Awareness Being Aware of Itself Is Always In The Right Now - Mar. 27th 2016

Let me do a little bit, and I also feel it’s very helpful for the group, what this means. Because this recognition of what I am, this Awareness being aware of Itself, is always in the Right Now. This truth is available right now. This Self is here right now. Awareness aware of Itself. It’s an instant recognition. And this has always been here, and unchanged. So for Awareness, nothing is happening, whether Satsang or not Satsang. Clear about that?

Yes.

No person ever existed. So nothing is happening to the person because it never existed. So Satsang is not for the person, nor for Awareness. Then what is left? What is left? Who is even coming to the recognition that I Am Awareness? Is it Awareness?

No.

It is this one, the dynamic aspect of it, that plays as Consciousness; although ultimately made up of Awareness Itself. This plays as the more solid form, like water and ice. It plays as this dynamic form called Consciousness that is recognizing its own Source. ‘Where did I come from? What am I really?’ So, in the checking, what is happening is that Being is coming to the recognition that ‘I Am arising out of this Awareness.’ And in this instantaneous recognition, a large part of the conditioning that has been picked up along the way, that gets dropped off. A large part of the conditioning has dropped off. Sometimes it seems so strong that it seems like all of it dropped off. In that moment, it can seem like everything dropped off. ‘I find no ‘me’. There is no separation.’ It seems like everything is gone. And that is what we call an awakening experience if it happens like that. Sometimes, every Satsang, some of it is going, some of it is going. Sometimes, every Satsang, some new conditioning we’re picking up as spiritual concept. So that’s what I was trying to avoid in the morning when I was saying, ‘Don’t pick up any ideas from here.' So, like we said, for Awareness nothing changed, nothing can ever change. No person ever existed. So this play is all Consciousness; Consciousness which had conditioned Itself with all these ideas about Itself, and now is deconditioning Itself through Satsang. Sometimes, in the instantaneous recognition that ‘I arise out of Awareness’ the large bulk of the conditioning is gone, and it feels like stunned. But sometimes the concept ‘It is done’ itself becomes the conditioning; ‘I got it’ itself can become the conditioning. That’s why I say that ‘You are free now’. What does that mean? As Awareness you are free. And yet the advice is to keep coming to Satsang. For who? The Beingness. There is nothing here for the person. So Consciousness in this monologue is saying to Itself: ‘Hey, buddy, you know, it’s good, what we’ve walked together so far, but let’s just keep at it’. You know? That’s the real monologue that God is having with Himself. It’s all part of the game. But in the game, my role is to help you chop off this stuff. So my role is this. And I’ve always conformed to that role. There is plenty in the world which is helping you to add on stuff. Give you newer skills, help you with this, become a better person in that, become better in that, adding on more and more attributes. It’s the rare ones who are saying, ‘Okay, we want to take away all of this from you. Whatever you have, we want to take away.’ What does it mean? Not materially. It’s whatever you have picked up as an idea about yourself. So, Being, which is pure ‘I Am’ has picked up ‘I am like this, I am honest, I am a seeker, I want freedom.' All of these ideas which are then releasing themselves in Satsang. The quickest way is to keep checking: ‘Where do I come from? What am I?’ We say, ‘Yes, Awareness aware of Itself... is here. This is where I come from, this is my Source.' So, this is very beautiful that we can explore like this together. And I want to add a little bit on to this. Consciousness is two primal forces, isn’t it? It has the force of attention, and it has the force of belief. I would say these two are the very, very primal forces of Consciousness. So we use the attention itself to come to the instant recognition, just like this: ‘Are you aware now?’ or ‘Who am I?’ or whatever works to come to this Seeing that ‘I am this Seeing Itself, this awareness, that I am this Awareness itself'. So we use attention for that. And using attention in this way, it takes away a lot of the conditioning. Now, what happens is, because we recognize that attention can be used in this way, we try to get complete mastery over our attention. ‘It should always be like this. I should always keep it like that’. I’ve never seen one who has succeeded in doing this; just keeping attention one-pointed. Even the sadhus, the yogis, they try so many techniques, it doesn’t work. But it’s not really needed that way. It’s not so much hard work. Just once in a while to check ‘What am I?’... ‘Who am I?’ and this attention goes back to This. And yet, in the rest of the times, it’s allowed to play freely. We’re not so much controlled, ‘not here, or not there’. Freedom is not like a constricted state where we’re trying to control our attention. Attention left free is still attached to You. You see?

