Just Live Without Your Head, That Is the Way - 18th March 2022

Of course, 'Oh, but yeah, but what about the real world or practical life?' All nonsensical things. There's nothing that the divine intelligence, God's presence, Satguru's presence, which is the light of this universe itself—there's nothing that it needs to rely on. In fact, it is the source of all things. And whose practical life are we talking about anymore? You come to satsang, you hear every day or whenever you hear satsang, you are not this, you are not this body-mind. But the mind comes and says, 'Yes, yes, all that is fine, but let's get real for a moment. At the end, I'm a body-mind, isn't it?' I mean, it makes me feel better when I hear that I'm not a body-mind, but all this is to help the body-mind. This is the game that many spiritual seekers actually play. They want to hear that they're not the body-mind so that they can experience a sense of space and then find some sense of peace or spaciousness and not be stressed, but come back to the identity of body-mind. Then again, when we start to shake with the suffering that the world will definitely provide the body-mind, then again they want that relief from that. So to hear that you are not the body-mind so that you can help the body is one of the most convoluted games that the mind is playing. And that is the game of playing the spiritual seeker. Who is the seeker? Any seeker without body-mind? Can he be seeking without the body-mind? So who is the seeker then? The identity of limitation, by the identity of being a body-mind seeking truths so that it can help itself.

For yourself, in reality, there is no seeking. You can only... I mean, even rationally, should you seek that which you already have? You met somebody on the road and there's nothing wrong with his body. Suppose he says, 'But I'm looking for... I want two more hands.' 'But you have two hands, what are you talking about?' 'I don't know what I want.' Do you say you're stupid or crazy or whatever, isn't it? But what are you seeking? What are we seeking? What you already have. You must find that out first. See if you can find somebody you need to help through your seeking. What step do you need to take? What do you need to understand? What do you need to see? Suppose you found yourself, we found this, how would you know? Let me ask everyone. Suppose all of you found the Self, yes, how would you know? If you have an answer, raise your hand. All right, okay, let's go for a moment, we'll come back to Mahesh in a bit. Let's go to Claudia. Claudia, how will your knowledge about yourself...?

I didn't find that I am by intuition. It's an inner yes.

Now, is that ever missing?

No, it's always there.

Always here. Therefore seeking, you see, seeking is not possible with the right instrument and finding is not possible with the wrong instrument. This is the key. Okay? Seeking is not possible with the right instrument and finding is not possible... did I say wrong? Seeking is not possible with the right instrument and finding is not possible with the wrong instrument. My instruments are getting messed up too much.

It's not seeking or looking for, it's evident.

Yes, self-evident. Ever-apparent. That's a good word. Everything that's... so what is the wrong instrument and what is the right instrument? There is no instrument. Okay? But you cannot find it as a perception. Cannot find it as a perception. Therefore, perceptual seeking or trying to find the truth through perception, as if the truth is going to be an object, you see, is a flawed exercise. And then trying to understand the truth also is a flawed exercise. See, understand, conceptualize, create a mental framework of truth—a wrong instrument. When these are dropped, our reliance on these are dropped, then we come to that which is intuitive. You see, like she said, intuition is the right instrument. So that, that is not something that you can go to. You have to just drop the false. And intuition... you are never lost intuitively. Like one child wrote to me once in full integrity and duty, so but I had to clarify because she said that, 'I'm trying to intuitively grasp something.' That is just a mind trick. You can never intuitively grasp at anything. There's no grasping in intuition. There's only grasping at concepts, you see. And grasping is suffering. Grasping is suffering. So intuitively, can you try? Can you try something? Try to find the truth intuitively. Who can confirm this?

So many times you may hear me and I may say, 'Okay, don't use your mind and don't try to see the Self as an object and go to your intuition.' Then you may feel like you dropped your mind and you dropped your reliance on perception and now you're just trying to use your intuition to find the truth, you see, and you're almost there. All that is just not possible. Okay? So tell me if somebody is struggling with that, just trying to use the intuition to find the Self. It is not an instrument like that. The mind is an instrument like that. Attention is an instrument like that. But intuition is not an instrument of grasping. It's either evident or you have the wrong idea of what it should be. The truth is either evident intuitively or you have the wrong idea of what truth should be. Another way of saying that is that what you find intuitively is the truth. If you're expecting something else, forget about it. Empty of the mind, what you find is yourself. There is no other Self. Okay, let's go to Salar, he has his hand up. We'll come back to Mahesh and Claudia if they want to say something later. Let's go to Salar.

Oh, sorry, I want to stay here. Thank you. I wanted to say I can see, I can see the momentum of wanting to find it in perception. I can, I can see that, but it's very, very fast and strong, wanting to capture it in perception. Just starting to notice that. But yeah, it's still...

Yeah, so that evaluation is happening where? Have you lost anything of value? Where will you go for that answer? How many are trying to solve this spiritual problem? Trying to solve, resolve your life? I mean, just just now. You now. What is, what is there to say? Not that there is anything wrong with saying. There's nothing wrong with saying, and please don't have this idea that to say I need to use my mind because my intuition is just not intelligent enough to use the mouth. Only the mind can do that. Familiar sounding concept. 'Oh, everything comes from the mind, so stop it. Let it come from your heart.'

I can, I can see, um, I can notice also there's like a, there's like a, there's like a, like trying to use force with this as well.

There's a what?

