Happy Birthday Moojibaba! - 29th January 2020

So, he came down and then what happened is that I had some very traditional spiritual conditioning, things that I'd been taught in the first few places where I felt that you must not take too much of the Master's time, you know? Just do your prostrations and then just go. But he wasn't like that. So, he looked at me and said, 'Ah,' then you know, how sweetly. So, I had a beautiful hug and just touched his feet. And it's like he wanted to say more, but I was like retreating with my feet. I know I've had my thing and I should not take too much time. But he was in my heart for it. It was just like I was in his heart and he was in my heart. I felt like this beautiful connection between Master and disciple, which was so apparent maybe for the first time with that kind of intensity. And it's strange that I have very little memory of what happened in the rest of that day and the day after that. I really don't remember. Maybe I did go to sit outside Lakshmana Swamy's, I'm not really sure what played out.

So, the next thing I really remember is because it is there on video, is going up on the hot seat on the 21st. I feel it was the 19th, this way I feel like the 19th is when I first met him, and the 21st is when I went up on the hot seat. And just looking into his eyes, this first time I understood what the word 'Master's Darshan' really meant. I had heard it often. My mother used to say, because she goes to another spiritual man, but then she used to suggest it just takes one glance, and one glance from the Master changes your life. And I never... I thought it's all hocus-pocus, you know? It's all nonsense, it can't be like that. But just looking into his eyes, sitting on the hot seat there, the truth of what I was was becoming so apparent. Inwardly, there was such a great insight, such a great recognition, and yet outwardly this like joy was coming, and yet the fear had to be released. So, it looked very strange. My kids are constantly laughing when they see that video. Everyone goes so nicely, asks their question, gets an answer and goes, but what are you doing? This kind of experience, whatever you can call it, happened.

And I have to say that with what was happening, I didn't really pay much attention to the words that he was saying. There was no attention really to process what was being said. But looking back, I remember that, you know, he said to me that it's good to not know, and if you know it, this messes it up anyway. And it's so strange that it's been eleven years and that's all I've been saying since then. So, just don't know, and if you know, then it gets all messed up anyway. And what kind of knowing is he talking about? Just this conceptual knowing. Because I told him that I don't know what I came up to ask and you have to help me with the first question. So then he asked a bit more and I just kept saying, 'I don't know.' So then he said, 'Okay, don't know.' That's the message I got from the Master, and that is a message I have for everyone because it is only the knowing that messes it up. Actually, there is nothing complicated in this life except what we think we know, what we think we are right about.

So, with his grace, with his glance, within that channel, it became so apparent. And at that moment, I didn't know anything, and yet I knew everything. I knew everything more than I ever did before, even though I had to leave that as much as I always did. I know it sounds strange and contradictory, but I just realized what I always knew and I always was. That truth, which is the unchanging reality, was revealing itself. That which was always known was being known. And all it took was the few moments in the shower of grace. He wiped away, I can't say how many lifetimes of conditioning, but I can tell you that as part of having a lot of spiritual knowledge, this one was completely lost. Lost in concepts, lost in chasing experiences, lost in enjoyment and disillusionment. Disillusionment with spirituality, with masters, with the whole spiritual world. And nothing like... I can never say we can express this gratitude because he freed me from outside and inside in that one moment.

And of course, it is not that all conditioning went away. That I cannot say. Even now, I cannot say that all conditioning has gone away, but I feel like it was a big, big wash. And of course, Guru Kripa inside becomes clearer and clearer, and the conditioning gets milder and milder, and you see it looking littler and littler, and it continues to happen. Every time I meet him, I am filled with so much gratitude because something gets revealed even further, which may sound strange to you. This satsang is being shared here for six years, and yet this is a constant sweetening, constant, constant opening. He continues to guide this one so beautifully and so lovingly. For a while, even physically, economically speaking, he just adopted me. Just like, 'What are you doing?' After two days, I just came and sat there stupidly, you know? So dutifully, he showered me with his love and affection and Darshan and his love. And it's very beautiful.

