From Consciousness to God: A Deepening in Love

So now the real question then is: is it a deepening which is happening here in Ananta's life where it seems like to mention a word in satsang without saying God seems almost wasted? To make Consciousness seem almost scientific in some way—that when we go inside, then we feel the presence of Consciousness there and Consciousness arises out of awareness—all of that is almost pseudo-scientific in some way because the language doesn't include awareness or Consciousness, especially Consciousness, not as a living being but as a scientific phenomena like gravitation or electricity, you see. So if you open the electrical circuitry, you will find mechanics and the electricity flows through that. If you touch any of the live wires, you will feel an electric shock. So then it can become like that, where you do the inquiry often enough and you'll come to a place where there is Consciousness, so you will meet that Consciousness, you see.

But in that Consciousness, when spoken about just in terms of almost pseudo-science, we miss a lot of the beauty of Consciousness itself in the form of His love for us. Firstly, deep, deep, deep, faithful, undying love for us as His children, as His beloveds, whichever construct we want to use that in. Then His intelligence. We may sometimes start to think of Consciousness like nature. 'Oh, nature, nature is doing all of this.' So it's like, almost like, what is nature? Is it God? No, not really. Is it scientific? No, not really. So it's like a pseudo-scientific term which is like, 'Oh, nature is like this' or 'The universe does this, this is what the universe wants.' Many times we use these terms, we are conveying that it has some sort of intelligence, but let's not go as far as to take it to be a living being called God, the Supreme Living Being, you see.

So something is either scared of that or has some conditioning about it, or just because it's a different stream of terminology, you see, which is not popular in modern Advaita. Then it can seem like, 'Oh, but now is this the Bhakti path? But I was on the Gyan path.' All these kind of confusions can happen. But can I really say that it is a deepening? I don't know. I feel like I'm just becoming more and more a beginner every day. But what is seeming clear to me is that if I can't have this kind of love with this Being in my heart, then it doesn't feel like this life would be worth anything at all. So if I'm not feeling this kind of love, joy, insight, peace, contentment because He is here, you see, then it's seeming like, what are we doing in spirituality anyway? It's like going for the best seven-course meal but just having some celery.

But somewhere here, this expression started to change and it became more about praising God, giving Him the credit for all the grace, seeking His blessings and love and mercy in the process of a deepening spirituality as well. How did that happen? I don't know whether it is good or not. I don't care, because the love that I feel, I don't feel could be leading me wrong. Do I know in my mind, in my intellect, whether one is the higher path and one is the lower path? I don't know. I don't feel like we should be caught up in those things anyway. But what I want to give all my children in some way, and even those friends, brothers, and sisters who just want to listen for a short time, is that that whose presence is in your heart is not just some electrical brain circuitry playing out or some scientific natural principle playing out. It is the supernatural One. It is the Holy One. It is Him who people over centuries have called Ram, Krishna, Jesus, Allah. It is that One who sits in your heart, the absolute light of this universe. And He loves you, She loves you so. And He is, She is, whichever way you want to look at Her, available to be with you in whichever way your heart truly desires. Right here in your heart, in your spiritual core, after the layer of body sensation, thoughts, emotions, all of that, as you dig deeper into your core, you find the holy presence which is His.