Trying to use force.

Force, okay. How would you... with what? With what tool can you force yourself? With what? With your attention? In your attention, are you... what are you trying to do? Not go to the head, stay in the heart, something like this? Forcefully keep your... if it doesn't feel natural to do that, that's okay. That also feels natural to some. But here, for example, it didn't feel so natural to use attention to find myself. So, but just even if your attention is in the head, you see, at least don't put your belief there. That's all that's meant. To live in the head is to live in the head with both attention and belief, which together form identification. What do you think? You've mistaken life to be a head game. It's actually a heart game. And the head creates a lot of new variations of trouble. 'What you're doing is all wrong. It can't be forceful. You're using too much force.' You're saying that too much, too little—all this evaluative tendency as well, only in our head, isn't it? What is your heart saying?

Thanks for saying I love you. I love you because there you... good. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Okay, let's go to... what is Madagascar at the moment? Coming home soon. And we are both, Colleen and I, we are crying that we are not in Bangalore.

Say loudly. He said because I didn't want to go home. I didn't want to come. Yeah, okay, it's okay. Um, where are you referring to, to tell me what troubles you are, to give me a report? I think I'm referring from the spiritual seeker.

So stop it then. Where is this guy?

Saying I love you, I love you because there you... good, thank you, thank you, thank you. Okay, let's go to what is Madagascar at the moment, coming home soon. And we are both, Colleen and I, we are crying that we are not in Bangalore.

Say loudly. He said because I didn't want to go home, I didn't want to come, yeah. Okay, it's okay. Um, where are you referring to? Tell me what troubles you are, to give me a report.

I think I'm referring from the spiritual seeker.

So stop it then. Where is this guy? Where is this spiritual seeker?

In my head. I can't leave my head.

Your head will say, 'I can't leave my head,' but you can. Who? If the masters have to be really stupid to keep saying this... yeah, we know you can't leave your head, but leave your head. And we took examples of all the sages having given this instruction in one way or the other. But actually the truth is, they don't know what they're talking about, like we can't leave our head. Yeah, what is my son is telling me to say something, but I don't really know what to say. Ah, I went on the Girivalam last... somehow I felt that such a good representation of the seeker who's going and chasing her kilometers off of a spiritual path and many lingams and... and then tired of seeking.

Shut up. You're just aiming that in the wrong direction. The wrong direction. It's just here. For this one, how long will you represent this one which you can't even find? Until this identification drops. Father, I don't know when it drops. It's dropped right now. It's dropped now. All it depends on is where you go from here. It's dropped right now. Now where will you go? Headways or heart waves? It's gone, no?

I don't feel it's gone.

Let's try. Okay, now, right now in this very moment, you see, you have to tell me what you identified with right now. You take a moment or two, take a few seconds even to remember your name. It's gone.

Maybe it just feels like there's only one way to go, one place to go for answers, one place to go for value, for meaning.

So don't buy and do anything that the thought is telling you, and tell me what is happening to you.

Nothing.

But nothing but... it's one word. Don't try to fit anything in your heads. Don't fix or resolve anything in your head. Let it be a cluster of confusion. It is a cluster of confusion. Let it be that. That's its job. Even when you think you have complete clarity, it's only nonsense, okay? It's always only confusion in the head. Let it be that. What else you got? I know what your head is going to say. I'm very familiar with that. This one was quite oppressive here also till I met Guruji. This is... I'm very familiar with all the nonsense it has up its sleeve now. But what else do you have?

I don't know. When we have a head, we don't have a nose, ears, nothing. Ah, nasty head or nothing at all. I have nothing. My son can stop moving, stay still.

I have not given you anything to solve.

I know. It's just... it's exactly what I'm trying to do these days. I'm trying to solve something. I think one question, like if someone's trying to solve its spiritual mystery. I am that. My mind proposed these scenarios where I have to choose between things all the time.

Let me tell you one thing. If I said to you, I don't care what your mind proposes, can I be like you? Of course. That's what I'm telling you. That's the whole point. You are like me at your core. Only your interpretation of yourself may seem a bit different. You already are. We already are one now. Where are you going? To Bangalore? Okay, you come, we'll fix it here. What is taking time? What is taking time? Uh, mind, the thought, the thought process, decisions, I don't know. Okay, and what about the rest of you? There is nothing, there's only the mind. How do you visit the mind? Can you see this? This is good for everyone to hear. How do you visit the mind? When I say don't live in your head, you can't actually live in your head. So how do you visit it and how do you try to live there? What tools do you have to live in the mind with? What do you do?

Yeah, so but first attention. Attention, and then once it's in your attention, the thought, then you can give it truth value. Yes, or even no for that matter. It's both a play of belief.

So attention seems too difficult to control. The more you try to control it, for many it seems to be elusive but delicious. Very simple, very... no thought can force itself on you in this way, in the way of belief. It may seem like that with attention, not with belief. Is there something that you want in the mind and you go to a particular playground or a particular shop if you wanted to buy something there? If there's some affirmation or validation or approval or some certificate, something we are looking for from the mind? I guess you are free. You have done it. You are the avatar of this time. What is the highest validation? Why do we keep visiting this place? You want a concept of freedom, you want enlightenment, you want peace, you want love. Do you want to be right? What do you want?

All of the above is what is called... I don't want to be right.