And I do remember that one of the worries that came up after a few days of being on the hot seat was, 'What's going to happen to this life? What about my work?' And already I had two children, they were very young. Now, of course, they're much more grown up. But through this, a little bit of this worry started, and especially the worldly energy to work and to go to office and make phone calls and, you know, build the business development and work, all of that just went away for a few months. It just wasn't there. And so anyway, there's a beautiful digression about what happened with Garima, because what happened was, well, she'd been on this merry-go-round before. I'd been to masters and poor thing, she'd just been, 'Okay, I'll come here, should I go there?' Right from after reading Autobiography of a Yogi, we used to go to the Paramahansa Yogananda Ashram, and then we had a satsang society close by, and then Mother here. So, she came with me there. When she came to... without getting into too many details about that, but she had been on this. Maybe she was... so I called her from Tiruvannamalai and said, 'This is one Master you have to meet. This is he.' And she had this kind of, 'Yeah, looking good.' I said, 'No, but once you meet him, you know, just once you meet him, and you will see what I'm saying.'

So, actually what happened is that next weekend then we all came together as a family, or maybe ten days later we all came together as a family. We had these possibilities because we had young kids with us. One boy was running around, my daughter was in our lap, and it was a small enclosed place, and you're meant to move in silence and things like that. And some people were like, not happy that we had children with us, because of them. So, they were like, 'Shh!' and very much Garima got irritated and left. She left the satsang hall and went down, and I was scared. I couldn't bear to leave the satsang, so I was sitting there, and there was some...

Because no young kids were with us, one boy was running around. My daughter was in our lap, and through this small enclosed place, you're meant to move in silence and see things like that. Some people were not happy with the children visiting because of them. They were like, you see, hunting. So, very much, she got irritated and left. She left the satsang hall and went down. I was scared; I couldn't bear to leave the satsang, so I was sitting there. There was some fear also about what was happening with my family. I didn't know whether she had taken a cab. One by one, I decided to go back one moment, and how much of this resistance was there, I was not sure.

Anyway, I just sat. Then what happened is that the satsang got over, and then he came down again. What happened is that in Guruji's house, there was a little chair that he would come and sit in, and just everybody would have some chai and collect around and just share jokes and, you know, just have fun. Of course, we think it's always satsang, so a bit like the post-broadcast environment happened at Guruji's house. So then, now what happened is that this man, Guruji, was hugging everyone. Then this man came who probably hadn't bathed for months, you know, and was not the most attractive presentation. But Guruji gave him a big hug, and he is loving him like a little child. Yeah, and I was seeing this from the stairs.

Then my wife was seeing it, so I could see her. She was there, thankfully, in the outside sitting area, and she was watching this. I saw that as she was watching this, something broke. You know, the resistance just broke, and she just felt like, 'What is this? Like pure love that Guruji is showing this man.' And she just started crying, crying, crying, and she just moved very quickly towards him and held his hand and just wouldn't leave it. So by the time I came down from the stairs, he was taking care of her. About this, even then, he came this time in this room, and he did, strangely enough, he said, 'You know why I was holding my hand?' And we reminded him that she just won't let it go. He's just holding it, holding and holding it.

Then Guruji just wanted to sort of reassure her and get her to let go, basically. So there was this elegant movement of taking the mala from his hand and just, you know, how he moves with such grace and poise and elegance. So very beautifully, the mala was put on her. This was like his reassurance to say, 'I'm always with you.' And it's so sweet that we mentioned it to him. He was not just being nice; what he actually said was, 'Yeah, I remember that, that this actually happened, and you were just feeling so much that you didn't let go, and I felt like I wanted to reassure you.' So it was also beautiful, actually.

Then what happened is that very quickly, by the instant, I found out that there is something like a naming ceremony and people have names or Guruji can have anything. So when he says, 'I am very happy,' what happened is that we had a naming ceremony maybe the next week or something like this. Then at the end of all of that, my wife went to him and said something like, 'I'm worried, you know, about what's going to happen to us because he's not really interested in working so much and we have two young children.' And he said that, 'I'll take care of it. I'll take care of you.' Just to reassure her that, of course, grace is taking care of everything and nothing needs to be so serious or worried about. He shows us we can leave it.

