For many years I looked for I Am, I couldn't find it

So, let us look at why I am saying it is a question of faith to be in God's presence. It is a question of faith to be empty to ourselves. Even when it feels like his presence is not palpable, he does not seem tangible. So, I am saying that in this life, how it appeared to be is that for many years I look for this, I am, I look for this presence, I look for this earth, I couldn't find it. And yet I continued with my spiritual practice and it was revealed. So, who revealed it? God only can do it, only his grace can do it. Now, if I hadn't been praying to God and those prayers were not being heard, if I wasn't inquiring and his grace was not operating, then he was not there to make the revelation. So, the fact is that even when he seems to be behind a wall, a will, be hidden, not apparent,