The Guru Grieves and Counsels, but Every Word of Wisdom Feeds the Disciple's Anger
Uttara Kanda, Doha 106
Doha 106 · Movement 2 of 2
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Bhushundi confesses the condition without excuse. His mind is crowded with wickedness and impurity. Delusion binds him, and the sight of Hari's devotees and brahmins burns him with rage. Hostility toward Vishnu has become part of his identity.
The Guru sees the conduct and grieves. Day after day he tries to awaken the disciple through patient counsel, speaking not to defeat him but to save him from the hatred growing around sacred practice.
Each correction produces greater anger. Wisdom tastes like insult to the hypocrite because it threatens the structure by which hypocrisy survives. The Guru's sorrow and the disciple's fury increase side by side: compassion continues to call, while pride interprets the call as an enemy. Bhushundi remembers the blindness precisely because later grace allowed him to see how love had stood before him long before he could receive it.
The Guru speaks to rescue him, but pride turns every saving word into another coal upon the disciple's anger.
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मैं खल मल संकुल मति नीच जाति बस मोह। हरि जन द्विज देखें जरउँ करउँ बिष्नु कर द्रोह।।105(क)।। गुर नित मोहि प्रबोध दुखित देखि आचरन मम। मोहि उपजइ अति क्रोध दंभिहि नीति कि भावई।।105(ख)।।
I was wicked, my mind full of sin, low-minded and trapped in delusion. Seeing devotees of Hari and brahmins, I burned with rage and harbored enmity toward Vishnu. My guru daily tried to counsel me, grieved by my conduct. This only increased my anger; can a hypocrite ever appreciate wisdom?