True Discovery Is Merely the Dropping of the False - 6th February 2018

You don't need a concept to exist, but you do need a concept to pick up the pretense of the limited one. You do need the concept to suffer. The non-existent 'me' is the super-concept that all other concepts are selling me. But your being, God, it's just here naturally and effortlessly. And in Satsang, we move away from concern for this limited, non-existent entity to just starting to really enjoy our very presence with honor. It really tastes... some can seem sweet and some can seem bitter. Pain can still come, but pain when tasted without the additional 'me', conceptually, it's also a beautiful taste.

This question is exactly what we are speaking on. Whatever taste is coming, whatever sensations might be experienced, without the veto of this 'me', without the motion of this 'me', you find that all these sensations and experiences cannot overwhelm the space that you are. Your spaciousness is beyond anything that can appear in this space of appearances, and you will find this in your own investigation. Guruji gives a very beautiful example of this about how it is the interpretation which makes it so, makes it seem so different. He says that if there is a sense where you have to speak on stage or something like that, you see, and if you are not used to it, you can have a sense of stage fright. And you might say some energetic appearances are appearing and you might call that, 'Oh, I'm so nervous, this is so bad, I've just got to myself,' and so on. But you see, energetically, we find another set of experiences which are not so different energetically, you see, quite similar energetically, that which you call excitement. Suppose you're going to go on a big holiday, really children, you're very excited about it. A similar energy can come, but then you might say, 'I'm so excited and I'm so happy, yes, this is so good, see, I'm already starting to feel so happy and excited.' Energetically, if you look at both the sensations, they are not so different. In fact, the entire energetic spectrum for the real you is really nothing much. It is a little bit of sugar and spice here and there, but for the 'me' you, it is too much.

So in this, as you are finding out what you are, all this concern about which sensation, which emotion, which perception, what is coming, what is not coming, all this becomes very light and easy. Of course, my preference systems will be there. Nobody wants to say, 'Oh, I really want something bad to happen to my family,' you know, 'it should happen to this body.' Not really inviting these things, but the feverishness about these things becomes much milder. Even after you know that it is just a movie, usually we like to see happy endings in movies, so there can be a preference that this life goes with ease. But spontaneously, yeah, everything is well. All these preferences, these blessings can be there, but there is a greater trust that whatever is the will of consciousness, whatever is the will of God, let thy will be done. And mostly, a dissolution of this oppressive 'why' is happening. Why just 'why me'? There's a wonder 'why'. Mostly it is used in a very oppressive way: 'Why does it happen?' There's a wonder why this has gone on playing this game.

As you resolve the 'me', as your 'I' drops away from representing the forms, even if it has not come to the point of representing the Absolute, even the dropping of the way of representing the forms is actually enough. There's a great sage in India, the world's greatest sage, Nisargadatta Maharaj. He has said at one time, he wrote this entire set of verses on 'I don't know why, I just don't know why.' So this 'I don't know' is not to be looked down upon. 'I don't know' is already the best news. I mean, the false ideas about yourself, you have dropped that. So everyone said knowledge is merely the dropping of that which is false. The discovery of the Self is merely the dropping of the not-Self. So we stop making this reference wrong, just a set of sensations and calling it 'me'. We stop making this reference seriously, positionally. Of course, we could still operate in this world in the most natural way, but we are not taking this 'me' seriously. With the dropping of this which is false, the truth, which the truth is already apparent to you, you might not yet have the words for it, you might not seem to have an answer for it, it might seem like an 'I don't know', and that is fine.

Is there anything more pristine, is there anything more immaculate? Keep dipping your attention in the donor of your own presence and coming to the dissolution of attention itself as you remain that which is just aware of even this presence. All worldly tastes are coming in the immaculate taste of your own presence. It's just here. To tie ourselves to worldly appearances which will come and go is something which is hell, and to remain immersed in our holy presence is peace, is heaven.