Dissolving the 'Me' in Love for God

What does it take? The sages have told us, the saints have told us that it is probably the most difficult thing we can undertake in our life. Why is it so difficult? Because we have to transcend the central character in our narrative, who is the 'me'. And this 'me' is the chameleon. Rather than transcending it, it changes shape. So from a worldly 'me' it becomes a spiritual 'me': 'How am I doing spiritually?' You see? From a spiritual 'me' it becomes a parental 'me': 'How are my children doing?' From a parental 'me' it becomes a working 'me': 'How am I doing at work and how much money am I making?' So this 'me' keeps transforming itself. But to transcend it is very rare and probably is the most difficult thing. But without the intention to transcend this 'me', the sages have told us that the lane is too narrow. There can either be 'me' or there can be God. Therefore, really the spiritual quest is about the quest of dissolving this 'me' in a deep love for God, or dissolving this 'me' in the company of the truth, in the insight of that which is true, which may sound like there are two different things but actually they are one. And how they are one is too difficult to explain; we have to taste it together.

So how much of this 'me' are we willing to let go of? Put simply, spirituality is a journey of deepening relationship with God where we are falling deeper and deeper in love with Him, accompanied by this dissolution of this 'me' more and more. But it is almost like a question of consent. How much of this 'me' am I willing to let go of? Where do I draw the boundary? And to go one step, try to go one step beyond what your mind's boundary is, is a risk which is called faith. So spirituality is not safe. Spirituality is not easy. Spirituality is not stress relief. It doesn't mean that you'll become more stressed. The byproducts of God's presence we all know, so all the good things will come, but it is not about those. It is about the truth and it is about God.