So then what happened is that after the season, for three months, I didn't feel like working at all. So I could sit in my room, just, you know, the typical stories that we hear, just sitting, just sitting. This environment, this being, is necessary. What is there to choose? What is there to strive for? Not, you know, this is like an inferential conclusion, but just makes it not even watching a lot of TV or something; it is just sitting here. It is. Then everyone started to get a bit worried. After a couple of months, okay, so what's going to happen? So then they wrote an email to Guruji and said it's been very, very good, I know it's been fully increased in things, but the only thing is this family is starting to get a bit worried because there's no energy to work, no interest in working on things like that.

And he reassured everyone that it's all a normal part of this unfolding of careers and everything; everything will be taken care of. And as it happened in this case, it doesn't have to happen that way, but still, it's always taken care of one way or the other. But what happened in this case is that some of the energy started to return, some of the life force which moves in that way started to come back, and then work started to happen with some tempo and momentum. But it never felt like I have to balance or try to come to some work-life balance or try to manage things. It was just that grace was managing, life was managing. This instrument was moving in with the move of grace. Grace was deciding. I was not judging. I was not saying, 'Oh, you know, this is being bad,' because there was somebody that I just felt to sit there. There were other days where I was working for 16 hours.

And so this energy was there, and so it was just so seamless. It was not like it was a planned work-life balance or something like that. But true to his promise, he is always taking care of us. There's never been something where phenomenally something was really needed but we did not have the capacity to have it. I'm talking about needs, not wants; there is a major difference between the two. So whatever was needed was always provided. And that promise is Guruji's promise, the Lord's promise: for all those who are truly seeking their reality, who are truly seeking Him, their needs will always be taken care of. Krishna also made that promise many thousands of years ago.

So this is a bit of a reminder that I know that many who are watching this could have the same fears about how to manage lives and responsibilities and everything, but things always work out. They will work out. That is a promise from the Master: that whatever you need will be provided to you, and the universe is taking care of everything. So like this, many years pass, and there was never a feeling—I realized that everyone says there was never a feeling to share satsang, but really, in those times, maybe there was more of a feeling before I met him, I have to say that. Maybe there was some desire right before I met him, maybe because people already, like, I was having this conversation at work and already I was open to people and saying like, 'How do you know this is not a dream?' or 'Who is the doer?' You know, this kind of conversation was already happening at work.

So maybe there was some sense of wanting to be a teacher or something before I met him. But applying whatever to exist, it would be this felt like too much work also. It is like, this is just fine, why do you have to work? Guruji's sharing is more than enough for this world. I just felt like that. So for a long time, it happened this way, and then his grace phenomenon means he also just kept meeting every time we would come to Tiruvannamalai. We get to spend a beautiful time with him, and he agreed to visit Bangalore also a couple of times he came.

So what happened is that after his last—not this one, but his previous visit before that—what we felt is that we must, you know, continue to share even after he goes. There were a collection of those who would come to meet him, and everyone said, 'Yes, we must meet regularly and we must hear Guruji's satsang DVD.' And so we will gather, and now you will have the DVD satsang with Guruji every fortnight. Every fortnight, Saturday, once a fortnight, we would gather for that. But all those who decided and had this resolution that we should do this, they would not come. So it was, we had a couple of sessions where just some of my neighbors were there, and they were not really that interested. They were just coming out of courtesy because I had called them. So we have neighbors, so for courtesy, they would say yes.

But so then what happened one day is that before one of these sessions, I felt like I should do more to be in service to the Master. We all may be in the session then. So in Facebook, for a short amount of time, there was this capability where you could do searches like 'people who like the page Mooji and live in Bangalore.' It was called the Graph Search or some search like that. That was there; it was removed soon after. I saw it like that, and I saw these young kids, I saw these young people around, and of course, they were called different names again. So I typed out this note to them saying that we are going to have some Guruji on DVD and you're very welcome and invited and things.

And just before pressing send, some resistance came up. Some reason came up saying, 'Oh, so you're going to become a spammer now? No, you're just going to spam people. How do you know they're interested in Mooji?' Just some silliness. But of course, grace thankfully was driving, so send was pressed. And some of these youngsters started to come. They started to come for the DVD satsang. And then what happened is that there was a feeling that after satsang, we'll have a bit of a group discussion or something like that, just to share if there is any feedback on what was being said or something.