Yeah, at least now. I think the kids report on that one later when you come. But what is so attractive in the head? And God is sitting in a heart. Now when I put it that way, it's always in the head. Oh, where'd she go? Isn't that a song? I'm getting all these songs. Have you seen that? There is a song like this. Come on, you all haven't heard me? Come on, yes. Am I making this up? Have you seen here yet? I'm on my phone and someone called in like I tried to press eject but I didn't manage to do that. But I see you guys had a bit of fun. I can't believe nobody's heard this song. Only listen to what I'm talking. Okay, don't worry. Come. No, you're here soon or no?

I am. You tell me. I don't have to worry about it because, yeah, I leave it with you, Father.

Thank you. Thank you, my dear. Love to the kid, love to you. Thank you. High five. She's coming to drink your milkshake or anything that's available. Yeah, it's all ready. Thank you and miss you. Okay, let's go to Shanti.

Hello, Father. Happy Holi.

Thank you. So nice to see you.

Yeah, I just wanted to say hello. It's been a long time and that's... I don't have too much, I don't have anything to say. My mother's still sleeping, it's very early in the morning. Do you hear okay?

Yes, I hear you well. Yes.

Okay, good. So I just want to say hello. I'm so happy I can be here today on Holi. It seems, feels good and to see everybody there at the Satsang doing, you know, doing their thing, playing. So joyful. And I'm playing a lot too, although sometimes the play is kind of heavy, but it's play. It's still play. Someday I'll come back.

No, well, whenever it's possible. We wait for your samosas.

Yeah, I haven't made them in a long time, but the chai every day. So yeah, so all my love there, all my love to you. I'm going to work on a set tomorrow. Do you remember? You remember the superhero things? No, it's... it's an old... it's going to be a remake of an old... you probably know it. It's an 80s show. It's called Quantum Leap.

Yes, yes, I know this.

You remember? So they're doing a remake. Yeah, I'm going to be a background person, you know, running out of a burning building.

Sorry, be safe. I said I'm sure they'll take all the precautions and things, but just be careful with this stuff.

Yeah, well, it's not real fire, I don't think. No, smoke and mirrors, you know, like all everything. Anyway, some secret photos... sorry, I can't send some secret photos to us.

Yeah, well, we're not allowed. By chance something might show up later, but you can watch the pilot and see if you can see there. Yes, yes, nice to see you and say hello. Be well. Thank you. Thank you so much. I love you.

Love you so much.

Okay, let's go to Aniko. Aniko, thank you, thank you. Anantaji, thank you.

How do you have a Japanese name?

Excuse me? How come you have a Japanese name? It is not Japanese. Everybody says... who is not Hungarian, and everybody says Japanese because two words is Okinawa. It sounds like a Japanese name, but actually it's not Japanese. And I like my name because it means grace of God.

Yes, wonderful, wonderful, wonderful. This is why I never thought about to get another name.

Yeah, yeah, maybe if Guruji would give me... yeah, but yeah, I like, I like. Yes, what I wanted to say, oh yeah, when he was talking with Mahesh. So actually I am really good, I am really fine without head. Yeah, you know, sometimes I just work with my dog and Aniko just drops itself and I can't even move. I just standing and I'm watching around and it is so beautiful, like everything is just so amazing and this position and I don't know... I don't know how to describe this, but it's just so nice without head. But then after, there is two problem with this. One is that the thought is come, then, 'Okay, this is not anything what you have done, it has just happened, not in your hand.' And the second things, what is worse than another thought, 'Okay, this is not the highest state because this is still not the pure awareness, because the pure awareness is the highest and you are still not at the highest priest.' And Anantaji said, 'The highest is if you are aware or not.' And that time, okay, I have to ask myself, 'I am aware or not?' and everything is just destroyed and now I just go back to the mind and just seeking, seeking again and Aniko is came back. And so my question is like...

So let's look at second... let's look at the second problem because I forgot what the first one was. So let's look at one first and then we come to the first one. Without the head, you are not pure awareness. Can you try this? Yeah, just be without the head and who are you without the head?

I don't know, or who I am, I don't care. I mean, I don't mind.

And how do you know that you're not pure awareness?

I don't know anything without my head.

That is the highest. That is the highest. You see it?

Yes, yes. Yeah, okay. Because but what you now shared on Facebook...

Yeah, I don't really make those posts. I don't know who's doing this stuff, no idea.

But you know, you also said that then, that when we are still is sleeping deeply, this is the highest state. No, you didn't describe like this, but that was my interpretation that... yeah, and I probably I never experienced when I know I cannot experience that state or I don't even know what I really want. But what do we mean by experience? Yeah, yeah, I know it was a wrong word. Yeah, so I mean maybe Aniko didn't disappear properly because there is still something like so much joy and love and peace, but it's still there. I mean, I mean in the deep sleep nothing, nothing is there. So I don't know, I don't know how to ask this question. This is a very important question, but I don't know how to ask it.

Let's go slowly. So without the head, are you lost?

No, no, no. This is the best.

Sorry, are you confused?

No, no, no, no. It is the best.

Slowly, my dear. If you didn't know who you were without your head, then you would be very confused. You'd be fully lost. 'Who am I and what is this place?' Is it like that?

No, no, everything is just happening.

Claudia said something beautiful. She said that without the mind, without reliance on perception in the mind, then what I am is self-evident. It's just evident intuitively. Yeah, is this true?

