Seeking Ram is the fruit itself

Father, for when I pray or when I am with him, I can still seek him. He appears or not, it's up to him. But seeking him is still a purpose behind it. That's why I'm saying it's fine. Isn't that the fruit in itself? Isn't our loving him waiting for him expectantly in a hour? You see, which is the deepest we can do to be in his presence. Then isn't that the most auspicious life already? So again, Father, Samma, Ma, Sabri, seeking ram is okay. Still seeking ram. Like there's a purpose behind it. That's still okay. Whether it happens, it's up to him. Am I? Yes, it's not okay. It's the best. It's not. Let's put pressure in the moment in a different way. Maybe I'm happy I got the chance to clarify for everyone.