By Your Refusing To Leave Your True Home, You Cannot Trouble Yourself

Whose Presence Is Here What kind of power of denial must it be, that within you lives the greatest Being in this universe, not in this, beyond this universe. Literally, within you the Presence of that which is the highest, beyond all thought and imagination and visualization. It is already there. Presence of that One is no different from that One itself. It's not that ‘Presence’ and ‘It’, as separate. Its ‘Presence’ is ‘It’. So, that lives within you, as the Light of creation, as the guide which can guide you on everything, as the answer to any question that you may ever have. So, then how is it possible that we are not rejoicing? So, either this is not true, either this is just make belief, hocus-pocus stuff or there must be a power within us also to deny this, to deny the greatest gift ever, the greatest Presence ever. So, the human condition is a seeming tug of war between these two powers, the power to deny- which has no positive outcomes, it's just a denial, just the voice of limitation and the Greatest force in this creation and beyond creation. In fact, that force which is responsible for creation, that is already here. So, most of humanity strangely is familiar with the voice of limitation and that seems comfortable and at home. We seem at home in that. But, what about this Divinity? Is it there or not ? So, if it is there, then what are we on about? What are we on about? Between these two, is there a ‘Little old me’ that is shuttling about like a tennis ball between the two ends? No, it is not so. The first one itself is playing this game, this Leela. And to play it, it has designed the denial to make it seem as if It's Reality can be hidden. So, all is up to you, it's completely up to you. Papaji [Punjaji] says very simply, he said, “You need nothing to be happy. But, to be unhappy you need at least one idea”. The mind makes you believe that you can be unhappy just like that. Just like that, in your original state you can be unhappy. It is not possible. For unhappiness, you always need a precursor. For, happiness what is already your gift, is already apparent. It must be our blessing for the whole world and all the people in it, that they must come into God's light. Because, without coming into God's light, it is like living but actually never lived. Because, living like you are a bundle of food, is not life. That you are just this flesh, it was born and will die, is not life. So, if you are alive now with God's light, how can you bear it that your brothers and sisters are not? So, we must bless everyone. Today, turn towards the Light and let go of the ignorance which is clouding the Light, clouding the mind. But, blessing them is a good start, but it is not enough. Your life must also represent that. You have the gift. Now, to still go to the voice of the false is ignorance of a higher variety. It is ignorance of a higher variety than those who have not come to God, who have not met God in their heart. At least, they have an excuse. Because, all of this to them may sound like, it is just made up fairy tales. So, firstly confirm to yourself that, is your insight true or is it false? Is, who you are meeting in your heart, is that the holy Presence or is that some just biochemical reaction? Is that just something you're seeming brain is manifesting for you? And, if you have doubts like this then, put them, bring them in your light, bring them to God's light itself. But, confirm this to yourselves that, “God Lives Within Me”. And, we will come to what that means in a moment. Because, God obviously doesn't live within a bundle of flesh. A bundle of you is not God's home. So, God's Presence lives within you, but that you is not an object. But, we'll come to that in a moment. First, confirm that, that which you call ‘I am’ is who ‘am’? Whose ‘am’ness is that? Who is that? Who is that? Who is here? And, if you don't know, don't you feel like that question must take dominance over every other question you're trying to resolve? Or are you willing to let just this one, ‘Some mysterious presence is with me, I don't know. Let me go about my life’. That sounds super absurd to me. That there is a Presence ‘I am’. That is apparent to all of us. Isn't it? Those of you who are really new to Satsang, we can talk about this in a moment. But, I'm talking to most of you where it is undeniable- ‘I am’. Yes or no? Now, either the mind has succeeded in convincing you that, that Presence belongs to a body and is under the service of the mind. tiow you recognize that, that Presence is unlimited, it is beyond boundary, beyond birth and death? Which is it? So, which is it? We must confirm these things. We cannot be half-hearted about this stuff anymore. Who is living here? How can any other thing be important? So, without you confirming this, the flip that I wanted to make is not going to happen. When you are still in doubt, it is not going to happen. So, first you have to confirm that it is God's Presence. It is God's Light. It is a higher Being than you can ever imagine. And, I am already claiming it for you. I'm already making the claim