If you are completely tired - music to my ears

But tired because it is effort to believe yourself to be something. And I am happy if you are completely tired. Otherwise, you are tired when you see. So, if you are completely tired, I am very happy. Because you played with all the motion now, you try to think this way, that way, all position you try. And you come to me completely tired and say, no, I tried everything, doesn't work. Music to my ears. I tried to be humble, I tried to be special. I tried to be a devotee, I tried to be enlightened one. Because you have tried all these positions. And I am afraid words. If you say these things, I am very happy. But if you still have been a devotee, even will I become enlightened. I have become humble, I have been humble when will I become special. Then I mean that you try, you are still learning for some other positions to see if they were personally.