Yes, can you verify?

Yes. Then that which is self-evident is... is that different from the highest that you are, this awareness?

I don't know. This is the question.

This is good actually. Okay, so don't take this problem. Don't take it. Don't try to figure out. You see, just live without your head. It's fine. It is okay. It is okay. Don't worry about eyes, okay? Yeah, because this makes so much problem for me. Yeah, yeah, because anyway is not in my hand. This is very good actually to see, because even the notions which are provided in Satsang to point you in a particular way, the mind can use that. The spiritual seeker identity can use that and say, 'But this is... this must be a railway station in the middle or something. This can't be the highest. Okay, maybe it's a halfway point or say half a house or something.' Yes, this is how he's speaking. I want the highest.

Yeah, because this makes so much problem for me. Yeah, yeah, because anyway, it is not in my hand. This is very good actually to see, because even the notions which are provided in satsang to point you in a particular way, the mind can use that. The spiritual seeker identity can use that and say, 'But this must be a railway station in the middle or something. This can't be the highest. Okay, maybe it's a halfway point or say half a house or something.' Yes, this is how he's speaking. 'I want the highest. I mean, it's me, I want the highest.' This God is not in our condition, no. But it's my fault. It's my fault in the sense that it is teachers and masters that use these words which are meant to be pointers, but when they're taken by the spiritual ego, then they can be like, 'No, no, no, but come on, this must be for everybody, but for me, the highest, I'm not there fully yet. That's why I have to rely on a provisional sort of pointing.' But it's not like that. Without the head, it is completely apparent who you are to you, you see? You may not use the word awareness, you may not be able to distinguish qualitatively that this is manifest, this is unmanifest. You may not care about any of that, but nothing in reality is hidden from you when you are in the heart.

And I am on touchy. This is how you are as well. I mean, this is... I just sometimes I'm just looking for the difference between you and me, you know? So this is how you experience their life. Okay, suppose for a moment it is true like this. Yeah, I'm calling you here now so that we can be one. Yes. The highest in our head, the highest concept, the highest notion, the highest ideal that you may have in your head cannot compare with just the plain and simple reality of your heart. Yeah, it is just all speaking here then. And one other tip I want to give you is that this evaluation—don't evaluate yourself at all, both in terms of 'I was like that when I was without my head, then this happened to me,' you see, and 'I was like this, but then this happened here,' or that 'I'm like this and he's like that or she's like this.' You see, all this evaluative tendency is only the head. It's only in the intellect. So don't pitch yourself in that way. The spiritual seeker guy may say that this report card is very helpful to you, it's a diagnostic, you can use this to get better, but actually it's just oppression. It's just mental oppression.

Yeah, this kind of thoughts is always make the most problem for me really to... yeah. And the first problem was that it is always happening like automatically. But now you answer that is not too much difference between headless or not headless state because I don't even know what this one and that one means. Yeah, so I don't miss anything without the head?

Don't miss anything. Yes, only, only, only you cannot make the nonsensical narrative. That's it.

Yeah, that's it. Yeah, thank you. Yeah, I understand. Thank you so much. Thank you. Can we got this for a minute or two looking at windows?

Okay, let's go to Atma.

Yes, I must a bit wake up because I was again sleeping. I reacted. I reacted when you asked. I was trying to solve or something. And I am not, as I wrote, I'm not solving, but rather trying, trying, trying to let go of a dream. And the dream of the finder, of the knower. And because you asked also my mother, what is so attractive in the head? It is the same. It is the knowing. It is the grasping. So I've been very much into this quite far—I mean, far enough just to see, okay, I have my certificate somehow, you know? And I just see what... it's just a paper when it's nothing, you know? It's just blah blah. And even if I had many times the joy of grasping, of course, I don't deny this. And but I see this is not the real joy. I just know it somehow. And somehow I've always known it, but known that, but I couldn't resist because it is me. Yes, me is like this. Me has to finish his business.

And so I told you the other day I was coming back from India and it was so great to be so far, but so quickly I was in all my stuff, you know? And I see how much, how many dreams are pending here around and in Maya also, because in so many books, I never read so many stuff I've been gathering in order to do something with, you know? So for all the doing, I was always, I have always been dreaming of doing with children, doing with education, gathering some stuff. It's full of stuff, you know? And now I'm just slowly, slowly seeing I have to get rid of all this stuff, you know? And yeah, that's it. I mean, so that was I wanted to report that because it is just... yeah, I'm happy to share it and then to... yeah, because I think me is a museum of intentions. That's a nice one. I think me is a museum and a dream, a dream machine, a projection, a pure projecting machine of how things could be if I could do, if I manage to do what I am projecting and so on. And it's a never-ending, it's a rearrangement all the time here. And now it's quite... I mean, the certificate was just to discover that, you know? To see it and not to become not anymore able to look away from that. To just see more and more in real time. Dream here, dream there, in all directions, dream, you know? Thank you so much, so much. Thank you so much. Thank you. I love you.

Thank you. Thank you so much. I just wanted to say hello actually, but I think maybe I can share something that's been going on. I've noticed the tendency of like this person to chase things that it thinks will be pleasurable or nice, like good things. And I know already this is going to be fight at some point, but still I go for it. And I don't know if I just haven't suffered enough from these things to not drop them, but I think it's good to bring it to you. Thank you.