on your behalf. You have to follow with full faith and explore this for yourself. Because, without faith you cannot even explore it. You will put it in a construct which is too limited. So, a voice that you trust, that you call ‘Father’ is making the claim for you. And, if you are unwilling to follow that with faith, then there is no point saying ‘Father’. Then we are just coffee table friends, at best. But, if you say Guru or Father and your Guru is telling you that it is God itself which you call 'my Presence'. And, that should be the center of your exploration. No other problem in the world is worth resolving as much as this is. So, drop your attachment to other things in the world which are going to die soon and get to the confirmation of the eternal existence within you. Nothing else is worth it. Especially not any sort of spiritual sightseeing. Or sometimes I experience peace and then just comes and then it goes away. All these spiritual sightseeing is not worthwhile at all. But then, this happens when I listen to you, then I find peace or someday actually disturbs me even more. It doesn't matter. There is a ‘Being’ within you. Till you can resolve who that is, all the rest is all surface level nonsense. Whose Presence is that? The sages have told us that your Atma is the Paramatma. Your Atma and Brahman are one and the same. The Supreme and the Presence within you is one and the same. And what are we going on about? That ‘me’ which we are going on about has never existed, never been born. God's Light is here and our doubt always is, but what about me? Nothing about you because you don't exist. So, stop treating the non-existent as the existent and the existent as the non-existent. And, this is the flip that we need to make. Once you recognize that, this Presence is here and either on faith or on inquiry, if you find that this Presence is God, then this life must belong to that Presence and not to the non-existent one. It is not a discovery so that you can get into a relationship with it. It is a discovery so that you can chop off your own head. A head full of knowledge. But, that knowledge has the narrative, where the central character is a non-existent ‘me’. So, come to the holy Presence within you, the living Atma within you. And, know that it is the only Existent. There is nothing else existent here for it to have a relationship with. So, when the sages said God or ‘me’, not God and ‘me’, they are saying it very very literally. Even now you may be asking, so how am I receiving this? What's happening to me as I hear these words? Can I live like this? It has nothing to do with any of that. Nothing to do with any of that. How much I change my life because of this? Forget about yourself, the false self. Forget about the non-existent and see that the Presence that is here, is beyond any gift that you can ever receive in the world. It is the most absurd exchange that we make. The mind offers us what? Even in the best stories what does it offer us? I know about the terrible stories, ‘poor me’.. But, even the best stories, what is on offer? You'll become what? King of this world? You will become the first world president? All the countries will unite and you will become the president of the world and then what will happen? You die. What is an offer that you are exchanging God for it? You will become the most enlightened sages that ever lived? You will give birth to ten Ashtavakras. What is it? What is it that you want like that? That which every true Sage is in service to, at the feet of, that is already in your heart. You don't have the capacity to desire more than what you already have. It's not that you should not want. But, the problem is that, the instrument with which you can want, what it has to offer cannot come close to what you already have. So, to want them in spite of that is only possible in a delusion about what already ‘Is’. Are you hearing me? So, how is it possible to want? Oh! I want to be special, I want to be this, I want to be that, I want to be seen, I want to be something, I want to be free, I want everyone to know I am free. All of these things can only happen in denial of what Is already there. Once you say that ‘God is’, now say the rest. Especially if you say only ‘God is’, then say, God wants like this, God wants to be seen, God.. Is it possible? So, first to want, to desire, you must be in denial of what already ‘Is’. And, that is why I'm saying that don't leave this exploration halfway. There is a Living Presence within you. If it just came, if it just came then, won't you drop everything else and say, who is this? Who has come inside me? Suppose, you are all dead, like walking zombies and suddenly the Presence is here. Would you say, “Oh! let me attend to my work first and then I'll see. Perhaps, if I have time I'll see who this is”? It's not possible. Who is this? And, once you recognize this, who This is, how is it possible to value anything in comparison to This? Because, God is here. If God is here, then how are we even talking all this? So, we have taken the unreal to be real and the real to be unreal. Because, if an aspect of God which we recognize