The dog chasing its own tail: the sufferer wants the suffering

So when we pick up the idea that I want to be completely free of my suffering, it is the the pose of the sufferer which is completely non existent because you know very well that if I ask you who is that I you will in a moment see that there isn't such a such a one. Yes father that's that's true and it is it is also seen many a times here but that is perhaps the toughest part here what I feel to let go of that suffering identity you know. And many a times I see that although it was it says I want to be free from the suffering it itself wants the suffering many a times it feels like that you know it doesn't want to. It doesn't want to leave that suffering and also it's saying I want to be free from the suffering you know it's it's like that catch 22 what we say. So that's also many a times it's spotted there. Yeah the dog chasing its own tail and go out.