15 years of satsang and I still just trust

I'll tell you a secret. I've been sharing satsang for so many years, 14-15 years. Not one day have I felt like I know what I'm doing. Not one day have I felt like that. I just have to trust. You say that you trust that he sent the job to you. Do you feel like he's capable of doing the job through you, then you don't have to know.