objectively as God, as a form of the Lord, walked into the room just now, then we would not even need to have this conversation. But, you are getting a more intimate Insight, a truer Insight, which is beyond coming and going. But that you don't value. Because, we don't value the real, the unchanging, we value the changing. So, some will be waiting for spiritual experiences, some presence of some feeling, something like that. And, in all of that, looking for the real within the unreal, you're missing …we are spending the whole of our whole life missing the real. This is the whole game of Maya. And, moment after moment after moment, days after days after days, weeks after weeks after weeks, months after months, to years after years, we spend like this. And, soon it is time out, time over. Lifetime after lifetime. The one that you want to become, is going to die anytime soon. Remember the lifetime of Lakshmana not getting off the horse of individuality, of pride, and putting another ring into this Sage’s vase. There is no clue that all of you have not been provided. There is no clue that has not been provided. But if your only lamentation continues to be, but the mind says, but the minds says, but the mind says. I know what the mind says, tell me what the Heart is saying. And, if you did not have the power to switch out from your mind to your heart then why would I repeat this for 12 years? Where are you trying to get clarity? Where are you trying to understand? I'm talking about the living Presence. Where are you hearing all of this? 'I'm still in but I don't get it'. Are you denying that, ‘You Are’? So, there would be no hope in this Leela, if there were no power in us to follow a higher voice than the mind's voice. If these two voices were made available -the mind and intuition, the ego and God's light, the ego and the Heart, the head and the Heart. But, the second one you couldn't go to anyway, then why would God create it? Just to tease you? Oh! It’s there, but you have no power to go to it. Every Sage has told us, Bhagawan [Ramana Maharishi] has told us, as long as you think you have any choice in anything, make the choice not to go with the stream of thoughts. Make the choice not to go with the stream of thoughts. Was he fooling us? You may say, Ananta is a fool, he is a liar. Was Bhagawan fooling us? Is he a liar? Papaji said, ‘Keep quite’. Was he talking about your physical mouth? He was talking about the absence of egoic disease. Don't buy into your mental notions. Keep quiet. Guruji says, ‘Don't identify’. He has told us clearly that you have attention and belief and using which you identify. Don't identify. I keep saying, ‘Don't believe your next thought’. And, if you buy into, 'Oh! but my mind says, but it happens automatically and the belief identification happens automatically' Do you really believe that all of us are that stupid? I have spent twelve years of my life telling you not to believe your thoughts and if your defense after 12 years is, I can’t help it, somehow it’s happening automatically, I must be the most foolish teacher you can ever go to. So, I'm provoking you of course to switch out of this limited mind and I'm introducing the fact to you that you are Consciousness, you are not hostage to any mind. The mind is under your power. You are not under it. If you were not God or an aspect of God, then we could not have this conversation. Then Satsang would not be Consciousness speaking with Consciousness. But, because you do have that power, but you're still enthralled with what it is offering and you keep denying that. Then, I have to provoke you. Don't be enthralled by the mind’s temptations and positions. Nothing that it says is true. And, if you use the content of what your mind is saying to audit your state, there will be no greater foolishness than that. So, how are you right now? The most popular question in the world. How are you right now? Where will you go for the answer? Does anyone say, ‘I am so good. God is here’. Or I am going to say, ‘Hey I don’t know, this happened and then this, I wanted this job and I wanted this girlfriend and you know..’ Who are you using? What tool are you using to determine you are that in which ‘God Is’ and your report is about what? You ate some food and you keep reporting about that. So, where will you go for a true report? What is happening with you? How are you? What are you? Where are you? Who are you? Where can you go for the true answer? So, what am I saying? I'm saying that this is not about reforming your mind. I'm not expecting that your mind will change. At best, what will happen is that in the intellect aspect of your mind, you start judging things for God and not against God. That is the best outcome we can expect in the mind. But, You as Consciousness can recognize that there is a higher power calling you from within your Heart. You have to give up wanting to be right. Suppose, you die fully convinced with all your mind's nonsense and you convinced yourself and everyone around you that you are right. So, what will happen? Fully, fully you convince yourself that you are right and not only yourself, and this will never