Yeah, I see. It’s like in the beginning there’s such a joy in the sense of bringing the attention back and suddenly there’s this Beingness. But more and more, this sense of a ‘me’ even this is melting into the Beingness. So, that is happening by itself. Coming to Satsang is happening by itself. This retreat happened by itself.

So all of this is happening by itself, and you can see that it is happening. And this which seemed to be like a play that I had to manage now seems like a wonderful appearance which is happening moment to moment. Like, attention is used in this way. To just check, ‘Who am I?’ but not to try to force it into something. Too many are trying to force attention into something. So, we’re not to do that. We have the second primal power which is called the power of belief. Now, this power has been vastly misunderstood. So what happens is this energy construct called thoughts comes, and we have the power to believe the thought or not. Some will say, ‘No, I don’t have this power at all. I can’t find this belief’. So, if I say, ‘You have green colored horns coming up on your head right now’, would you believe it? You would say, ‘No’. The thought could be, ‘Oh, you have horns which are sprouting on your head.' This is the power of belief; as simple as that. Now, it is much simpler to divest this thought from our belief, to divest belief from this thought, than to try and pull our attention away. Because the more we try to pull it away, the more it wants to check, ‘What is it saying?’ So we stop playing that game now. We use only attention in one way, which is to check, ‘Who am I?’ ‘Am I aware now?’ And we don’t give belief to anything that the mind is saying. For some, this much is enough. Just this much. ‘I use my attention in this way, and I don’t use my belief in any way’. This much pointing is enough. Now, some will say that ‘There are some thoughts which seem to automatically get my belief. What do I do about those?’ Isn’t it? For those, you will check and find that these thoughts are usually about your main trump card identities. And for people who come to Satsang, it’s mostly about Satsang itself; freedom itself. Or about relationships or something like that. So when it comes like this, and they seem to automatically get you, then we use that. We pull them into our inquiry. So the thought could be, ‘You’re not free yet. You haven’t got it yet. You’re just faking it.' So then you say, ‘Who? Who wants to be free? Who has not got it yet?’ And we don’t leave it until actually, it sounds like a joke when the thought comes. ‘You haven’t got it yet’… ‘It’s just a joke.' Because we’ve looked at it, and we saw there is nobody here to get anything. So, even this trick of the mind, to say, ‘Oh, but this automatically gets my belief.’ then is used as an opportunity to inquire. And then it starts becoming very light. I’m giving you all these tips today so if you seem to get stuck in some of these, so you’ll be watchful of these. So sometimes what happens is that we’re too quick with inquiry. We say, ‘Okay, I’m going to inquire into ‘Who wants relationship?’ or ‘Who has trouble with the relationship?’ And say, ‘Who am I?’ ‘Oh, nobody. Oh, no trouble. Finished, done’. You see? Like that. But it’s not like this. Really look. And say, ‘Whose relationship is it?’ This thought comes, ‘I should have the perfect partner.’ or ‘I don’t have a good partner.' ‘Who is this one who wants a better partner?’ See, really look, with full integrity. And we keep looking until this thought replaying in our head actually has no juice left. In this way, then we are not postponing anymore. But really, really look. And this identity will be divested with so much past belief. The sticky ones are those which have been nourished in the past, with our own belief. So those are the stickiest ones. Those we are looking at now and really pulling them in, and shining our own light on it and saying, ‘What are you talking about? Who are you talking about?’ You find that there is nobody there. Then next time when this thought comes, it’s not as sticky. Then you say, ‘Okay, I can choose not to believe it.' I-as-Consciousness, of course. So, then as belief is divested more and more and more, then you find very naturally that attention doesn’t want to go so much to this. Then very naturally you feel that attention is resting more peacefully at home, and it is very rare for belief to go and pick up some ideas. So, in this way, the two powers of Consciousness which lead to this pretend play of person-person are themselves being used to come back from this play. This I feel is the simplest, simplest 'way', if we can call it that, to really come to this discovery of what we are. The discovery, like I said, is always Right Now. It is the dropping off of conditions which seems to play in time.

