The Power of Returning to God: Acts of Love

The other thing to be careful about is expectation during emptiness. Because, 'Oh, Ananta says this will happen, this will happen. I'm just sitting here getting bored, nothing is happening,' is it? And that is very good for humility. God knows how much to show us, to give us. He knows if He gives us too much, suddenly we'll get very proud immediately. So He knows best. He also knows when to make us proud and get slapped. So it's not that He won't make us proud. So all that learning process is important for us, but we can trust Him. There is no guarantee, and that is why spirituality is the most crushing for the ego, because no matter what you do, ultimately it is a question of Grace. What He provides to you is His Grace, His Mercy. We are never entitled to anything from Him, just like a grain of sand is never entitled to anything from the sun. And our relationship with God is smaller than that. We are smaller than that, whatever we take ourselves to be.

So, in those two hours, St. John of the Cross said that in that time where you had a very distracted time, you actually did a hundred acts of love towards God. If you were undistracted, then you would just do one act of love towards God. But every time you return to God, it is an act of love that you did. So beautiful, so beautiful. So then, we are not to get disheartened because some days are very difficult. There's so much happening in the world, there's so much. But that is our faith in God. Would we rather that God runs our life or that our mind runs our life? So, to live in God's will is to empty ourselves of our will and to wait patiently for Him to guide us.