Chronic illness is bearable; the narrative makes it unbearable

and I can be with God and experience it more fully actually, then when I'm here, it's more of a struggle somehow, look if when I'm here and I'm trying to not run away from it basically, but when you're in God, then you're with it, with the reduced pain might not reduce, but I don't know what else to say, the main thing is we can still be with God, how is our question about it? Just don't go with the narratives, that's all, so that will not reduce the experiencing of the body sensations, but the narratives makes it actually much worse than it is. There is anything too much for this moment, and it's never too much, it's only the narrative that makes it like why, so I've gone through a chronic illness, so why it's been going on so long, I don't want to live with this anymore, and all that, actually, when I'm fatigued, that experience is not unbearable, it's the narrative that makes it like you know by,