Thank you for sharing that. Many can report like this, saying that 'I know this is trouble.' You see, I'm just going to meet everyone. So many times I hear these reports: 'I know going to the mind is trouble and I know I shouldn't do it, but somehow it always gets... not always good, it offers up some carrots and I'm chasing it again and then I regret it and I see now that I should not do that.' Now, all that we can do is when we feel that this is trouble, stay in the heart. This back and forth will happen a little bit and that's okay. But if you do the back and forth and the time that you're back in your heart, you end up falling for the mind trick which convinces you that you should not have done that, 'This is how you are going wrong and this is all the trouble in your life is because of this,' and so then it gets you both ways. And it grabs you with the thought itself and also then when it makes you feel guilty for going with it. So both ways it causes trouble.

So when I grab you with the thought—it doesn't actually, but suppose it does—it grabs you with a thought, it grabs you with this, forget about it. It's gone. So if you think about it then, about 'Oh, this should not happen, I have not progressed enough, maybe I haven't got enough, not devoted enough,' or some evaluation like that, it is too much of the one-two punch combination. The two-punch is devastating compared to the one-punch. Because that one will just grab you with something simple: 'Oh, why don't I watch this movie?' which is fine, you know? Or 'Why don't I go out with this boy?' or 'Why don't I something?' whatever it may be, you see? It is all fine. But the two-punch is: 'No, no, I'm not devoted enough, I don't want God enough, I'm not listening enough, you see, I'm a failure.' All that is the thing that gets you. The one-stuff is pretty harmless usually. It is the heaviness of the spiritual seeker and the spiritual identity which is the more tough.

So what to do then is: okay, it happened, I got caught in this, let's call it temptation for a moment. So I got caught up in this temptation for a moment. It's gone now. So what is the best gift I can give to myself now? I can be completely with God or I can be completely in my heart at this point. And then maybe he gets me again, I don't know, or maybe he doesn't, I don't know. But you see, but when I'm back, then I'm back fully. Otherwise, if the mind gets you both, they come, then you go, 'As I see, you're not worthy, you're not doing this well enough.' So forget about the second part, okay? And that actually may be a little... I'm going to mute you, my dear, for a minute because there's a mic coming back. The spiritual seeker without a plan is very troubling. 'What can I do? How can I fix this? I'm not getting to my ultimate peace. When will I come to the end of my mind?' All of these things are the things it is trying to solve, and that actually is the more troublesome part. Yes, the regular stuff—I remember you said you were starting college and you know, these things you were a bit concerned about it at that point—but all the regular things of life, they can go on naturally. There's no trouble with any of them. It is the heaviest with the spiritual benchmarking. Okay, love you.

Yes, as soon as I dropped the question, I could silence myself. So it's been a while since I talked to you last time, and I've tried to carry along the way by myself because I've not forgotten about the whole spirituality project, one could say, but it actually is not what... anyway. So what I wanted to tell you is that yesterday as I was contemplating my thoughts, I could very much come to the point of realizing that, you know, in my experience there were some thoughts that I could not allow to come. They were coming, but there was an inner resistance to them. And it was nice noticing them because as soon as I realized that I'm not open and empty, as you pointed out so many times, I'm not open and empty, that realization by itself allowed me to release. And then I kind of came to know that, you know, there are some thoughts that hurt the identity and that is why I don't allow them, because I not always have these nice thoughts about everything, but not every time I happen I bother. And yesterday it was an inquiry that pretty much was raised; it wasn't done by me, I could not make it come. So I would like... I've never been on the side of praying, but since I saw you the first time, I consider you very much like you always give your blessings and prayers. So maybe you could pray for me?

Yes, full blessing. Okay, let's go to BB.

Yes, from here you see the body and I see you here. I don't know if it is this what you say. Why do you say headless, not less head, helpless? Yeah, headless. It's good, Father.

Oh, this is not headless. Let me see again. Let me see. No, no, this is not headless. Wrong way, wrong way.

I'm tired of Father, what's up?

Yes, the head is very tiring. The head is very tiring. Are you tired anywhere except your head? Okay, this is like this. This one who is tired and who wants to finish. We can speak directly like this; we've spoken often enough to speak directly. If I know, you call me Father, isn't it? So if I know that by entering this jungle my child gets hurt with the thorns over there, so I will tell her not to go to the jungle. Then if you want to go in there and then say the thorns are hurting me, I'm saying don't go there. Who is the one who goes? Headless idea. This new question is being asked from the head, and I've answered this very question for you at least twice before. Can you repeat now what is there without your head? What is that? See, all of you say, 'I want love, I want freedom, I want truth,' now. But you go to the marketplace of suffering to get those things, and all I'm saying is don't go there. It's already with you. That's all.

Go in there and then say the thorns are hurting me. I'm saying: don't go there. Who is the one who goes? Headless, my dear. This new question is being asked from the head, and I've answered this very question for you at least twice before. Can you repeat now? What is there without your head? What is that? See, all of you say, 'I want love, I want freedom, I want truth now,' but you go to the marketplace of suffering to get those things. And all I'm saying is: don't go there. It's already with you. That's all that satsang is. I say that for a hundred different things, but that's all it is for the moment. What do you want? You want freedom, you want love, you want truth, you want joy, you want bliss. Will you go to a shop selling suffering for these things?

