The switch: not God here to help me, but assimilating its entirety into itself

to help you, that is a fantastic deal, who would not want that, but the minute we start speaking deeper and deeper into the truth, and we start to see that the sense of individuality, the sense of separation between myself and that the greatest force in the universe is just notional, and it is not here to help me, but it is more assimilating its entirety into itself, you see, and you start to in the phase where that switch is happening, where you are moving away from individualized identity to identifying with your reality, the dreads of this individuality will completely fear the notion of a grace dictated life, so surrender goals from