I can't surrender, I can't inquire - then what?

Sometimes rarely someone will come and say, but, okay, you can know, surrender also and inquiry also, father, I can't really do, and say, okay, how is it if I tell you to just stay with your friends, just stay with your friends, you know, at least during that time, you are not playing with the idea I am something, so mindfulness comes from the same thing, you are not picking the idea that I am something, by just bringing out and keeping your attention without it, someone says, okay, I can't even do that, so then the monsters in their kindness said, okay, let me give you a mantra, I will energize this mantra and give to you, because it has a resonance with your energy system as it is today, so let me, on the basis of your energy system give you an energized mantra, so that when it resonates, and the mantra it reverberates within your being, it seems to clean up all these notions that I am something, so then we go down, down, and all this idea that I am something,