So it was during those post-satsang conversations that somehow, like Ram or something, someone would start coming from here. Yeah, something just like, but this is what Guruji is pointing us to, this kind of thing. Now then I noticed that it just kept increasing. They started becoming very comfortable asking questions, then something here was very beautiful arising. You know, I felt like I'm experiencing Guruji's presence in this physical realm when those answers were coming up. So there's a great sweetness and a wonder as to how this voice is coming and where it is coming from, because it is unfamiliar for it to be spoken out like this. So it was very, very beautiful. I have to say that that was really sweet.

And then what happened is that after one of the satsangs and these conversations, one man who still comes once in a while, he came to me on the Sunday and said, 'I want you to do to me again what you did yesterday.' And I always just put it all as the Master's grace. I said, 'I don't know what you're talking about.' But he said, 'No, no, I want to spend some time with you.' So I called him in, and this room was our work office then. So I called him into the office and we were sitting, and he told me now that he was very disappointed because nothing happened on that Sunday. So it kind of made me a bit concerned that this happened like this. I was just feeling like, 'I hope I'm not disrespecting Guruji in any way by allowing anything like this or trying to put away something about this one.'

So I just wrote to Guruji and said that this is how things have been happening and some folks are coming, and you know, I just want to share this with you. And in response, he sent his full blessings and he said that you must bring more and more into this one Sangha. And now, being the one Sangha of being that we have, that is where the initial idea for the Bangalore Sangha to be called 'Sangha of Being' came from. Of course, later I realized it was a silly thing to do because in people's minds, many people felt like I'm trying to create a separate genre or something from Guruji. So we then dissolved that name and let go of it. So that's how the actual chain of satsang happened. It is very sweet because what used to happen is that these kids would come from long distances.

And that is whether the initial idea for the Bangalore Sangha to be called Sangha was, you know, just how to love came from. Of course, later I realized it was a silly thing to do because in people's minds, and watching many people, it felt like I'm trying to create a separate genre or something, you see. So then we dissolved that name, let it go. So that's how the actual change of things happened. It is very sweet because what used to happen is that these kids would come from long distances. I noticed that they're coming just when it was time for the DVD to get over, and I felt like you cannot do like this; this is great disrespect to the Masters. So next time I won't let you in if you come late. But they had spotted me, but when they had, they figured this softie wouldn't do any of that. So they made some unique attempts to be on time, but they were still continuing to exist somehow.

Moved into this kind of satsang sharing, and then they would ask me questions on Facebook Messenger, on WhatsApp, and I was constantly like responding. One even had an awakening experience on WhatsApp. Things that happen on Facebook chat was faded, but then I realized that a lot of the time was going just on typing messages, typing messages, and responding to messages. And something here is like, I just feel like if somebody has a genuine question from their heart, it doesn't feel like I cannot not respond. You see, a lot of other stuff and messages about work and things, that I was just ignoring, but I just felt like this is an opportunity for someone to awaken to their truth. So there was this impulse to have to respond to it. So I realized that a lot of time was going in just chatting, and that is not the best medium. It's not the best medium; in time, things get lost in translation, things have to be typed out.

So besides the fortnightly satsang where we were having it, then we said one time that, 'Okay, I'm going to come on video for one hour, and then that one hour, just ask me all that you have to ask me, and then everybody can get back to work, whatever they do.' And so it started like that. On your screen, you would have the one-hour thing where they could type the question and then I would answer. Very few probably are left from those days, but that's how this video sharing started. And then what happened is, few months later—I always mix up the timeline—but few months later, what happened is that this girl called Marta from Spain, she wrote and said, 'I've been listening to Ananta Ji for many months now.' And we hadn't—she never said anything, no, never typed a question, nothing. So she said, 'I'm going to be coming to Bangalore to be in satsang with him, and can I come and sit with him during the time that he shares satsang?' And I was just like, 'Who is this girl? Sit? Sit?'

So what we said to her is that you can come, but we take it a week at a time. It was not something that the house was used to, or the family was used to also, that we'll have people sitting while the satsang is being shared and things like that. We were not like really ready for all that stuff to start happening. But very sweetly, she came. I have Spanish, yeah. So I used to be on this dining table and she used to sit on the opposite side. And from once she sat, maybe six months, Gopala started coming before the last day when she became something that is very sweet. Then Gopala became one constant with me throughout so many years. So he's always been at that tiny table. So I got used to looking up and she was there for like six months, so I would look up on that and just use that. So like this, that's how then people started coming. And they said, 'I'm coming to Bangalore.' Amber came and spent many months here, and then all of you started coming also, one by one.

