Sharing Satsang - Atma's Report - 15 May 2015

Can you hear me, Father? This video... oh great. Is it a good sound? Because the first experience with this is also super, super... I would just actually, I have nothing new to say except that I just feel love and gratitude. But these are only words; I cannot actually explain what is in this heart here. And they're everywhere. All what I can feel is just my heart, my heart. Or it wants to laugh or cry or burst in love, but it's all same energy just changing. Like feeling that I see in this... in one moment is this, in ten seconds in this heart is so alive, very alive. And so actually I have no feeling that I'm speaking to you. It's just like I'm just saying good loudly. But I always feel recently, and there is no even need sometimes. Come so many words to express this love, sometimes nothing's. But I'm always here, always present, always. Sometimes the more thoughts flowing, more emotions, but it's everything is seen. I don't tell with myself anymore. I can just for a little bit being a little bit identified with the big girls from at all and some energy, but it just maybe for some minutes and I see also the identification. It's just coming, going, but I'm always here. Hmm.

And too, I don't remember... maybe yesterday. I don't remember because for me now time does not exist anymore. It was maybe Claire, yes, she was having her picking about awareness there we go. I don't even remember what she said, but I remember what I felt, what strict orders inside me when she was exposing that. Since my very childhood I had this feeling, or maybe maybe not childhood but maybe 15, 16 years when I was old, I had this feeling: Where I go? How can be that one day I will not be? Where I go when I go to sleep? What is this whole world? How come over disappears when I go to sleep and then when I wake up everything is here? How come? And one day if I go to sleep and I don't wake up, where will I be? But I had nobody to speak about it and even no words coming outside because of the environment. Not nobody was triggering this feeling and everything was inside. And also a lot of tier later about my disappearance. But now everything is so clear. It's so clear. It's clear that's when I go to sleep, when this being go to sleep, the world this is disappearing and then there is the world of dreams. I can I also see that. Then this being waked up and the world wakes up and it's so clear. I just wanted to say it was so clear yesterday when Claire was having her sharing. I was bursting in tears and love and think, 'Yes, I know that, I know that.' And was very grateful to serve to speak about it again.

So I don't know what to say. I don't know. It's every moment tink you experience of... sometimes it becomes an arrow but just for a little, then again open. And it's like something here is pulsing like this, you know, like this: closing, opening, closing, opening. But if when this is appearing, there is something here unmoving, always. And I'm so grateful for you and I love you so much. And I don't know, I don't know. I was waiting for you maybe whole of my life for this sweetness to fill it again inside my heart and everywhere. Because heart is this, it's not on here, just here. It's feeling still sometimes quiet, sometimes room but boo-boo-but-but... it's okay. I'm very happy that I have this heart which is very alive. And what I felt yesterday when I was coming back from the shop with this new ability collapse up, I felt, I felt, I felt part of what you feel for all of us. How you feel, how you would love that everybody of us are happy and the blast. And I felt like I would love to give my heart to whole world. But it was just like then I felt, but I always wanted this. Just maybe I forgot it, but it's what I always wanted.

Okay, I can hear you now. I didn't see anything, haha! But you know how I feel. I feel like like I was always with you also physically not here. Oh always click like I see him. I can go outside my home, my room, I open the door and you're there. I go to tram, I hope to walk in the nature, you're there. I come back, I just connect physically, I see your face, but it's also now it's like same open. I feel you have... I see you everywhere. Not this face now, I see your face, but I just... you know you I see everywhere if I can't explain the feeling. So I'm very happy for this beautiful gift of a glass of this laptop and I want to really be of the 22 to do anything which I can to help and I want this to be in service to all of us.

So beautiful. So beautiful. So happy, so happy to hear your world you.