I See Only My Being Without Any Limitation

Now, before I'll look at the rest of the question, Awareness itself does not have attributes or quality. It does not have any attributes or qualities. That which has the attributes and qualities, at least in the terminology that we use, is this manifest aspect called Consciousness...Being- ness...I am-ness. And within it, that I Am-ness, there's the play of all of this manifest. But that Self which we are pointing to, That is Nirguna -without any qualities. To have any difference individual to individual or any sort of uniqueness you need to have at least one quality. Now many times those who come to Satsang like this start imagining One Awareness like most of you may start imagining Awareness to be like dark empty space. But it is not that. Something witnesses even that. Something is aware even that which is not a thing in itself. We just have to use the term ‘something’. That which is aware of even ‘dark and empty’, that Itself is neither dark or empty. Although we may point it using the term ‘empty’ but don't take that representation to be real. Your Reality, that which is your Unchanging Reality is so much beyond your mind can fathom....So much beyond what the mind can fathom. It's neither dark nor light, Neither big nor small, Neither up nor down, Neither in time nor in space. Don't try to understand it with your intellect because you're intellect is burdened by these concepts. Somewhere in your heart the words are meeting you. The words are meeting you because they are arising from there actually. That's where you meet the Master, that's where you meet your Self, your Being. So satsang is the that device which Consciousness has made for itself where it is meeting it's own source, it's own essence as Pure Awareness. That which is prior even to perception, [Silence] independent even of perception. [Silence] So for uniqueness, for individualization there has to be this perceptive play of qualities but your Reality is prior even to perception. That's why I keep asking this question, (holding his hand up) 'Who is aware of the perception of this hand? And how do you know it is you?' Very naturally everyone will say ‘It is I that is aware.’ Did you have a perception of that 'I '? ‘No, you cannot perceive that 'I'.’ Is it just an intellectual report that it is 'I' that is aware? No it's not intellectual report. In fact it is very direct report. Even a child will make it. So how is that 'I', which is aware of the perception, how is that known? tiow do you know that? How do you know yourself? Everyone has this Self knowledge. But the mind has convinced everyone that they are just lost individuals but actually they are in reality only Awareness itself, as one Awareness. So that's why sometimes for those who are new to Satsang, then the dream metaphor is very helpful. Because we may feel for longtime that there are so many individuals in this dream and each individual seems to have their own quality. But when we awaken from the dream we realize that the entire dream was within our Being. Within our Consciousness. S1: Is the Awareness is the same for all us or is it individual's awareness is different from other?

Individualization actually never happened. It is the same.

Now, we don't have to worry so much as about this rebirth theory. Because in my experience that seeming separation between Paramatma [Self] and Jeevatma [Individual self] which means that there is a very popular spiritual framework in India which talks about how there is a great Being, Big Consciousness and how that separates itself to little little pieces of consciousness who then go running about (actually I am not saying it in a derisive way, I am just trying to represent it) then they separate and then they run around and they suffer because they made themselves small and their job is to come back to the Big Consciousness and merge back in to that. Now I have to say that it's beautiful representation and it attracts many, many, many to spirituality. But if I have to speak more directly from my experience I have to say that in the discovery I never saw this splitting up happen. I see only my Being which does not have any limitation. I don't see any dividing line, I don't see anything which is contained within this body and another thing contained in that body. All of it appears within my Being. All these perceptions, all these things are appearing within my Being. So that's why I speak from that direct experience. Although even that is just a framework and the true insight which happens with Master's Grace is really inexpressible. But to try communicate it as directly as possible, I have to say that this seeming individualization of the Consciousness into limited aspects of Consciousness who then have to merge back together into one Consciousness is not my experience. It is only recognized that this Consciousness itself was playing as if it has separated itself. And once that delusion got wiped clean, once that misidentification with that wrong idea got wiped clean, I saw that no actual movement is needed to happen, no actual merging needed to happen. It always was as it was.