What about God? When you are open and empty — not as a distinct entity, not even as yourself

Now you may say okay fine, I cannot suffer this way. If I am open and empty, suffering is to be closed, is to resist, open and empty is the absence of suffering, but what about God? I came to spirituality to find God in, when you are open and empty that which you are not as a distinct entity away from you, not even as yourself, beyond any of these considerations. So, open and empty is worth it because not only the recognition that you are looking for, is fully available, but also the worldly struggle, problem, resistance, conditioning, we are empty of all of that and if you do not want anything out of this, if you do not want