What if I don't want to go beyond joy?

I have to say that most of the times when I check into myself really deeply, I discover that I'm joy, you know, and I guess this resistance is coming that I'm now supposed to let go of that, like I'm not, I'm supposed to go beyond that, but what if I don't want to go beyond that, what if I am actually happy in that, in that deep joy that I am feeling, you know, see joy and you have to tell me what kind of joy is it, because joy is a very broad way, there is like an objective joy that you get from tasting a nice sweet tasting fruit, that's an objective joy which comes and goes, there's a joy of your own presence, which is beautiful, it's not objective, it is not coming and going, so if you're speaking of this joy, it doesn't have to go anywhere, in fact it is the perfume of your presence, natural fragrance of it, so if this is the joy that you're speaking of, no trouble, but if you're speaking of that objective joy which comes and goes with the coming and going of objects, you see, then you know that you already know that it is going to coming and going, so I cannot rely on that always, but the joy of your presence is the stable one