What Is the ‘Me’ Story That You Are Going to Pickup Next?

This is the whole game - what is the ‘me’ story that you are going to pick up next?’ Is this a story about getting stuck again? This is the story about Freedom? Is it the story about almost there? The last thing that we can go to the questions is that ‘it is possible to have heard everything I have just said like in an intellectual and conceptual way and that your mind can use as the spiritual checker guy.’ I want to just place this caution also and many times when it is being heard conceptually like that because that is our habit to try and hear and to understand, to try and hear and to understand then that conceptual understandings many times can be mistaken to be what I am pointing to. This is very subtle sort of topic because naturally some of what I am saying because I am speaking in a language which all of you understand, some understanding will obviously happen but don't take that understanding which is conceptual to be the understanding that I am pointing to. So when I say ‘don't understand’ like what can you do to not understand? If you do not listen then I will say ‘listen prior to listening.’ So that can seem very Zen then. So one hand is saying ‘listen’ and second he is saying ‘do not understand.’ So what I am really saying is that ‘allow that process to happen naturally what is happening either understanding or not understanding.’ I am saying ‘that that is not important to me. What you have understood conceptually or not is not in the least important to me.’ That which I am pointing to is very, very straigh{orward but you can seem to miss it if you start relying on the conceptual understanding as if that is the Truth, yes? I will repeat this [Smile] and understand it or not it does not matter. So but I will repeat this so when I say ‘don't understand but listen’ it can seem like there is a contradiction there. So what I am really trying to say is that ‘I don't need you to understand what I am saying. Whether you understand conceptually or not is not what is important to me.’ It is important to me that as it has been spoken you follow along. When I say ‘contemplate’, I do not mean think about it or not understand what I am saying. I am saying contemplation is to look [Clicking of fingers]. So when I am saying [Clicking of fingers] ‘are you aware now?’ Look instantly [Clicking of fingers] are you aware? Who is aware of the perception of this hand? You are. So do not understand the question, don't understand the answer or if that understanding is happening let it go on, its okay. But there's a deeper understanding, there is an Intuitive- Insight which is all that I care about and that all of you have. All of you can follow. It is not difficult. So when I say ‘listen, but don't understand’ it doesn't matter what your intellect is making out of this. If right now I ask all of you to repeat what I have said to you, what are the highlights? Everybody is going to say some very different things. Even if you think that you completely understood because what your mind will assimilate is very different from what I am actually pointing to. So let that process happen or not happen the way you say to me ‘I have understood today for the first time everything you've said’ okay. They have not understood anything that you have said today, okay. Because that level where you can or cannot is not what I am talking about. What I am talking about is more direct, is inescapable. It is just you cannot miss it. Are you aware now? You cannot miss it, unless you are finding the answer in the conceptual understanding. So if you value your conceptual-understanding that will only become the checker-guy and the spiritual ego, which will check, which will make life miserable for you, checking constantly taking your own report card and also judging everybody around you. So that will happen only probably usefulness of it is that it may serve as if it is a reminder of the pointers that you have heard in Satsang, besides that this spiritual ego is the most oppressive no. Not just for yourself but also for your friends and family. So that is the opposite of freedom. So do not rely on what you have understood aeer listening to the words. Let that happen on its own you be unconcerned. So this is really not that kind of classroom where aeer class you can have a conversation and say ‘but father said like that. What did you think he meant? What did he?’ No, no, I think he meant no I… It does not matter what either of you think because what I am saying is not capturable in meaning. So do not try to decipher what is being meant like you cannot decipher what is being meant in a question like ‘are you aware now?’ What is the meaning? So the Truth cannot be interpreted in multiple ways and I am pointing to the Truth and it cannot be understood in our heads. So at best, the head can be just a storehouse for a couple of reminders of what you hear in Satsang some pointers which bring you back to your heart. So stop churning your head as if you will find some Truth there you can use it as a cupboard where you may store one or two pointers. [Smile] At best even that you don't need your heart will point you in the right direction always but you have to give it some usefulness that is all you can say about it.