happen, but suppose everybody around you also will think that you are right and you die the rightest in your head. You were right about what you thought, you were right about your judgments, you were right about your master, you were right about the teaching, you were right about everything, you were right about how life is, everything. But, it's all here (points to the head) conceptual. That's how all the zombies are living anyway, thinking that they are right. Get out of this righteousness. It's not true righteousness. It is only pride. Get out of it and step into the humility of your Heart. Don't care about ‘me right’, care about God's light. I'm happy, I'm sharing this with you because, this morning as I opened my page of the notes, page for the contemplation to be posted. Something felt to refer to Narayana Bhkathi Sutra. Some of you may be aware of this and one sentence attracted my attention there, which was, ‘God hates pride and loves humility’. And, I was going to post the conversation about that but then it just occurred to me in my heart that the children will not understand this, like God hating pride. Because, may be it is better said and explained rather than put in words. It's not that God hates, it's not that God hates. But our pride is blocking us from God. Our wanting to be ‘right’, I need to be seen, I need to be special, is blocking that absence of egoic beliefs that I'm talking about, is stopping you from becoming quiet like Papaji wanted. So, when the invitation these days is coming often from this expression that you must live as if we are humble servants of God. Just because, as a humble servant of God, we don't need to be right. We don't need to prove anything to the world. We don't need to become special. To switch out from egoic intent, egoic beliefs to a life of God's light cannot happen while we are arrogant. And, the extent to which that goes is to the extent of even one thing. I say often, I gave that, to know even one thing is to know too much. What do you know without knowing anything? That is the extent of humility that is needed. And, I mean completely, I'm being fully literal, you have to become fully empty. Your knowledge breaks you, it makes you suffer, it is making you tired. It is the burden on your heads. You may think it is what you have, that is of value but it is not. So, when your mind is empty of conceptual knowledge, that is the only point at which Intuitive knowledge can sprout and flower within you. Till you are not empty, then all your talk about Awareness and Consciousness and God is empty. Very important. Till you're not empty, all your talk about Awareness, Consciousness, Brahman, Nirgun, Sagun, God, Surrender, Enquiry all of this stuff is empty. Empty of Light, Empty of Fragrance. When you are empty, then you may be the most in-articulate un-eloquent of all speakers and your words will carry your perfume. You will meet it yourself in your Heart. [Silence] Maybe that is a good test actually. Speak as if the words are meant for yourself. Believe that, which you would teach yourself, before wanting to share. Find the words, where you will experience your own fragrance. If you don't enjoy your own company, you don't enjoy your own words, then no amount of special knowledge is going to help you. You may combine the words of the great Adi Shankaracharya himself with the words of Buddha and Christ together and come up with the best sounding words. But, if you're full of identity those words will have no power. Empty your head. Be full of God’s light in your Heart and even the most infantile words have the potency to spread God's light. [Silence] But, when you're full of pride, even you don't want to hear yourselves. [Pause] So, where are we? We talked about, who is it that lives in your Heart? Whose Presence is this? And I'm claiming on your behalf that, God is here. God is living in your heart. Then, we are saying that our life must become about the centrality of God's light instead of about the non-existent ‘me’. And, we are exploring how false knowledge and the need to be right can prevent that from happening. tiow humility is very important, provisionally, while we need to switch away from head to Heart. [silence] Now you're here. Empty of pride,God's light is unobstructed within you. Now, firstly the question will not arise as to how should I live. But, suppose that it did, suppose that it arose within us, how to live? God’s light is already living you. It's already living you. So, allow that to unfold without mental obstruction- ‘Open and Empty’. So, that solves the problems of what Is and how to live. To live, surrendered to God. And, there will also come a time where, guidance would be palpable to you, from your Heart. Whether it arises for that which you call yourself, or for others. You must follow that guidance. [Silence] So that is to live in God's light. That is to live in Heaven on earth. [Pause] Some of you already have that sensitivity now that, as you find your attention itself gravitating towards the mind, you're able to withdraw it. But, don't worry about that, if attention is still in the head a lot, at least don't believe what is