I took this example in a broadcast the other day. They were saying, if you're on a diet, will you go to a donut shop? You get this reference, no? Yes, I get it. So if you want to be free, if you're really tired—as you say, 'I'm tired'—if you're really tired, don't go to the head. You can do it. You can do it. Don't bother with who it is; you know the answer very well. It is consciousness. What is so valuable in the head that you have to go? 'I don't know why this is happening.' So leave it. It is happening for some nonsense, so leave it. Yeah, I guess he's like a headless... my dear, I'm going to pin your video on my screen and I'll keep saying 'headless' until you become headless.

But Father, if I can become headless where you are, you will not resolve any problem, you see. You are just playing intellectual table tennis with yourselves. So stop it, stop it. Go to your heart. What else is there besides your mind right now? You have a nose. I don't know, you could say many things and nothing. And I don't want to feel this. I'm not saying, but I have to experience this thing. If I'm not this thing, I'm tired. Oh, trouble in the head.

Listen to me, my dear. Listen. I'm just trying to help you. Can you experience the sensations of your nose? Yeah? Okay, stay with them. Exactly. Ancient Buddhist practice—I'm just making up nonsense—ancient, ancient Buddhist practice: stay with your nose. It's very close to the head; you don't have to go far. And now, from the nose, tell me what is troubling you? That's it. Now you're doing it. It's as simple as that. Nothing except your head gives you trouble. Now see where you're going. Don't go there. Come back. Right. Stay, stay, stay with the nose. No, no, no, no. Life instantly gets better. Instantly. See, although you're not evaluating 'better' or 'worse,' so allow me to speak for you: instantly becomes full of light and vibrancy the minute you leave your head. They will instantly leave your hand. God is here. God is you. God is a parent. What? All this loyalty to the head has to go. That's right.

You see, and the spiritual head is probably the heaviest. It is what is happening, yes, but you don't evaluate. I'm speaking for you. You stay with your nose. I'm already saying what's happening; you don't have to confirm. It's okay. You're good. You go back to the evaluative mind, you stay with your nose and suffer—now that would be magic. For some time, it may seem like a... that you have to try and put in that effort not to buy stuff in your head, but it's a very worthwhile effort. And it's not truly effort. It only feels like it is in the picking up of garbage, collecting it, and trying to sort it out, which is effort. And letting garbage come and go is not effort. Very good, very good. I can notice you're seeing this. The mind tried to offer you something; you bought it for a little bit and then you left it. I saw that. It's good. It's good like this.

Create this light in the universe. The greatest light in the universe is in your heart. Don't waste this whole life in the head. You spent enough time in the head already. Need something higher, need something greater. Nothing has ever been dissolved in the head. There are non-existent problems and there are non-existent solutions. Meaningless things. And 'spiritual problems' is an oxymoron. If there is spirit, there is no problem. Where there is problem, there is no spirit. It can't be a kind of spiritual problem. It's only an instrument problem. It's only an instrument problem. Switch the wrong instrument. In the world, there were three people with headless chickens running around like headless... she converted me. So lost, so confused, no rationality. That is the fear. That is the fear: that without my head, I'll just run around without any direction, without any knowledge, without any plan, without any ambition. What is going to happen to my freedom? I worked for twenty years to find God. Always saying, 'Leave the head.' What if I forget about God? This is a kind of fear. Who's going to plan my life without my head?

All this fear is unfounded. It's just about the ego. It's just about personal desire. Is there such a thing like spiritual desire? It's just like spiritual seeking, spiritual desire: 'I want God.' But both you and God cannot exist. Only one has to be. So if you try to make both true—'I' and 'God'—which is 'I' being the separate and limited and the one that wants it, you want both to be true. They can never. Leave this false 'I.' Only God. God. Where is God? Not everywhere? There's only God. Where to search? Inside God, outside God, up God. But 'I' cannot be on the same channel. So the 'I' has to leave out by not giving limited ideas value. Say, 'I want God. I am tired of this. I really want God now. I want the Self. I want the truth now.' Where will we find somebody looking for the sun? Okay, they say, 'Which warehouse do you have to go to to find the sun, please?' So tell me, which warehouse can I go to to find the sun? You cannot find it. In the same way, God is not so small that you will discover it in your intellect. You'll find it in the nose. Simple.

Now, the only complaint you may have is that, 'Oh, Ananta, you don't value my story.' Because that's all the head has to offer, isn't it? You don't value my story. I don't. I value you, and therefore I cannot value your story. If I valued your story, then I would be confused about who you are. Sometimes I've got these complaints over the last so many years: 'Oh, Father just doesn't understand. Just doesn't understand.' To understand what about you? Your truth or your story? We try to replicate what we feel are the ingredients of good human relationships in the Guru-disciple relationship also. It just can't happen. It's too broad. It's too broad. And I don't value your stories. This is probably the only relationship where your context, your subtext, your pretext—all this text is not important to me. It doesn't matter where you're coming from, which country you're in, how old you are, what has happened in your life. None of that matters to me at all because I see the shining light of God through your eyes. Who is shining through you even through this worldly representation that we call you? English time, not the story. Story changes every day. One day happy, happy story; one day unhappy story. What to believe about you? No, this is just like that. Don't go back there. I'm watching you still. If you go to the storehouse of troubles, you'll only find it. Try living headlessly for a few days and you can report back in the next satsang. Thank you very much. Okay, let's go to Matthew.

