Let Go Of All Ideas

[Reading from chat] Dear Anantaji, here some confusion comes about how to move in the dynamic with the loss of interest in the personal story. There’s no interest in the usual things of job, etcetera, for the last two to three years. Now, some energy seems to be coming, but there is hesitation about taking deliberate action, in case it is just the restlessness of the mind. Can you please speak something about that? So, what is happening is that in the last two to three years, what it sounds like, there was immersion in this Satsang and this self-discovery, and now it feels like some life energy seems to be coming. But now a fear is coming that is this my restless mind driving me to get distracted or is this really some just beautiful life force coming, and work can restart or begin again. There seems to be some enthusiasm for it again now. So, I feel like the best way to answer this would be to use the example that happened here. Here, after meeting Guruji [Sri Mooji] for many months there was this feeling to just sit. [Smiles] Just sitting around; you can’t even call it meditating. Guruji, of course, has spoken about his times of just sitting, as well. So, here also it happened that I wanted to just sit, not even that I am going to decide today that ‘I am going to just sit’ or something. But you have the sense of what I am saying. And I was very happy, very happy. But family, of course, started to get worried. What is going to happen, you have two young children. You know you have to take care of your responsibilities and all of these things. There was a sense of worry also. And then Guruji reminded me that this is natural for it to happen and the family can get worried about it, but remind them that what is good for your self-discovery can never be bad for any of your family or for the entire world. That grace which is bringing you to this truth is also operating to take care of family, and this has never turned out badly for anyone. So, he sent me this reminder. And then, in a few months [like you said] some energy came back and there was no fighting it. When it came, it just played itself out. In fact, this is my day-to-day life now. [Smiles] When that energy is there, something responds to all the e-mails, does the investing, does the whatever need to be done. Even interviews I take for people wanting a job. We have weekly reviews. All these things happen. And when there is no energy, then something is just able to rest. And, there is a great intelligence that is moving all of this also. It is not that when it is time to rest, then suddenly this energy will come and we work. And when the meetings are happening at work then it withdraws. [Leans head to one side as if sleeping] Literally, it does not happen like that. I find that the intelligence which is moving this life also gives the energy whenever it is needed and withdraws it when it is not needed. So, we can trust this life energy, life force. What you have to check is just that you’re not falling into too many ideas about yourself. You are not planning too much and saying, ‘I am just following my life energy [clenches fists] and I am just going to do this now.’ This kind of thing is a very innocent, simple way of being. You are not even making a separation between work-life and life-life. You are not trying to balance work-life. You’ve let go of all of these ideas and you’re allowing life to unfold. And life as it unfolds, is subject to this movement of this prana-energy which is there and gets used this way. So, do not trouble yourself by trying to take any position about it. And if the kind of work that you do gives you the flexibility to be very active one day and not-so-active the next day, but again active the day after that, then that is good, because then you do not have these barriers that you have to live up to eight or ten hours of work everyday or something like that. Sometimes you will do sixteen, sometimes you will do two, sometimes you will do zero. It does not really matter. So those kind of work options, if they are available for you, those may be better than those that demand this nine-to-five sort of being there. But, if actually grace is bringing that to you, that is also okay. There’s no real trouble because this supreme intelligence, which is running this life, can take care of all of these situations also. Just do not give it too much to your idea of doer-ship and sense of individuality. Just remain empty, being in this surrendered state, and it will unfold. And don’t expect either great outcomes or terrible outcomes. Sometimes, those who get back to work, end up doing great work; sometimes, they don’t find too much joy in doing what they’re doing, then they leave it again. And either is fine. You don’t have to have any expectation of what would be designated as successful or unsuccessful.