There's such a heavy sadness here. It feels wrong to be sitting in your presence with it.

There's such a sadness here, such a very heavy sadness, and it feels so wrong to be sitting in your presence and to be feeling sadness. It feels like it's actually the opposite of how things should be, and so I just wanted to say it to you and to bring it to you and that's all I wanted to say. You have to play this game of noting and I'm noting the mic today, that's why it's causing a bit. That's why you're welcome, you have to come as you are, you don't have to be a certain way. In fact, it's better that you come to Satsang if there's this feeling, some feeling which is like this, it's better that you come. I didn't want to be in to be hanging out with my grumpy face. And I left for a bit, but when there was a space again, I just felt I have to come back in