of this intent.

Contact my friends. Many times in the just reading of the scriptures, many things are lost in translation between the Sanskrit and English. And many times it's good to have a Master with direct insight explain them to you because otherwise a lot of misunderstanding can come. No Master will advise you to constantly think about something else because it is not a product of thinking ever. So the thought or the pointer or the stick, which I am saying you are licensed to use one of them, which is to clear up, to do the cleanup job. But the truth is never contained in a thought, no matter how glorious that thought may be. All you have to do is whatever happens before the sound of the click. All you have to do is whatever happened before the time of the click. You're free now. The mind can't tell you how to do it. It's possible just using your words... poof. You think of the mind unless you... I just... you know, you know, stock exchange and a sort of stillness and just allowing yourself to be inspired. The mind will tell you you are feeling sleepy, you are this body. And the best news is... what do you mean? Be deeply noticed for a long time. But no matter what the precondition is, nothing predicts. So it is a poor mind which is to be to convince the world that it is personal, no matter what it is, and will present freedom.

Is that really... I don't think that. I don't want stillness. I want your visions because most of what I've seen over the years is when you think we have been very still, giving very statement, we perfected the outward pose too well. But inwardly, they come with you. Don't get stuck anywhere. You come to fish, fish, fish, whatever your most... unless you're most... this is the habit, the need to control something. What does this mean? Nothing to me. Keep trying to interpret everything in our existence, try to capture it in the box.

The question is if it's helpful to read or listen to the Ramacharitmanas as they have done well, but one who's with them physically or even that is... so nothing really is necessary. But among all the unnecessary things, this could be the most auspicious. There is no precondition. Feel free. Not even the great scriptures you need over here. So nothing is really necessary, but among all the unnecessary things, this could be one of the best if you... so what I'm saying is it will be like something is necessary. This is very good. And it was awkward rhetorically time. If you feel that here disease is, then some remedy could be necessary. But it's never true. What do you need to exist? How are you building? Is your being, is your attention to 'just be' holding up your being? And that being is forever now. As the man said, he keeps the river motion. So this being is... I am losing i-am-ness. But if there is a notion 'I am something,' then that notion needs to be dissolved. Dissolve, chop, whatever you... Father to me now.

There are various tools to dissolve it, and all the pointers, all the scriptures are so that it can be dissolved. But I have the best news for you. The best news is there is nobody can carry conditioning through a big condition, be condition, be deeply identified. And I'm going to click. What you have to continue to be, you just come. Then you have to think, you have to go south to some resistance on the mind saying it can't be that simple, but there must be more, but I'm still stuck. This is post-facto stuff which comes before the click. So your being is removed? Your being is already there. Is it going to read the Ramacharitmanas? But if you like hearing something else and it's good to read, then say, 'Thank you very much, beloved Father, for your overflowing grace, but unburden me instantly after you answered my question yesterday.' Today also, only your most fresh grace is here. Very good. I am very grateful for you, beloved. You too met with fresh God. Fresh God is here.

Don't settle for any stillness from the past. Your highest awakening experience in the past... throw it away. Fresh God is greater than anything, whatever, whatever it may be. You don't need to value anything in that graveyard. You are never going to meet an enlightened being more enlightened than you right in this moment. Your very being is the light of this universe. But if you judge yourself, if you interpret yourself, you put yourself into a small box. You will play as if you are individualized consciousness. It is never true. How to go from the bottom?

I have the word from Karma Party weapon, that's all that I'm... very nice.

This is... I like how much part is... that's it. That's always... you know what the problem is? Politically going from Brahman... you are wanting Brahman, wanting forever for the final Absolute as individualized consciousness. And that alert, the seeker, can never really be satisfied. It is completely transcended when only we let go. The one that wants can never get. The one that is, always is. But leave this on energy and information. We should see if we can compile something on just spiritual traps like this one: stillness versus stillness. And if you like that, very still, actually they get very still is just unlike anything that we speak positively to this spiritual conference. Most are... we may inquiry wrong. Most are just like inquiring, saying 'Who am I?' asking 'Who am I?' and then expecting peace or joy. So I mean like when you say, 'I didn't inquire for a long time,' then stop looking for peace. So what was it meant to do initially? When I used to do it, I used to get a lot of peace. I said, 'What does that have to do with being quiet?' Inquiry is 'Who am I?' So when it happens to the truth... I see using the mantra 'Who am I?' sometimes. Thank you. And someone says, 'Who am I? Who am I? Oh God, it's not working for me.' There's nothing to do with that. Who are you? Who is witnessing either the peace or the lack of it? Whatever comes can be used to inquire. Anybody anything like this, which are confusing a lot because...

As it was meant to do initially, when I used to do it, I used to get a lot of peace. I said, what does that have to do with being? Quite easily, the query is: Who am I? So when it happens to the truth, I see using the mantra for my eyes sometimes. Thank you. And someone asks, 'Who am I? Well, my inquiry is not working for me.' It has nothing to do with that. Who are you? Who is witnessing either the peace or the lack of peace? Whatever comes can be used to inquire. Anybody, anything like this which is confusing a lot, because when you are trying to see God and you're trying to see something else, the Self perceives something until I have the final experience.

Most of you infer the intellect to be more troublesome, so we think of the intellect as able to be the country. That's it. That's a very popular theme right now. But the other way to do it or not, and either confusing like we were saying yesterday: 'I am the doer.' Who you are? Especially, I had not thought to do it. There is no such you. I used to be all the time the only not-the-doer because that you doesn't exist. The difficult contemplation I would recommend really is that: What is doing it? It is such a deeply ingrained human condition to consider something to be doing that we are obsessed with that. And because we are so obsessed with that, we have to fill it somewhere and we have to pin it on someone. So we have to conclude, is Tom holding this hand? If it is not another, then it must be Tom. But what if I tell you there is no such thing as doing, just motion?

Take my cream cheese reference. Once you're stuck with that, you could get stuck with them. Then no matter how will it all end, we are still stuck in mind. What makes it this way? And the reason it is happening is the sense of the idea of agency. And when we don't find an individual agent, we have to pin it on something. God is doing everything, and God is not doing anything, or doesn't have the notion of how all of us in spirituality somewhere, when you hear what he said, 'Nothing is ever happening,' somewhere in our heart it rings true. We can't figure it out. Since God figured it out, put somebody's... but to come to that peace, we have to notice that a lot of motions are still there. Maya first convinces you that this is your doing, then it forces you to contemplate: Who is the doer of this? Then starting a second level, third level, videos, beings, spheres, and everything which is in time and space, which is motion. You want to meet the Absolute. You want to be with the Father. Think about it like you know.

Once you figure that out, what that... that's the maximum we can do, to give up. But I can't figure out anything. Are you lost without figuring out? Because this is what we've been conditioned to believe: that unless we have it all figured out, you are lost, things will be a mess. The spiritual essence is only apparent when we stop trying to figure it out. All good. All good. Passing today, resting today. Is it? Maybe, yeah. Anyone? There's no new time. Thank you all for being in satsang today. Om Namah Shivaya. Mooji Baba ki Jai. Satguru Sri Anantaji ki Jai. Love you, Father. Please pray for me to come to this. You.