Attention is resting more peacefully at home, and it is very rare for belief to go and pick up some ideas. So, in this way, the two powers of Consciousness which lead to this pretend play of person-person are themselves being used to come back from this play. This I feel is the simplest, simplest 'way', if we can call it that, to really come to this discovery of what we are. The discovery, like I said, is always Right Now. It is the dropping off of conditions which seems to play in time. And therefore we must not be so concerned about 'How it is happening for me?' 'Why I don’t have this laughing/crying experience?' 'Why I don’t have this awakening experience, head exploding, none of that?’ Because for some, it [conditioning] goes in big chunks, and when they are going, it can seem like ‘wow, wow!’ And for some, it goes slowly; slowly it is dissolving.

So, today is Easter, isn’t it? This actually is the resurrection of the Being. The Being which was pretending to be personal got crucified, and now this Being is resurrected which is not personal at all. It is free from all of this conditioning. So, this is the true Easter, resurrection of Consciousness, of Being; unassociated, unburdened with ideas, with conditioning. And sometimes actually, it has to be said, we come to this point where even the idea that ‘I hope this is the last thing! I hope I don’t waver from this’…, even that is sometimes the only burden remaining actually; the only conditioned idea remaining. Although, for a while, it seemed to have served us because it lead to this non-tolerance of anything that the mind was saying. But sometimes, this also becomes a message from the mind saying, ‘Just make sure it’s done, okay?’

The good thing is that this recognition, because now you have checked over and over, this recognition is so clear that it is not going anywhere. It’s really not going anywhere. It’s available every instant to you, isn’t it? It’s just that sometimes some conditioning can try to act up every once in a while a little bit and that’s why we have Satsang. So, when the season starts for me, it’s continuous for months, Monday to Friday. No room for the mind to escape. I feel very clearly now we have defined this so-called spiritual journey. And I feel very happy to be able to share these things so simply because then the mind cannot really play around too much with all of this.

Yes, the thing the mind is trying to grab is this awareness and it´s becoming clearer and clearer and clearer that.... you said yesterday, 'If the Awareness moved...' I was just contemplating it and... Anything moves there is awareness of it.

Exactly.

It´s so obvious that nothing ever happens to the Awareness. To 'I'...

Yes, and nothing has ever happened.

That´s why I don´t want to get so caught up in this refinement in this because from the point of the true place it doesn´t really matter.

It really doesn´t matter. From the point of view of the true place it has never mattered actually. But like I said the role that has being played in Satsang is from here to aid the cleaning up of all of these conditions. But I am very careful also to mention that nothing ever happened to Being. Even with the addition of these conditions they have only been pretenses. That´s why I said, the power of belief is only the power to pretend. Because never has anything affected this presence. This presence has always remained as pure. It is only given itself this power to play personally and now is done with that playing and it is pretending to be in rehab for itself. And ridding itself of this addition to playing personally. But nothing has ever really happened even to Presence. So Awareness, of course, is out of the question.

I am very happy actually that there are so many in the room who have inquired so much that they have the ears to hear this what I am saying today. Because really we´ve looked at things that are very, very primal level. And I can sense that so many are following what I am saying. This brings great joy here actually. Very happy.