If your soul only wants spirit, what has been filling it all this time?

The feeling that my soul only wants to get filled with a holy spirit. That's very good. So, then fill it up only with that. Yes. So, yes, if the soul is not called. So, if it wants to only fill itself up with spirit, let's say. Yes. Then, what has it been waiting for all this time? Because somehow, I don't know which form. And what is filling it at the moment? If it only wants to fill itself up with the light of spirit or the love of spirit or spirit itself, then what is it currently containing? A mix. It's still... Exactly. In green air.