Better now? Yes, it also exposes here and to say it... you can elaborate a bit more if you like. Is the mic a little closer to you? It's not so audible. Okay, I'll try. Let me try something different. Ah, did you become mute? Let's try it. Ah, yes, I had muted myself. Yeah. Okay, so just for example, yesterday, you know, in the morning I was a bit... you know, this is... I don't know, like let's say more negative emotions come and then the judgmental mind and us, 'But this shouldn't happen and you should be okay. You should be able to sit more in stillness and be happy just staying at home all morning without doing anything,' and things like this, you know. And then belief goes, identity goes, and they can just become a bit heavy. And then, but then also life takes them away again. So it's good.

Very fine. I like this report. You notice that all these 'shoulds'—'this should be like that, this should not be like this.' Should, should. You see, what is the 'should'? We see what is life according to our idea of what we are like. So now, 'I should not feel this emotion,' which means that consciousness can no longer produce that emotion in this body-mind. Who is going to decide this? If consciousness is going to produce that emotion, it's going to produce it. No amount of 'shoulds' are going to help you. Very good. You notice this. Very good to notice that when we believe these ideas and we buy into these notions, then we try to make a box. Expert at breaking these boxes. If you don't look at these boxes like another way to say this: if we don't get into any shape, then we cannot be shaken. So using the 'shoulds' and words and all of these things, we try to put life in a construct according to 'me.' But life is too broad for that. Just open. Open and empty.

Makes me also want to add that it's just so nice also to come to satsang and see you and see the sangha. Too sweet. May I ask while I'm here, when these moments come, I feel like I probably heard this a thousand times, but I guess it's okay also to hear it again: like how to clearly see the unreality of all this? Or is it more like you've said sometimes that while it's there, maybe it just has to be there and then it will pass again?

Actually, even the distinction between reality and unreality is provisional. It's just a pointer because so much of our focus has gone on this aspect of our existence, the changing aspect of our existence. The sages have given us this pointer saying that which comes and goes is not real. But once you come to that which does not come and go, then that is not making any distinctions about reality or unreality. So it's a useful pointer to look beyond what we are used to. But when we actually look beyond what we are used to, we find that that is not in opposition to anything. It is not categorizing anything as real or unreal. These are just final pointers that we use to get those who are open to go beyond the usual line of thinking and the usual way of perception. You don't end up in a state where you say, 'Ah, yes, yes, you, you, you, all of you under your laundry.' Oh, yes, yeah. But as you discover what you are, then even that, you see, distinction which is provisionally drawn between the manifest and the unmanifest actually dissolves. It's all-inclusive. All entries. Are we still doing the transcripts? Yes? Okay, yeah, yeah, of course. Yeah, just crossed my mind while we're speaking. You're very welcome. Thank you, thank you, thank you. Love you, love you. Okay, let's go to Jada.

Hello, hello. Hmm, very good. Why do you have to help me for me to speak? Oh, no, you're doing so well without speaking weirdly. Okay, if you are well, I'm so well. And if you are actually... then okay, I see that you're not leaving your head by your help and your grace, of course. Yeah, Father, I can't really... yeah, thank you for this. I just wanted to come because I really have... of course I have... okay, yeah, I just wanted to come and just see, you know, because I tried to find something to report but I really... yeah, anxieties, nothing I can hold on to.

And the best, best thing, because the only thing you lose is your ability to make a narrative about yourself when you're not living in your head. That's the only thing you lose, and that is not valuable at all. See, because all the narratives were nonsense anyway. You're so much bigger than any narrative content. One moment of your existence is so much bigger than a hundred stories about yourself. You need that now for yourself. You can see your existence is so broad, not just in spatial terms, but beyond space, beyond time. Is this who is this that lives here? So wonderful, so wonderful. And in satsang we get used to these words and maybe we get even jaded. 'Yeah, what is there? Beingness. Yeah, I see my beingness.' But what's beyond beingness? Having met your being, who is this? Who is this being who...

Than any narrative content, one moment of your existence is so much bigger than a hundred stories about yourself. You need that now for yourself. You can see your existence is so broad, not just in spatial terms, but beyond space, beyond time. Who is this? Who is this that lives here? So wonderful, so wonderful. And in satsang, we get used to these words and maybe we get even jaded. Yeah, what is their beingness? Yeah, I see my beingness, but what's beyond beingness? Having met your being, who is this? Who is this being? Who is this beyond fathoming? Unfathomable. Yeah, just purity. What I can report is just purity and just so, um, this clarity, but not clarity at an understanding level. Just beautiful purity.

Yeah, Father, you have done this, so just thank you. Thank you for everything. Yeah, clarity, but not clarity here. I just wanted to say one thing. Um, I don't know, I just want to, um, yeah, I just want to thank for the help that I have somehow asked. It just amazed me how this body is just so healthy and, yeah, I just wanted to thank for this because I always inwardly just thank God, thank Guruji for the help that I have on us. Just this body is just so healthy and I just wanted to, um, say this to you and just want to thank for this unasked gift. Yeah, just this. Thank you. Thank you for everything.

