Seeking Implies I'm at Some Distance From Self - 23rd February 2018

There can be only two possibilities. First possibility is that what is, is the Self. Second possibility is that you are at some distance from the Self. To be seeking self-realization implies that we are at some distance from this Self. This must be the presumption before we have the idea of finding myself. The idea of finding implies that there must be somewhere to go, something to find. So, like, what distance can you be from your own Self? Can you make one meter distance between yourself and yourself? You know what I mean? We are not playing with words, although it can sound like this.

So then, where do we want to go? What do we want to find? We might also sometimes have the idea that the Self that I am right now is not enough. I am right now the person and I want to become the Absolute. This is just an idea. We are taking some equivalence and calling that 'me'. That which witnesses all this appearance will somehow magically smile at the most obvious mistake. This body appears to me. My thoughts, my emotions, my sensations—all this we call 'me' or 'mine'. What about that which witnesses all of this? That which perceives all of this? What can we say about that form?

And there is no actual reason in reality to say that something is 'mine'. There would be if you could first produce the 'me'. If there is a 'me', then it is possible to have a 'mine'. This 'me' nobody finds; it is the presumption. This we don't want to investigate. Everything else phenomenal, we are very happy to investigate. You know, if I buy a car and somebody says it is six-cylinder and you have a suspicion that it's four, before you write the check you will investigate properly. Is it four-cylinder or six? Or you buy a house, you investigate every part of that. It's really clear what's the maintenance of all this. We must. But this that we consider ourself to be, that is left uninvestigated.

So we pick up the idea that I am just this bucket of flesh and bones and blood. I am the sensations. The sensations draw my boundary. When has this ever been true? Your experience is also not telling you this. The sensations that we call the body, the perceptions that we call the body, they're being perceived within you. All of this. And yet for some reason we say that this sensation which is within me defines my boundary. Complete madness. It's divine madness. Always with complete... it's a divine illusion and their conclusion nonetheless.