So all this is grace. All these things, I say many times, that this Sangha is a great gift from Guruji because I look at you and I just feel like you're already so open, so beautiful, that I don't feel like I had too much work on. Sometimes I feel like that, and sometimes I feel like this Sangha has helped this one grow also immensely. Because for years, I used to answer every question that was asked. I used to answer every question, including the mechanics of belief and how attention works, and consciousness and attention and their relationship, and everything I was asked. But over the years, I realized that when the question is asked many times, what happens is that the questioner has already moved to the next question as to what they will ask, but I am just sitting there and contemplating and really looking at it fresh, which is beautiful. So it has led to a lot of deepening that happened here as well.

Even so, I realized that answering every question that you have is not always in service to you because then it just becomes an intellectual game and you're just filling up your intellectual frameworks with these kind of answers. So something is changing in the expression here also as time is coming along. And maybe you can see the patience that that boy had when he started satsang is not the same level of patience that this one has now. But it's not really a question of patience; I just have a deeper sense of what's in service to your truth. And I realize that mollycoddling the intellect constantly does not really serve. It's personal. And I'm also full of wonder as to how this play will progress and how this expression will change, and how all of you—like it is of course maybe like a fatherly desire or whatever you may call it like that—where I see it, I see, I can see most of you actually being able to share this light from a very transparent filter of music. That's the instrument. There's always some opacity in the filter of the instrument that is sharing this, but I see the potential in most of you, the openness in most of you, to be a very transparent filter of Guru's light, the Guru's pointing.

And one bit about how all of that would play out and where the expressions of this truth will play out, as this one gets older and maybe the energy levels reduce, hoping that this Sangha will continue to fill this role. And I need to, many need to, this click that Guruji is so beautifully pointing us to, with some gratitude to the Master, with devotion, with love, with joy, his grace, his fun. May we forever be in that beautiful lotus field. He always gives us this place in his heart. Thank you, Moojibaba. Thank you for everything.

They came to our white ghosts, will disclose their below, you can come to us. And I want to hear this because I mean, the Masters like the time then, I have been almost like a family to know. Sister Ellen had for half now and then see others, you know, I was an early birthday. So incredibly experienced devotion, like you just scream with joy and, you know, devotion to the ultimate. So that was the capital Devaki, making me mother here because the devotion energy there, I wanted to scream the same kind of yes. But this, yeah, so in such as I bought my clothes fit in close contact with them, yes, got remarried. And so there was a block that I had met such wonderful masters, it was so much experiences because so much devotion. Yes, because when you meet Baba, I mean, time to my, even if their energies are so incredible, you don't even have to touch them. Yeah, you just keep crying and devotion comes just, just us to heightened emotion. Yes.

So I'm used to that kind of a man. I came to you, I was, what can you do better than that? Yes, but I still, I just dissipated and I was enough and I wasn't a mess. And as I said that I was in such a mess, and then I really prayed to God and Ananta Ma, Chili came and they gave me that darshan and all that. In the next day I'm calling you, you know, I wanted to meet you earlier. And did that guy, yeah, I don't know his name, on that satsang, and yet he had given me a number and even caught somebody, yeah, and it didn't happen. My, I'm not talking to you, who's only Saturdays, love this. Yeah, and then I got to you, I called you and I said, 'Can I, yeah, this thing, can I come and see? I would like to come and sit in satsang with you.'

And so easily I started, I mean, I started listening to you. Know they easily I knew presence, which I didn't, which I didn't know from such as Sathya Sai Baba, Anantamayi Ma. Then you present somewhere, I mean it was, you know, it was so bit in, so apparent. And then you know, it took me a month to, you know, it was like, you know, that presence is also not like as if I came in presence all you also know. So I came to the state where, you know, it's like knowing even of person is knowing even more pressing. Yeah, and I'm gonna touch your feet for six months. Yeah, and then I started point out is healed because I was in joy, tremendous joy. I was having joy, different kind of, it was, I don't know if it's well, it was not bhakti, yeah, it was not devotional, but I sometimes the system is devotion. Yeah, because it tasted that was incredible. I used to, once I even went mad, divinely mad with Amma, my face twisted and everything, you know, that you are that kind of, I cannot experience the laughs.

