Studying the non-existent me, even in the guise of seeking

So suppose that you want to study the nature of the galaxy, you want to find out the nature of what we get is, but you feel like if you visit Tanda at the zoo, that will tell you how you observe it, not really, that is the story of Allah is mostly, to study the non-existent mean and to obsess about the non-existent mean, even in the guise of spiritual progress wanting to find God is less absurd than the absurd sounding example that I gave you, and this is why Maya has this constant trump card even for those who consider themselves to be spiritual seekers, you to play the mean card constantly, in terms of likes and dislikes, I like this, I don't like this,