A lot of things to say. I don't know whether I will be able to convey it because, as Mahesh said, like, I want to come fresh. And for me, like, I become so conscious and saying something beforehand, then I start preparing in my head, you know? I have to convey this, I have to convey this like this, this I will not miss. And then I speak something else. Whatever I have prepared, that gets lost. Yes, then I say something else. Then later on I realized, you know, I had to ask something else, then I actually said something else. It happened like this when I first sat with Guruji, no, on the hot seat. Then even in the report on the hot seat, I said this: that while I was sitting, the mind which is saying you have to say this, you have to say that, you have to show, you know, how much you've understood and where you reached and all of these things. And I just got on the hot seat and what exactly... and the same thing I actually wanted to report when I came here. But then when Mahesh said, then I said it's already prepared in my head, so who wants to report that? And then I get lost in between.

And then everything was like discussed in today's satsang was just about me. Like, I felt it like spiritual seeker and all these things were just happening with me. I didn't even realize like this is a spiritual seeker identity is happening. And all the evaluation you said, okay, like, don't evaluate. And actually, I wanted to report about that only, and it was evaluation only. Like, when I came here, then what happened, then in between what happened. And today you make that evaluation. And then without, see, without this checking stuff, what is left of the spiritual identity? Are you being open enough? Are you being free enough? Are you being devoted enough? Without all of this stuff, are you finding who you are? Are you getting it? Are you staying with Father's pointing? Or without... obviously it happens all the time. I keep checking myself, you know? Even last session when you were talking about deals, and when it happened, I actually noted it down because I forget. And when you talk about deals, then I realized even for the whole week I didn't even remember a single deal. And then I realized, 'Achha, what were the deals?'

We are in the same boat on that one. I have no pure perception. Something, especially the spiritual ones, are the Master's problems. Don't, uh, don't go to the mind. Clearly, don't go to the mind for the clarity. Fix the mind. Point is a little bit useful.

As I'm hearing, I can see that. Yeah, very true. Because a lot of these mind tricks, and they can feel like the right things. They can feel like the right things to do in the mind. So it's, it's good reminders. They're good enough. I don't know whether I should say it's coming from mind or... ah, still I want to report. I really don't know, but it's coming again and again, you know? I want to say, who wants to say? It's not clear. Maybe it's coming from head, like it's evaluation. Of course, like when I came here in satsang first time, then it was effortless. It was not like some resistance, you know? I don't have to like come to satsang; it was like easily happening. Then in between, resistance started coming just before the satsang. All those proposals: 'Don't attend all the satsangs. Why do you want to go? Miss it today. What is the big deal if you will miss it? You can hear it later on.' And all these things were happening. But somehow at five o'clock, what happens? Like, very naturally I just used to log in. Then later on I realized, okay, again I attended the satsang.

Then today first time it happened just before the satsang. It was a big exposure for me. In my personal life, there was something like whole life I used to blame or some... like it was a big issue for me and a very big problem. And then just before the satsang, I realized the same energy in me. And it was a big opening. And first time I was not shattered or like I didn't want to hide or didn't want to see like that. I was easily looking. Okay, fine, this is the thing in me. So better now acknowledge this, like rather than blaming other person, you know, 'You are responsible and you are doing something wrong, because of you this has happened' and all that those stuff. First time it happened like, yes, I could see this in me also. Thank you. Thank you so much.

Okay, let's go to Adrian.

Hello, Father. Thank you. Thank you for everything. And thank you, wanted to share that something that I noticed: that there seems to be, when I have a strong belief or when a strong thought, belief in thought, there seems to be also some connection with the physical body. Like some contraction or, I don't know, some something, blockages or something. I don't know if it has to do with... because when I'm in satsang with you, it's much easier to be open and open to your grace, you know? But when I'm by myself, I notice these things more. And I don't know if it has to do with what they say in yoga like nadis, subtle energy channels. But yeah, I just noticed this and wanted to check with you.

Don't, don't worry about any of this stuff. Don't worry. Let there be dances which seem to happen together or some things which seem to happen separately. Don't worry about any of them. Don't try to understand life in the head. So it's all, if you want to understand something, it's all the play of consciousness. These intricacies are so endless. You feel like you have some sense of one layer, then something deeper will show up, you know? And then, then something like that, and something like that. This whole play is so, so beautifully designed and intricately designed. So in your pure perception of it, none of the intelligence is missing. But when we convert it into an idea that, 'Oh, this happens because this happens and therefore that happens,' then life will soon show you that it also happens like that. Like you see, the minute you make a principle around things saying 'this therefore this and then that,' you see, feeling that we have some control or mastery or even just understanding about something, then life will show you it is bigger than that and it cannot be bound by rules. It cannot be understood conceptually in this field.

So then if it is that big, then why bother with this provisional sort of understanding anyway? So just remain in your pure perception. Just remain in your pure perception and don't, uh, don't make a conclusion. Thank you. Thank you. We call usually in the world what we call an understanding is just a conclusion, like the determination that something is a fact. But there is no such determination possible because life is too broad, consciousness is too broad. There's a deeper understanding which does not rely on conceptual facts, so-called facts, which is always with us.

I see how like, uh, you know, this, this type of concepts, like maybe they are... I saw them like I've been more spiritual and maybe that's why there was a tendency to believe them more because, you know, I heard Sadhguru talk about these things and Osho or something. But I trust you, what you say, because pure perception takes care of everything.

Your openness and your integrity are helping you so much. That's beautiful. Thank you. This is the fastest we've won this headless, endless thing, dude. We can play some more bhajans. Thank you all so much for being in satsang today. Bless you.