So and you know, the specialness, and will you go back and then there's no fresh God as you say now. May God fresh now, we test on that, we made, we mean God fresh in that, in that point, price, price. So of course my life became so beautiful with you. Six years was like, you know, like tremendous joy, tremendous joy and gathering. And you know, we used to hug each other because but so much love and Wada and everyone, we were hugging each other like crazy. So it was those wonderful moments. And then sometimes after the button, after I mean after all the same satsang, you used to put music and we used to dance. We had a wonderful time in such wonderful time. And then these two used to even, I mean we used to go out and have pizza. I'm just respecting, I mean in recalling the cup on those four moments I had with you and yeah, beautiful Mooji. Mooji, you like Jane, yes, surely the first time recording so please, like such place to be. Thank you. I just, I just felt like, you know, I must share this.

Alright, bringing me, I have to say that, and I see this quite often, and no disrespect to those who came later, but it is something able through because there was a young boy sitting, sharing satsang. He has no followers, some people from abroad are listening to him. Yeah, and these people with so much spiritual experience and being to such great masters, this person, so there's so much, there is a lot of wonder about that. And I could just see it's all Guruji's grace because to follow someone who has literally no followers is not easy at all. Because as it is, everyone is doubting you, everything, your mind is constantly doubting, your family, relatives, everyone is constantly doubting. And then it's so strange to, you know, imagine somebody has been to Sathya Sai Baba, into Amritanandamayi Ma, all these beautiful sages and masters, and he had been to Guruji also before, and then to come to this. And I used to only wear superhero t-shirts. And so to get over all this doubt and resistance and to say that this one is really pointing us to the truth is there's great gratitude to you and all of you from those days for that.

Everyone says, 'I felt that you answered my question.' 'I felt I was worried about the kids.' Yes, nothing, nothing to worry. That one says, 'Thank you for sharing your memories with Guruji. This is new for me. I'm grateful for being able to feel your devotion to our most beloved Guruji. It is so uplifting. Thank you, love you.' Om Shri Moojibaba Ki Jai! That one says, 'Thank you, beloved Father. Guruji has a little green lamp which he named a long time. The light is being spread throughout this. So grateful to Moojibaba's grace for this child finding you through him. All grace and greetings are to Shri Moojibaba Ki Jai!' Then due to Kesar's butter, you have only brought more peace, love, and joy in my heart. You're such a beautiful embodiment of the light you have.

And Guruji, it is so uplifting. Thank you. Love you. Warms up Guru Sri Mooji Baba. Jai. That one says, 'Thank you, beloved Father.' Guruji has a little green lamp which he named a long time ago. The light is being spread throughout this. So grateful to Mooji's grace for this child finding you through him. All grace and greetings to Guruji Mooji Baba. Jai.

Then, 'Due to your grace, Father, you have only brought more peace, love, and joy in my heart. You're such a beautiful embodiment of the light. You have never imposed anything on any of your children. I feel you've always given us so much, so much space to explore and find out what is the most true in our hearts. The pointings are the simplest and yet the most powerful. I feel like sometimes with just one sentence you can remove lifetimes of doubt and cloudiness.' So, it is all a product of your openness and your devotion. And more than anything, it was just my Master's words which use this body as an instrument to come through.

Beloved Father, so much love and gratitude is flowing here, remembering those earlier days when you cleared all my doubts in Messenger. We miss you sometimes, and they are also very late. She won't, he will get very angry. Why don't you, why don't we have those beautiful chats anymore? Love, love, love you too. Thank you, thank you, Milos.

Then one says, 'You are only making me cry more.' As in, save my tears. Could not be the beautiful tear. Then one says, 'Father, I just returned from the UK after so many years away. I could well come back when I don't be unavailable very well from those things. Thank you for loving all that you said.' That I see that I was a big softy, anything like that. Would I talk your head off?

