Mara itself kept saying integrity is most important

I would have easily visualized some sense of presence, and held on to that and say, see, I have to just be with that visual, visual of them. So something kept me honest, integral sense, even if it was Mara itself kept saying, integrity is the most important, integrity is the most important. Like, no, till I am absolutely clear in my heart, that this is being this, I am not going to just say, okay, I am with my sense of I am this. Okay, because a question like that can seem like a beginner question and spirituality, especially this kind of satsang, but actually it's the fundamental question, and it doesn't matter if you take 50 years to answer it. So if my live tier is doing like, can I stop being, can I stop being? Okay, so, but we can really dive into this question. And the revelation of course will happen at the same point of revelation. So the ones are very beautifully that he senses that it's like a ground, like a substratum of the waking state. It doesn't go anywhere except when we go into deep sleep.