being offered. [Pause] One question is, Father you say that, God is, God is that's here. What are you doing? But, sometimes the word God seems to create more separation than union. But, that is in our heads. If I say, Bhagwan. So, suppose you don't hear God, you hear Bhagawan, this is nothing but the Hindi for God or I said, Allah or I said Jehovah. Point is not that, the point is not the word, although the word I have no aversion to. But, really the point is that, there is a Presence within you. Who is that? That is worth exploring. And, it feels like a Holy presence a Divine presence, whatever word you may use. How can anything else be worthwhile? [Silence] One point that is not this and of course that is not your question, it has reminded me of that because it came to me in some conversations some of the kids I had yesterday where, it just came from here that, a lot of time we are trying to take our accountability from God. I can't believe in a God that does this. How can a God be like that? I can't buy into a God that is like this. But, what you believe and don't believe and accept and not accept, it is not God that is in trial in your court. It is completely irrelevant. God is not accountable to you. God doesn't have to make sense to you. Even his created universe doesn't make sense to you. Like the great scientist said, “The universe has no obligation to make sense to you”. And, you expect that which is the creator of that to make sense to you. Are you accountable instead to God? How about switch it around? In what way are you accountable to God? God has given his Presence to animate your life, to make you alive. What have you returned as God's gift for even one breath? Or can you pay back for even one breath that he has given you? Then now we are out to make God accountable to us! And, these things have become very natural and regular in the world but I spot the ignorance in them and, therefore not with the idea of producing any guilt or unworthiness, it is just to get you to look, what is happening. Look at the way the mind is playing this game. It has made itself the judge even for God, forget about you and your friends and relatives and relationships. “I can't believe in a God that does like that”, who cares about the judgment of a non-existent one? If you exist, where have you got that existence from? Who has gifted you that existence? And, if that one was to hold you accountable, for the gifts that you have received. Have you valued the Presence of God? So, switch it around.Our egoic way of thinking is big trouble and only the way to suffering. God has given you life. God has given you a beautiful instrument called a body. God has given you this universe, this dream called the universe. You are living and breathing in God's light. If there is one that has rights now, which one is that? If there is one that can demand now, which one is that? It's like a guest came to the party, Guruji [Mooji baba] said, in a different way, paraphrasing. His guests come to the party, says I'm hungry. You offer bread. They ask, is it organic? or is it gluten-free? God has already given you everything and then you hold God on trial. This is the absurdity from the mind. [Pause] So, there's another question on this and the term ‘God’ or actually the Presence itself that is here. Now, you must admit by now that there is a very palpable Presence ‘I am’. Nobody looks at this Presence and says ‘you are’. Everyone says 'I woke up this morning’, I Am, I am sitting. So, this is undeniable, no matter what words we use. Now we're also finding that this Presence ‘I am’ has no limit, it has no boundary. In fact very little of it and yet the most magnificent is in the perceptual realm at all, where you can sense a vibration, a subtle Presence ‘I am’, you can sense its Presence. And yet, the Being instantly as you meet the Presence you recognize that, it is coming from an unlimited source. Nobody comes to the presence of Being in there, yeah, that could be, a little bit- there’s a little bit I am. Anyone have that experience. You're going to ‘I am’ then simply respond, unlimited. You cannot define it. So, this Presence appears as if it is within us. Of course upon investigation you see that it cannot be within the body, although it may seem to correlate in this, yet you find this unlimited. The Presence of an unlimited one within you, the words are secondary, the question is Who is this? Whose Presence is this? And, if you do find a word that you can use for it, if that One is here then how is my stuff quote unquote ‘my stuff’ relevant anymore? [Silence] Whose Presence is here? Whose life is this? So, if there is a duality, I already take myself to be ‘me’ and now there is another one here. But, that ‘me’ is indisputable. So, if we confirm that another one is here that would mean that there is separation or that there are two. I am saying that, that ‘me’ is not there. It's completely questionable and you must ask the question. And, Only God is. From: To Desire, You Must Be in Denial of What Already Is – 30th December 2022 Time: 00:00:00 to 1:01:40 Link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6h8fcS4E50w