No, no, no. You told me nothing. You reminded me that the dreams keep coming. Your dream. Why? What had happened? I can't... you know, I told you like it was, you know, I was so special. I feel special that, you know, I told you the story that my mother came into my dream. Maybe a company... you know what's a company? It's tactile knowledge. 100 Kenya companies. And the next day, I somehow got there. Nobody was there and I had to call you. So I saw her. I came, no? So I said it like I felt very special about it. So, and it was... so I think I had slipped out of ego. It must have had... it means nothing. And I'm a guy, and my past is that the success, the organization... I used to give talks. I was a piano and I should give talks and people from all over the world come. And then I used to either become what I'd learned and Swami used to flow through me. I couldn't really know because there was a lady from South Africa, she said, 'Swami told me this guy's going to say this before I say it.' So I know I was an instrument. And he also used to be so happy. And Swami cut me because I... then it stopped. And every time I used to do that, I started, you know, they knew that I was only nice to me and it was the voice of Swami that was doing it. But at a point, I came at it and then he cut and everything stopped. Yeah. So this is what I mean, like you choked me right from day one. You disliked me because I needed that, because I feel like I've come from that. I stopped talking because all the time in my mind, I was trying to... I had this ego, I had to teach others. Let's stop totally. Just one smash and all of that stopped.

That's why he made the name for me the other day. You're becoming the Butcher of Bangalore. When they named me the Smiling Axman earlier, you're becoming a butcher. But actually, we have to clarify something because I remember we had a Sangha member... she asked, they were in Australia, she asked her husband to join in satsang one time. And we were just talking about life backshoes and guru backshoes, you know, this kind of thing. You use these like almost Zen sticks, type differences. And in some cultures, in some way, they are oppressive actually. So we have to clarify that we are just talking about chopping the untruth and the ego and the mental projection. So he got a bit worried about what are these people talking about, whacking, slapping? Not the prettiest references in some cultures.

Let's catch up with some of the sweet messages. So one says, 'It also who is very arrogant to call you beautiful embodiment of light because also I know that you are all there is to that way. We are one.' Shakti is also there. She's been with us for so long. He said, 'The only thing sweeter than those days are these two. The other is the most beautiful thing. You just get sweeter and sweeter but never over-sweet.' Thank you, Guruji. Reference very beautiful. Thank you.

Then one says, 'Dear Ananta Ji, I would like to express my appreciation for Guruji Mooji through you. Like you, the blinders on my eyes fell in the light of Guruji's grace through you. Guruji's voice has continued to dissolve every idea I once thought was myself. To continue to be so abundantly bathed in the Satguru's grace through Mooji and yourself is a blessing beyond measure. To be absorbed in the truth that lives Guruji and you is the most beautiful dissolution through Guruji's voice speaking as Mooji Ji and Ananta Ji.' I love how you say that. It's very beautiful. 'Through Guruji's voice speaking as Mooji Ji and Ananta Ji, it becomes more and more clear every day: the Absolute alone exists. May the depth of my gratitude express in being fully absorbed in the truth that Guruji lives and breathes. Thank you from the very depths of my heart.' The report really touches my heart. Thank you. You picked the right you to come. No, it looks like it's shaping up to see about seeing you now. They go to satsang time. It's just... it's so beautiful to see. Clarity, I think it's... it's just so beautiful. Thank you so much. All his life, all his crazy resisting. Imagine that. Easily, yeah.

We have a bit of a celebration. So yeah, what is that one that she did a version of? 'Don't Worry, Be Happy.' Here's a little song we rewrote. Master Mooji loves us all. Don't worry. The Holy Ghost. Don't worry. What is the other one? I'm mixing up this other gospel. Yeah, yeah, yeah. What is that little happy... 'Oh Happy Day'?

Clearly happy. Won't decide what you're doing, some dancing with the group? Yeah, no, we say yes to truth. You know, that must be good. Horace P. 20 goes, how you prefer a little bit? It'll be a long song, man. You to the sound by, are you to find out the truth? You say, see a nice culture may hold God. The Mooji on us. Oh, is Mom Paigey. Oh, gosh on you. Your chakra. Oh yes, true. Yes, teacher. Yes, teacher. Yes, teacher.

So why you live for the... would be good. We'll be on here. Obviously, we should make up like your Father. Have no idea we're gonna stick to this. We tried the table recording. Father, good news. Oh God, myself. Oh, this is amazing. You will be part of the celebration. Then I said, get a view on the computer. No past, no reply from the kitchen saying, 'I love you too.' We were discussing menu.