If freedom has to be a certain way, how is that freedom?

You see, but the bad self, bad, bad, is it true? I say of course it is true, but I don't feel free, it has nothing to do with your feeling, whatever you maybe feel feeling is contained in your freedom, you are free to experience, whatever you are feeling. Then you may say come to the real problem, you may say that, but I thought that freedom was the absence of a certain feeling in the presence of another and then I could say that, but that doesn't sound like freedom. If it has to be a certain way, then how is that freedom? Then it is by definition, you see only that way, only bliss is allowed, how is that freedom?